God† brings in tests
evil, the prince of sin
for the win
–it's all testing
each person involved
in each test
who's going to lie
who's going to hide
who's going to fall
to ego and pride
who's going to confess
ease their soul
who's truly the enemy
–on their backs
a haunting spirit
lost in unrest
who's going to pass blame
who's the target
of their aim
who'll seal it
with a kiss
of a snake's hiss
God† uses each
for each's test
to the hiss
covering up their sin
shh, hush, hush
protecting their darkness
as they steal innocence
–do whatever it takes–
blacken a stolen light
God† sends in
the hardest tests
–the devil's unquenchable taste
its darkened thirst of lust–
to those His† heart knows
–taking its time
for His† brethren
as the eating away
takes its place
of the one
who brought in sin
those covering up–
the true ones in sin
the ones forbidding
protecting their own skin
–they are the ones
to the pit...condemned
failing God's† tests
for their own
(November 7, 2019)—I didn’t want to write anymore on this. I had a relaxing day except for an upset stomach over all that I’ve learned the pass few days. I was laying down and I heard the request to put this up. Apparently the message didn’t get driven home hard enough. I don’t want to reveal the crime. That’s not for me to do. But I’ll keep drilling it home until I have confirmation that it’s being dealt with. The importance is not for me, but for my mother.
‘Death March’, written November 5th, sums up the truth. The message: Sounding the Horn…those who know of a sin committed and do not sound the horn in order for the sinner to heal is just as guilty of the sin committed, even the victim, even if they don’t remember. Someone has to help them remember in order for them to be redeemed. This is all because we ALL are the body of Christ!
The following Scriptures inspired ‘Death March’. I was led to the same passages for ‘Holding Strength‘…Jesus showing me truth. He’s making sure we are paying attention to the symbolism of these events.
To Gethsemane—[John] When He finished praying, Jesus left with His disciples and crossed the Kidron Valley. On the other side there was an olive grove, and He and His disciples went into it. [Mark] They went to a place called Gethsemane, and Jesus said to His disciplines, ‘Sit here while I pray.’ He took Peter, James and John along with Him, and He began to be deeply distressed and troubled. ‘My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death,’ He said to them. ‘Stay here and keep watch.’—Matthew 26:36-38; Mark 14:32-34; Luke 22:40; John 18:1 (Wednesday night)
NOTES: ‘Sit here while I pray.’…We are supposed to be patience while others are in prayer. What does that mean? We wait and never give up on those healing. During my healing, I was called crazy, a hypocrite, a liar! That came from those blind, from those deceived by liars, deceived by those hiding very dark sins. When so many people are coming at you telling you lie upon lie and their stands the one true heart alone, you tend to believe the numbers. Shame. Jesus stood alone.
He began to be deeply distressed and troubled….I went through my anger stage. This is what I say to all those who played on my fall…who used it for their advantage. Oh, and they used it to the core: Fuck you. Welcome to my fuck-you church. Oh, the most righteous looking motherfuckers will do whatever it takes to bleed the innocent if they have a damn crime to hide. Oh…I have 12 books on how this was done to me. This next book…tells the damn tale in its entirety. I felt distressed and troubled when I learned the truth, the whole truth, two days ago, but I did my part. It’s a shame when you learn who are the others who truly deceived you, that you were right the whole time and they did unspeakable crimes against you to hide their sin. Shame.
‘My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death,’ …Other people’s crimes made me want to kill myself. They did that. They did that to not only me, but to several of the people involved in this crime. They party and drink and spend money…that’s their party on earth. If they don’t take the accountability of their crime, they will suffer eternity in the pit. That’s NOT speculation. That’s truth.
Stay here and keep watch.’…The evil prince of the earth…damn! it’s always on the prowl! Always! You have to be careful because oh! it will come at you byway of those you trust or those who you think love you…If those people are hypocrites, if they are doing things that don’t add up…damn! that evil prince and it has its teeth so far up their ass and they will blame you, they will put it on you. Trust me. They will. So always keep Jesus up in the FRONT of your heart. Always have a prayer shield around you. And never trust people who can’t openly speak about Jesus. Just don’t trust them.
