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‘Words in Wisdom’ and ‘Removing of Chains’

We have to break those chains. If we constantly carry that pain and keep feeding it then we never achieve total peace. We have to be able to lift that hurt off of us.

(July 10)―Today, I was lead to Psalm 107 (included fully at the end of the commentary for ‘Removing of Chains’). From that, I was led back into the past and Jesus made me cry. An order I placed weeks ago came in today. It was a dress. It’s the third of six dresses that I ordered in the size 2x. I’m not really a 2x, but I’m not a 6 or a 10 or even a 12 anymore. The 2x dresses fit loose and they are comfortable…COMFORTABLE is the key word. Then I was led to ‘Removing of Chains’ written in 2012. When I got to the end of that writing, that’s when the tears came. And David saying, ‘Yes!’ When you read it, you will totally understand. It is included below, as this is long…an afternoon-sit-with-coffee-or-tea type of writing!

Words in Wisdom
 
look up to what's up
oppression happens
in the mind
over years, over time
it brings on despair
something that traumatized‒
and wasn't...at all...fair
 
it took from you
it robbed from you
of an innocence
leaving your mind
in distress
your heart
in confusion
‒it became your affliction
your personal calamity
though you refused to see
too young, too naïve
‒you just saw
it wasn't the way to be
 
so you learned differently
a game of hide and seek
that moved you
to disbelief
 
you threw away empathy
not caring‒
way down deep
‒you learned how to surface
keep things out of seep
showing simple compassion
without making a decision
or turning it into
an intrusion
 
instead you learned to lift
take it off of you‒
to a cause...shift
then bounce it back
‒whomever got a whiff
 
you aced the summersault
getting out of discomfort
byway of other's vaults
‒it's easy for you to stomp
whomever comes‒
revealing your faults
 
‒from your mind
you built a special cult‒
those who live
in the same confusion
‒truth is abruptly put
in halt
cast out...the door barred
in bolt
 
you learned‒
became the master
in shield
‒the enemy
the hidden iniquities:
the unfairness
the immorality
the unjust
the wrong
the evil
the viciousness‒
all that you blame
passed around
with emotions inflamed
 
‒are yours....

Note: The photograph was taken October 7, 2019: Faces. In this set of frames, David points the faces out to me. I didn’t see them before. He said I wasn’t ready to see them. I point them out to you as much as I can. He also points out other things, things that pass a message on. I discuss these messages on the page, just click the link. You can see or not. All I can do is present. I can’t help your unbelief or your pain. I can plant a seed and give it to God. May the Lord always be in your corner. Amen.

Both ‘Removing of Chains’ and ‘Words in Wisdom’ parallel each other and then to read Psalm 107, either written by King David or Asaph, it doesn’t matter. This writing was written in a time when God clearly made Himself known in big ways. Today, He does it in simple ways that people can see…at least, those who CAN see.

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‘Death Groom’

The one thing that I did learn for sure: They hate anyone who wasn’t traumatized. In fact, they fantasize killing them or hurting them. It takes their own pain away. 

Death Groom
 
it fell on their lips
‒a rehearsed transcript
among themselves
alone...in their thoughts
 
truth has its way
in profit
‒thoughts in doing it
everyone goes through it‒
doing away with toxic
beating it with a stick
in their face...spit
yelling at them
calling them dick or bitch
 
‒thoughts of the innocent
roaring out in conflict
then to God†‒
an all-in-it submit
 
it's what truth does
in contradict
that which adds to affliction‒
the afflict
reasons to be called
dick or bitch
 
I've been the victim
in the script
among evil's summit
the test in transit
‒taken almost..to it
 
places...playing out‒
taking me to the pulpit
with lies on their lips
their eyes following a skit
‒they were going to do it
 
but something stopped it
not once, not twice
but thrice
I was the object of it
I was the bait in trick
 
but He† stopped it
took me out of it
as they paid for it
sunk deeper down
into it
‒for even thinking it

Note: The Dragon and the All-Seeing Eye…October 23, 2019. I read in places where people associate the dragon with evil. God says, ‘I am.’ He is ALL things. He says, ‘I am the dragon.’ And He has sent the dragon twice. I didn’t go looking for this. David tells me when to go take the photographs. God sends what He needs us to SEE. If you see it, you are open to Him and know Him. If you can’t see, you are veiled from the truth because your heart is full of scars. If you want to be unveiled, you have to do the work of unveiling yourself! It IS that simple.

