My Feeble Heart
they pillaged me
it won't let me be
I've tried to make them see
‒asked God† for mercy
show Him† sincerity
it's too late for me
they've already broke me
I was their test‒
in their secrecy
‒now to grant free
when they contact me
for they just don't see
‒their darkness covers me
it is so hard to breathe
take them, my Lord†
take them from me
they sacrificed me
for their wrong‒
they do not see
for their sins‒
they have buried me
forgive me, my Lord†
I'm hardened to them
they betrayed my trust
they surrendered me
to satan's torch
You† have rescued me
I pity them
for they've lost to sin
they failed Your† test
‒put my heart at rest
they are no longer
I give all my best
the slightest stress
Note: The pictures that accompanies this work was taken on November 9, 2019, Certainty of Visions. That day I took over 1,000 frames and David pointed out God’s art. The faces are always there, but they were pointed out to me on October 7, Faces. God’s always watching. He IS the watchtower!
(February 18 and 24)—I was typing in work for this year and I had no idea that I’d end up writing about ‘My Feeble Heart’. God does have His plans. This is one of my heart songs. It’s the deep that God pulls out of me and He used Isaiah to do it. His message is strong today.
Parable of Vineyard—I will sing for the one I love a song about his vineyard: My loved one had a vineyard on a fertile hillside. He dug it up and cleared it of stones and planted it with the choicest vines. He built a watchtower in it and cut out a winepress as well. Then he looked for a crop of good grapes, but it yielded only bad fruit.
He has pointed out the vine to me for a long time now. I think He may have very well shown me every time He had ‘vineyard‘ written in the Bible. The vineyard is His people…Israel. After Jesus, that’s all those who believe. Jesus said that His flock knows Him. They do. That is who God is talking about here. The fertile hillside is the church. Not a building. The church has always been inside of us. Jesus came to clarify it. Jesus isn’t the only one who is God. We all have God in us as we all have Jesus in us. The fertile is the good shepherding. The seeds they plant. He cleared all the bad away and reached the strong hearts.
The watchtower…He has pointed this out to me over and over. He’s the watchtower! He has eyes every where. He revealed this in the pictures He had me put here. If you can’t see, you aren’t with Him. Maybe you should ask yourself why.
The winepress…When you smash the choicest of grapes, you get a good start for a good wine and that juice has to sit for a while and ferment. God has to smash His grapes and let them ferment for a while to test their hearts. If their hearts are pure, they will forgive Him and love Him even more.
When He goes to look for good grapes, it is hard to find them.
‘Now you dwellers in Jerusalem [foundation] and men of Judah [the praised one], judge between Me and My vineyard. What more could have been done for My vineyard than I have done for it? When I look for good grapes, why did it yield only bad? Now I will tell you what I am going to do to My vineyard: I will take away its hedge, and it will be destroyed; I will break down its wall, and it will be trampled. I will make it a wasteland, neither pruned nor cultivated, and briers and thorns will grow there. I will command the clouds not to rain on it.’
The foundation is the root system of the vineyard…the original 12 tribes that God chose to be His people, those tribes to set the example. Judah IS the vine of Jesus. That is His lineage. That is why Judah (one of the 12 tribes…12 children of Jacob whose original name is Israel. His half brother Ishmael…you really need to research him.)
Now, here God is asking them what could He have done differently. Of course, knowing God as I do, He is being a bit sarcastic. Remember, the apple does not fall far from the tree. He already KNOWS there was nothing He could have done differently! Oh, temptation! Of course, He already knows that His laws were always going to create chaos…it was designed that way! So, He tells them, straight up, that He’s about to fuck them up! Truly. He tells them He is going to strip them of their spiritual protection and that He is going to send trouble their way. As He has shown me, He’s throwing in a whole bunch of confusion (see ‘I Am Truth’s Voice’) that they won’t be able to straighten out. Instead, He will sit back and watch them get lost in the deception (briers and thorns) that they will create and live by because they really don’t understand what God is doing, so they are going to lie to the people about it, so they can look smart. Hence, the need will build over hundreds of years for a Savior. It was already planned.
The vineyard of the Lord Almighty is the house of Israel, and the men of Judah are the garden of His delight. And He looked for justice, but saw bloodshed; for righteousness, but heard cries of distress.—Isaiah 5:1-7
God doesn’t change. He tells me the same thing He has told Isaiah. The people haven’t changed. Yes, there are more good people. When Iran was causing problems again, I didn’t too much read about what they were doing. I just heard they were up to bullying people again. I had a talk with God about them. I’m 51 years old and all of my life, Iran has been bullying people. So, I asked God to deal with them. He did. A small earthquake to shake them up. He said He couldn’t destroy them, there were good people there. And He has told me this for all the earth, no single place is totally lost. There’s good people in every part of the world.
