A sample from Book 1
Enjoy the Journey
struggling to achieve success
unwavering with foolishness
wanting to be the best
forgetting all the rest
unsettling restlessness
accepting nothing less
a tangled tireless
rigid, forming mess
without closing
in its materialness
turning the page
with new zest
breathing stillness
leaving out the self―
induced test
feeling skin with
gentle caress
listening to the inner
openness
gaining comfort
from life’s scared nest
becoming not just a guest
to self’s empowering fest
no longer having to second guess
seeing His† awaking crest
no longer a pessimist
learning to be quiet to rest
to explore, think less
the journey has become
a simple justice
gaining self forgiveness
loosing material cravenness
the journey has become a
willingness
no longer a pest
more of an adventurous
a traveling voyage of smallness
one tiny step after the other
to forgiveness
one more creation
of vastness
that becomes real and timeless
(October 1, 2015)—‘Enjoy the Journey’ was written in 2009. I’m learning I’m no expert in this field called life. Since this poem was written, my life has been quite a ride. Like all the rest who have traveled this road of divorce and abuse, getting through is slow and painful, but accomplish-able.
I still have miles to go. One baby step at a time. Sometimes, there’s a backwards step and we have to push our self forward no matter what. Of course, what choice do we have. As it was pointed out to me this week: NONE.
People do us wrong. There’s nothing we can do about it. But we can use the experience to better ourselves, meet new people, maybe even help one or two along the way. I’m not an authority on abuse. Never claimed to be. Writing these poems have helped me get through. Sharing them began as a simple choice of sharing. It still is.
Putting all of these in books was the idea of helping others with them. I run my course on doubts. Who will read poetry? After all, I have only 282 likes on my Facebook author page. That’s not anything to brag about. Is this stuff marketable? Probably not without faith. I’m going to do them anyway. Sometimes, all we have to go on is faith. When we believe in something so strong, we just have to sit back and enjoy the ride.
If it doesn’t feel right, I just won’t do it. If the strength remains, I’ll continue. That’s a simple way to fly, isn’t it? Writing about our pain is simply referred to as: Misery. Who wants to read about misery? I wonder that, too. But the strength remains. So, I’m going to just go ahead and run through all my doubts, all my insecurities and hang onto the faith that there’s purpose and meaning behind this dream, this drive and that it’s not a selfish ride and it’s but more of a universal one.
When we have a strong desire to do something and see it as doing something with a higher purpose, then maybe it is. I can’t tell you if that’s fact or fiction. All I can go on is the fact that many who never gave up their dream, never avoided that desire to do that something, even through turmoil (doubts, insecurities, no one else believing in what they were doing), financial crises, etc., they pushed on believing in themselves.
I don’t always believe in myself. Oh, I’m only human. It’s a normal thing. I cry. I get upset. I frown. I doubt. I want to give up. Normal. When we do something and we lose time doing it, we were meant to do it. It never makes sense in the beginning, nor the middle, sometimes even at the end. I guess we have to wait until after the end to see the true purpose in what we do. That’s the hardest part. That’s maybe even the scariest part.
I’ve read many accounts where people sunk millions of dollars in their dream without much faith from anyone; only in themselves. In the end, they triumphed because they didn’t give up faith. Their stories were written to prove to us that it can be done…ya, know that dream of ours. Don’t give up. I’m saying this to myself right now: Don’t Give Up!
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