Jesus Prays in Agony—He withdrew about a stone’s throw beyond them, knelt down and prayed, ‘Father, if You are willing, take this cup from Me; yet not My will, but Yours be done.’ An angel from heaven appeared to Him and strengthened Him. And being in anguish, He prayed more earnestly, and His sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground. When He rose from prayer and went back to the disciples, He found them asleep, exhausted from sorrow.—Matthew 26:39; Mark 14:35-36; Luke 22:41-45
NOTES: ‘Father, if You are willing, take this cup from Me; yet not My will, but Yours be done.’ …the cup is His life. We ALL have to drink from the cup. When people are going to judge others and condemn others who sinned, yet hold the deepest, gravest sin in their hearts, they are the lowest hypocrites…yes, I said that.
Jesus Prays a Second Time—‘Could you men not keep watch with Me for one hour?’ He asked Peter. ‘Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.’ He went away a second time and prayed, ‘My Father, it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may Your will be done.’—Matthew 26:40-42; Mark 14:37-39; Luke 22:46
NOTES: The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.’ …Meaning we know better, but that evil whore has temptations that are sweet and we will fall for them if we aren’t watching. Oh, my! to cover up shit because we are so afraid of what our friends will think! You are fucking kidding me when I hear this crap! When a child is involved in such a weakness and no one does anything…I want to punch someone in the face! You are the poorest excuse for a human being if you are part of something like this. You shouldn’t even be allowed to be around kids!
I’m talking to abusers of the sexual nature of course. For this is heavily on my mind today. I have a face in my mind and I really want to rip it to pieces, but I don’t have to because God will take care of him. I have some other faces…adults who did NOTHING when faced with a grave sin. But God will take care of them as well! These people are POOR excuses of human beings, but you wouldn’t think if you looked at their social media or their lives. The hidden will be punished. What’s in the dark will be brought to the light. Trust me on this.
‘My Father, it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may Your will be done.’…You HAVE to drink from the cup! If you committed a crime or didn’t sound the horn, reality will face you sooner or later. You have to face your fucking music! It’s your cup. It IS God’s will. To deny anyone the proper process of healing is to condemn, i. e. judge them, and you HAVE NO place to judge.
I will speak just on my part in this family saga…because of what others did, my healing was halted! My process was halted because of a cover up of a grave lie on other people’s part. Not mine. It all makes sense now. You have to drink from the CUP! Sorry, your poor excuse of oh, she doesn’t know what she’s talking about are over. Abuse in any form is not of GOD! And you have to pay the piper!
Jesus Prays a Third Time—When He came back, He again found them sleeping, because their eyes were heavy. So He left them and went away once more and prayed the third time, saying the same thing. Then He returned to the disciples and said to them, ‘Are you still sleeping and resting? Look, the hour is near, and the Son of Man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. Rise, let us go! Here comes my betrayer!’—Matthew 26:43-46; Mark 14:40-42
NOTES: Are you still sleeping and resting? Look, the hour is near, and the Son of Man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. Rise, let us go! Here comes my betrayer!’…He’s shown me this scripture a number of times. He wanted me to know it was indeed time for me to go…for I was betrayed. He wanted me to know that I was right all along. It wasn’t me. I battled and He watched me, but it wasn’t the time. God waited, patiently, to see if those who committed the crimes that I learned about on the 5th would finally acknowledge what they had done. Since they didn’t, He opened this secret to me, His messenger. Betrayers are the cruelest people in the world. They will kill over their sin. They destroy your life to keep their secret hidden. God doesn’t play that way. You have to deal with your sin. Doesn’t that just fuck you up!
Judas Betrays Jesus—[John] Now Judas, who betrayed Him, knew the place, because Jesus had often met there with His disciples. So Judas came to the grove, guiding a detachment of soldiers and some officials from the chief priests and Pharisees. They were carrying torches, lanterns and weapons. [Mark] Now the betrayer had arranged a signal with them: ‘The one I kiss is the man; arrest Him and lead Him away under guard.’ [Luke] He approached Jesus to kiss Him, but Jesus asked him, ‘Judas, are you betraying the Son of Man with a kiss?‘ [Mark] Going at once to Jesus, Judas said, ‘Rabbi!’ and kissed Him.—Matthew 26:47-50a; Mark 14:43-45; Luke 22:47,48; John 18:2,3
NOTES: Oh the kiss! Those closest to us are the ones most likely to betray us. My sisters betrayed me in the worse kind of way. Now, they have to pay. I don’t. I did not one thing wrong! Jesus love. They have to learn exactly what that is. Well, here’s some fuck-you church: You both screwed up lives…HUMAN BEINGS…you manipulated and lied to hide your crime. Now…God is calling you to pay the price. You have to acknowledge, take accountability and do what it takes to help all those involved heal! That’s the price you have to pay. Prayer and seeking Jesus is automatic.