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(June 27)―Things were revealed to me about my life this afternoon. I sort of knew this, but wasn’t sure. Now I know. After the revelation, I was instructed to write about it then I’d be shown the Scripture, hence, ‘Death Groom’. After I wrote it, ‘Open the book,’ and ‘Jonah’s Prayer’!

Jonah’s Prayer—From inside the fish Jonah prayed to the Lord his God. He said: ‘In my distress I called to the Lord, and He answered me. From the depths of the grave I called for help, and You listened to my cry. You hurled me into the deep, into the very heart of the seas, and the currents swirled about me; all Your waves and breakers swept over me. I said, ‘I have been banished from Your sight; yet I will look again toward Your holy temple.’ The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head. To the roots of the mountains I sank down; the earth beneath barred me in forever. But You brought my life up from the pit, O Lord my God. When my life was ebbing away, I remembered You, Lord, and my prayer rose to You, to Your holy temple. Those who cling to worthless idols forfeit the grace that could be theirs. But I, with a song of thanksgiving, will sacrifice to You. What I have vowed I will make good. Salvation comes from the Lord.—Jonah 2:1-9

My Lord brought me through all of what He put me in, as He used me as the ultimate test for others. The ex husband, the plantation and the sweet man were the three ultimate tests. Sure, there were an amazing amount of tests for me, and I, too, had to go through this ultimate test, but not like these three did.

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‘Enclosed We Go!’

This isn’t a joke. I didn’t elect to spend all my free time writing all of this just for the sake of doing it to piss you off. God told me to write all of this. Did you hear that? He TOLD me! 

 Enclosed We Go!
  
 His† wrath is coming‒
 ‒a sending of bull dogs
 with their spike-filled teeth
 growling at the innocent
 ‒playfulness...they seek
 in indecent
 inviting willing men
 hand in hand‒
 their spears
 their only needed weapon
 ‒confusing minds
 controlling every line
  
 His† wrath is coming‒
 His† words will disappear
 He'll† hide Himself† totally
 –from every hemisphere
  
 you'll search
 but you won't find
 unless you're one‒
 in the divine
  
 then you will see
 parts of Him†
 here and there
 leaving you hungry
 and thirsty‒
 begging around every turn
 'where is He†? 
 I need to know!'
  
 His† words‒
 will become your lust
 His† words‒
 will become your greed
 His† words‒
 will become your lies
 His† words‒
 will become your darkness
  
 ‒all the things you so love
 better than He†
 all that evil‒
 you will trade it all
 –just for one look!
 just for one tiny glimpse!
  
 how precious‒
 He† will become!
  
 after, He† closes
 Himself† out
 ‒leaves earth in destruction
 after He† hides
 He† will become‒
 ALL that you seek!
  

Note: The photograph that accompany’s this piece was taken on November 9, 2019, when God sent the Avenging Angel. He uses the light on my camera to show the coming night, night, and the coming dawn. He does this numerous times in the photographs on God’s Mercy. As His Seer, I’m instructed on what the changes in light mean in the photographs. God does not lie…and it IS God whom I’m speaking to!

(January 23, 2020)―I was led to Amos for the second time this week. There was something that the Lord wanted me see and I did finally. I had to include the entire Scripture concerning what Amos saw and heard so you’ll see how God reveals things through His prophets. But before…I have to release a little whoop-ass per say.

