‘What Is: Is!’ (God)

What Is: Is! (God)
 
you question Me†
what is there to question
I† am
there is no one before Me†
 
go in peace
peace I† give you
it is
what is: is
you can't change what is
follow the way
I† set it before you
it is your choice
‒be humbled or not
 
listen and be humbled
let the power work on you
steady, slow, calm
there is more to come
before it all ends
 
it is already written
what is to come
the time is coming
the sun will no longer shine
the darkness will cover the sky
you will mourn in all the streets
no singing, no dancing
no brightness
no ruling
just sadness
‒a forced humble
 
you will learn
I† am the Alpha, the Omega
the one, true, living God†
this is the Lord†
the one, the only living God†
the center, the beginning
the end
no one comes before Me†
 
all the peoples‒
of all the nations
will learn what that means
the time has come
a generation to end
for a new earth is coming
 
My† Son† is waiting
patiently
for your choice
He† will not enter
until you choose

Note: The photograph was taken December 10, 2019. Another David driven walk for me. Starting from top to bottom: The Dragon, the Angel, Mom and Baby. All have meaning to me and it will have meaning to you after the promise is complete.

(July 7)—Again, I put the crosses by His name or any reference to Him, that would be God. It is something I must do. It’s 7/7…I didn’t realize it until after I sat to type this in. God number! Of course it is, that He would send word today. After I typed this in, I went into the kitchen begging the Lord to send me a sign, He said He would then on the stove clock: 3:33 a.m. Amen. Amen.

This past week it was put in my heart what my sisters had done. Since I was told about it and I wrote what I had to about it back in November, I put it out of my mind, then this week. God’s question: What will you do? But Jesus directed me to the passages about following Him no matter what…making me feel a bit guilty. Why? Because He asked me to reveal what my sisters did that made me the sacrificial lamb and I didn’t. Everyone in my family, including my children, are trying to make me into this crazy, insane person…and they are totally denying what happened. You can’t hide things from God. Sorry. It doesn’t work that way.

At the beginning of this week, the following scripture was put before me:

Confession Over Scapegoat—‘When Aaron has finished making atonement for the Most Holy Place, the Tent of Meeting and the altar, he shall bring forward the live goat. He is to lay both hands on the head of the live goat and confess over it all the wickedness and rebellion of the Israelites―all their sins―and put them on the goat’s head. He shall send the goat away into the desert in the care of a man appointed for the task. The goat will carry on itself all their sins to a solitary place; and the man shall release it in the desert.—Leviticus 16:20-22

Interesting…this literally happened to me. I was my family’s scapegoat, and God sent a man and he brought me to the desert and released me with their sins on my head. The symbolicness of God’s actions in history is telling us what is happening in our lives. We just have to learn to pay attention.

The curiousness of it all: If your 11-year-old daughter comes to you saying she may be pregnant because her 17-year-old cousin had sex with her, what would you do? Would you blame your daughter and say she deserved it? Would you blame your niece saying she asked for it? Would you do everything in your power to protect your son’s reputation and your own by denying an 11-year-old girl healing? Would you bow down and do the same, protect the boy and your reputation instead of your own daughter?

As far as I know, that’s statutory rape. How can a mother even fathom the aspect of her 11-year-old daughter making such an adult decision? Are we as a society willing to sacrifice our own daughters to protect the able, handsome, bright-futured boys? What kind of mothers are these to make such sacrifices and at the same time call themselves followers of Jesus Christ?

Then, if you were either of these mothers what would you do to cover up such a horrible decision? Would you do everything you can to direct the attention of your community away from you, even if that meant sacrificing an innocent person just because she fits the bill and she’s gullible enough for the role? How far would you go? Would you totally destroy that person’s life just to protect your horrible secret? Do you really think it will never come to the surface?

How about taking it even further? Would you allow that boy to marry an innocent person without telling that person what that boy is capable of? I am going to answer that question: Yes. Because it happened to me. The ex was 17 and the girl was 13. What did that boy turn out to be? A liar and a deceiver. Just the same as when he was 17.

