God’s Mercy

Would You Trust Yourself Enough To Let Yourself Go And Let The Universe Led You To It’s Secrets, It’s Wonders? Would You?

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 The Point of Awakening
 
He† asked me
to reveal‒
secrets in seal
take the letter opener
slash
‒break the seal
 
it's all a matter
of real
‒jotting down
the whole deal
 
feelings...all in
surreal
who's coming–
consuming me
–their last meal
 
eyes all around–
I feel
‒and none there
for the thrill
 
who cares–
it's all
for the heal
‒the passion
in chill
–the very bones
in kneel
 
Jesus†
take the wheel

for unlock–
will go the seal
each and every thrill
–secrets told
to heal

(September 16, 2019)—God’s Mercy. Meditation. The Mind. Scripture. Spiritual Guides (David). Orbs (green ones…the heart, gold ones….being, without the constraints of the ego, white ones…night-time!). The Sun. Spiritual Gifts (the third eye). Auras. Visions (A Plea to Heal). Impressions. Spiritual Symbols. Jesus Sprinkles. Hearing. Seeing. Faith. Belief. Love. The Bible. Hope. Knowing. Truth.

All of the above subjects are topics that this page and all its sub-pages are about. It’s all about healing and there is so much to tell you, so much to teach, and I’ve been having a hard time, spiritually, with how am I, a sinner, going to tell the world what I’m experiencing and not create chaos, not create hostility? Already, I’ve been writing for God for over 10 years and I’ve gained next to nothing when it comes to any kind of audience. So, How are they going to hear me? No one is reading me. How will they believe me? I’ve had to put my whole life out there, even when it was in chaos? This has been my case, which I having been putting before God over and over in pitiful bouts of tears and sadness.

[NOTE: This is going to be long. Of course, all my work is long. I’m truly beginning to see why I received God’s call. Simple-minded [Those who can’t pay attention to two pages of text won’t be able to comprehend matters of God…they are already lost! Makes sense.] will bypass God’s warnings, to become easy prey for that evil whore! That’s just fact. I write for God…it’s up to you to understand that! I don’t have to convince you.]

 Unexamined Thoughts
 
what is it...that we ponder
when we think about
the world beyond
do we sit around–
just guess
or do we do
what...we're supposed to
–let it all come to us
 
it's just a question–
is there a sense of urgency
or is there avoidance
–a fear without bothering
with mercy
 
can you really think
of such a thing
instead of listening–
bells that ring
–to anything?
just sit in the silence
of nothing?
 
do you drive yourself mad
‒in its pondering
let others make you sad
by their outward guessing
of...what's in you...bothering
 
is it really worth the argument
the craziness...unsettlement
 
wouldn't it be just easier
living life fuller‒
in living life right
letting it all happen...outright
without worries at night
listening to the heart
follow it like a knight
instead of tearing yourself apart
–treading waters in the dark
 
the answers are in the light
–it comes to you outright
when you're living right
easier...this unexplainable insight

As an educated woman, a teacher and journalist, I’m for concrete evidence. The who, what, when, where, and how of things! So, I pleaded for the concrete. The above subjects is what I got! I pleaded more and more…The society we live in today takes spiritual happenings with a grain of salt! There’s so much fake and wanna-bes out there. These beautiful, magical gifts that I’m being given aren’t going to wake anyone up!

Taken September 9, 2019, 5:50:50 p.m., at a lake here in Las Vegas. See God Sends Love Orbs for more details about this photograph.

I wrote ‘Unexamined Thoughts’ September 8th, but my argument with the Lord has gone on for years, way before I knew what was actually happening to me. My book series is proof of that. But that was writing about the five stages of grief…what I’m experiencing now is a much larger and bigger deal. Of course, how silly of me! It’s ALL about the five stages of grief, isn’t it!? We can’t heal unless we truly understand what is happening to us! We can’t heal if we don’t know how!

I’m not going to sit here and try to plea my case with you. You either believe or not. This page and all its sub-pages will give the concrete evidence I asked for. I didn’t start receiving orbs until I asked over and over for something, anything, to help me feel secure that what is happening to me is coming from God! And my pleading came because of my meditation experience, which isn’t like anything I’ve read about, so I’ve been scared and confused. God does have a way of showing His truth!