‘Wrecked Moments’ has brought out the judgment again. I can’t challenge this judgment or debate it. God and Jesus have already told me that you can’t debate truth. The truth IS and that is final! So, I won’t debate, but I will forewarn you, God always…ALWAYS…SEES everything that you do. There are two types of responses: Your thoughts and your acting upon those thoughts. Meaning you respond to your thoughts, thoughts that you are not really sure of, thoughts you think out of ignorance by action, by doing…so, if you respond by commenting on my pages, I’d be careful that you don’t blasphemy the Lord. If you need to understand what blasphemy is, then read ‘Tests of Worth’…God gives us a really good example of it. Here’s one sure thing: I write for God. I hear the spiritual world that is His kingdom. When you question you don’t know who I am talking to, you are questioning God. God is ALL. He is in charge of everything! You need to fully understand this.

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‘Mechanical’s Return’

The worse mark on the heart: Malicious intent: refers to the intent, without just cause or reason, to commit a wrongful act that will result in harm to another. It is the intent to harm or do some evil purpose.

 Mechanical's Return
  
 I could tell you to heal
 it doesn't mean–
 I'm not gonna have to deal
  
 I've been fooled by men, too–
 saying they were real
 giving me all the deep thrills
 while kicking my ass
 on the treadmill
 –that looking-good-for-them
 became a perfected skill
 –to be honest–
 that inside need of mine–
 they never fulfilled
  
 I've been lied to by family–
 that bloodline...not sealed
 it's the worse manipulative
 battlefield–
 I've ever saw revealed
 –especially when your ex–
 helps the overkill
  
 it all adds up in life–
 becomes the great ball
 of surreal
 'did that really happen'–
 you asking yourself
 trying to peel
 all those layers–
 in betrayal's ordeal
  
 you move, then move again–
 time...trying to steal
 just to keep the heavy pounding
 in your heart...still
  
 you forgive all of them–
 a bit of goodwill
 done...you wipe up–
 every tear you spill
 alone...you move about
 doing the ordinary:
 eat, dress, clean, pay bills
 waiting for the phone to squeal
 waiting for:
 'I'm sorry'
 'I was wrong'
 'what was I thinking, please forgive me'
 'mom, I'm so sorry...you were right'
  
 but it never comes–
 even when the total truth...revealed
 you realize you're dispensable–
 you've been repealed
 all their shame–
 placed on your head–
 without having to drill
 –for them...it was so easy
 your whole life gone…killed
  
 of course, I know what comes next:
 it's all your fault–
 they'll claim you had control
 of the wheel
 they'll demand you get down–
 kneel
 pray, get saved
 to God†...appeal
 they'll shake you down–
 all done in freewill
 –you were put on a platter
 served up like choiced veal
  
 yes, I could tell you to heal
 your life...rebuild
 stitch together–
 all the parts of your quilt
 then put it all behind you–
 move forward–
 on an even keel
  
 but then...I'd be lying to you–
 I'd be better off
 buying you a cocktail
 take you...get some pretty nails
 put your hair in a ponytail
 then get ready...do some blackmail
  
 but then...you'd be no better
 than that betraying cartel
 you'd become just  a plain ole infidel
 –your soul...so easy to sell
  
 to heal...you yourself
 has to...outright...deal
  
 you gotta face truth–
 you're not the jezebel
 you're better than all they dispel
 you're stronger, wiser–
 ring, ring goes the liberty bell
 but first–
 you've gotta face the swell
 all that shit that put you in hell–
 you've gotta roll in its pungent smell
 you've gotta cry, scream, yell
 –get it all out
 in movements of a snail
 you've gotta face every detail
 learn why...in came...the fail–
 their destructive zeal
 –not anything...for long
 you can conceal
  
 then you're gonna bounce–
 that's right...bounce
 all that pain–
 you're gonna unveil
 forward....
 you're gonna willingly propel
 –the chains of your forced jail
 no longer for the regale
 –no longer...you...for sale
  
 after you popped those chains–
 you'll realize you fucking derailed
 all they tried to nail
 on your pretty little fingernails
 –you done exhaled
 you put yourself in prevail
 the mechanical tall-tell
 –the tipping of the scales
  
 you're gonna learn
 –on your own–
 you've done been rebuilt
 they can't even drown you–
 in the best of ales
 they can't even go
 to the court of appeals
 or on you–
 seek the navy seals
  
 you've become the real
 in deal
 for you didn't just heal
 you've become the truth–
 of the kneel!

