‘Each Time’

God is NOT a religion. He’s everything. What part of this you don’t get? Jesus is Love! Working for them is hard. People will condemn you. The pit for them!

 Each Time
I don't have to write
what I feel
job already spun that reel
job tells how you deal
he explains the real
truth...so many conceal
words...sewn up...sealed
that's not my drill
here's my only
needing thrill:
have I touched one heart
just one...I look around
–there is none
yes, I've found none
without a whisper
without even one word–
there's nothing to sort
easy...there comes no clutter
to even...with...bother

You've† removed
every single one
even my little ones
there's no one
so, what I have won
I question
You† answer
share...You† demand
help them understand
what's eating–
the hearts of man
still..no one
not one single one
each time–
comes Your† demand
take my knowledge
to this deceitful world–
take a stand
each time–
less I have
each time–
love...I get–
not even half
at Your† hand
for woman and man
evil to withstand
but...they chalk it up
to wantings of fans
for penny games
the pit's national grandstand
putting everything about You†
into a circus of alien brand
each time–
You† ask of me: more
alone stands at my door
You† keeping me from them all–
society's beck and call

I appreciate the stall–
Your† love
throws me up against walls
for You† catch me
every time I fall
each time–
I ask for someone
still...no one
for I'm designed for a two
in a world
where there's so few
who to You†...are true
each time–
I ask and wait
each time–
tears You† bring
in sad songs
to sing

(November 26, 2019)—‘Each Time’, written October 31st, is so what I’ve been thinking all day long…all week long. But I couldn’t, if I tried, write the truth about God as Job did. He hit it right on the money. I’ve been asked to write what Job wrote about, but in modern times and I have a hard time. Why? I guess because God is precious to me. Jesus is precious to me. And I fear messing it all up. I’m assured I won’t.

‘Each Time’ was pointed out to me revealing to me that I’m already writing this way. I keep saying that I find my judgment is cloudy by the actions of my sisters and children. I’m so saddened. I thought the sweet man’s actions were upsetting…this has got to be the worse. But I can’t hate. I’m upset. God showed me their hearts of my sisters recently. One doesn’t fair well at all and the other has a price to pay, but will make it. I want to scream at both of them. I want to make them see truth. I’m told it is useless. They have to want Jesus on their own. They have to go to Him and plead their case. I can’t do it for them. So, in reality, my judgment isn’t, at all, clouding my view. I’m told I’m right on time.

But we so bad want to do it for others, don’t we? I plead my children’s case all the time. I used to plead the ex’s case. I stopped. When I saw that it wasn’t doing any good, I quit. My children are a different story. I’m told they’ll go through a great deal of strife for what they have done. I can’t do anything about it. They made the choice. People don’t take into consideration who God is at all. They think they know all and so they go on criticizing and judging…instead of thinking they are not, at all, living the way. They think I’ve judged. In a way I have…I think I did anyway. I’m told I didn’t. I’m told…by the spiritual world, who doesn’t lie…that I’ve never lied in my books. I called people out…I sounded the horn…but I never judged anyone as I’m being judged. Isn’t that something!

Do you sit around and gossip? I used to. It’s not who I am. I was pulled into this by the ex and my sisters. I had to step back and say, ‘This isn’t me.’ Now, my children are pulled into this mess. Do you know that gossiping is a root of evil and is led by those in evil?

I didn’t call myself a prophet. Believe that or not? It’s your choice. God called me His prophet and then expected me to say it out loud in my writing. Do you know how scary this is?! And yes, I’m getting the wrath. So far from my children and those in south Louisiana. Imagine that! They are supposed to be truly devout in their beliefs. God has proven differently. I’m not criticizing. I’m simply stating facts. God calls it like He sees it. I guess those in disbelief will just have to wait and see His wrath. Shame they have to wait…when they will be affected a great deal by it. Seems like they’d want to get right with Him BEFORE it comes. Of course, simple-minded will remain that way because they have been conditioned to think a certain way and nothing will change their minds. The prince of the earth…oh, that was sent by God if you don’t know the truth.

Job. I was sent to Job again which inspired ‘Each Time’. You really need to pay attention to the speakers in the Book of Job, because although God speaks through Job’s friends, they also speak things that aren’t true. I look at it as God mocking society because they think the wrong things. Job…he knows God. I mean, come on, God takes everything he has in a matter of days, and still, Job knows it is God! Do you?

Man Lives Only Once‘At least there is hope for a tree: If it is cut down, it will sprout again, and its new shoots will not fail. Its roots may grow old in the ground and its stump die in the soil, yet at the scent of water it will bud and put forth shoots like a plant. But man dies and is laid low; he breathes his last and is no more. As water disappears from the sea or a riverbed becomes parched and dry, so man lies down and does not rise; till the heavens are no more, men will not awake or be roused from their sleep.—Job 14:7-12 (Job is speaking and he is right!)

NOTES: God’s In Charge. The body dies…goes to sleep. Our souls do not. Job is talking about man. When we leave this body, we are no longer man…ever! But our souls continue. This you need to comprehend.

Only Hope in Resurrection‘If only You would hide me in the grave and conceal me till Your anger has passed! If only You would set me a time and then remember me! If a man dies, will he live again? All the days of my hard service I will wait for my renewal [release] to come. You will call and I will answer You; You will long for the creature Your hands have made. Surely then You will count my steps but not keep track of my sin. My offenses will be sealed up in a bag; You will cover over my sin.—Job 14:13-17 (Job is speaking and he is right!)

