‘Reworked Clay’

Reworked Clay

I am woman
hear me roar

I am tender
and sore
beaten and bruised

I am soft and assure
hard and wrecked

I am beautiful
callused and torn

I am a curve
of watchful noise
the inside pleasures
and the outside gestures

I am at the hands
of many
but the work of One†

I am woman
the tool of the soul
through me
magic is laced

I can tear or build
depending on
the tear down
or the build up
of me

I am woman
never mistakened
for a man
I am pure inside
shaped to wither hearts
reshaped to comfort
pulling hurt to my breast

I am woman 
there is no part of me
too hard
that tears won't come down
in sorrow and pity

I have been broken
savaged and wiped

men want to be me
but they can never
be me
no matter the force
in nature

for the Potter† is excellent
and I am perfect
the creator of life
made by the Creator† of life

you can't have
what I have

for I am woman
all emotions of one
the mother
the anchor
the shoulder
the bearer of weight
that can't be shouldered
by any type of man

for I am woman
born woman
creator created
by the one true Creator†

a job predetermined
by Him† who created me

§For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.—Ephesians 2:8-10

(May 9, 2023)—I have been stumbling over this one. I know what I heard and I don’t doubt God one bit, I fear Him immensely. As His called servant, I trust that He guides my words and this one, as well as ”She’ Put Back in Place’, He wanted me to write with the help of David to express all that He’s been telling me…what makes Him so angry.

First, I will repeat what I wrote in the commentary for ”She’ Put Back in Place’ because it is the basis of this writing.

‘…wanting something so bad that you would risk your life to have it is Idolatry. Worshiping something so strong that it overpowers God in every sense of the word is Idolatry. If you can’t comprehend this, no one can help you. You are lost so far in the darkness that it will take an act of God Himself to pull you out.

To go to the extreme of what so many are doing: To be woman in order to get what they have, to be woman in order to have it easier, to winner better, to give into the seduction of lustfulness…all of this is Idolatry! Your sins are noted.’

He then led me to the Scripture dealing with Idolatry for that writing.

For years now, God has been making me look at myself and my vanity. I grew into my vanity because of how I witnessed my dad treat my mother, then see other women, who were not thin, be treated differently. I fought to ever be obese because of all of this and it was a struggle my whole life, until God made this drastic promise to me. When I think of promises like this from God, I think ‘biblical times‘. He tells me that every time is biblical.

So being a outspoken woman on abuse fit me well and came easy. I relished this role and I didn’t hold back on anything. I don’t hate men. No, I love men. I hate abuse and all that it entails. So when I began seeing this transgender deal, I was sympathetic. I really was. I knew of some girls who had all the boy qualities except the actual penis. In the military, I saw this a lot. I witnessed boys who should have been girls as well.

This isn’t our choice to make. I have always known that the harder the test, the closer we are to the top of the chain in the Kingdom of God. They don’t teach this, and that is probably a huge problem because the truth of the Kingdom is really simple.

Back to God having me look at myself. My vanity was a huge test for me, and I did everything I could to mask it. I hid how I felt deep inside, and tried to look pretty on the outside. That didn’t get me too far…in fact, all it did was get men who wanted to have sex with me. Not one of them got to truly know me as a person. And that was my price for that vanity.

Was it just my father that developed this vanity in me? No. It was all these magazines and movies who plastered all these beautiful thin women in my face making me seem less.

Now, it is so bad that AI applications can erase all the flaws from your face so that you can show the world this person that you are not really a part of. More and more people are killing themselves. More and more people are sunk into depression because they can’t face the mirror. Hence, they can’t face God Himself.

God said in all the writings since 2019, that He has given to me to give to you, that He set confusion among us because of our deep transgressions that are getting worse with each generation. He said this confusion would get worse. It has.

Transgender. Wrong answer.

I’m no longer sympathetic. Neither should you. They are changing men at a fast rate to fit into society, to win sporting events, to have it easier, etc. etc. They are still men, and if you have sex with one of them, you are in the death zone when it comes to the two gates you have to choose before you die.

Homosexuality. It is still a sin. God still hates it. It doesn’t matter if they go to a church of some sort, they are nicer than peas…they are still on the wrong side of the fence with God.

God has plenty mercy. He is wonderful and generous and patient and giving and loving. That’s the side that all these false shepherds are preaching. But they leave out that He also is over ALL things…ALL things. And if He wants to test you, He will test you. You should be prepared and it’s family, parents, teachers, priests, ‘church men‘, friends who all set you up for either failure or pass.

Here’s a small example: One of the biggest test given, other than money, is the lustful desire tests. You are born say a boy and you are given feminine qualities. Maybe, you were born to be a nurse, or housemaid, or caregiver, or someone that has a wonderful shoulder to lean on. This is just an example. But all those around you are saying that you have a right to be who you truly are. If you feel like a girl, then be a girl. So, now all these medical self-proclaimed gods have a solution: Let’s really make you a girl. Except you are not really a girl. You are a girl on the outside, but not on the inside. You are still a boy.

Back to the decision point of this: God hands you a table full of things that your outside body doesn’t show. You long to be a girl, but you are a boy. The test…what will your choice be when your back is up against the wall? That’s what God is looking to see. If you choice to live with who you are the best way you can, then you have made the right choice. If you allow the pressure of those around you to change what God gave you to follow your own desires, you have made the wrong choice.