Note: The photograph that accompanies this work was taken October 23rd, which revealed a lot through the spiritual world: the All-Seeing Eye (an interesting use of the gazebo to tell us that God sees all); the Dragon (The Dragon in Symbolization: The dragon, a legendary creature symbolizes protection, success, wisdom, loyalty, fearlessness, strength, balance, and immense possibility. Being the master of all four elements of Fire, Water, Earth, and Wind, it also embodies primordial power. Details of the Power Primordial Force is the primordial energy that originated everything – reality, time, space, life, death, matter, energy, and every possible and impossible concept existing and non-existing in the omniverse, from a single particular to the infinite  omniverse….God revealing His power and that He is over everything); the cross, God’s use of His energy through the orbs; faces and images of those present…spirits; and the earth’s change coming. In this particular photograph, the All-Seeing Eye; the promise made to me in the pink bubble; and Jesus’ love or presence showing through in the purple light.

(January 6, 2020)―This morning: Write from the heart today. I was empty then full…thinking about the things people will do and say when they have a mark on their heart labeled: Malicious Intent. These thoughts that I write about today started yesterday with me taking myself out for dinner and listening to hypocrites talk about segregated pre-planned housing and how they didn’t want to mix with other people’s traditions and cultures.

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‘The Sending of Lies’

‘…The new wine dries up and the vine withers; all the merrymakers groan. The gaiety of the tambourines is stilled, the noise of the revelers has stopped, the joyful harp is silent….’―Isaiah 24:1-23

 The Sending of Lies
  
 God's† mercy is upon thee–
 when asked
 for a place to be
 with a good-weighing heart
 –absent of deception and deceit
  
 pray that you see
 all the angels sent
 see to it...their time
 is well spent
  
 God† works–
 in ways mysteriously
 in the smallest set
 of flowers seen
 to the destruction
 of your security
 He'll† raise you up
 to free
 or bring you down
 to your knees
  
 the heart...a scaled commodity
 God† praises its divinity
 but first–
 He's† going to hand you over
 to the enemy
 –this...is life's certainty
  
 there are a few things
 He† needs to see
 it's the process of He†
 –seeing....
 'are you worth the light
 of eternity'
  
 so He† takes away
 the moon, the sun, the stars
 darkness becomes–
 your reality
 –destruction changes
 your me
 in mind and heart–
 you struggle in fighting
 –depending on His† variety
 which cross is your certainty
  
 there...down there....
 comes in the enemy
 setting your heart to stone
 confusing your mind–
 everything seems wrong
 –fighting your every bit
 of strong
  
 it'll offer you some peace
 it'll tell you to ease
 –you...it's sent to burn
 push you to the limits
 –see what decisions
 you'll enlighten
 in firm
  
 for years and years–
 it'll stick around
 tearing you down
 piece by piece
 it'll bring in–
 hurt, anger...even disease
 leaving behind
 the final key
 in destroying you
 with ease
  
 shame
  
 its ultimate end game
 –what's left behind
 the struggle
 of crossing the line
  
 God† is watching: patiently
 –the ask from a good heart
 sets the good vine apart
  
 'what will you do'
  
 as one by one–
 His† angels appear
 a ragged-out homeless chum
 a raging woman
 pushing you to dumb
  
 the looking glass–
 staring back at you
 the enemy enjoys its play
 it'll pull you further in
 welcoming you–
 in its den
 it'll send false friends
 put you into win
 –it'll build your pride and ego
  
 'those angels have to go
 this isn't...that kind of show'
  
 oh! no, no, no!
  
 your heart still confused
 –back around you go
 the same show–
 again and again
 as you keep on seeing
 every angel sent to you
 –forcing the enemy
 to drool
  
 'run..they're the fiends
 hide within
 shh...I'll bring you to win
 –all the world's possessions
 I'll bring on in'
  
 God† continues on watching
 tapping His† toes
 waiting
 sometimes...shaking His† head
  
 'oh my! back around again!'
  
