‘What’s Inside’

Point: Gehazi did wrong. Elisha ended up with the silver!

What's Inside
I failed a million times
over each drawn line
I learned in my mind
‒my abilities refined
into honest, fine wine
but how would I know
this heart is really gold
without others around‒
proving I'm not a clown
that I won't fold
just to fit in...like so
how can I tell
I won't slip back into hell
scream, yell
because someone else
our tests come‒
time after time
all from the divine
to keep us in line
'what will you do?'
the constant question
on the line
will you steal that candy
will you skip paying that bill
will you have that sex‒
after all…she's throwing the bet
will you kiss those lips
‒the husband won't get a tip
will you cheat on that test
will you hide that money
will you lie to get by
what will you do?
God† is always right on time
with the rescue
if given Jesus† the time
but also adhere to the rhyme
‒He'll† test
see your drawn line
then see how far you'll go‒
before the time is the....
right time
for your lesson in divine
it could take a lifetime
or in a moment's time
but it will come‒
the consequence
for your broken vine
‒with or without
another pair of eyes!

Note: The photographs were taken November 9: Certainty of Visions. A reflection in the water behind me: The bride and Groom and the face in between. Interesting. A sign of Jesus is the dove, the bride and groom: Jonah. He sent the dove on several occasions…He sent Himself as well!

(July 28)—Gehazi’s SinAfter Naaman had traveled some distance, Gehazi, the servant of Elisha the man of God, said to himself, ‘My master was too easy on Naaman, this Aramean, by not accepting from him what he brought. As surely as the Lord lives, I will run after him and get something from him.’ So Gehazi hurried after Naaman. When Naaman saw him running toward him, he got down from the chariot to meet him. ‘Is everything all right?’ he asked. ‘Everything is all right,’ Gehazi answered. ‘My master sent me to say, ‘Two young men from the company of the prophets have just come to me from the hill country of Ephraim. Please give them a talent [about 75 pounds] of silver and two sets of clothing.”

‘By all means, take two talents,’ said Naaman. He urged Gehazi to accept them, and then tied up the two talents of silver in two bags, with two sets of clothing. He gave them to two of his servants, and they carried them ahead of Gehazi. When Gehazi came to the hill, he took the things from the servants and put them away in the house. He sent the men away and they left. Then he went in and stood before his master Elisha. ‘Where have you been, Gehazi?’ Elisha asked. ‘Your servant didn’t go anywhere,’ Gehazi answered. But Elisha said to him, ‘Was not my spirit with you when the man got down from his chariot to meet you? Is this the time to take money, or to accept clothes, olive groves, vineyards, flocks, herds, or menservants and maidservants? Naaman’s leprosy will cling to you and to your descendants forever.’ Then Gehazi went from Elisha’s presence and he was leprous, as white as snow.—2 Kings 5:19b-27/2843


Interesting. Isn’t it? The above Passage. I have been asking, quite a bit actually, when will my ‘alone time’ end. And I know the answer. I just don’t want to acknowledge it. That aged-old question I often have asked in my writing: ‘What will it take to humble me?’ God presented the answer: ‘Aloneness.’

The virus. Oh, so much confusion out there. I read articles that David directs me to, then I sit on the sidelines and wait. The answer is so obvious, yet no one is actually paying attention, or so it seems.


That’s the answer. Everything, for a while now, has been moving way too fast and the one thing that should be on the top is not: God! Oh, He’s there in your churches so they can get that money. I’ve been to a variety of churches and they all are in the same business…Money! They present Jesus and God, but money is the number one. If money wasn’t, then they wouldn’t have such a dramatic presentation, it would be simple. If money wasn’t, then they would not leave things out of the Scriptures they present, but they do, misleading their flocks to the pit. Shame!


Everything is moving way too fast. They can’t possibly know the right behavior of this virus because it has changed dramatically without reason and they can’t explain it because the change happened all at once throughout the entire world. G…open your eyes…GOD! He wanted the scientists to know that it was HIM causing such a mess…but they missed that part.

