'I† pardoned you, My† servant
I† washed you clean
you have listened to instructions
–you now have rules
words He† said to me
–to abide by carefully
but take what was given
to give the forgiveness
and, in return, give
–reveal the wrongs
of the giver
teach the ways
of the Christ†
–don't give advice
(this...this isn't advice)
this...teach...what is right
through all these words
who gave me life
who am I to argue
(for sure not with you)
He's† given me the tools
not things to do
I'm to get you to
He† pardoned my sins
by washing me clean
by keeping His† hands
all His† mystery–
as His† test (satan)–
comes at me
as God† moves me
–humble...in its means
I'm not here for you–
to believe in me
neither for you–
to like me
–His† love for me
greater than any human
will ever be
I am free
from any in deceive
He† will awaken me
you cry in lies
your heart is revealed–
you can no longer conceal
your darkened seals
He† pardoned me
He† removed the chains
–freed me from captivity
He† gave me
the heart of love
to cry and mourn
to pray and see
–vows to Him†
for Him†...I'm enough
for He† pardoned me
–completed in freewill and....
in unconditional love
Note: The photograph accompanying this piece was taken November 9, 2019, Certainty of Visions. These are some amazing images and God is truly trying to get His message to everyone. You have to want to see. His message is being sent all across the world. The cycle is ending. All the symbols He sent us through me. How will people save their souls if they don’t actually be serious about it?
(February 5, 2020)―God is wonderful in all ways. There was something serious on my mind this morning. In fact, the role of man and woman has been a debate between me and the Lord for sometime now. When I was called to the prophet service, I debated that I was not worthy enough for this calling. The Scribe, I understand, but anything more, I have an issue with. God led me to the patriarchs in the Bible. Why? Because one of my issues was the fact that I have three children with two different men and that I went through my sexual immorality…which makes me feel unclean. Abraham had four baby-mamas! Point taken. When God calls us to do His work, He already knows who we are. When He elevates us, He washes us clean of our previous sin. He was very physical with me on that part.
I went to the gym yesterday and walked on the treadmill. I did two miles in a little over 40 minutes. My heart rate didn’t go over 130! This is a huge physical deal! Before I wrote the testimony (before I went through all of that), when I’d get on a treadmill and put my hands on the heart monitor bars, my heart rate would get as high as 158 and I’d have to slow down. Yesterday, I’m looking at the numbers and I’m feeling like a kid! I couldn’t get the smile off my face! That’s the physical part…well part of it.
God has also changed the way I look in a way. I keep telling Him that I don’t want to be the ‘mother of the world‘! He assures me I’m not. But He is shaping me into something for some role He has in store for me. I get trust all the time. So, the thoughts and conversation that came to me had to do a lot, in my heart, with what this morning’s Scripture is all about. God sure has a way with showing me that I’m right and to stay the course! And I will.
The following Scripture is from the First Letter to the Corinthians written by Paul. This section is in regard to our bodies, our sexuality, relationships, Jesus and God. Each time Earth gets to the end of a cycle, sexuality immorality reaches an all-time high, so does the exploitation of children. It is so very sad that we as human beings cannot seem to get this straight! I wonder if a lot of folks really know what God means by sexual immorality.
I questioned Him a lot on this because of the Old Testament and what He revealed to me regarding the patriarchs. The biggest, hardest test there is: Passion! The good-ole orgasm! And you can’t make babies without it! Control…the key word and action is what God wants. He really got personal when He sent His Son to us. The humans didn’t get it before, so He had to get a little bit clearer. What we didn’t get? That God is IN each of us. So, when He sent His Son and told us that we are now the vine and His Son is the head of this vine, He figured we’d get some common sense in us! There was just one catch!
What was the catch? Our trials. Our tests. He still has to test us…and using passion is key to that testing. Here’s the facts: You can’t go around screwing (having sex) with everybody you come in contact with, or every person who gives themselves to you and think you are doing right with God. Sorry. It doesn’t work that way. You can’t go around and say this is how you give your love. Nope. That’s the darkness that you are still lost in. You have to resurrect from that. Your mentality is still lost in the forest! You are only fooling yourself if you believe that you have this body and it is YOURS! It’s not.
