‘Laying It Down’ and ‘Tell Me, My Lord†’

‘…I am the gate; whoever enters through Me will be saved….The thief comes only in to steal and kill and destroy…’He is demon-possessed and raving mad. Why listen to Him?” (John 10:7-21)

 Laying It Down
 
these hands are up
accepting this love
come, gather round–
this joined-together vine
is all but enough
 
take this chalice
drink from the cup
–you brave little cub
this journey...not a strut
it's a slow walking
in rub
 
go on, take it...drink up
but be warned little bug
in will come...the judge
 
then they'll be the tug
some will come to bluff
–making the drink
a little tough
there'll be a bit
of obstruct
–some bumps and stuff
maybe a little more
in rough
 
you may have to shed
some blood
a time or two–
you'll be covered in mud
even some crud–
when you try to be a stud
–it's just a kick
in the butt
for being somewhat smug
 
don't worry...it's just Jesus† love
when things get too dicey–
He'll† unplug
give you a bit of a shrug
but not all-together...pluck
He'll† just help
through the hiccups
 
He's† patient...seeing
if you'll give up
watching you
with brotherly love
pushing you
to come out of thug
–understand the tug
 
go on, take it...drink up
–it's unconditional
and full of love
 
but there isn't any luck
and at times
you'll get stuck
in will come...floods
jitterbugs and fluff
you'll have to be
strong enough
decide differences–
that moonstruck stuff
and the real of love
 
no, it won't be easy–
so much will turn to muck
you may see handcuffs
even be awe-struck
by the wrong products
–just keep your head up
things will ease up
along the way
somewhat
 
it's your choice to drink up
the hard love
gets you through
the rough stuff–
when Jesus† wants
you healed enough

–once you get over the fluff
you'll see the true love
that didn't give up
on you...in a puff
‒that's the truth
of Jesus'† love
 

Note: The photograph taken November 9th is one of many. It is God’s energy. The orbs…changed into His footprint. You don’t have to believe me. It IS all the same. Maybe you should start paying attention instead of hanging on to hate and anger. God is sending you all of this because He loves you, not because He’s trying to trick you.

(December 29, 2019)—The ways of Jesus are simply amazing. He speaks to me when I’m troubled. I woke up around 2:30 a.m. after again laying down and saying, pretty much the hell with it all. I wrote about this man texting me. Horrible. I write about me being alone and how my family pretty much oused me out for their own sins. I write about how people don’t read these writings or even consider them to be true. I’m working on faith, except for the small signs I’m sent…like the text I received day before yesterday.

So, I went to bed with all of this on my shoulders. (Don’t judge. I have to write this journey if you don’t understand it or not.) I get up this morning, not wanting to write, but I’m encouraged. I open my Bible to the following Scriptures:

The Gate for the SheepTherefore Jesus said, ‘I tell you the truth, I am the gate for the sheep. All who ever came before me were thieves and robbers, but the sheep did not listen to them. I am the gate; whoever enters through Me will be saved. He will come in and go out, and find pasture. The thief comes only in to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have and enjoy life, and have it to the full.’—John 10:7-10

The Good ShepherdI am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. The hired hand is not the shepherd who owns the sheep. So when he sees the wolf coming, he abandons the sheep and runs away. Then the wolf attacks the flock and scatters it. The man runs away because he is a hired hand and cares nothing for the sheep. I am the good shepherd; I know My sheep and My sheep know Me—just as the Father knows Me and I know the Father—and I lay down My life for the sheep. I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to My voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd. The reason My Father loves Me is that I lay down My life—only to take it up again. No one takes it from Me, but I lay it down of My own accord. I have authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. This command I received from My Father.’—John 10:11-18

Jews Still DividedAt these words the Jews were again divided. Many of them said, ‘He is demon-possessed and raving mad. Why listen to Him?’ But others said, ‘These are not the sayings of a man possessed by a demon. Can a demon open the eyes of the blind?’—John 10:19-21

I’m NOT kidding. These Scriptures were on the first page I opened my book up to. This is how Jesus and God talk to me a lot of the time. How can you deny this? Of all that I’m going through and THIS is what I’m led to! Thank you, my Lord.

The thief comes only in to steal and kill and destroy;…The key to healing is to learn how the thief operates. In that text I received, I kept it, when I read back on it…that’s how the thief operates. It will fight against you in every way. How else is God going to test your heart?

I didn’t want to read all that this man sent to me. As I was replying to him, I actually didn’t read it. Then David says go back and read it. I fussed him for this, but he said I needed to see the truth. He wanted me to see how people get things so mixed up. As I wrote in ‘Ringing of Ears’ and ‘Careful Watch’, you can’t have hate and love God and Jesus. You can’t say they are talking to you directly and display this kind of thing. You aren’t talking with them. You are talking with the thief. Even I know that. It wasn’t before I totally dealt with all my issues that I was talking directly with them.