Taken September 9, 2019, 9:00:34 a.m., outside my apartment. See God Sends Love Orbs for more details about this photograph.

I’ve written about David, my spiritual guide, for a couple of weeks now. I said I will write more about him, in fact, there’s a whole page I’m dedicating to him. Anyway, he’s brought me comfort these past weeks as I struggle to understand my human role in all of this. This morning, as always when I have questions, I opened my Bible and there is Romans. A bowed-head moment!

David Recognized GraceDavid says the same thing when he speaks of the blessedness of man to whom God credits righteousness apart from works: ‘Blessed are they whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered. Bless is the man whose sin the Lord will never count against him.’ —Romans 4:6-8

I learned of David’s name byway of the Bible. So, to be directed to this particular page in the Bible with David being the first thing that I see, brought a huge smile to my face! And…it wasn’t just that…what Romans 4:6-8 talks about…WOW! This answers my argument with God and Jesus and David that I’m not worthy of such a task. My constant questions: Who am I to talk about such things? I’ve done the naked picture thing, the sexual immoral deal, the lying deal, the divorce deal…Who will believe anything I have to say? No one is reading me. Why come through me? I don’t have a big enough audience. I’m an introvert. I am deathly afraid to do videos. How am I, of all people, going to teach them things that will go against all their beliefs? I cuss and argue. I’m a sinner!

Then Romans 4:6-8!

Taken September 9, 2019, 5:56:01 p.m., at a lake here in Las Vegas. See God, the Sun and Me and God Sends Love Orbs for more details about this photograph.

God speaks all the time. Those who listen are condemned as being Jesus freaks! They are ignored and cased out of society by ostracization! The word popularity doesn’t apply to God and Jesus or the spiritual world. All that is of God is taken out of the societal equation because people want to sin, they like that evil whore’s recipe better than God’s. For a while, it’s more fun, easier, we get rich and have toys, and can have sex with anyone we want…multiples of them! Only…our bodies turn to dust sooner or later, and there remaining is a soul…a real spiritual being. No one is bothering about that! Why? Oh, hell, I know! I’m miss-know-it-all after all! Human beings don’t want to acknowledge anything beyond skin and bones! They are afraid! Silly…really!

Here’s an example: I wrote about my heart. A bunch of times since my bad reaction to a medication. I wrote about the broken valve that is no longer broken. I’ve read other people who also experienced these magical miracles. My doctor called it luck! Yeah, right! A heart value doesn’t just fix itself! Many other people can attest to miracles such as this, but the world just ignores it. It’s chalked up to dumb luck or a medical miracle…a wonder doctor! Strange…INDEED!

Then those who have had so much happen to them from childhood rape, to beatings, to death, to…the list goes on and on…they have given up hope. Why? Oh, that would be the fucking society of people who think they are smarter than God! They work for that evil whore and don’t give a shit about anything but themselves! (There’s a taste of my fuck-you church!)

Taken September 1, 2019, 10:10 p.m., inside my apartment.

The victims of life. Society teaches them that it’s their fault! Society tells them to move on, don’t look back, forgive and forget, etc., etc. Society doesn’t want to hear about the five stages of grief. Society doesn’t want you to call yourself a victim…they blame you or someone else or whatever! Society is fucked the fuck up!

Everyone falls to victim! Everyone. Those rich, high-society creatures to those spending their life behind a prison’s cell door. Everyone!

Here’s My Truth: I don’t give a rat’s ass about rich, high-society creatures! Period! I am willingly going through all my meditation, all these writings for everyone else…down to those behind a prison’s cell door! Because Jesus Christ came to save…to separate those hypocrites from the true hearts! He’s our brother! And no matter what you’ve done…NO MATTER WHAT YOU’VE DONE…He’s waiting for you! That’s right. Forget all that shit people tell you. Oh, you know, shit like: You’re covered in tats, you’re evil! You served time, you’re a bad person! You are low life! Because you are poor, you’ll never amount to anything! Etc., etc. It’s NOT true! Jesus came for YOU! Those people judging you…He will judge them…don’t worry…they WILL get what’s coming for them.

Here’s a secret the churches don’t seem to want anyone to know: We LIVE after this body dies!