Does that sound harsh? God says NO. He created you. He formed you into a boy or a girl for a reason. As I see it, through all that God has shown me in the writings, in the visions, in the discussions, the hierarchy of the Kingdom is important. So if you are given the money test or the lustful desire test, you are either fighting your way out of the pit or you chose this cross in order to honor Yeshuah and in order to rise in the Kingdom.

The Roman Church. God is constantly pushing me to write about this. I have in so many ways. Do you truly believe that God approves of an organization that killed a lot of people, that murdered thousands of women, that raped thousands and thousands of boys and girls, who came from the very people who crucified His Son, who hordes millions and millions of monies and has the biggest buildings and even an entire city of its own? Do you really believe that God approves of an organization who does everything in its power to cover up direct divine encouragement…when God shows His direct divine intervention? Really? Maybe, you should rethink all of this, get a Bible and read carefully the New Testament because in that section, Paul is given the writings about this before me! Before the Roman Catholic Church exist! And straight in there, God tells you what to look for when false shepherds, false prophets plague the Earth. And one of those descriptions spell out the Roman Catholic Church!

Any entity who kills in the name of God, denies Yeshuah, rapes the children and women, approve of homosexuality, maim people, aren’t of God! They are tools used by God, but He has turned His back to them. Of course, they always have a choice to drop what they are doing and turn directly towards God and except His Son, and His mercy will prevail.

The woman. The gift to man. God made her. He made man. If you were born man, you are always a man no matter what they cut off or implant or how much makeup you wear. And anyone who has sex with you becomes a homosexual. If you were born woman and become man, you are still a woman. Sorry. No matter how much the evil roam on the Earth, God prevails.

This is all His plan. Everyone is part of His plan. The Jews and the Romans who killed Yeshuah’s body were part of a bigger plan. Your judgment of me and of each other is part of a much larger plan. In ‘High Course’, go read it, God explained to me plainly and allowed me to explain it back to you. All of the codes and fractions and signs through the photographs and through visions, all of the riddles, the foreign language…all of it is for the world of arrogance, as God says it, to figure out. Since they are gods and can change the assignment of His creation, since they can go into His space any time they desire, and rape His seed and judge falsely anyone they choose, He said that you can figure out what He has sent!

You can tackle man, but you are too afraid to tackle God! You can believe what is written from long ago, then you believe God speaks no more! I got news for you, He is still speaking. He is warning of what is coming and there is nothing that can stop it. He made His decision already. What He set in motion will happen. He wants as many people healed as possible.

Don’t judge. Walk away. Have nothing to do with those lost in the dark, who have defiled God’s creation. His punishment is great…He’s not wasting His time with those who pretend to be HIM!

Idolatry. It’s a hard lesson to learn in today’s world. Your material pleasures, your celebrities… all you people who spend gobs of money to go to these concerts and yell and scream: You aren’t doing that for God and He’s rather jealous over that! All you people worshipping the female and male body so much that you change into one of them…you are idolizing so bad the body, lustful desire, that you turn from the Creator! He’s a jealous God.

We are in the time of destruction. And the confusion that is placed on us will get only worse. All the things God hates, you will except as normal and good. Be care, a very small group of people will survive this. The delusion will be grand, more grand than the delusion of the Romans.

As Paul says in Acts 22:30-23:5: ‘…‘God will strike you, you whitewashed wall! You sit there to judge me according to the law, yet you yourself violate the law by commanding that I be struck!’….’

If you wonder about the mark of Satan as given in the Revelations, you are witnessing the beginning of it. If you have lots of money and say you worship God, you are lying. You can’t love God and money together. Sale all you have and feed the poor, house the homeless, give counsel to the imprisoned, help the fatherless and the orphans, help get drugs off the streets, help heal the broken, and rescue those sold into slavery for sex and fire offerings. Do your part so that you may clean the scars that rest on your hearts.

If you are afraid who might or might not be a woman, because once you are with a man, you become a homosexual in God’s eyes, pray this:

Lord, You are the King of all the Heavens
Lord, You are the King of all the Earth
if I have found favor with You
and if it pleases you,
I lay this petition at Your Son's feet:

Please reveal to me any transgenders by placing
boils all over their skin.
Please don't let me be tempted in anyway to be near them.
Keep me safe and in Your loving grace.

In Jesus' name. Amen.

He led me to Luke 1:26-38 directly after I finished typing this:

In the sixth month, God sent the angel Gabriel to Nazareth, a town in Galilee, to a virgin pledged to be married to a man named Joseph, a descendant of David. The virgin’s name was Mary. The angel went to her and said, ‘Greetings, you who are highly favored! The Lord is with you. Mary was greatly troubled at his words and wondered what kind of greeting this might be. But the angel said to her, ‘Do not be afraid, Mary, you have found favor with God. You will be with child and give birth to a Son, and you are to give Him the name Jesus. He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High. The Lord God will give Him the throne of His father David, and He will reign over the house of Jacob forever; His kingdom will never end.’ ‘How will this be,’ Mary asked the angel, ‘since I am a virgin?’ The angel answered, ‘The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the holy One to be born will be called the Son of God. Even Elizabeth your relative is going to have a child in her old age, and she who was said to be barren is in her sixth month. For nothing is impossible with God.’ ‘I am the Lord’s servant,’ Mary answered. ‘May it be to me as you have said.’ Then the angel left her.—Luke 1:26-38 (Nazareth)

The picture David led me to is from September 27, 2019: Love from Heaven. On this day, the say I posted all these pictures, if you have ever felt the Holy Spirit, He was with me the whole time and would not leave until all of them were up. These are particularly important to God! This picture was taken at 5:56:55.