The Puzzle's End
so young
so in between
–living and running
fast-paced scenes
knowing this
knowing that
putting it all together
in fact
not knowing
it's all a trap
–in will come
the collapse
in physical or in mind–
the hands will clap
they'll stand a little
for that
–then you'll see
only their backs
obvious or not
it'll happen...count of that
you'll question
all in your habitat–
where you once felt
the autocrat
–sometimes the bureaucrat
–even the true diplomat
whatever format
–your knowledge–
the smart-ass cat
was all that
then you fell to rat
on the ground...splat
or against a wall...splash
all you knew crashed
leaving you lost
in a unquestionable gasp
it's when you see the vast
–after that sudden ask
–like it was a forced task
but it happened so fast
yet so slow in contrast
it's when you recognize
this upper-class act
this thing beyond
just a simple glass
it seems‒
a I-don't-want-to-let-go mask
but it's not at all...a mask
it's an all-around broadcast
–you know, but you don't
you think you're in trespass
but you're not an outcast
so how can it be that
‒it's a different hourglass
catching you in pizzazz
it's when you understand
the acrobat
simply doesn't swing
but glides with hands clasped
around their back
it's knowing your mind
was kidnapped
but now it's back
–you no longer live
in a man-driven syntax
no need for a polygraph
you now hear the phonograph
although...it's not a phonograph
you just know the path
like knowing truth about this
and that
like spacecrafts, even witchcraft
it's now above all that
it's knowing–
you can know that
then not know that
it's knowing–
you can see that
or not see that
it's knowing–
you can hear that
or not hear that
it's just depends on
where you're at
–your journey's path
it's understanding–
not being mad
accepting–
knowing who can change
all that
‒with a wind's simple laugh
that's when you've crossed
the graph
from ignorance in testing
to knowledge in wisdom
there's a path
–you will enact
you will react–
adhere to the telegraph:
stay on the raft
however hard the path
it won't last
if you fall off–
get back on the raft
it will pass
deal with the riffraff
–the wiretap
question...ask
it will all pass
don't get off the raft
whatever sass–
stay on the raft!
(February 24)—This was written on January 3 of this year, my 51st Birthday! I spent it alone. In fact, against my will, but I understand it now, I’m working on spending an entire year by myself! Something I’ve been wanting to do for a very long time. No more codependency! God is awesome! No more need for a man in my life. I don’t even need my family. Just me. And this awesome experience with the spiritual world. And birds! Twice a day, they come to the trees outside my apartment and hold meetings! They commence all at once and then they adjourn ALL at once! It’s really interesting and beautiful!
God has revealed a lot to me since last July. The explanation of wisdom by way of Job and David and Jesus. The things I’ve learned are just amazing and the most oddest thing: Others in the world know this and they are keeping it from us. I trust God. So, I’m sharing and doing what God asked me to do. Those who want this all hidden: Fuck you!
Wisdom is Hidden—‘There is a mine for silver and a place where gold is refined. Iron is taken from the earth, and copper is smelted from ore. Man puts an end to the darkness; he searches the farthest recesses for ore in the blackest darkness. Far from where people dwell he cuts a shaft, in places forgotten by the foot of man; far from men he dangles and sways. The earth, from which food comes, is transformed below as by fire; sapphires come from its rocks, and its dust contains nuggets of gold. No bird of prey knows that hidden path, no falcon’s eye has seen it. Proud beasts do not set foot on it, and no lion prowls there. Man’s hand assaults the flinty rock and lays bare the roots of the mountains. He tunnels through the rock; his eyes see all its treasures. He searches the sources of the rivers and brings hidden things to light.
‘But where can wisdom be found? Where does understanding dwell? Man does not comprehend its worth; it cannot be found in the land of the living. The deep says, ‘It is not in me’; the sea says, ‘It is not with me.’ It cannot be bought with the finest gold, nor can its price be weighted in silver. It cannot be bought with the gold of Ophir, with precious onyx or sapphires. Neither gold nor crystal can compare with it, nor can it be had for jewels of gold. Coral and jasper are not worthy of mention; the price of wisdom is beyond rubies. The topaz of Cush cannot compare with it; it cannot be bought with pure gold.’—Job 28:1-19 (Job is talking and he is right)
Notes: Job is talking about innovation in the first paragraph, electricity. He says man will devour minerals of the earth and go to space. He speaks of fraking, water, oil, gas and drilling. In 2007, I wrote: Wisdom is not a material possession like gold or silver. Wisdom is the greatest thing to have. True. Oh, so true, but many take wisdom for granted because they do not learn. The first line of the second paragraph, Job says that man thinks he is so smart, he thinks he can provide everything with drilling, etc., but he misses the real that God will provide. There’s no need to search for it, but man’s ignorance leads to greed, leads to destruction. Only in God is the true wisdom.
Arrogant people don’t see this. They don’t see the need in learning the truth about things. They are wrong. A lot of folks also don’t think that they can seek wisdom on their own. They rely too heavily on man to instruct them, when the greatest teacher is just waiting there for them to seek Him. That is where true wisdom is.