God brings most of us down to the sexual immorality part. Why? Because it is the hardest tests to overcome. Anything to do with the body, has to do with immorality…any kind of addictions. We are not to only overcome them, but we are to admit them, free ourselves of them and pray that those we hurt along the way, forgive us, which that is part of their test. But we don’t just get through these addictions or sins and then just walk away. This is the biggest part of what’s been on my mind for years and what has been my argument with my family.
Someone who does you wrong doesn’t get to just walk away without explanation. Sorry, I don’t buy that being part of the Jesus walk. Nope. I don’t and Jesus has shown me place after place in the Bible that this isn’t His way at all. Forgiveness is very important. The hardest test of all is forgiving someone who isn’t healed and refuses to discuss the matter with you…they just walk away and pretend it never happen.
Here is the problem that God has with this: TRADITION! Churches are teaching people that you just forgive and walk away, lay it aside and forget! This is not true! This is bad shepherds misguiding their flock further into damnation. They are NOT teaching their flocks how to heal! And this has God very upset.
The vine! We are part of a vine. If we just ignore what we did to others and want to force them into forgetting, too, no one is healing! Do you understand this? A person cannot truly heal if they don’t talk about what hurt them, if they don’t admit what hurt them, and if the person who hurt them doesn’t admit it to them. This is the primary reason why there are so many people walking the earth NOT healed! This is what God has been having me write about for years and years. This is what ALL His prophets in the Bible has been teaching. This is WHY Jesus came and died for YOU! To TEACH you by EXAMPLE how to HEAL!
So, let’s walk with Paul a bit today:
*Call for Discipline—It is actually reported that there is sexual immorality among you, and of a kind that does not occur even among pagans: A man has his father’s wife. And you are proud! Shouldn’t you rather have been filled with grief and have put out your fellowship the man who did this? Even though I am not physically present, I am with you in spirit. And I have already passed judgment on the one who did this, just as if I were present. When you are assembled in the name of our Lord Jesus and I am with you in spirit, and the power of our Lord Jesus is present, hand this man over to Satan, so that the sinful nature may be destroyed and his spirit saved on the day of the Lord.―1 Corinthians 5:1-5
NOTES: Key ideas: Darkness. Discipline. Evil. Bring to darkness (Satan) to save the spirit…make a person suffer to safe the soul = The process of God. This is what God wants you to understand.
…reported that there is sexual immorality among you…God is pointing out what bothers Him. Then He says: Shouldn’t you rather have been filled with grief and have put out your fellowship the man who did this?…He’s telling you what to do. He says it so many times throughout the Bible to sound the horn. You are part of a vine, you are to help each other by leading each other to healing. Being nice and shit…only gets you so far. A person who is stubborn and lost, they aren’t going to straighten up if you just keep being nice all the time. Hard love comes and God sends His hard love through those He calls to do the hard work.
He tells us exactly what’s going on…we just have to listen: And I have already passed judgment on the one who did this,…hand this man over to Satan, so that the sinful nature may be destroyed and his spirit saved on the day of the Lord. See. Satan is the punisher…God’s instrument. The person who did wrong, they are in the darkness. God has left them. God does not return until that person is broken down, the child heart, and invites God back in willingly and with a sincere heart. If that person is still up to their old tricks, they are not yet in the sincere part. God hasn’t reentered their life yet. They think He has. He hasn’t. He’s waiting for the surrender!
Danger of Tolerating Sin—Your boasting is not good. Don’t you know that a little yeast works through the whole batch of dough? Get rid of the old yeast that you may be a new batch without yeast―as you really are. For Christ, our Passover Lamb, has been sacrificed. Therefore let us keep the Festival, not with the old yeast, the yeast of malice and wickedness, but with bread without yeast, the bread of sincerity and truth.―1 Corinthians 5:6-8
NOTES: Key idea: Sin. Your boasting is not good…bragging about being the sex object of women, or the queen of men…stuff like that…isn’t of God. Sorry. You aren’t healed yet. The little yeast that Paul mentions here is the seed. Then he says: Get rid of the old yeast that you may be a new batch without yeast. The old yeast is the law of Moses. The seed being planted is LOVE. Jesus died to overcome the law which caused sin…the yeast of malice and wickedness.. Jesus replaced all of that with the royal law, that which is truly meant by being holy: LOVE…the bread of sincerity and truth.