That is what the Lord has been wanting me to talk about. To further stress His point, He directed me to the following scripture. Pay attention because Jesus said these things and God did these things…

This section of my Bible is titled: Sending Out Apostles

Need for Workers—Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness. When He saw the crowds, He had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. Then He said to His disciples, ‘The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into His harvest field.’—Matthew 9:35-38; Mark 6:6b

Note: He’s always calling on people. You just have to learn to listen. The Lord gave me 7 direct messages to give to others as I received a direct message from Him. I did NOT want to do it, but I can’t deny the Lord. Those that I delivered those messages to, they behaved exactly like I knew they would. God calls out for us to heal. All the messages I gave were basically about healing. I think that’s pretty special when God sends a direct message. It means He loves you enough to get a message through and someone loves Him enough to hear and deliver it. The Lord has shown me time and time again that His messengers always get the raw end of the deal, they are always persecuted. Nothing much has changed since the days of the Bible. The disbelief is vast and He still needs plenty of workers!

Apostles Given Power to Heal―[Mark] Calling the Twelve to Him, He sent them out two by two… [Matthew] and gave them authority to drive out evil spirits and to heal every disease and sickness.―Matthew 10:1-4; Mark 6:7; Luke 9:1,2

Note: If He called you, would you know? Do you think you wouldn’t know? Oh, trust me, you will know. What’s the hardest about being called is what comes along with that way before…feeling the pain and sorrow of others, or knowing it exists and not being able to do anything about it except take it on yourself…as if that will do those other people any good! It doesn’t…because of two things: shame and guilt. And those who carry guilt and shame around…it eats at them: they either live really loud or really quiet. I’ve witnessed both types and it is sad. For me, because I could always feel that something wasn’t right with a person if they carried these around, I could never totally relate to them because if I came out and said what I know, I would get condemned; and if I didn’t, I would get condemned. And these individuals were just about everyone I met. There is a lot of unhealed people walking around and the easiest thing for them to do is blame or put their guilt and pain on someone who is already healed or weaker than they are.

When I got separated and was in the middle of my anger stage, people constantly said ‘move on’ and don’t blame…bla, bla, bla. Even years after when I’d write about this experience I was accused of not being healed. According to some, I was still lost in anger and stuff like that. None of it was true. For one, I was married for twenty years to a man who lied about who he was. Second, he messed up four people’s lives and he blamed me and lied about everything. So, a person who goes through that has every right to be some kind of angry. I got over that. Taking that experience and sharing the truth of it is what God wanted me to do. I wrote it all down so I can’t deny any of it. Truth…people get their truth mixed up with mine. My truth, they call a lie. All because they are denying their truth. It is that simple.

My mom called for my sisters’ healing. Last year. Yeah, she died in April 2018. It’s that important to her. Once their secret was known, their hearts showed their true colors. If it was a lie, they’d be talking with me today and they wouldn’t lie to my children. They aren’t talking to me…one flat-out blocked me. And they are still lying to my children. Why? Because it hides their lies. As long as I’m the ‘crazy‘ one, no one will believe me. Fact: I’m not the one who denied rape! Especially to my own child! That’s crazy, but you won’t ever hear me say it to either of them. God will do that! Or better yet, Jesus. The sickles ARE in His hands!

Apostles Instructed—These twelve Jesus sent out with the following instructions: ‘Do not go among the Gentiles or enter any town of the Samaritans. Go rather to the lost sheep of Israel. As you go, preach this message: ‘The kingdom of heaven is near.’ Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received, freely give. Do not take along any gold or silver or copper in your belts; take no bag for the journey, or extra tunic, or sandals or a staff; for the worker is worth his keep. Whatever town or village you enter, search for some worthy person there and stay at his house until you leave. As you enter the home, give it your greeting. If the home is deserving, let your peace rest on it; if it is not, let your peace return to you. If anyone will not welcome you or listen to your words, shake the dust off your feet when you leave that home or town. I tell you the truth, it will be more bearable for Sodom and Gomorrah on the day of judgment than for that town.‘—Matthew 10:5-15; Mark 6:8-11; Luke 9:3-5