The rest of the Scriptures I was led to today, and I write about below, are meant for YOU! There’s so much I have to teach. So much the churches of the world fuck up! They WANT you to suffer. They WANT you to go to hell. They WANT you to sin. They WANT you to go to THEM so they can get your money! They WANT you to go to jail…corporations now own the prisons…you become a number and they WANT you to return to them over and over because the more prisoners, the more money they get from the governments of the world! They DON’T want you to HEAL! They WANT you to stay sick because medication companies get richer, insurance companies get richer, so many get rich over you being kept sick. They WANT you to die because burying you makes them RICH! They WANT you to stay ignorant so they CAN CONTROL you!

Taken August 26, 2019, 1:13 p.m., inside my car.

And God has had enough!

My next journey is to teach the truth of God and Jesus and Heaven and evil. There’s so much that the churches of the world are leaving out! Everyone is searching for God…and He’s right in front of your face every day! You can get to Jesus. You really can. The question is: Are you willing?

The Holy Spirit is guiding me today. This article and those that I will write for the this page are a direct order from Jesus. You do NOT have to believe that. I’m not asking you. I write truth. Believing the truth is the hardest thing for a human being to do. Believing a lie is easier. Oh, my…that evil whore knows that shit soooo well!

I’m a sinner! So are you! You are my brother, my sister…and our brother, our forever High Priest, our direct line of communication to God, our Savior…has asked me to help Him save as many souls as possible. All I have to do is plant as many seeds as possible. God will take it from there. With the help of David, I’m going to do the best that I can. I want…DEMAND…that you do what is necessary to get to the light! All the words God has sent me through the years, they are for you. Trust in Him. He gave you those words so that you can heal! And He’s continuing to give me more and more words so that you can rest in them…so that you can find your salvation because society is doing its best to capture you…to enslave you.

[NOTE: Society does NOT want you to know who God is. It does NOT want you to know who Jesus is. Well, Jesus is preparing a mighty army of His own. He asked me to be part of it. There’s no way I’m refusing my Lord! Through me and others, He has invited you. He’s asking you to join Him. There’s a matter of urgency in His calling. It’s up to each and every individual human being on earth to examine their heart in order to save their own soul! I’m giving you the seed…take it!]

Taken August 17, 2019, 1:47 p.m., inside my apartment.

The letter to the Romans that Paul wrote is one of the most powerful in the Bible. Now, the Romans are connected to Esau. Their unbelief over the years is terrifying! But…they were, at the time of Paul, one of the most intelligent societies in the world. The thinkers…but a sort of backwards type of thinking. See…today…those around the world who are considered those extremest…they came from the Romans! Those are the ones who convince courts to remove God from the schools. Yeah…those types.

The highly intelligent of the time, Paul gave them the meat of God’s word! Honestly, why the fuck didn’t the church teach me this when I was young? I really feel betrayed by this! So, as God unveiled a lot for me…He taught me the meaning behind Romans. Oh, it’s all written right there in the Bible…His book! So, slowly, I’ll teach what those out there are NOT!

These Scriptures…ALL about FAITH! I was directed to this because for the past 10 years, I’ve written for God on faith! I’ve written and published 18 books thus far on faith. My 12-Book Series is totally done from faith! I was told to! So, I battle with being a sinner, receiving messages from God, writing for Him, not feeling worthy to be in Jesus’ presence and being asked to teach these things. I battle. Then…these particular Scriptures today!

If you are one of those I described above…a sinner, the victim…then it’s you whom Jesus is inviting to the party. He’s telling you that you are worth His love. He’s asking you to not believe all those people who told you different, because it’s not true! Hence, the following Scripture.

Taken September 14, 2019, 8:55:18 a.m., outside my apartment. See God, the Sun and Me for more details about this photograph.

Circumcision’s ValueIs this blessedness only for the circumcised, or also for the uncircumcised? We have been saying that Abraham’s faith was credited to him as righteousness. Under what circumstances was it credited? Was it after he was circumcised, or before? It was not after, but before! And he received the sign of circumcision, a seal of the righteousness that he had by faith while he was still uncircumcised. So then, he is the father of all who believe but have not been circumcised, in order that righteousness might be credited to them. And he is also the father of the circumcised who not only are circumcised but who also walk in the footsteps of the faith that our father Abraham had before he was circumcised.—Romans 4:9-12

NOTES: I’m going to explain the word and idea of circumcision in the Bible. In the commandments that God gave to Moses, circumcision was a requirement (of the law). When I talk about the law, that is the commandments from God. Remember: The stone tablets, the fiery bush, the mountain, Moses, the 40 years in the desert, the rescue of the slaves from Egypt? Today, the Jews know this as the Torah, the rest of us know the Ten Commandments. In the Torah, I believe there’s more than 600 actual commandments. That’s the first chapters of the Bible.