 He† hears you beg and plead
 He† sees your heart bleed
  
 'oh that vine...so diseased'
  
 but...He† waits patiently
 for your heart–
 to finally heed
 –knowing the worse
 could very well
 lead you to the hearse
  
 the ultimate end game
 shame
 the hardest part to heal
 God† very well–
 knows the deal
 –shame carries
 the strongest seal
 –it's the humble
 that awaits
 after the stumble–
 the over and over rumble
 –for shame:
 destroys, steals, and kills
  
 it is the ultimate real
 that which breaks
 a man's strongest will

Note: The photograph that accompanies this piece was taken on October 23rd when God sent the first dragon and the All-Seeing Eye.

(December 30, 2019)—Shame: Again the poem came first this morning. This is really odd for me, especially since the Scripture usually inspires the poem. Instead the poem is coming, then I’m led to the Scripture that backs it!

Shame. This is the latest topic that has been a chief instrument in the writings. You can’t heal unless you deal with shame. That emotion that has you in chains, that which binds you. You can’t testify that you are not ashamed if your actions and words say it all. And I’m talking to the ones who need to hear this. Oh, it won’t be right now. No. The time is coming when you will NEED to hear this and just anyone won’t do. God will send you here…His words will be waiting.

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‘Soulful Fight’

True love. When you’re willing do hard love to save another person…when you sacrifice your own self, your own heart, to force the heal, God sees. When you do that, you’ve done Jesus’ work…laying a foundation for His love to take over.

Note: The photograph that accompanies this work was taken on November 9th. The bride and groom. The sign of Jonah plays an important part in this image. Resurrection. Heal.

 Soulful Fight
  
 I went after the leprosy
 with everything I had–
 in my raging diplomacy
  
 as you crucified me
 I forced my eyes in see
 there was evil lurking–
 in supremacy
 it had you by the balls–
 sucking you up
 in turbulency
  
 so I forced the trenchancy
 put my own life–
 in uneasy
 fighting in urgency
 in a faith-based vagrancy
 using a ferocious vulgarity
 mixed with heart-filled tranquility
  
 it was a war in predominancy
 a constant in persistency
 with a Jesus†-driven prophecy
 in scripture proficiency
  
 I refused to give in–
 to its juvenile delinquency
 as it continued
 its obvious redundancy
  
 no...I had a certain resiliency
 a God†-powered superiority
 –a whole lot of
 bayou-girl tenacity
  
 I wavered all my
 constitutionality
 plus my respectability
 –my inward-driven notability
  
 yeah, I rebuked its notoriety
 with a whole lot of animosity
 a bit of flavored immaturity
 –a bit of raging hostility
  
 no matter the difficulty
 I broke its embedded dynasty
  
 all to save your soul
 from a firing eternity!

‘Good of Earth’

Reason…in my personal life…because they had a dark secret as well! The guilty help the guilty. So, when the victim of a crime screams wolf….all the wolves help the wolf.

Note: The photograph that accompanies this writing was taken on October 23rd. It is the white dove that I write about later in this writing when talking about the Sign of Jonah!

 Good of Earth
  
 healing begins
 in the heart
 setting pride aside
 that which tears us apart
 letting out the light
 which brightens stars
 building another's heart
 by halting pain
 from the start
  
 without this healing bark
 pain lives on
 adding to its cart
 more parts of the dark
 stripping lives
 –that mercy of heart
 building the prince of the earth
 –it's army in surf
  
 it is only through
 admittance, accountability
 that we add a ball
 in curve
 understanding...fully
 who we serve
  
 by casting out
 pain's dart
 dealing immediately
 byway of God's†
 merciful heart
 that we justify
 Jesus'† part
  
 His† death wasn't a fart
 for the innocent–
 always pay the heaviest cost
  
 go to the cross
 then sort
 –the heaviness
 won't be a part
  
 hide in the dark
 deny the sort
 –the heaviness
 becomes the burden
 in pain's cross
 becoming too difficult
 to sort
 leading us to
 true intimacy
 of the dark
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‘Death March’

Deal! Lies kill. Lies destroy. Manipulation and living a fake life…God sees ALL!