This has Him even more upset because good people will have to pay for bad people who have mixed themselves up too much with the good. I think California may be an exception to that rule. The bulk of that state in America is destroyed in the visions He has sent me. And in those visions, He first concentrates on the Pacific side of things. He is highly pissed with America in general and Saudi Arabia. In the vision I had about the Middle East, there was absolutely zero bodies any where on the coast there…Saudi Arabia. None! At least in America, I saw bodies and people. In the Middle East…NO ONE! That was odd. I actually thought to myself, ‘Where’s the people?’
He’s not playing. Everyone who understands God knows that His time is not ours. He enjoys telling us ahead of time that He’s about to kick some ass. He wants to warn us! He wants to give us a chance to change our ways! If you could have seen the visions I had yourself, you would be devastating and running to buy your Bible and learning everything there is about Jesus! You would. You would be teaching your daughters how to protect themselves! You might even be locking your daughters in the house and demanding to know where your wife and mom and sisters are at all times! These visions aren’t a joke! He used real time in that last vision and it was horrifying. So horrifying for me that He laid off of them and sent the pictures and the writings instead. I still tear up and get mad when I think of that vision. God is very patient. Trust me…there will be more visions. But those…they should be enough.
Not only that, but the words He has sent…God is speaking to one of US to tell all of us! And He tells me that He is speaking to others. What is going on! What? You don’t like my sassy mouth?! They didn’t like Isaiah’s, or Jeremiah’s (they tried to kill him a bunch of times…chained him!), they stoned Stephen to death…of course, God took him before he could feel pain! Joke’s on them! Then there’s Jesus…he had a lot of sass and anger! They said He was possessed! He healed people right before their eyes! And they called Him a witch! I bet the sweet man and my family are shrinking in their chairs! How hypocritical of you to call things of God evil!
Don’t you know that God IS ALL?
He’s taught this through His previous prophets. Now, He’s reteaching through me. He is ALL! There is so much to teach you, but first I have to wait. God made me a promise which I’ve written about a lot now. He wants me to keep mentioning it. I didn’t ask for this sign, this promise. He demands that I deserve it and it is rather big. In my eyes, impossible. He says it’s not. He’s amazing. The things that He reveals to me on a daily basis. The things He shows me to my face on a daily basis. I cry and I fuss when the world of things try to make me disbelieve, but then there is another amazing thing He shows me. I have more pictures to put up. I post some on my Facebook pages. He keeps me busy.
There is so much yet to say. Whatever your role is in life, it is of Him! You must trust Him. You must remember that if you are still telling lies, hiding secrets, betraying, manipulating, concealing pain from long ago, doing things that are sins, you are not in God. He is not with you. He knows your heart. He’s patiently waiting. He’s not money. He’s not fortunes. He’s not material. I have this preacher friend in Africa, Kenya. He just opened up a building to get folks in to tell them about the Glory of God and Jesus. It’s nothing fancy. It’s made of tin and they have folding chairs to sit in. That’s God. He’s keeping this man’s flock out of the rain. That’s a good shepherd.
Look at TV in America and Rome…see all those fancy buildings with stained glasses and high ceilings and stages and costumes…that’s not of God. Yes, I’m going to knock your man-made industry church. God isn’t a building. His church is inside of us, each of us. His temple is the human heart! Look at your hands, go on…that is the vine! Look at your children, that beautiful little baby…that is part of Jesus’ body! God’s trusting you with His creation. Treat His creation with care, with love, and teach them about their Father! Teach them about their Brother! Don’t lie to them!
Heal. That’s God’s hardest call through me. He tells me I’m hard love and He demands I tell people that. I’m here to plant seeds. I’m not here to be loved by you. I’m not the gardener. He is. I plant. That is all. All of these words that He has me writing. All of the noise I make on social media…is for ONE thing: Plant Seeds! If you don’t know what that means…you have a lot to learn. Don’t give up, He’s not that difficult. In fact, once you learn Him, He’s quite fun! He has a lot of love to give. He’s just waiting on your child heart to emerge! Having a feeble heart is a really good thing! Love the skin you’re in! In heaven, there’s no color. I thought you should know that!