Circumcision was a law for only men…it’s the cutting of the foreskin on the penis. I was raised a Catholic and this was a demanding requirement for all baby boys. I abided by this law for my first born. By the time my last child was born, things changed for me and I didn’t have him circumcised. I went through the pain of my first son…it was absolutely horrible and I just didn’t want to personally go through that or put another child through that. As in the New Testament…it doesn’t fucking matter! What part of this Scripture doesn’t the churches understand? Why are they still demanding for boys to be circumcised? Why are they telling those who aren’t that they are sinful? What the fuck!

It’s right there in the Bible. It doesn’t matter what you eat. God still loves you. It doesn’t matter what kind of clothes you wear, how you wear your hair, if you have tats, if you’re brown, blue, green…God STILL loves you! You do NOT need to be circumcised! Period!

Taken September 13, 2019, 5:48:33, at a lake here in Las Vegas. See God, the Sun and Me for more details about this photograph.

Abraham is the earth father of all! He wasn’t circumcised at the time of his test of sacrificing his son. Now a bit of history (Oh, that would be facts!): At the time that this happened, it was common for adults to sacrifice children. No, not kidding! Abraham’s test was God’s HAND to stop such practices! So, how did Abraham know that God was testing him? He didn’t. So, what made Abraham take his son up the mountain, tie him up, get a knife and commence to kill his son…a son that he had very late in life, a son that God promised him…oh, him and Sarah were pass their 80s when this happened! So, why would he go to kill this precious boy? God told him to. How? There was no Bible in Abraham’s day. There was no Moses or Torah or law. How did He know about God? Have you ever wondered about that?

In Abraham’s day, there wasn’t any TV or Internet or phones or games or all the shit that consumes our thinking and crowds our minds…so much so that we can’t HEAR! God speaks to us today through the Holy Spirit and our spiritual guides (I’ll write tons on this later). In Abraham’s day, He directly communicated to those He chose to communicate with. He chose Abraham. He tested Abraham just like He tested the Jews, His chosen people with His Son. God tested Abraham’s faith! He knew this byway of what he heard deep inside…because he didn’t have shit like ear buds to block out God’s voice!

He heard God. He listened to God. He acted on faith…that which we cannot see. He was in the process of bringing that knife down when God stopped him! Because of his faith, he was going to kill his son. That’s faith. That’s believing totally, 100% in God! God saw that faith. God saw that Abraham would see it through, what God asked him to do, no matter what…no matter if it broke his heart, no matter if it broke Sarah’s heart. God was more important.

Abraham came BEFORE the law! Understand that and you understand a lot!

Taken September 13, 2019, 5:48:25 p.m., at a lake here in Las Vegas. See God, the Sun and Me for more details about this photograph.

Promised Based Upon FaithIt was not through law that Abraham and his offspring received the promise that he would be heir of the world, but through the righteousness that comes by faith. For if those who live by law are heirs, faith has no value and the promise is worthless, because law brings wrath, and where there is no law, there is no transgression.—Romans 4:13-15

NOTES: That very last statement…where there is no law, there is no transgression…apparently people weren’t aware that stealing or killing or lying was wrong. Of course, they didn’t know…they didn’t have a subconscious. During Abraham and before Moses’ day, governments, which are of the devil, controlled everything. Of course, God is in charge! Never forget that! So, He let them move on their own course until He was ready. Then the law through Moses. It was time to make them aware of what sin is. Oh, they became aware all right, so aware that sin imprisoned them! The law began to take the place of faith and they couldn’t escape…the priests became the controllers. These laws were written down. There were way too many to memorize…the people weren’t that smart in those days. So, the people needed to be told! They couldn’t run to a book to learn the truth! Isn’t that something?