NOTES: God’s In Charge. Healing. Rise. Veils. Understand what Job is saying. God is bringing the strife to his life. This Job fully understands, as I do. Although during the strife, or the sadness, you fail to remember this for one thing: Will you say you hate God? Will you say you don’t believe in Him? I go through all sorts of talk. I mostly condemn myself. I get in my scuffle with God. He knows my heart. God wants…wants us to fuss…that’s how we heal. But during the depression, the anguish, we don’t see this. We see sadness and crying and anger. It’s okay. He’s testing your strength.

We have to keep going. The rise…our resurrection…begins when we see that what He is doing in our lives is for our own good. Understand this…and you will find out fast what God wants from you. I posted on my personal Facebook page the link to Free Meek. Do you know not one person commented or like it? Strange really since Meek Mills is a living example of God pulling a Job!

Sorrow in Meantime‘But as a mountain erodes and crumbles and as a rock is moved from its place, as water wears away stones and torrents wash away the soil, so You destroy man’s hope. You overpower him once for all, and he is gone; You change his countenance and send him away. If his sons are honored, he does not know it; if they are brought low, he does not see it. He feels but the pain of his own body and mourns only for himself.’—Job 14:18-22 (Job is speaking and he is right!)

NOTES: God’s In Charge. This is exactly how He makes us feel. Every time. Again, He is testing our hearts. Oh, He knows our hearts, but He hands us over to the prince of the earth to test us hard. I know I’ve been tested hard. Come on, my ex betrayed me, my sisters betrayed me, my children betrayed me, every man I gave my heart to betrayed me…I should hate God. But I can’t. I blame them. I blame myself. I forgave them. I forgave myself. God used me as much as He used them. I fully understand how He used me to test them, and to witness their fail is so heartbreaking. All the tests I’ve been through, damn I cried…I screamed, but I prevailed. I stayed faithful to Him.

Now, He reveals things to me so that I can teach you, so that I can pass on messages to you. So far…those I passed on messages to refused to listen. They hated the fact that I told them what they needed to change…only it wasn’t I doing the asking. Shame for them. Me…damn if I didn’t get further into God’s grasp where He expects more from me and I can do less in the world because He won’t let me! But…He’s shown enough to me to know what the ultimate prize is…beside Jesus! Yes! I’ll work for that shit! Damn straight!

Rebuke for Questioning GodThen Eliphaz the Temanite replied: ‘Would a wise man answer with empty notions or fill his belly with the hot east wind? Would he argue with useless words, with speeches that have no value? But you even undermine piety and hinder devotion to God. Your sin prompts your mouth; you adopt the tongue of the crafty. Your own mouth condemns you, not mine; your own lips testify against you. Are you the first man ever born? Were you brought forth before the hills? Do you listen in on God’s council? Do you limit wisdom to yourself? What do you know that we do not know? What insights do you have that we do not have? The gray-haired and the aged are on our side, men even older than your father. Are God’s consolations not enough for you, words spoken gently to you? Why has your heart carried you away, and why do your eyes flash, that you vent your rage against God and pour out such words from your mouth?’—Job 15:1-13 (Eliphaz is speaking. He is wrong.)

NOTES: He is so wrong here. God wants us to rage out. Out Loud! He wants us to heal and the only way for us to heal is to get it out of our mouth! God’s been revealing this to me since I began this journey. God. I’m not Jesus’ prophet. I am God’s prophet. Jesus is my brother. He is all love. And He works for love. God…God has wrath! You must understand this. But God has a huge amount of love and He wants us to question Him!

Did I throw you off? That’s the churches that’s got you all up in knots. Did I say that God and Jesus are NOT a religion? Man created that shit to control, to make money. That is NOT who God is! Oh, wait, He’s getting ready to show everyone who He is. And I’m so sorry for those who have been mocking me…the pictures and the writings. They don’t seem to realize that they are mocking GOD! Oh, the strife they are headed to. Some are already in their strife, the beginning…sprain ankles, lost jobs, miserable environments, sadness, jealousy, hurt…all this comes from GOD. He puts all that inside of people. And He’s put in and taken out emotions and pains in me like within hours or minutes to show me how He does this. You are fools if you mock Him!

Questioning Him and mocking Him are two totally different things. Those orbs He sends me…they are from HIM! He’s proven that…still He is mocked. The faces He has been revealing to me…totally different from the faces you find in grains of wood or manufactured crap. Still…mocking. I feel so sorry for these people. And what makes it worse is one of these people, He’s spared their life…they should have died! He did that for my benefit. Now…I really feel sorry for those who do NOT fear the Lord.

Man Merely God’s Pawn.‘What is man, that he could be pure, or one born of woman, that he could be righteous? If God places no trust in His holy ones, if even the heavens are not pure in His eyes, how much less man, who is vile and corrupt, who drinks up evil like water!’—Job 15:14-16 (Eliphaz is speaking. He is wrong.)

NOTES: He is so wrong here as well. Job knows God and he knows the process of God. Eliphaz is so confused on who God is. Who says the heavens aren’t pure? God is all energy. The young think they know so much but they are in the most trouble. Man is not pure. No man will ever be pure. No man can truly call themselves or anyone on this planet righteous. There was ONE man who ever walked on this earth who was indeed righteous. His name was Jesus the Christ! So if you think you are without sin, you are lying. It’s time to dig into the Bible and talk with God because you are so lost that it’s scary!

Author: k. e. leger

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