Your spirit guide with counsel you. That is who I talked with most of my life, only I didn’t know it. I always thought I was just having conversation with myself. God and Jesus don’t talk to you directly until you are cleaned up.

I’m so tired of dealing with people who harbor hate. I gave up so much of my life dealing with this. Then Jesus says…I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. I wanted to cry when I read this. I know, my Lord, I know. And I write the following:

Tell Me, My Lord†
 
tell me, my Lord†
is it true
all these things
in my head
being said
–is it true
 
tell me, my Lord†
they really deny
because it's You†
whose voice
comes through
 
–don't they see
the moments due
as the grace
comes through
–proving it's You†
 
tell me, my Lord†
it is true
as I hear
words from You†
the skies so bright
the sun shines
through
they think I'm crazy
for You've† shown me
the doom
they think I'm mental
–not seeing You†
through
 
it's the same
when they
crucified You†
 
tell me, my Lord†
is it true
as I hang
on the cross
with You†
these words
will get through
–before their time
is due
 
how come, my Lord†
these passing grains
of You†
just pass on through
–they deny me
for what God†
put me through
 
how is it....
this they do
how different‒
I see You†
how come–
they don't see, too
 
tell me, my Lord†
when the seas
come through
will I know
it is You†

Then it’s: Karen, are you going to give up? and He says:…The hired hand is not the shepherd who owns the sheep. So when he sees the wolf coming, he abandons the sheep and runs away...He’s asking me, ‘If it gets hard, are you going to run away, too?’ And, I bow down my head, ‘No, my Lord.’ And I won’t…no matter how hard it gets, because I know God is testing me and I refuse to fail!

Then the wolf attacks the flock and scatters it. The man runs away because he is a hired hand and cares nothing for the sheepand I get: You aren’t the hired hand. And I’m crying. I’ve been doing this for so long…and it seems like it just gets harder and harder. How I’m to reach them, my Lord? I get: They will come. Trust. Patience.

And I have this bozo telling me crap, the thief speaking through him, trying to tear me to pieces. One day, I can’t wait until that day, this guy, he will understand how the thief used him, how the thief pushed at him and pushed, coming to him from all directions in order for God to humble him. One day, he will cry like a baby because of how he treated God’s servant. One day!

I don’t feel bad at all for saying what I just said. You will know why in the future. This guy has his scouts out reading my work…then gossiping about me…not seeing the work for what it is. That’s Jesus by the way. These people just don’t understand the process. I see it and I’m like: Damn, still! You still are peddling around in Satan’s yard?! You don’t see it yet!? One day, and it’s coming. Right now…those surrounding this guy are the hired sheep!

I complain a lot! I am stubborn. I want to live my life like everyone else…you know shopping and having fun in life. I’m kept away from all of this. It’s a lonely job. Then Jesus says: I am the good shepherd; I know My sheep and My sheep know Me—just as the Father knows Me and I know the Father—and I lay down My life for the sheep….And I want to cry more. I know, my Lord, I know.

When God takes you from the world, you aren’t allowed to do what those of the world do. You have to live apart from all of that in order to see the full truth. I fully understand this. It is so easy to lose your way when you are mixed with those of the world. There it goes: That woman is crazier than shit! Then later in the 3rd passage: Many of them said, ‘He is demon-possessed and raving mad. Why listen to Him?’ Isn’t that something!

Some thought the Messiah, the fruit of God’s loin, the ultimate Son, the grace of everything was demon-possessed and raving mad! Well, I was called a witch, and all other sorts of names and I haven’t deviated from God’s book at ALL! I haven’t added or taken away from it. I’m just teaching you what the churches are not! Thank you, my Lord for showing me this! Again!

After all of this, after all I’m told, after all I hear and after all I’ve written, I still go round and round with all of it. Jesus knows my battle. He says it’s normal. He reminds me of this: The reason My Father loves Me is that I lay down My life—only to take it up again. No one takes it from Me, but I lay it down of My own accord. I have authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. After He took me to the cross, we are walking down this street. (I’ve written about this a number of times so I’m not going to go into total detail again.) He’s ahead of me with His left arm down by His side but His hand is spread, beckoning me to follow Him. He puts it into my head that I have a choice and He forces me to stop and think about this choice. He wanted me to think about it. I didn’t need to think for very long, I followed. He’s telling me here that I made that choice, I can easily unmake it, but He knows I won’t. He knows that whatever God wants me to do, I will do, no matter what others think of me.

So, He’s saying that I made the choice to fall because God asked me, too. It is my choice to rise again. I will…and He knows it. He also knows that, no matter what, I will continue to do this…even not making one dime…He knows that I will.

So, His message to me is also a message to you…follow your heart. Know that it is Him and not the thief. There’s a big difference. The thief has you mixed up…confused. Hate and anger, blame and accusations live in your heart. You gossip and pillage other people. All of this is the thief! It’s controlling you. You have to get this out of you. God is trying to Humble you…let HIM work!

Author: k. e. leger

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