Category: 05 Book Healing/Anger

These are selected writings from Book 5.

‘Silence of Me’

You Tend To Hang On. It’s Normal.

A sample from Book 5

 Silence of Me
  
 I look at me
I hear me
 wishing
I wouldn't be
hurting
 I ruffled the sea
this romantic bee
 twisting
words I see
 wanting
to be free
 saying
it's better for me
 misrepresenting
what
I want to be
 just you
I do see
 putting
all thoughts
free
 relating
what's
inside of me
 hoping
you'd see
confusion's deed
 all that I aim to be
all that I use to be
 my wanting
to be free
inside of me
 there's more to see
the outside sea
 wanting
you along side of me
open and free
 awakening
what used to be
  
 look at me
hear me
 all there is to be
  
 a wall closed to me
burying me
 deep
inside of me
silence of me
 wishing
I wouldn't be
  
Continue reading “‘Silence of Me’”

‘Unconditional Love’

Does Unconditional Love Exist When It Comes To Relationships?

A sample from Book 5

 Unconditional Love
 (Sweet Man)
  
 to walk by my side
 ‒me by yours
an endless glide
 hand and hand
standing beside
 knowing each's inside
 protecting from the outside
  
 with each other
no hidden pride
 thoughts...fears
 with each other
no need to hide
  
 to each other
nothing denied
 not just a ride
 an endless passionate tide
 no drawn lines
not just being kind
  
 knowing each's mind
 keeping love's drive
awake and alive
 without conditions
without bribes
  
 walking side by side
through life
 love's endless glide
 until life and death collide
 side by side
   each to lie
Continue reading “‘Unconditional Love’”

‘Talking Heart’

Stick To What You Say!

A sample from Book 5

 Talking Heart
 (Sweet Man)
  
 when two become one
 something extraordinary's begun
 into each other
combines all matter
 into each other
weakness doesn't stutter
 all is revealed
 into each other―
deeply open and concealed
  
 when two become one
fear is undone
 sincere trust
 ―the ultimate must
 helping each other
overcome inside danger
 helping each other
 see through stormy weather
  
 when two become one
happiness is won
 together
hearts can fight― 
hurt and pain
 when the mind
plays us like a game
  
 when two become one
 together
hearts can fight any situation
 with open conversation
 when to each other
there's true dedication
  
 ―nothing
can be undone
 when two become one
Continue reading “‘Talking Heart’”

‘Company of Friends’

Your Friends Are the Key To Your Survival!

A sample from Book 5

  Company of Friends
  
 my Lord†, I'm going to ask
 –you're my ultimate dad
 I can be open like that
  
 I remember friends I had
 how they made me mad
sometimes really sad
 they seemed just a fad
 some made me bad
some made me glad
 –making it feel like a trap
 I want something
more than that
  
 please, Lord†, send to my life
 a more gentle pack
 ones that can make me laugh
 –not concerned
with where I once sat
 when I'm down
they have my back
  
 ones who don't act
 like spoiled little brats
  
 ones who come
no matter where I'm at
 put me back on track
  
 know all my crap
 still– 
to me
take off their hat
  
 ones who do for me
I do for them
 they understand tit for tat
  
 ones who wouldn't dare
attempt to whack
 destroy my pad
or my love
try to hack
  
 ones who look pass
whatever I lack
  
 ones who'd never sack
for this, for that
 our friendship's basic fact
 unconditional love
that's where it's at
  
 my Lord†, that's all I ask
 surround me
with friends like that
 who understand
where the home is at
 that love
is a humble task
 –when I'm sad
 arms around me do wrap
  
 ones who enjoy seeing me laugh
 and know
You† are always
part of my map
Continue reading “‘Company of Friends’”

‘Text Me’

Moving Through Anger with Bargaining!

A sample from Book 5

 Text Me
  
 in this phone
I am a clone
 away from home
easily...I roam
 no longer alone
  
 words I've thrown
 cast a bone
string along
 however long
I want you to belong
  
 in this phone
I'm on loan
 read my worded song
 I'm wearing a thong
 ―hear me moan
 I'll send a picture―
 for your visual tone
  
 with words I'm strong
 ―played like a trombone
 I can turn you on
 in my world
you'll be drawn
  
 in this phone
nothing's wrong
 it's my zone
 imaginations grown
  
 be careful― 
if to me you're drawn
 I'll take you
where you've not yet gone
 for in this phone
I own
my imaginary throne
 I'll make you moan
dance to my song―
 your emotions
get too strong
 I'll exit
and be gone
Continue reading “‘Text Me’”

‘Lies vs Deception’

There’s a Big Difference Between a Lie and a Deception!

A sample from Book 5…This is what Anger and Denial looks like!

