A sample from Book 7
Pillars of Death
I'm an apparent suicide
everything buried inside
‒sprayed it out
they call it a homicide
was all it took
for love to dry
‒leaving only tears
slowly I died
asking every kind of why
why only anger's words
to cast me aside
why my truth
‒its very existence
no longer resides
evil's prancing stride
they all cast me aside
I could no longer
instead of holding me
as these eyes cried
they buried me
‒an unmarked grave
with bugs and flies
(December 5, 2014)—Today is one of those emotional days. A woman in her 40’s has to face them if she likes it or not. But is it just hormones? It’s getting closer to Christmas. I have come to hate the idea of Christmas. I used to cherish it. I used to decorate and enjoy people coming to my home and feel love and joy.
Mama always made Christmas special, and she embedded that in me. Now, it’s different. I spoke to my mama last night and she asked me what I wanted for Christmas. I told her nothing. I bought myself a new bike and a computer. That’s all the material things I need. But, I guess there is something I want. Truth. I want an explanation to why they so easily buried me. Isn’t that something I deserve?
I’m in the process of healing. Isn’t it only fair to have my family help me? Why did they betray me? I wrote ‘Pillars of Death’ earlier this year. My poetry dealing with family is a mixture of sad and happy. They are not [an] easy read for me because they always leave me asking myself: What did I ever do to deserve to be cased out the way they cased me out of their life?
I want them to anty up and go to my used-to-be home with their trucks and collect the rest of my things and show up here and say: We believe in you, Karen. Please, take our love.We’ve stored your things in a safe place.We will protect you now.
That’s what I want for Christmas.I do think I deserve to know. I deserve the truth to why they so easily buried me. I was their sister, their mother, their daughter…and I know I’m worth it. Until then, you won’t see Christmas coming from me. I won’t be decorating or celebrating. No. God is always in my life. I don’t need a special day to praise Him or His Son.
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The Astonishing Power of Emotions: Let Your Feelings Be Your Guide by Esther and Jerry Hicks
The Law of Attraction: The Basics of the Teachings of Abraham by Esther and Jerry Hicks
The New American Bible Published by World Catholic Press
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