Today, we have a book…and people still need to be told what to do! By living in faith, we move to righteousness. What the hell does that mean? I bowed my head! It means we trust in God and if He wants us to do something, we do it! Oh, I question…you damn straight I do! It says in the Bible to question everything…and I DO! God wants that. It means you are paying attention…you see HIM as REAL!

From my personal experience, which I wrote everything in those books, to do what God wants…continues to go against everyone who knows me. They all disappeared. No one calls, writes, barely making their presence known on social media. I’ve been called all sorts of names, lied about, talked about, betrayed. It hurts. But God called me. No one told me it was God. No one said, Karen, you better take the call! I just knew. Everything you need to know about God’s calls, I’ve written about in those books because He showed me! He did that not because I’m special or anything. He did that because I heard Him and He needed you to know!

Taken August 12, 2019, 8:21:57 p.m., inside my apartment. See Jesus’ Army and Jesus Sprinkles for more details about this photograph.

Faith…comes by doing what God ask without needing to have it written down. All through the process of writing all these books, I asked for verification that I was on the right path…that which He sent me on. He gave it. Through so many ways! I didn’t ask that because of a lack of faith. I asked because I know that evil whore and all its tricks. I asked because I only serve God! On every turn I made, I asked for verification.

Sometimes, because of our faith, we gain favor with God. We have zero idea this can happen. Then God sends us on a harder journey. He wants to do an Abraham on us! I write about what that means as in Abraham’s test below. David told me that He did this with me when I had to receive and deliver the message to the sweet man. He told me God pulled an Abraham on me and I passed. God sure does know how to humble a human being. All I know is that I did what I was told…it was hard, and I lost everything in the process…a bit of myself, but gaining the light is worth everything! And I’m willing…and have always been willing…to do whatever it takes because I know…without a shadow of a doubt…that the light is my home.

Taken August 15, 2019, 7:26 p.m., inside my apartment. See Third Eye (Spiritual Gifts) for more details about this photograph.

Promise Is For All PeopleTherefore, the promise comes by faith, so that it may be by grace and may be guaranteed to all Abraham’s offspring—not only to those who are of the law but also to those who are of the faith of Abraham. He is the father of us all. As it is written: ‘I have made you a father of many nations.’ He is our father in the sight of God, in whom he believed—the God who gives life to the dead and calls things that are not as though they were. Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, ‘So shall your offspring be.—Romans 4:16-18

NOTES: Faith. Grace. Those two words you need to fully understand. Faith has nothing to do with any religion. It does have to do with a church…but not in any building. You see…you are the church! You need to understand that part. All these man-made religions, they don’t want you to know that. You have the right to control your own church! No one else does!

Abraham passing this ultimate test became our salvation! He is our ultimate father on earth and now resides in Heaven…watching!

Taken August 26, 2019, 2:13:47 p.m., inside my car. See Jesus’ Army and Jesus Sprinkles for more details about this photograph.

Abraham’s Faith An ExampleWithout weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead—since he was about a hundred years old—and that Sarah’s womb was also dead. Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what He had promised. This is why ‘it was credited to him as righteousness.’ The words ‘it was credited to him’ were written not for him alone, but also for us, to whom God will credit righteousness—for us who believe in Him who raised Jesus our Lord from the dead. He was delivered over to death for our sins and was raised to life for our justification.—Romans 4:19-25

NOTES: Faith. Unbelief. What is faith? It’s listening to hear in our minds. What I’m about to say is fully written in the Bible. The religions of the world, for some reason, don’t want us to know this: When Jesus rose from the dead, we were given several gifts. Each individual soul on earth. And each baby born thereafter, these gifts were passed. The gifts? Let’s start a riot!

1. The unconscious mind. No, this didn’t exist before. The Holy Spirit was put into every single human being on earth and every child born after! What does this mean? It means we were given a direct line of communication! Like a telephone line, but in our mind. Why doesn’t the religions teach this? Oh, I almost forgot…to control!

2. Jesus Christ. Oh, that would be our brother…our oldest brother! His blood…that would be the reason He shed blood…sealed the New Covenant. The Old Covenant was directly with the people byway of Moses and God’s commandments…to make everyone aware of what sin is! Before that…no one knew what was wrong unless governments said. So, an example would be: If the governments said apples are bad and no one is to eat them. If you eat an apple, you will be burned at the stake. That would be law! And they had some really fucked-up laws! Go read some history books if you doubt this!