You cannot be in love if you are still trying to deceive. God says to me, ‘You are love.’ I disagree…I’m the only one disagreeing! Jesus showed me in His own words what love truly means…He said to me that I was willing to lay my life down for another human being…that’s love even if that other human being only sees hate. Love is sacrificing pride and ego for God’s work. Love is believing, truly believing in what you cannot see. Love is knowing what it takes to get to heaven and doing it. Love is doing what you can, even if you are hated for it, to get another human being to heaven.
Sex love is easy. Play love is easy. Real love is hard. Real love is getting ride of selfishness and worldly desires for the spiritual side of love. This is what Jesus died for, and THAT is how you get into the kingdom!
*Duty of Self-Policing—I have written you in my letter not to associate with sexually immoral people―not at all meaning the people of this world who are immoral, or the greedy and swindlers, or idolaters. In that case you would have to leave this world. But now I am writing you that you must not associate with anyone who calls himself brother but is sexually immoral or greedy, an idolater or a slander, a drunkard or a swindler. With such a man do not even eat. What business is it of mine to judge those outside the church? Are you not to judge those inside? God will judge those outside. ‘Expel the wicked man from among you’ [Deut. 17:7; 19:19; 21:21; 22:21; 24; 24:7].—1 Corinthians 5:9-13
NOTES: Remember the symbolization: I have written you in my letter not to associate with sexually immoral people…Sound the horn so that they can heal. The whole point of God saying to cast them out is to force the heal. And here He is JUST talking about those sexual immoral because, as He says: not at all meaning the people of this world who are immoral, or the greedy and swindlers, or idolaters. In that case you would have to leave this world…If He was meaning every sin, then they’d be no one to associate with period! No, here’s He, that would be God, is just talking about those lost in their passion and spreading it around…you must not associate with anyone who calls himself brother but is sexually immoral or greedy, an idolater or a slander, a drunkard or a swindler. With such a man do not even eat. Again, they can’t see their fault or heal if no one sounds the horn!
God will judge those outside. ‘Expel the wicked man from among you’…When you don’t associate with people who are sinning, and they like you or want to be with you, you begin to sow good seeds in those people. This is what He means here. You aren’t to be rude if you can help it, but you are to make them see that they are doing wrong and you are of God and will not be a part of their wrong. Trust me…their ego and pride will get in the way. If God isn’t ready for them to see, they will treat you with disrespect. Leave them. God isn’t ready for them.
*Judgment Among Selves―If any of you has a dispute with another, dare he take it before the ungoldly for judgment instead of before the saints? Do you not know that the saints will judge the world? And if you are to judge the world, are you not competent to judge trivial cases? Do you not know that we will judge angels? How much more the things of this life! Therefore, if you have disputes about such matters, appoint as judges even men of little account in the church! I say this to shame you. Is it possible that there is nobody among you wise enough to judge a dispute between believers? But instead, one brother goes to law against another―and this in front of unbelievers! The very fact that you have lawsuits among you means you have been completely defeated already. Why not rather be wronged? Why not rather be cheated? Instead, you yourselves cheat and do wrong, and you do this to your brothers.―1 Corinthians 6:1-8
NOTES: Key ideas: Shame. Unbelief. To settle arguments: You can’t argue with hypocrites. Jesus proved this to be true. If you know you are right in your heart because your heart is sincere, then what does it matter? That’s for the common, every day person. Just live your life. If you are called to dish out hard love, things can get dicey. Here’s a point I’ve come to see: If they can’t say, ‘I’m sorry’ or ‘I was wrong’, they are not healed. They are living in hypocrite…the darkness. They are veiled. God has left them and it has become an individual journey. You can point out the flaw, the argument. And that is your role. Don’t argue. When you do argue, you are allowing their darkness to spill on you and you will invoke a test to be put on you. Trust me, this is so! You don’t want that. Let them face their test.
The very fact that you have lawsuits among you means you have been completely defeated already. I battled with this when I got divorced. First of all, I didn’t believe in divorce. I believe, and still do, that if you make a vow to God, it is for life. So, when all that mess happened, I sought answers. The big answer is in 1 Corinthians 7:12-16 (below). After I learned that and eased my mind about that, it was then put into my heart that I was not to do any legal paperwork or counsel. I went to court once for the divorce and asked for a continued date because I didn’t have representation, then another time to keep the ex from me because he physically attacked me. God allowed that to happen to reveal to me the liar I was married to. The man whom I thought I knew put his hand on a Bible and then lied straight up after doing so. I sat there in awe!