Wisdom in Fear of God—‘Where then does wisdom come from? Where does understanding dwell? It is hidden from the eyes of every living thing, concealed even from the birds of the air. Destruction and Death say, ‘Only a rumor of it has reached our ears.’ God understands the way to it and He alone knows where it dwells, for He views the ends of the earth and sees everything under the heavens. When He established the force of the wind and measured out the waters, when He made a decree for the rain and a path for the thunderstorm, then He looked at wisdom and appraised it; He confirmed it and tested it. And He said to man, ‘The fear of the Lord—that is wisdom, and to shun evil is understanding.’—Job 28:20-28 (Job is talking and he is right)
Notes: Everyone is looking in the wrong place! There are so many bad shepherds out there leading so many people away from God more and more each day. If you really think your church is leading you in the right direction, then answer this: Why don’t you fear the Lord? If you say you do fear the Lord, then you are lying. I can say that and not even know you! Do you want to know how? Because lying, stealing, manipulating, calling someone names and treating them badly, not helping someone who needs to be healed heal, ignoring what others do so you can look good in society, desiring money and riches…all of this is just a small grasp of how you do NOT fear God! If you feared Him, you wouldn’t be doing these things. These things are things of evil…that which you are not understanding.
Job’s Former Prosperity—Job continued his discourse: ‘How long for the months gone by, for the days when God watched over me, when His lamp shone upon my head and by His light I walked through darkness! Oh, for the days when I was in my prime, when God’s intimate friendship blessed my house, when the Almighty was still with me and my children were around me, when my path was drenched with cream and the rock poured out for me streams of olive oil.’—Job 29:1-6 (Job is talking and he is right)
Note: This is when Job had his riches, like when I had my family and house. God changes everything when He needs you to do something for Him. He will take everything from you. And what does society do? They call you a failure and a loser! And this is the furthest from the truth. God is at work in your life and He is calling for you to do something. Don’t think in a million years that YOU are not worthy of God’s attention! I thought this! Oh, how I thought this! Having God’s full attention on you is earth shattering! It’s NOT a walk in the park! He will not only strip you of all your things, career, friends, family, but also your pride and ego and vanity! He will make you cry! Damn straight. He will force you down and face your sins…ALL of them!
Then this awesome thing happens! You feel the spiritual world. You get messages constantly….by hearing! You are shown so many special things that you just want to scream and share! You WANT to boast because God’s hand is on you! And it’s so magnificent! And do you know what? No one cares! They don’t care! They call you a witch and ignore you. They shun you on social media and make you scared to share the truth about God and Jesus! Here’s what I say: Fuck you! God is MORE important than your sorry, earth-bound ass! And yes, God’s hand is on me! And He’s smiling that I’m bold enough to tell you the truth! Your judgment of me is on you! [You don’t think He approves of me using the four-letter word? Here’s a special memo: He GAVE us that four-letter word! What you thought man thought that word up? Man thinks nothing up! God gives us everything!]
Job’s Former Esteem—‘When I went to the gate of the city and took my seat in the public square, the young men saw me and stepped aside and the old men rose to their feet; the chief men refrained from speaking and covered their mouths with their hands; the voices of the nobles were hushed, and their tongues stuck to the roof of their mouths. Whoever heard me spoke well of me, and those who saw me commended me, because I rescued the poor who cried for help, and the fatherless who had none to assist him. The man who was dying blessed me; I made the widow’s heart sing. I put on righteousness as my clothing; justice was my robe and my turban. I was eyes to the blind and feet to the lame. I was a father to the needy; I took up the case of the stranger. I broke the fangs of the wicked and snatched the victims from their teeth.
I thought, ‘I will die in my own house, my days as numerous as the grains of sand. My roots will reach to the water, and the dew will lie all night on my branches. My glory will remain fresh in me, the bow ever new in my hand. Men listened to me expectantly, waiting in silence for my counsel. After I had spoken, they spoke no more; my words fell gently on their ears. They waited for me as for showers and drank in my words as the spring rain. When I smiled at them, they scarcely believed it; the light of my face was precious to them. I chose the way for them and sat as their chief; I dwelt as a king among his troops; I was like one who comforts mourners.’—Job 29:7-25 (Job is talking and he is right)
Note: In 2007, I wrote: Job must have been an advocate of some sort. Little did I know about anything biblical. No, he’s talking about how people respected him before God decided to let Satan have its way with him. I relate…no…scratch that…I’m in duplication to a point. Before God took me to rebuild me, I was respected. I had a nice home, a beautiful family, I was educated and well read, a soldier, a teacher. God changed all that! Totally.
During the process, you have no idea what’s going on. Everyone is against you suddenly. You become this voice of intolerance. ‘Fuck this!’ And you run wild a bit! I know I did. I was this up-standing member of society and one man changes his mind and doesn’t think it affects anyone! That’s how I thought. I became this outspoken voice on abuse and narcissism! Then God showed me all around sin by way of Satan, but I asked for Him early on and I had little crumbs thrown at me by Jesus and slowly I began to see the process.
When God wants you, He will shake your world up! And He will keep shaking you until you get the memo, ‘Hey dude, I’m calling you, answer the phone!’ It steadily rings until you DO pick it up! Well, a lot changed since then. And He very well told me they won’t like me. And they don’t according to some. According to others, those who are of God, they know different. Satan’s kids don’t like me at all! Oh, well. God wins. He does. He’s in charge of everything, even Satan! So, middle finger up to those lost in their hurt. Heal…you’ll feel better!
Side Note: The picture was taken September 17, 2019. I have plenty like this. I imagine that back in the days when those who wrote the Bible no one knew what the hand of God on them looked like because there were no cameras. But if you read them carefully, you get an idea. He doesn’t appear in every picture, but He has me take a lot of self pictures so that He is captured. I feel David’s presence all the time. Go to my website and learn about him. I didn’t make him up! There are a lot of these pictures that I haven’t put up on my website. That website was claimed by God…Yes, I am going to say it like that. It was supposed to be about promoting my books. He changed that. I’m not a witch or possessed or any other crazy things people have in their heads. I’m to teach you about Him in a way that the earth churches leave out. I’m not going to fight man. God says I don’t have to. He says you will know in time. And He doesn’t lie!
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