So…God did man a favor and sent laws down, and those laws were detailed! From how to bath, to what to eat, to how to treat people…DETAILED! People are so stupid. Of course, God has enemies. We are all aware of that. Oh, the silliness of man…society questions if there is a devil or not! As they question if God exist!

So, let’s do a small example: Think of a deer. Yes, a simple, beautiful deer grazing in a pasture. Can you see it? Really think of that deer. Think of all that incorporates the body of that beautiful deer. Ears, eyes, nose, mouth, teeth, legs, tail, fur…Can you see it? Think of the shape of that deer. Beautifully portioned. Everything is perfectly put where it is pleasing to the eye. Its eyes are at a distance of each other that they don’t scare us. The entire face…gosh, when we see a deer, we just have to keep looking. Can you see it? That’s just the outside of that deer. There’s a brain which tells it where to walk, how to care for its babies, how to make a baby, when to take shelter, where to eat, what’s safe to eat…etc., etc. Then there’s the rest of its inside body parts. Stomach, heart, colon, kidneys, etc., etc. Can you see it?

According to all those simple-minds, that deer just popped out of dust! Just poof and there ya go!  ALL of that from dust? Really? That’s fucked-up individuals to believe that shit!

I’m a creator. I write. I put together what I think into coherent works of poetry and writings to express what’s put into my heart. Then I take that and create a book out of it. I have to do all the details…first there’s a blank book format. Oh, I have to create that too because before that, there’s nothing. Zero. I put in the thought process, the brains, everything…and the final creation: A published book! It didn’t get published by itself. I didn’t see a sudden dust cloud form and poof…a book!

That’s a simple analogy of what these simple-minds say! Oh, then we came from monkeys. That’s another fucked-up idea! Sorry, it doesn’t fly.

Taken September 9, 2019, 11:15:03, at a lake in Las Vegas. See Third Eye (Spiritual Gifts) for more details about this photograph. See My 5:55 Lake Visits to all my lake visits.

It takes serious thought to even design a deer. Look at all those trying to make human robots…how many years of training, thought, fuck-ups, prototypes, money, people…it has taken, and still they don’t have it. Amazing, isn’t it?

The deer is really simple. Now take the human being! Do you know of one…just ONE…human being who can tell you exactly how the brain works? You won’t find any! AT ALL! Now, that…THAT…came out of a poof of dust? evolved from a monkey? Really? Why is it so hard to believe in a creator?

I didn’t get off the road too far here…confusion has always been around. God decided the hell with dealing directly with the people. They just don’t get it. So, He decided to replace the law with a new Covenant…faith became everything! Abraham’s way became everything!

Jesus Christ is the New Covenant. He was of and is of LOVE! He will be the final judge, but until then God is the wrath! God does not change. To buffer things out, Jesus!

3. Gifts. Through the Holy Spirit, we are all given gifts. Some simple like a teacher or singer. Some deeper like spiritual gifts such as being able to heal people, being able to see into other people’s lives. These are all given so that we may help each other. Funny how people abuse these gifts all the time. Funny how people believe its them who created drug formulas because they are smart because they have money, or whatever…no. God gave it to them to heal people! God!

Taken August 24, 2019, 5:05 p.m., inside my apartment. See Third Eye (Spiritual Gifts) for more details about this photograph.

Justification Brings PeaceTherefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us.—Romans 5:1-5

NOTES: Perseverance. Tests. Grace. God allows suffering so we can grow byway of the darkness. Here’s the gust of it: You were born. There’s a plan already in the books for you. That would be in Heaven. That evil whore knows this and will do anything to fuck things up for God. So, it starts taking notes from the moment you were born. And each tiny thing you did, said, thought; each tiny thing someone else did, said, thought of you is recorded. Oh, baby…does it have a record to use against you when its ready to pounce!

God sees this. He knows everything! You never have to question that. When He’s ready, He will step in. He allows that evil whore to fuck things up for you. There’s a reason. Oh, this is talked about over and over in the Bible. Those words…all of them in that book…were given to those people for this book to be written…for you! God tells you, through His writers, what to do when that evil whore pounces. And do you know the best advice He gives: Ask! He’s waiting for you to ask Him for mercy! It is that simple!

