‘The Hanging’

When You’re Caught In Silent Abuse

A sample from Book 1

 The Hanging
 
the heart thumps
a thunderous bolt
tightens and roars—
wrapping, squeezing
like a sailor’s rope
 
hunger escapes
while sleeplessness eludes
jolted and battered—
feeling the vapor
of a flowerless fool
 
shaking
with rupturing chills
cold and hot—
not quite understanding
this weathering thrill
 
voice over voice
cloud the mind
yes or no—
eyes turn cold
moisten
then go blind
 
searching for light
yearning to yell
craving an escape—
this pending doom
to a bottomless hell
 
beneath there’s bound
to be salvation
somewhere to run—
‘til then
there’s only damnation
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‘Never Forget’

What Do You Stand For?

A sample from Book 1

 Never Forget
 
each day you get up—
never forget
who filled your cup
 
each day you begin work—
never forget
on your back
there's a shirt
 
each day
you create something new—
never forget
who gave you the clue
 
each day
you joyfully sing—
never forget
the past-learning thing
 
each day
you sit to draw—
never forget
you once was young and raw
 
each day
you start to paint—
never forget
those who can't
 
each day
you work your farm—
never forget
you have two arms
 
each day
you design a new dress—
never forget
those poor...in distress
 
each day
you write on your book—
never forget
the years of learning it took
 
each day
you write an article—
never forget
those who can't live humble
 
each day
you sit to learn—
never forget
those who lack concern
 
each day
you attend a school—
never forget
those controlled
by a dictator's rule
 
each day
you drive your car—
never forget
those who have to walk far
 
each day
you take a bath—
never forget
water...some do lack
 
each day
you sit to eat—
never forget
those who can't afford meat
 
each day
those you judge—
never forget
they don't ask for much
 
each day
you wedge your war—
never forget
you're watched by the Lord†
 
each day
for greed
you make policy—
never forget
where comes God's† glory
 
each day
you choose not to pray—
never forget
in the end
it's God's† say
 
each day
God†—
you don't thank—
never forget
how your day soon sinks
 
each day
you have a choice
it's your individual voice
that's heard
above the noise
 
whatever you say
no matter the day
for your wrongs
you'll eventually pay
 
never forget
when problems you can't solve
when accidents you're involved
when anger doesn't dissolve
 
never forget
when you're ridiculed
by your boss
your keys
you carelessly lost
government rendered fines'
heavy cost
 
never forget
when love leaves your house
when your income goes south
when criticism
comes from every mouth
 
it's your own choice
ignore the Lord†
your criticizing voice
not believing in His† truth
—playing your own card
your reasons for shedding blood
—your raging fighting flood
using His† name
for nothing but gain
 
never forget
God†...your Allah
is one and the same
you are His† children
equal in His Holy† vision
 
to not thank Him†
to ignore His† ten commandments
to think
you're better than Him†
to not believe in Him†
to condemn His Son†
—all that's within Him†
 
these accidents
these painful moments
that's happening to you
is just a clue
to what He† can do
 
you think I'm wrong
you're right
—your non-believing song
won't lead you
to any throne
here's a test for you
take a break from your cause
from your man-made laws
 
a month that's all—
each day
when you first awake
thank Him† right away
 
don't lie
don't steal
don't cheat

be nice
stand up for what's right

say thank you
say please

to each person you meet
 
pay attention
to those with limitations
those missing a limb
those blind
those left cripple
those without money
 
open a door
try to help
do more
 
for one solid month
then you'll see
how things change
how you start to feel
way down deep
there's nothing to believe
all good—
comes from He†
 
you just have to stop
slow down your clock
you don't need miracles
to understand
His† principles
 
love
peace
forgiveness
helping
 
is all He† wants
from you
to be true
to be honest—
His† simple menu
 
if these you do
He'll† be true
to you
His† love will shine
you'll see His Divine†
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‘Basic Need’

You Have the Need: So Fucking Roar!

A sample from Book 1.

 Basic Need
 
we hide our self
behind
walls we built
 
not being good enough
truly felt
being afraid
fear tightens our belt
 
past haunts‒
needing to prove oneself
strengthens
our woven quilt
submersed
in unforgiving guilt
 
worries
attack our health
negative thoughts
keeping away life's wealth
 
once you've knelt
stop hiding
beneath the buried shelf
 
the past
takes care of itself
no longer
feeling like an elf
 
pain
will suddenly melt
you'll be happy
with yourself
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‘Enjoy the Journey’

One Day At a Time. Don’t Give up!

A sample from Book 1

 Enjoy the Journey
 
struggling to achieve success
unwavering with foolishness
wanting to be the best
forgetting all the rest
unsettling restlessness
 
accepting nothing less
a tangled tireless
rigid, forming mess
without closing
in its materialness
 
turning the page
with  new zest
breathing stillness
leaving out the self―
induced test
 
feeling skin with
gentle caress
listening to the inner
openness
 
gaining comfort
from life’s scared nest
becoming not just a guest
to self’s empowering fest
 
no longer having to second guess
seeing His† awaking crest
 
no longer a pessimist
learning to be quiet to rest
to explore, think less
 
the journey has become
a simple justice
gaining self forgiveness
loosing material cravenness
the journey has become a
willingness
 
no longer a pest
more of an adventurous
a traveling voyage of smallness
 
one tiny step after the other
to forgiveness
one more creation
of vastness
that becomes real and timeless
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Silent Abuse…It’s Surprisingly Subtle!

A sample from Book 1

I didn’t know what the hell silent abuse was! I didn’t even have a clear definition to what narcissists was! I did after the year 2012! The following is from the Introduction to Book 1 in My 12-Book Series on living through silent abuse and not even knowing it!

“At times, we deny our reality in order to survive. I can’t tell you about your life. I don’t know you. I only know me—my own experiences, and my own emotions that went with them. I can say this: as I traveled through the darkness in 2012 and 2013, I met others who have experienced the same or similar ordeal.

I’m not a shrink, nor do I hold a degree in any such field. I do hold a degree in journalism and I was a teacher for seven years. By nature, I’m prong to analyze, investigate, question, and be curious about everything.

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