 Death March
  
 God† brings in tests
 evil, the prince of sin
 freely plays
 for the win
 –it's all testing
 each person involved
 in each test
  
 who's going to lie
 who's going to hide
 who's going to fall
 to ego and pride
 who's going to confess
 ease their soul
 to rest
  
 who's truly the enemy
 in disguise
 in captivity
 –on their backs
 a haunting spirit
 lost in unrest
  
 who's going to pass blame
 who's the target
 of their aim
 who'll seal it
 with a kiss
 of a snake's hiss
  
 God† uses each
 for each's test
 –those fallen
 to the hiss
 covering up their sin
 for secrets
 shh, hush, hush
 are best
 protecting their darkness
 as they steal innocence
 –do whatever it takes–
 blacken a stolen light
  
 God† sends in
 the hardest tests
 –the devil's unquenchable taste
 its darkened thirst of lust–
 to those His† heart knows
 will win
 –taking its time
 in condemn–
 rebuilding
 for His† brethren
 as the eating away
 takes its place
 of the one
 who brought in sin
 or rather–
 those covering up–
 the true ones in sin
 the ones forbidding
 the healing
 protecting their own skin
 –they are the ones
 to the pit...condemned
 failing God's† tests
 for their own
 fake rest
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‘Your ‘Why”

For the morning dove, how sweet it is to finally know the truth. The decision to live life over society byway of the truth is the most courageous act of love mankind could ever witness.

Note: The photograph that accompanies this writing was taken October 23.

 Your 'Why'
  
 I know your why
 it's okay
 you...no longer
 have to just get by
 it's okay
 lay it out–
 let yourself cry
  
 before you came back
 in this earthly body–
 you made a truth
 in decide
 a cross to occupy
 in honor of the One†
 on the cross...died
  
 you came here
 in His† honor
 to experience
 then to testify
 to stab that evil prince
 in the eye
  
 no one else
 made such a decide
 you already knew–
 the truth
 behind the lie
  
 you came here
 to verify
 –put an end
 to the genocide
  
 of all the crimes
 added to this homicide
 you chose the worse
 in horrify
 the one left out
 in write
 the one to evil
 to supply–
 stripping dignify
 of the preciousness
 of the Magi†
  
 your importance
 now...in verify
 the love
 in transcribe
 not in implied
 not in modified
 not in mystified
 never...again...in nullify
 but in exemplified
 –for you died
 in deny
 then resurrected
 in verify
 on how to beat
 evil's formaldehyde
  
 for out of vampire
 you fought the fires
 to break the liars
 of their infested pesticide
 elevating the life
 of Jesus Christ†
  
 for you...and you alone–
 chose to bear the cross
 that didn't even
 live in deny
 –one hidden by evil
 to awaken and thrive
 –stealing little lives
 for sake of die!
  
 you will change the ride
  
 for you came back
 to experience
 then testify
  
 this...the meaning
 of your why
  
 so do it...outwardly cry
 for your cross
 reasons...from way up high
 –a dove in flight
 for all mankind

‘Fight!’

Crimes against you…it’s nothing to do with you. It’s a test of will…those God holds dearest are tested the hardest. Don’t give up! Don’t lose faith.

 Fight!
  
 put your heart
 into it
 fight the beast
 of it
 cry, yell, scream‒
 beat the walls
 of it
 ‒tear it down
 to bits
 you got this
 all the evil‒
 resist
  
 fight, fight, fight it
  
 you can get
 the best of it
  
 strip it, yank it
 ‒it wasn't your bit
 it wasn't your fault‒
 in any of it
  
 destroy that bitch
  
 fight, fight, fight
  
 punch the shit
 out of it
 be bigger than it
 you've got this
  
 scream...hiss!
  
 tear it
 to fucking bits
  
 fight! fight!
 fight it!