 Lies vs Deception
  
 everyone lies
ones needed to get by
 ―little white ones
sometimes a big one
 ―not for fun
more to avoid
heavy explanation
  
 we can forgive some
an immediate redemption
 others
take time for calculation
 eventually
forgiveness does come
  
 not everyone deceives
 a lie used to covet
to hid beneath it
 a little white lie that grows
without a why
 making someone believe
 ―hoping honesty
they receive
  
 lies used to deceive
 turning facts to fiction
deep wombs to leave
 forgiveness
given no consideration
  
 small lies
we often give
 makes lives
easier to live
 deceptions hide
reality's gift
 closing hearts
helping them die
Continue reading “‘Lies vs Deception’”

‘Hold My Hand’

Men: Just Do It!

A sample from Book 5

 Hold My Hand
  
 when I'm lost
 ― confused
 wanting to give up
 will you hold my hand
  
when I doubt
want a way out
 will you stick around
  
 when I'm angry
 ―scream
call you names
 will you not place blame
  
 when I cry
lost in sadness
 will you change my mind
 to live and not die
  
 when I hate
my vision clouded
 will you be my guide
 tell me my life
is not a lie
  
 when I want to run
 leave all behind
draw a heavy line
 will you walk beside me
 ―hold my hand
take my feet
from the sand
 plant them
on solid ground
  
 when I'm alone
lost in darkness
 make you want to leave
will you forgive
 help my eyes to see
 everything
I want to be
  
 when I'm here
 cold...closed up inside
 will you stay
give me space
 help me see my way
  
 when I want
to give up
 will you stand by me
take my hand
 help me be free
help me to see
 what it takes
to be happy
  
Continue reading “‘Hold My Hand’”

‘A Woman’s Strength’

You Deserve Appreciation and Love!

A sample from Book 5

  A Woman's Strength
  
 did you think of me today
 no call came my way
 underneath my smile I sway
no words do I say
 I thought of you all day
 as I rushed through my filled plate
  
 early I started to bake
 not long the house was laced
 with the smell of your favorite
chocolate cake
  
 the kids were at play
 a new toy
one did break
 one became the prey
the other screamed hate
 peace...I had to make
clearing the haze
 putting smiles on their face
 anger left no trace
but it was too late
 the cake―
I had to throw away
  
 ring phone ring
I did pray
 hoping you'd call to say hey
  
 then the dog did stray
 I had to move in haste
apologies to convey
 the neighbor's yard― 
a garbage-strung maze
 after an hour's pace
 a cleaned yard
done in good faith
  
 I reentered the house
 noticed it was only eight
 my day― 
moving at a slow rate
 still no word from my mate
  
 breakfast I did make
 then the taste of toothpaste
 the cleaned dish plates
no time to wait
 everyone dress
screamed hurrah
  
 to the babysitters― 
who monthly I pay
 to take my place
 a goodbye kiss
a last minute wave
 off to work
my smile...fake
  
 then I remember
I hadn't ate
 my eight-hour day
drove its heavy weight
 still no word from my mate
  
 rush-hour traffic
a nerve-raking state
 thus beginning the evening chase
 babysitter, supper
no flirter's bait
comes my way
 sent the children
off to bathe
 finally you call
again...you're working late
 a quiet evening to waste
 long, restless night
again...I must face
 until you're home
and I feel safe
  
 did you think of me today
 no call came my way
 underneath my smile I sway
no words do I say
 I thought of you all day
 as I rushed through
my filled plate
  
Continue reading “‘A Woman’s Strength’”

‘The Experience’

Your Anger Turns to Lust to Move You!

A sample from Book 5

 The Experience
  
 I'm your past
I'm what
didn't last
 I'm what
could
never last
  
 I'm the passing blast
 to move through
really fast
 with the quickness
of a kisser's dash
  
 I'm the wine glass
wearing a mask
 making
my on-stop splash
  
 I'm your past
leaving you
in a gasp
 easily slipping
from your grasp
 in your mind
thoughts are cast
 in my heart
the debris
of a failed lover's task
Continue reading “‘The Experience’”

‘Anger’s Brethren’

Don’t Use the Children!

A sample from Book 5

 Anger's Brethren
  
 its face is ugly
 peeking through
little by little
 building its soul
 one small piece at a time
  
 vulnerability
it patiently waits
 then the attack
increasing the heartbeat
 clouding
a once throughout plan
 wilting the roses
rains replacing sunshines
 beautiful language
turns to spiteful vengeance
 over ruling logic
 hardening
closing open hearts
  
 its face is ugly
destroying all good
 taking its time
taking all time
 closing doors
'til love exist
no more
Continue reading “‘Anger’s Brethren’”