Note: ‘Raise the dead,’ He said. All the times He did that, literally raised the dead, it was symbolic to us resurrecting from our death, sin. Did you know that? I bet not many preachers tell you that. It’s just like the wall in Jerusalem. Not many preachers, if any, talk about its true meaning. When all of God’s wrath is over, and it will be, I will teach you the truth of this. And no, I’m not a preacher, nor have I ever went to school to be one. I have a teacher, though! His name is Jesus! And Him and His Father are a bit tired of the lies. The time has come for the truth because this cycle is ending and God wants as many souls saved as possible. This is His order. Not mine. All I have to do is plant the seeds and He will do the rest, so after His wrath is over…the planting begins…I will be part of the raising of the dead!

*Apostles Warned—’I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves. Be on your guard against men; they will hand you over to the local councils and flog you in their synagogues. On My account you will be brought before governors and kings as witnesses to them and to the Gentiles. But when they arrest you, do not worry about what to say or how to say it. At that time you will be given what to say, for it will not be you speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you. Brother will betray brother to death, and a father his child; children will rebel against their parents and have them put to death. All men will hate you because of Me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved. When you are persecuted in one place, flee to another. I tell you the truth, you will not finish going through the cities of Israel before the Son of Man comes.

‘A student is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master. It is enough for the student to be like his teacher, and the servant like his master. If the head of the house has been called Beelzebub, how much more the members of his household! So do not be afraid of them. There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known. What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs. Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. Whoever acknowledges Me before men, I will also acknowledge him before My Father in heaven. But whoever disowns Me before men, I will disown him before My Father in heaven.’—Matthew 10:16-33

Note: Two people that I dearly love denied Christ to me. Why? I don’t really know except to be mean, to say, ‘I’m going against Jesus because you are for Him.’ That is the wrong place to be. I won’t and will never deny Him. I know the two people I love will settle in their hearts their truth. And that is what is being asked of every soul on Earth: Settle…clean your heart of all the malice, of all the wickedness…find your honesty and stick to it.

It is wrong to take all your sins out on other people. My sisters put their sins on me. Why? Because they could. Because they are so ashamed and they can’t face the truth in front of their crowd, which are just as much sinners as they themselves are. I’m a sinner. I am not embarrassed to say what I did. I know that God brought me to those places to teach me. In my darkness, I fucked. That’s what I did to bargain away my reality. And I didn’t care. I took on that ‘man‘ mentality of fucking without emotions! I did that twice in my life. I did drank a lot of wine. But that wasn’t the sin that God wanted me in. He saved me from being a drunk! Trust me…I drank a LOT of wine! It was the human chip that He dealt to me. He wanted me to learn what narcissism. was. He wanted me to see what they did to bargain away their shame. He put me through it for a little over a year each time. Narcissist do it all their life. A least until they heal, which a lot never do.

Why am I saying this? For you to understand that it is never too late to heal, to invite Jesus in, but your heart has to be real. You have to reach that child heart. The one thing people don’t seem to truly get is that God knows what we say, do, think…He knows what we think before we do. Trust me on this. He answers me sometimes when the feeling of what I’m about to think starts. I laugh out loud and say, ‘I didn’t say anything!’ He tells me that I don’t have to. That’s awesomely amazing. And you should know this…I wonder why the churches don’t tell you this. Oh, because they like the dark as well!

Conflict and Sacrifice—‘Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn ‘a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law—a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household’ [Micah 7:6]. ‘Anyone who loves his father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me; and anyone who does not take his cross and follow Me is not worthy of Me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.’—Matthew 10:34-39

Note: This explains the sickles that I have seen three times now in His hands. He said in one of the writings that I did for Him that I didn’t understand when I first saw the sickles in His hands. I didn’t. Now I do. He meant everything He said while here on Earth. The man-made churches have changed what His meaning was. He’s love you and to love you sincerely, He disciplines. To love you correct, as God does, you must disciplined. This is something my family and my children do not understand. So, I imagine the rest of the world don’t either.