I was sent a video by a preacher in Florida declaring God didn’t sent this plague! He is a bad shepherd! There will be so many of these preaching false information. It is on the individual level for you to decide if you know God or not. His wrath is upon us. How I know? He told me!

‘What’s Inside’…that is the question He is looking to see. He knows. But we always have a choice. I know that is a bit complex for you, but you do have a choice: the right way or the wrong way. That direction is for you to take. He does know which direction you will go. He knows your thoughts before you think them.

So, what’s in your heart? Do you actually know? I thought I knew what was in my family’s hearts. I really did. I really believed that they had unconditional love for me. Oh, my sisters…how wrong I was. I love my sisters. I really do. And I want them to heal over everything else. They refuse. Why? Why would they not understand if they don’t heal, they are messing with where their souls are going? What drives people to the wrong side? People who claim they know the Lord, yet clearly don’t? And because I’m told to educate them, they completely tune me out! I argue with the Lord that I don’t want to continue doing this. He says, ‘Do.’

And truly, I can say that all I want, the Lord knows I’m going to do it! It’s just who I am.

Lies. Do you really think you will get away with your lies, deception, manipulation? Really? Are you that vain? Do you know that Satan’s number one sin was pride? Do you know what pride is? You lying…baby, that’s pride. You treating your parents, your siblings, your friend, your lover, your spouse bad is pride! That phrase ‘get over yourself’ is ALL about pride!

All those who lied to me, it was all revealed to me. Then when I confronted them, they began their manipulation appeal: ‘Oh, she knows, but no one else will know because I’ve convinced everyone she’s crazy!’ Well, guess what, that ‘everyone else’ doesn’t matter! God matters! And He disclosed the lies. And you further added scars on your hearts for denying that the truth was made known! That process…is damn-straight scary!

Point: It happened to me. There is ZERO chance that I’m diving into that rabbit hole just to be nice and help cover up more pain! NO! If the truth is revealed to me, it’s because God is calling it out and He wants you healed! Why wouldn’t you WANT to heal?

The Lord called me out on ALL of my iniquities! ALL of them. One by one I had to go through them, lay them all out on the table and then deal with myself!

Here’s the kicker to that: Now! Now, I won’t allow anyone to use me, to lie to me, to manipulate me, to fish for gossip from me. How do I do that? I don’t care! I give it to God and I say the truth. So, if a child of mine calls and still won’t acknowledge the truth, I will not give in and pretend all is good. It is not! Why? Apparently, that’s called child abuse, by the way!

Well, here is the slice of pie from heaven: Do you see all that rioting and protesting and destruction going on in America? That is the direct result of bad parenting, and a society that has developed this ‘all-is-equal’ generation along side the ‘give-me-I-deserve-it-without-earning-it’ generation. So, all these young adults, like in their 20s truly believe they DESERVE to drive a $50,000 car, have a high-rise apartment or $200,000 house and the furnishings, and have the best clothes and dine out at the best places…ALL AT ONCE! That’s right. And when they can’t have that, they protest, they throw a hissy-fit!

This is happening in America. Do you want to know why a virus is still well alive and getting stronger? There you have it. Exactly what today’s Scripture means! They GOT TO HAVE IT! And when they are confronted with their actions, they lie, they protest, they act out…hissy-fits on a grand scale!

This acting out isn’t about a skin color! Not at all! It’s about not getting their way!

Where have all the adults gone? Away! Because the next generation up from these young adults are the ones who created them and they are no better because they refuse to admit they were bad parents. Oh, the Clinton, Bush and Obama administrations created all this. ‘No Child Left Behind’…you can’t wipe your child, discipline them! All are equal! All gets the prize! These parents stood in lines for days in freezing weather just to get the FIRST of something! That’s the parents of today’s young adults!