If you think of pulling a Judas…I wouldn’t if I were you. I would actually fight for the light. The pit…you really don’t want to go there. So you have to do the above or it will be the pit no matter what. If you think pulling a Judas is far better than taking accountability for fear your friends won’t like you or you’ll be subject to gossip, join the crowd…you will be paid back everything you do to other people…so buckle up for the ride! Yeah, you can pull a Judas, the pit you will go.
Peter Cuts Off Ear—[Mark] The men seized Jesus and arrested Him. [Luke] When Jesus’ followers saw what was going to happen, they said, ‘Lord, should we strike with our swords?’ [John] Then Simon Peter, who had a sword, drew it and struck the high priest’s servant, cutting off his right ear. (The servant’s name was Malchus.) [Matthew] ‘Put your sword back in its place,’ Jesus said to him, ‘for all who draw the sword will die by the sword. Do you think I cannot call on My Father, and He will at once put at My disposal more than twelve legions of angels? But how then would the Scriptures be fulfilled that say it must happen in this way?’ [Luke] But Jesus answered, ‘No more of this!’ And He touched the man’s ear and healed Him.—Matthew 26:50b-54; Mark 14:46,47; Luke 22:49-51; John 18:10,11
NOTES: I’m not drawing out a sword with these words. I’m demanding you to DEAL…those involved. If you know them, I’m demanding you help them DEAL. This isn’t a joke. When God calls for you to DEAL…He’s serious. Yes, I put everything I am on the line for God’s messages. You damn straight! My family fucked up royally. Now they have to pay. They have to answer to what they did. Maybe, they shouldn’t have done what they did. They hurt people’s lives…they denied a child. You can’t get any worse than that except for murder. And…well…me, they have murdered! And because of that…things will get rough for them.
Jesus Chides Arrest—Then Jesus said to the chief priests, the officers of the temple guard, and the elders, who had come for Him, ‘Am I leading a rebellion, that you have come with swords and clubs? Every day I was with you in the temple courts, and you did not lay a hand on me. But this is your hour—when darkness reigns.’—Matthew 26:55,56a; Mark 14:48,49; Luke 22:52,53
NOTES: I grew up with my sisters. Shame. It is now their hour…when darkness reigns. But not only them, that is the same for all those who believed their lies. For their lies are horrible against humanity because they didn’t just hide a crime and lie, they used other people to keep the eyes off of them by casting lies that weren’t true at all, they egged strife just to cast eyes off of them…their marks are many and heavy!
Jesus Arrested—[John] Then the detachment of soldiers with its commander and the Jewish officials arrested Jesus. [Matthew] Then all the disciples deserted Him and fled. [Mark] A young man, wearing nothing but a linen garment, was following Jesus. When they seized him, he fled naked, leaving his garment behind.—Matthew 26:56b; Mark 14:50-52; John 18:12a
NOTES: Yes. My children deserted me because of lies told to them. Because they are afraid of facing the truth.
A young man, wearing nothing but a linen garment, was following Jesus. When they seized him, he fled naked, leaving his garment behind…..I was confused on this statement. It is so out of context with the rest of the scripture. Now I know what it means. Young men who pretend to follow Jesus, who go to church and pretend to be good…when the chance to take off their clothes for sex comes, it doesn’t matter who it is, they will fuck her. They lose all morals, all conduct, and they will hide, they refuse to take the responsibility! Young girls are the ones who easily fall prey for these sick young men. They have failed God. The GIFT is WOMAN! Man is supposed to protect her! They have failed GOD! Shame.
The linen garment…has a righteous meaning. When I saw Jesus, both times, He was wearing a white linen gown. he fled naked, leaving his garment behind…..yep! It makes perfect sense to me now!
Do you know how many people have been murdered because of the lie?! Do you ever stop and realize how many people would rather take another human being’s life than face their own music…face their lie!? What sick cowards! Don’t they know that no matter how many murders they commit, no matter how many lies they tell, no matter how many days go by, what’s in the dark will always find its way to the light! God…HE’S THE ONE YOU SHOULD FEAR! Your silly friends…they mean nothing! Especially if your friends consist of cheaters and liars who can’t repent! Those are the ones whom Jesus warn us about. They just keep you in sin. The ignorant society means NOTHING! GOD! FEAR HIM and Deal!