Receiving Apostles—‘He who receives you receives Me, and he who receives Me receives the one who sent Me. Anyone who receives a prophet because he is a prophet will receive a prophet’s reward, and anyone who receives a righteous man because he is a righteous man will receive a righteous man’s reward. And if anyone gives even a cup of cold water to one of these little ones because he is My disciple, I tell you the truth, he will certainly not lose his reward.’—Matthew 10:40-42

Note: You make your own choice of what you do and what you believe. For me, Jesus IS, God IS…there’s no dispute. Come against me and you will lose. Come against me, and the Father will deal with you. I’m here to deliver what is given to me. I’m not here to dispute you. I rebuke it all before it begins. Doing for the Lord is without question. If you don’t, it is your choice.

The Lord has been waiting for me to talk about what my sisters have done. I will talk more further down. He posed the question to me in so many ways: Do you love your family more than I? And then placed guilt on my heart. I tell Him that I love Him more. He says: Then why haven’t you done what I asked of you? His bargain is one hard one to do!

Apostles in Action―[Matthew] After Jesus had finished instructing His twelve disciples, He went on from there to teach and preach in the towns of Galilee. [Luke] So they set out and went from village to village, preaching the gospel and healing people everywhere.―Matthew 11:1; Mark 6:12,13; Luke 9:6

Note: You are bound to get the attention of people when you outwardly show your boldness to the world when it comes to Jesus and God. Don’t fear. In today’s world, there’s an interesting thing going on. The man-made churches (that would be the Catholics, and all those sorts…all organized religions are NOT what Jesus had in mind), they tell you parts of the Bible and some don’t even discuss the Bible at all. Still others have made their own books and call it their bible. There is ONLY ONE Bible, God’s book, and that book has many versions for many versions of people. It is. There’s no dispute here. That’s truth.

There are STILL a huge amount of people killing for believing in Jesus. Islam is one of them. Of course they are. I know their ancestry. They are the proven Gog of today’s society and God will use them when the time comes. The Lord said that we will learn about this deception from long ago. In one of the writings I did for God, He stated some of the obvious ones…in fact, one of the massive ones.

Why am I jumping to this topic? Because you can’t use your man-made church as a defense for your sins. I’ve heard it already, ‘I can sin seven times every day and still be forgiven.’ Wrong. Whoever is teaching that is teaching lies. God loves us all unconditionally…He does. And He will go to the extremes to discipline those He loves, and that discipline comes in the form of small set backs or huge wraths like a pandemic or a huge earthquake in four areas of the world all at the same time! It is up to you to recognize hate and love. Hate…tears you to pieces for no reason at all. Love may break your heart but builds you at the same time. Jesus said to know the difference. And it’s your job to know the difference…LEARN the difference.

The following set of Scriptures I was led to a few days ago and I was so taken by them that I lost my place in what I was doing and didn’t type in a whole section, which I had to go back and correct today. Part of what I was to type in was these Scriptures. God always has a reason. He really wanted me to pay attention to what was happening here.

John the Baptist. He was brought back from the dead after King Herod had him beheaded. I didn’t get it right away. A few days ago was the first time I had read this since 2007. When I saw that John the Baptist was beheaded, I was stricken with sadness for a few days. And what happened with my sisters kept coming up over and over. I knew the Lord wanted me to see a correlation between the two and I had a very hard time.

After a few days of thinking, I sat to write about these, but God had something else in mind: ‘What Is: Is!’ He wanted His say. Then He said to write about it, only I had to include my sisters.