Taken August 26, 2019, 1:17 p.m., inside my apartment. See Third Eye (Spiritual Gifts) for more details about this photograph.

I’m not tooting my own horn by writing what I’m going to write next. I want you to know that writing about my life was the most difficult thing to do. I knew what I had to write about would hurt those closest to me, but my faith was my drive. I knew in my heart that what I was writing was for a reason, because everything…EVERYTHING…happens for a reason, and I knew if I kept going, sooner or later God would tell me. And He did.

The five stages of grief. That was the reason. To heal. The words sent for the Bible to be written are to show you who He is, and what He does! Oh, it’s all written in that book! What’s left out is the steps on HOW to survive what He brings to your life. The WHY…it’s in there!

So, He allows the devil…that evil whore…to bring you to sin…over and over. God sees your direction. When your direction is off course, He steps in. With a WRATH! That tragedy that you are experiencing or have experienced…from childhood rape, molestation, fires, divorces, lost of jobs, turning to the bad side of life by being the criminal…all of it is ALLOWED! Remember: God is in CHARGE!

Does He hate you? I can relate to this. No. He loves you unconditional! This is the reason why He allows the strife in. He needs to direct you to where you are SUPPOSE to go. The strife…is the way He strips us down, the veils, in order to rebuild us. It may take a round-and-round of constant up-and-downs for you to get it. Sooner or later…you will.

He says it right there through Paul…perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. You have to trust in the process. Faith is everything. I have so much more to teach you on this. It’s coming!

Taken September 3, 2019, 11:14:00 p.m., inside my apartment. See Third Eye (Spiritual Gifts) for more details about this photograph.

Christ’s Blood SavesYou see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since we have now been justified by His blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through Him! For if, when we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to Him through the death of His Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through His life! Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.—Romans 5:6-11

NOTES: God’s Wrath. Forgiveness. We all received reconciliation. But we have to keep it! What…you thought you can sin and keep sinning and it’s okay because some preacher told you that it’s okay to sin seven times a day and you still receive grace or you have grace so there’s no need to worry! They don’t tell you about God’s wrath! Jesus forgives. God…He wants to teach you…so there is His wrath…hard love!

Jesus died for sinners. He rose from the dead as a symbol of our resurrection on earth. In the Bible, death means sin. Resurrection means when we fall to sin or strife…we rise and overcome! When we overcome, survive and accept Jesus Christ in our hearts with a pure love, we resurrect ourselves from death! If you haven’t done this, you are still in death. The clock is ticking. You need to chose which side you want to bat for. You need to remember that your soul…it does exist…lives on. Everything in your mind continues on…which are you willing: To live in peace and in the light, or live in agony and in hell…eternal prison? The choice is yours! God’s great that way!

Taken August 16, 2019, 12:17:15 a.m., inside my apartment. See Third Eye (Spiritual Gifts) for more details about this photograph.

All Die From SinTherefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned―for before the law was given, sin was in the world. But sin is not taken into account when there is no law. Nevertheless, death reigned from the time of Adam to the time of Moses, even over those who did not sin by breaking a command, as did Adam, who was a pattern of the one to come.—Romans 5:12-14

NOTES: Law. Sin. Adam sinned. Blame who ever you want. Adam still sinned. And that act gave birth to sin on earth. That act brought shame to the earth. What do I mean by shame? Before Adam committed that sin, there was no need to wear clothes. Yes, being naked was normal. There was no individual judgment. There was no self-esteem. We didn’t need it! Everything was great! The sin act of eating that forbidden apple, brought shame, self-esteem, judgment…all that nasty into existence. It was a test for man and he failed. Sin ruled the world…that would be death! The devil found the right hole to fuck-up God’s plan! Hence, the war was on!

Hence, sin is not taken into account when there is no law. Before the commandments, man didn’t hold each other accountable. Things so did change, didn’t they!

Taken August 13, 2019, 4:45 p.m., outside my apartment. See God, the Sun and Me for more details about this photograph.