I hired an attorney, paid her money, then fired her all because the ex tried to manipulate me. God saw through it and put it in my heart to fire her. In the whole process, I didn’t sign one single paper! Because God told me not to. There was so many times after that, that I should have got the courts involved because I was wronged so much, but God told me not to. It was so hard to just walk away, but that was what God told me to do.
Why not rather be wronged? Why not rather be cheated? Instead, you yourselves cheat and do wrong, and you do this to your brothers…God asked me to suck it up. People stole money from me. People stole things from me. I was cheated and hurt and wronged…God asked me to save face, to deal, to be the stronger and the more righteous one. Do you know how hard that was to do? I cried so much. I was to write about the experience, but do nothing else. He waited for the judgment. God knew it would come. And it did. For years, I stood up for myself. No one else did. I had to stand up for myself. He told me this year that I’ve done enough of that. There’s no need to do it anymore. The truth is. Those who don’t want to live by the truth…He will deal with them. He told me I’ve made my place for myself in His kingdom…my mission now is to just write and plant seeds by what I write. Oh, there’s a catch: Humans won’t like me. Well, not many anyway. There is a price to pay to win the prize. I accepted the price to pay.
Sin Prevents Inheritance—Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards or slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.—1 Corinthians 6:9-11
NOTES: Key ideas: Forgiveness. Grace. Sin.
Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God?…There you go. That’s the true response to what I just wrote in the above paragraph! No matter what people do to you, don’t worry. Just voice it to God, sound the horn to the ones who hurt you, then know that no matter how many times those who did you wrong try to plead their case to you…the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards or slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. That’s God’s call. He knows sincerity. They can’t fool Him!
Now for those who invited God back in with sincerity…And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God…He’s right there byway of Jesus with those crumbs. You won’t give off back negative vibes to those who are already saved. You will give good vibes. You will send that positive energy out and, in return, a good energy will return to you when you encounter a sincere heart. Trust in that.
*Bodies Not Meant For Sin—‘Everything is permissible for me’—but not everything is beneficial. ‘Everything is permissible for me’—but I will not be mastered by anything. ‘Food for the stomach and the stomach for food’—but God will destroy them both. The body is not meant for sexual immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body. By His power God raised the Lord from the dead, and He will raise us also. Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ Himself? Shall I then take the members of Christ and unite them with a prostitute? Never! Do you not know that he who unites himself with a prostitute is one with her in body? For it is said, ‘The two will become one flesh.’ But he who unites himself with the Lord is one with Him in spirit. Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a man commits are outside his body, but he who sins sexually sins against his own body. Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.—1 Corinthians 6:12-20
NOTES: Key ideas: Grace. Self-Control. Sin.
‘Everything is permissible for me’—but not everything is beneficial. ‘Everything is permissible for me’—but I will not be mastered by anything…This means having self-control. When we are in the darkness, He takes this away to test us. But when we return to Him, He returns this to us. We have to remember that we are part of the vine. The body is not meant for sexual immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body…This is what a lot of people hate. But it is a very good thing. Two people become one…that’s what it is meant by that. Temptation…the sure way to the pit!
Shall I then take the members of Christ and unite them with a prostitute? Never! Do you not know that he who unites himself with a prostitute is one with her in body? For it is said, ‘The two will become one flesh.’…Just find you someone to marry and enjoy all the sex you want, all the happiness you want and stop being so weak! But he who unites himself with the Lord is one with Him in spirit…Yes, indeed!
Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a man commits are outside his body, but he who sins sexually sins against his own body. Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body…Give yourself to one and give that relationship to Jesus. Let Jesus help you in all your weakness. Living any other way…you are not healed and God is not with you because you are still in the darkness.
Regarding Marriage and Singleness
*Marital Relations—Now for the matters you wrote about: It is good for a man not to marry. But since there is so much immorality, each man should have his own wife, and each woman her own husband. The husband should fulfill his marital duty to his wife, and likewise the wife to her husband. The wife’s body does not belong to her alone but also to her husband. In the same way, the husband’s body does not belong to him alone but also to his wife. Do not deprive each other except by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control. I say this as a concession, not as a command. I wish that all men were as I am. But each man has his own gift from God; one has this gift, another has that.—1 Corinthians 7:1-7
NOTES: Key ideas: Self-Control. He’s pretty much open and clear here. Just remember: It is good for a man not to marry. But since there is so much immorality, each man should have his own wife, and each woman should her own husband. The husband should fulfill his marital duty to his wife, and likewise the wife to her husband.