When you look at the Untied States, you are looking at a world of ‘give me, give me’ and narcissism! Why? Look at the headlines. Human trafficking is on an all-time high. Drugs is on an all-time high. The constant taking away of liberties…oh that would be privately-owned business being forced to change their products because it ‘OFFENDS” someone! This is constantly going on. I mean one company had to shell-out a million dollars because some dumb woman spilled her ‘hot‘ coffee at the drive-up! Here in the west, we have paper straw because the plastic straws damages the planet, yet a virus killing people isn’t a concern! That’s America!

Why am I writing this? The visions. All that David explains to me. God is fed-up with the behavior of this country. Why? Because He created it! This country is the one country ALL other countries look at. It IS the new Babylon and the Lord has it on His chopping block!

Confusion! Confusion is knowing that God is in charge of ALL things. So, He is in charge of the good and the bad! He’s in control of all the good people and He is the one who sends in the slaughterers! Isn’t that something!

The break down: Jesus is over all individual. To get to the kingdom, you must…MUST…go through Him. If you don’t believe in Him, then I can’t help you and neither can anyone else. You, all you banging your head against the wall in Jerusalem, you are wasting your time! You, all in the desert thinking Jesus is JUST a prophet, you are wasting your time. You, who think Jesus didn’t even exist, oh my! you are really in trouble! I can’t help you and no one else can either.

God is over ALL nations. Yes, ALL NATIONS! If they are good or bad, God is in charge. If they deny His Son, they deny Him. He leaves them sitting there in confusion. They lack wisdom and courage to do right. It is easier for them to do wrong, so they rape, pillage, kill, cause trouble, deceive, lie, manipulate…all those evil things that Satan loves to do. God hands them over because they are in death and God is NOT the god of the dead!

God is in charge of ALL the testing! God does ALL the testing! He will drop you on your ass faster than you can say GOD! He does that. He is over Satan. He allows Satan to mess with you. Why? To test you. To see what’s inside. If your CHURCH hasn’t warned you, then they are lying to you about all of it. Yes, God is great, awesome! And what makes Him more awesome is that He loves us enough to ensure that our hearts get cleaned! Hence, Jesus! Jesus is LOVE. He is also the judge of the individual! And His judgment is harsh! He didn’t knock those money tables over because He’s always nice!

Hard-love is the most difficult and those of us who dish it out, aren’t liked very much! You know the rules. You know the royal law: Love! It IS the most difficult. To judge…you judging…that is not love. I can’t tell you how many people I know who judged me because I made them uncomfortable, all because they couldn’t handle the truth. They want to come at me with their man-made church rules, but they don’t sit and think about who GOD is. It’s all right there in the Bible! And if you learn Him, then you SEE Him in your life, in the life of everyone. He’s always at work. Trust me, He never sleeps. Look at my life…look at all the writing I do. I write for HIM!

‘What’s Inside’…When I learned what’s inside of those I thought loved me, my heart broke to pieces. I fought them. With my kids, it’s just through text…then I learned to step back. In God’s world, we are parents first, friends second to our children. I will never allow another individual to take that from me. I was given children to care for, to get their souls to heaven. I don’t give a damn about those who want to fight against that. My mother…she did that for me! She made sure I respected her in every way and when I did disrespect her, she made me understand why and she helped me through it. She did that for me. Yes, there were several who tried to come in and change my thoughts about my mom. My ex husband, my sisters, my nanny, my aunts…and do you know what? She’s my mother and no one can make me change my heart except for me! My mother never did anything that wasn’t for my own good. I know that and have always understood that, even when I got mad at her. People that get between a child and their parent…are just not right in the head!

I learned what’s on the inside of people from my children to my father to my sisters and their children to people I called my friend. I set myself up for disappointment. I trusted all except the one I needed to trust the most: Jesus! He is always reminding me: Trust me Karen Elizabeth! And it’s really hard because patience has never been my strong suit. I’m learning that it takes a lifetime to fall into that total of trust. I no longer put my trust in humans. I was shown the hard way that they are all going through lessons and, at times, I’m not to be a part of them, and at other times, I was part of the test. I was anxious and impatience. Now, I see through people fast. I see that their tests are not done. And I listen to the Lord who says, ‘It’s not time.’