Herod Curious About Jesus―[Mark] King Herod heard about this, for Jesus‘ name had become well known. Some were saying, ‘John the Baptist has been raised from the dead, and that is why miraculous powers are at work in him.’ Others said, ‘He is Elijah.’ And still others claimed, ‘He is a prophet, like one of the prophets of long ago.’ But when Herod heard this, he said, ‘John, the man I beheaded, has been raised from the dead!’ [Luke]…’I beheaded John. Who, then, is this I hear such things about?’ And he tried to see him.―Matthew 14:41,2; Mark 6:14-16; Luke 9:7-9

Note: This passage hit me hard. Because John is at work long after Jesus resurrects, and Jesus makes a comment about John living until He comes again, and many questioned if John still walks the Earth today. I had forgotten that He was beheaded. This proves the worth of John…if you don’t know what that means, then you really don’t know who God is. He values each of us in a different way, and that value depends on how we have lived our lives.

I went through this process with Him. I call it a process because I saw the process only after it was over. I began to experience this awesome, but confusing spiritual deal and after I finished questioning exactly whom I was hearing and speaking to, and after I received enough confirmations that it was indeed the heavenly kingdom, I began to question my worth. ‘Who am I to receive such a blessing?’ I didn’t feel worthy enough for such a calling. I mean I still question this. All the great servants of the Lord were priests and schooled, or so I thought. Amos wasn’t. He was a simple shepherd. Samuel was a boy. The Lord has done every single thing imaginable to reveal to me my worth. I have come to accept it. The Lord called me. His Son called me as well. Who am I to dispute them? So, I went through nearly a year of debate, tears, argument to fully comprehend that I’m indeed worthy of being called to service by our Lord.

So on to the why behind Herod beheading a prophet….

Death of John the Baptist―[Mark] For Herod himself had given orders to have John arrested, and he had him bound and put in prison. He did this because of Herodias, his brother Philip’s wife, whom he had married. For John had been saying to Herod, ‘It is not lawful for you to have your brother’s wife.’ So Herodias nursed a grudge against John and wanted to kill him. But she was not able to, because Herod feared John and protected him, knowing him to be a righteous and holy man. When Herod heard John, he was greatly puzzled; yet he liked to listen to him. Finally the opportune time came. On his birthday Herod gave a banquet for his high officials and military commanders and the leading men of Galilee.

When the daughter of Herodias came in and danced, she pleased Herod and his dinner guests. The king said to the girl, ‘Ask me for anything you want, and I’ll give it to you.’ And he promised her with an oath, ‘Whatever you ask I will give you, up to half my kingdom.’ She went out and said to her mother, ‘What shall I ask for?’ ‘The head of John the Baptist,’ she answered. At once the girl hurried in to the king with the request: ‘I want you to give me right now the head of John the Baptist on a platter.’ The king was greatly distressed, but because of his oaths and his dinner guests, he did not want to refuse her. So he immediately sent an executioner with orders to bring John’s head. The man went, beheaded John in the prison, and brought back his head on a platter. He presented it to the girl, and she gave it to her mother. [Matthew] John’s disciples came and took his body and buried it.―Matthew 14:3-12a; Mark 6:17-29

Note: As in the Scripture about the scapegoat above, the same goes here. My sisters basically beheaded me because of society. They loved me, sort of, because I was their sister but because they feared society so much, they were willing to put me into the societal prison of ignore for years, then when the time came that worked in their favor, a narcissist ex pleading his case that he’s not a narcissist or gay, they jumped on it. The truth: that I lived with this man for twenty years and slept by his side every single night did not once cross their minds. Their intelligence went completely out the window because they themselves had a secret to hide. It didn’t matter that I was and will always be smarter than them. It didn’t matter, doesn’t matter, that I lived my own life and didn’t need to do anything to prove who I was. It didn’t matter that I had a life and valued that life. Society and all of the cliques mattered more. Sin…SIN and the secrets of the darkness will make anyone do the most hideous things to cover up their guilt and shame. And that is beheading their own sister, their own mother. It doesn’t matter! I lived it. It is. You can’t deny truth.

The facts: I was a damn good mother. I was a damn good wife. I worked for every single thing I had. I never did anyone wrong. My children were outstanding children who paved their own ways, and are very independent, able citizens.