Singleness—Now to the unmarried and the widows I say: It is good for them to stay unmarried, as I am. But if they cannot control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion.—1 Corinthians 7:8,9
NOTES: Key ideas: Self-Control. He tells you directly….they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion. When you tell someone this who is not healed, they called you holy-roly and shit like that. Do you know what Jesus says: Have a good time in the pit!
Regarding Separation—To the married I give this command (not I, but the Lord): A wife must not separate from her husband. But if she does, she must remain unmarried or else be reconciled to her husband. And a husband must not divorce his wife.—1 Corinthians 7:10,11
NOTES: And I have learned that there is a big difference between being married by man and being married by GOD!
Unbelieving Spouses—To the rest I say this (I, not the Lord): If any brother has a wife who is not a believer and she is willing to live with him, he must not divorce her. And if a woman has a husband who is not a believer and he is willing to live with her, she must not divorce him. For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife, and the unbelieving wife has been sanctified through her believing husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy. But if the unbelieving leaves, let him do so. A believing man or woman is not bound in such circumstances; God has called us to live in peace. How do you know, wife, whether you will save your husband? Or, how do you know, husband, whether you will save your wife?—1 Corinthians 7:12-16
NOTES: Key ideas: Unbelief. Divorce is okay if abuse is there (that’s unbelief).
…And if a woman has a husband who is not a believer and he is willing to live with her, she must not divorce him…But if the unbelieving leaves, let him do so. A believing man or woman is not bound in such circumstances; God has called us to live in peace. How do you know, wife, whether you will save your husband? Or, how do you know, husband, whether you will save your wife?…You don’t. Unless God tells you. And God will tell you if you hear Him. You first have to stomp the ignorance out of your system and stop wanting man to feed you everything. You are smart enough to figure it out…you just have to WANT to.
*Remaining in Present State—Nevertheless, each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him. This is the rule I lay down in all the churches. Was a man already circumcised when he was called? He should not become uncircumcised. Was a man uncircumcised when he was called? He should not be circumcised. Circumcision is nothing and uncircumcision is nothing. Keeping God’s commands is what counts. Each one should remain in the situation which he was in when God called him. Were you a slave when you were called? Don’t let it trouble you―although if you can gain your freedom, do so. For he who was a slave when he was called by the Lord is the Lord’s freedman; similarly, he who was a free man when he was called is Christ’s slave. You were bought at a price; do not become slaves of men. Brothers, each man, as responsible to God, should remain in the situation God called him to.—1 Corinthians 7:17-24
NOTES: Key ideas: Calling. Each one of us has something to do while here on Earth. You have to silence the noise in order to hear…place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him.
Was a man uncircumcised when he was called? He should not be circumcised. Circumcision is nothing and uncircumcision is nothing. Keeping God’s commands is what counts…The removal of the foreskin on the male’s penis was a symbol for us. It was done so many times in history that we should fully understand it now. We don’t have to put our boys’ bodies through this anymore. It is no longer needed. The symbolization of stripping this skin off the genitals of a man is the stripping away of sin from the body, the mind and heart and being tight and firm in the word of God.
Each one should remain in the situation which he was in when God called him. Were you a slave when you were called?…do not become slaves of men….should remain in the situation God called him to. God will move you when He is ready. Trust me, if you learn to listen and understand His process, He will move you out of the situation you are in and into where He wants you when the time comes.
For me, in the testimony, God was waiting for me to surrender. I had to do it on my own accord, free will. Once I did that, He moved me within three days. I had done my part. The rest was to be done in two different parts. Once those parts are done, I will reveal them to you.
For you, know that you have to pay attention to what is happening around you. I know it can get really crazy with anguish, crying, heartache…all those emotions you have and the emotions other people have. It gets hard to see through all of that. But…in God’s process…you have to. It’s how He works. Once you learn to quiet yourself enough to understand that God is at work, then you can trust! Without seeing this, you are still in the hands of Satan. You cannot get released from that until you have sincerity…the child heart! Jesus said to love God is to love like a child. This is what God is waiting for! This is what He wants from you…only in the child heart can one find sincerity, truth!