All Can Be JustifiedBut the gift is not like the trespass. For if the many died by the trespass of the one man, how much more did God’s grace and the gift that came by the grace of the one man, Jesus Christ, overflow to the many! Again, the gift of God is not like the result of the one man’s sin: The judgment followed one sin and brought condemnation, but the gift followed many trespasses and brought justification. For if, by the trespass of the one man, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive God’s abundant provision of grace and of the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ. Consequently, just as the result of one trespass was condemnation for all men, so also the result of one act of righteousness was justification that brings life for all men. For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous.—Romans 5:15-19

NOTES: Condemnation (punishment). Darkness. Discipline. Tests. Veils.—Each sin tests another and another. God allows the sin to test us. He forgives the sinner because He allowed it. Only…you have to ask for mercy and prove you are living in faith! He cannot do that for you!

This Scripture talks about the battle! Which battle is that? Good and Evil, of course. Jesus Christ is the ultimate Grace given to all of us by God. Like I said, He, like the Holy Spirit, is like a phone line directly to God. But so many people have hindered that phone line that people don’t know how to use it anymore.

Jesus Christ is our open door to heaven. The subconscious…where all of our guilt is stored…lingers there like a rotten egg to come up and torment us…can be wiped clean by Jesus. If you don’t go to Him, that shit lingers and tears you to pieces. Only through Him can you erase that shit. So, by going through Jesus with that pure heart, you gain grace from God.

All that mess out there about you automatically getting grace is inaccurate. The only grace that is automatic is Jesus…He’s the ultimate gift, the ultimate grace. The rest…baby, you have to earn. And God gives it and God can take it away just as quickly. Why would He take it away if He is so loving? For that very reason. Unconditional love.

If you do what He wants, you hear and follow, He gives His grace. But once He gives that grace and you fuckup, baby, He will swipe that shit back faster than you can say sorry.

Taken September 12, 2019, 5:55:26 p.m., at a lake in Las Vegas. See God, the Sun and Me for more details about this photograph.

Here’s an example: I’m going to go big since I think a lot of people can picture this. There’s this young man and he lived a hard life, but he had a dream. He always wanted to be a rapper. He survives his strife…his hard life. So, God opens the door for him to become this rapper. That’s grace. So, the man walks through the door. He gets a record contract. He starts making money. He gets fans and concerts. He gets all the toys. Stop! Let’s stop for a minute.

God gives this young man grace for surviving a rough childhood. God sees that he wants to do good and he’s walking the right path. Oh, that evil whore sees that shit, too. Remember what I said: Its waiting for the chance to pounce. Oh, here it comes! Money…the key! Women, drugs, drink…then the lies start, the betrayal, the cheating, the bad!

Notes are being taken. Slowly, very slowly things start disappearing. If that young man doesn’t see what’s happening, down, down, down…and there’s no stopping it. All those marks on his heart…it would take an act of God for him to even think of getting his soul to the light. Oh, he may look like he’s in the light with all his money, cars, and women, record sales…it’s all an illusion. That’s of the world…that evil whore! The truth…if he doesn’t rescue himself, his soul dies forever in agony! Why? Because God gave him GRACE!

Taken September 12, 2019, 5:55:36, at a lake in Las Vegas. See God, the Sun and Me for more details about this photograph.

Grace IncreasedThe law was added so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.—Romans 5:20,21

There you go! The sooner you see your fall, the quicker you can save your life! That’s just fact. And here’s a bit of surety: When God can’t get through to you byway of the Holy Spirit and your spirit guide, He’ll send someone to you to shake you up in order to get His message through in order to save your life.

When you can’t see your way because that evil whore has so much control over you that you can’t find it in your heart to truly ask for mercy from God, oh, He’ll find a way! You may not like the person coming to do God’s work on you, but that person is coming! Hard love is a BITCH!

I’m told that what’s written in the Book of Truth must happen, so if you have to go down into the darkness in order to be reborn, down you go! When God has His sights on you, He will teach you through hard love. You may have a hard time comprehending that, but it’s truth all the same.

It’s about healing! Saving souls! God’s unconditional love has so much mercy to give. He’s waiting on you. He sent His son to make it easy. He gave you the Holy Spirit to communicate with you and a spirit guide to help you!

Why are you NOT using them? Why is it so easy to believe society and that evil whore? There’s a reason why they say you can’t take money to the grave. In Hell…there’s no money! It’s all a lie.

Taken September 12, 2019, 5:55:41, at a lake in Las Vegas. See God, the Sun and Me for more details about this photograph.