Those things do not matter to people who are using you to cover up their sins…their dark secrets. I didn’t do my sisters a damn thing except write the truth. I never went around calling them crazy or telling their kids they are bad mothers and insane…but my sisters did. And they are the ones who bare the burden of sin. An eleven-year-old girl is an eleven year old girl, not a woman. a seventeen-year-old boy should know the difference, should know since his mother took him to church what sin is, what rape is.

Rape…if a person takes advantage of another person who is drunk, ill, or not mature enough to know what is happening…it is rape.

Bad parenting: Covering up rape. Telling an eleven-year-old girl that she asked for rape, that she desired it, that she has a crush on the boy who should have known better. Covering up and not allowing healing to happen. Allowing a child to believe they are just a bad child. Lying about rape.

Bad hearts: Using an innocent person to cover up their own shame and guilt because they feared so much what society will think of them. Well, bad news, God knows anyway and He wants you to heal.

Apostles’ Return and Report―[Luke] When the apostles returned, they reported to Jesus what they had done. [Mark] Then, because so many people were coming and going they did not even have a chance to eat, He said to them, ‘Come with Me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.’ So they went away by themselves in a boat… [John] to the far shore of the Sea of Galilee (that is, the Sea of Tiberias), [Mark] to a solitary place. But many who saw them leaving recognized them and ran on foot from all the towns and got there ahead of them.―Matthew 14:12b,13; Mark 6:30-33; Luke 9:10,11a; John 6:1

Notes: I feel terrible about this disclosure. The Lord says, ‘No.’ I have a bit of confusion about this whole thing because we are taught, ‘Hush, what happens in a family, stays in a family.’ The Lord says, ‘No.’ This part is the hardest part because in all the writings I’ve done, 14 books now, tradition has always been on the chopping block. So, a message to my sisters: Heal. You lied to society. You lied to God. You lied to your own children. You lied to your own mother. You lied to your own spouses. Heal.

There. Done!

This is what the Lord has been after since November. I had refused. I posted that my sisters had a grave sin and that their mother was calling on them to heal from it. I refused to say anything about the sin because there’s one person who is innocent in this whole thing and she doesn’t deserve any of this. But she has to heal as well…and her mother didn’t allow her that. Her own nanny didn’t allow that. So, God sent a messenger to force the issue.

I follow Jesus. I don’t plan on ever seeing my family again. They didn’t have a right to lie to my children. They didn’t have a right to use me and my children to cover up their mistakes. I didn’t make any mistakes. I got divorced. God removed the poison. But not only that, God moved me to learn sin. Before my divorce, I didn’t even come close to knowing. He wanted me aware of truth in order to write about His process, the five stages of grief…what He does to each of us in order to humble us. It doesn’t matter the gossip of a small town and the hypocrisy…a person goes to confess their sins then they aren’t suppose to return to sinning. That is the way it works! But that isn’t what is happening. God isn’t a fool…Jesus, I should say. He holds the sickles. Amen.

The following works are direct writings from God and Jesus, meaning I heard them speak and these words are not mine.

God: (2019) ‘A Bid for the People‘, A Prophet’s Dew‘, ‘Brave in the Snatch‘ (bus story warning), ‘Prophecy’s Awakeness‘, Tests of Worth‘; (2020) ‘Blessings‘, ‘Busy‘, ‘Death-Toll Rise’, ‘Failure’s Birth‘, ‘Fallen Traps’, ‘From Left to Right’, ‘God† is Father‘, ‘He† Speaks‘, ‘He† Speaks to Me‘, ‘His† Fellowship’, ‘His† Pardon‘, ‘His† Time‘, ‘I Am Truth’s Voice‘ (3 separate messages from both), ‘Initiation‘, ‘No Exchanges: Your Masks for Mine‘, ‘Noose‘, ‘On the Ground‘, ‘Open Structure‘, ‘Pillage of Souls’, ‘Pleading for Audience‘, ‘Smells of Manure‘ (both), ‘Spinning Heart‘, ‘The Lord’s† Will‘, ‘The Seer’, ‘Twenty, Twenty‘ (commentary), ‘Uprest: Non-Negotiable’, ‘What Is: Is!‘, ‘Who Am I?’