Did you learn anything? I write for you, to help you through. The Lord guides me. I hope that my straight-up ways get to you, just a little bit. The world I live in is not kind when other people are involved. When it’s just me and the Lord, peace. He brings people into my life to pass on a lesson. I pray for the day to come when all the lessons have been written about and I can finally live and enjoy other people without them wanting anything from me…except love. I’ll know that time has arrived when I feel it.

Point: Gehazi did wrong. Elisha ended up with the silver!

The following works are direct writings from God and Jesus, meaning I heard them speak and these words are not mine.

God: (2019)  ‘A Bid for the People‘, A Prophet’s Dew‘,  ‘Brave in the Snatch‘ (bus story warning), Prophecy’s Awakeness‘, Tests of Worth‘; (2020) ‘Blessings‘, ‘Busy‘, ‘Death-Toll Rise’,  ‘Failure’s Birth‘, ‘Fallen Traps’, ‘From Left to Right’, ‘God† is Father‘, ‘He† Speaks‘, ‘He† Speaks to Me‘, His† Fellowship’, His† Pardon‘, ‘His† Time‘,  ‘I Am Truth’s Voice‘ (3 separate messages from both), ‘Initiation‘, ‘Mercy Granted‘, No Exchanges: Your Masks for Mine, ‘Noose‘,  ‘Oh! Sorrowful Heart!,  ‘On the Ground‘,  ‘Open Structure‘, ‘Pillage of Souls’,  ‘Pleading for Audience‘,  ‘Smells of Manure‘ (both), ‘Spinning Heart‘, ‘The Lord’s† Will‘, ‘The Seer’,  ‘Twenty, Twenty‘ (commentary), ‘Uprest: Non-Negotiable’,What Is: Is!‘, ‘Who Am I?’

Jesus: (2019) ‘His† Spirit’; (2020) ‘Decided,  ‘Feeding Them‘, Foreseeing’s Agony’, ‘He† Breathes‘, ‘He† Speaks Softly’, ‘Inhuman Love’ [Jesus’ words in commentary], ‘Love Exists’,  ‘My Feet‘,  ‘Rotten Figs‘, ‘Sheba’s Matter‘, ‘Slow it Down‘, ‘Small Miracle‘, ‘Spiritual Blessing‘, Stamped Heart‘, ‘Swagger’s Dance‘, ‘The Adjunct‘, ‘The Clown‘, ‘The Sound of Songs‘,  ‘Words’ Song‘, You’ve Come‘,

Dreams/Visions: ‘Backlash’ (My Crucifixion Vision); (August 2019) Visions; (2020) March 22: Four Disc Dream, ‘Hard-head’ (Jack-ass vision),This ‘If’ By-Law’ (Apr. 25: Virus Vision), June 17, 2020: Black Body Bag Vision, June 26: U.S. Presidential Wake Vision; April 11: the Jackass Dream; January 21: Aladdin’s Genie Lamp

Below is a list of all the pages and subpages included on God’s Mercy

August 2019: Visions From God!June 17, 2020: Black Body Bag VisionJune 26: Presidential Wake Vision; April 11: the Jackass Dream; January 21: Aladdin’s Genie LampDavid: My Spiritual GuideGod Sends Love OrbsGod, the Sun and Me; October 23, 2019: The Dragon and the All-Seeing Eye; November 11, 2019 : The Avenging Angel; December 10, 2019: The Dragon, Angel, Mom and Baby; Jesus’ Army and Jesus Sprinkles; March 1, 2020: Jesus Speaks and Reveals

My 5:55 Lake Visits: Messages Through Photographs; September 27, 2019: Love From Heaven; October 2, 2019: Wave Warning; October 7, 2019: Faces; October 8, 2019: Oil Spill Warning; October 15, 2019: The Phoenix; November 9, 2019: Certainty of Visions; Feb. 9, 2020: Rough Waters…Millions Will Die; My Aura: The Love of Jesus; The Rainbow Story: God’s Promise In the Sky (Will remain unpublished until it happens.); The Third Eye (Spiritual Gifts)

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