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‘Perils Unwrapped’ (God and Tattooed Skin Dream)

…If a man curses his father or mother, his lamp will be snuffed out in pitch darkness.―Proverbs 20:20; Listen to your father, who gave you life, and do not despise your mother when she is old. Buy the truth and do not sell it; get wisdom, discipline and understanding. The father of a righteous man has great joy; he who has a wise son delights in him. May your father and mother be glad; may she who gave you birth rejoice!―Proverbs 23:22-25

Perils Unwrapped (God)

you think I† don't see
you think I† am not here

I† see
for I† make My† prophet see
as well
to remind you peoples
of the world
your evils are seen
your rape of My† seed
your sacrifice of My† seed
your immoral displacement
of My† seed
your torture of My† seed
has angered Me†
beyond matters already
at hand

now! to change their assignment!
you filthy peas!

‒says the Lord Almighty God†

do you think I† approve
of your slaughter of My† seed?

I† shall slaughter you!
each and everyone
who brings harm to even
one strand of hair
on My† seed!

your evil is noted
I† gave you what you desired
you went through with it
now I† condemn you!

ALL! all peoples involved!
all peoples who's hand
suffered My† seed!

I† will torture you
in the same manner
for eternity!

satan has many rooms
and you are filling them up!
a choice you have chosen

why have you condemned
yourselves?
why can't you face the
truth and live?

you've fallen to the world
the world has swallowed
you up

I† accept your surrender
to the world!

My† people will know you
and shun you
all your slaves will
enter My† kingdom
including the prostitutes
but you 'o slaver
will perish in the fires
forever!

go 'o waves
brush against the mountains
mourn 'o refuge
for many have fallen
on the battle ground
and will never rise again

sing 'o peoples of the land
the time of nines advances
desires will continue
lust will continue
I† will see the strength
of My† people prevail

you 'o world are condemned
already
work through My† people
work your hands raw

the strong will prevail
and they will sing
from the mountains
and from zion I† will hear

''o Lord, grant us salvation.'

and I† will grant them
salvation

all of My† wrath
will pillage the remaining
of the earth

and then you will know
I† am the Lord†
the Alpha AND the Omega!

(April 24, 2023)—I wanted to forget the dream. It was just too horrible and I don’t know why I dreamed it until this morning when I was told to write down the dream. I didn’t want to at first, I just wanted to forget it, but then He asked again and kept me from blocking it out. I could feel His anger as He gave the words, then He led met to the Proverbs below. For you not to understand that God is talking, you are a fool!

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‘Nothing’s ‘No More”

You can talk all day long about these things, but if the very people who are not suppose to be doing it are doing it, then why not you do it, too.

Nothing's 'No More'

you can't make another feel
when lost is the deal

a heart you can't steal
when it refuses to heal

you can't live in a memory
‒be in constant harmony
without bringing calamity
to yourself
locked in your own history

...and...you can't just let it all go
expect to just flow
expect it all to turn to gold
‒have bank accounts
full of do'

you have to break the seal
what you managed to conceal

you have to relive its mystery
unlock its misery

take every memory…choke
'til your mind-set goes broke

you have to feel
every hurtful chill
you have to pull it all out
hand it
its final bill

sing it
write it
build from it

whatever it takes
rebuild from its hold
with a self so bold
‒that no more
lies corrode

instead
you're ready to share
lay your heart bare
be the gold
that pulls someone else
from the cold

(February 10, 2022)—I wrote ‘Nothing’s ‘No More” November 10, 2021. I received another writing from Jesus this morning and I feel perplexed in a strange sort of way. But it isn’t for me to question. I hear. I write. I give. But before I give, I have to clear my mind, so I continued editing this morning and ‘Nothing’s ‘No More’ was put before me.

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‘Adaptable Indifference’ (Yeshuah (Jesus))

Jesus said, ‘It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’ For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.’

Adaptable Indifference (Yeshuah (Jesus))

why do you not touch My† Words?

do you not know
they are true and just?

what is in this unbelief
that just because I've† chosen a woman
you prowl yourself away
ignoring because of her?

don't you see
this is the very reason I† chose her?

she wrote about abuse
no one was listening
how far is it to write for Me†?

you don't stand up for those abused
no one stood up for her
no one stood up for Me† either
it's God's† will
testing a person's heart:

will you give to that person?
will you stand up for this person?
will you help mend that person?
will you endure and save this person?

as I† demonstrate through My† prophet's life
people run at the first sight of strife
this isn't what the Father† calls for
He† has shown through the prophet
now I† tell you as well

strife test the most
it's fire
and many can't take the heat
it is that heat which pushes the hardest
gets under your skin
digs in deep
it wants you to give up
it wants you to walk away
it pushes and pulls
tearing at your very heart
making you the fool
to the outside...the collection

but it is the inside that matters
that push and pull
strife or the collection

'what will you do'?

the easy answer comes easy
the hard answer comes hard
the harder the answer
the more Confusion comes in
mixing the boiling pot

the heart carries the Truth
listen
it is not always what you want
to hear
but it is the Truth

the road to the Kingdom
will not be the easy road
trust inside instead of out

—says the Lord Yeshuah (Jesus)†, the Christ†
the first Son†
of the one, true living God†

(September 11, 2021)—Mercy.

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‘Give Me a Pulse’

The Lord said at the end the young will be disrespectful. Yes. He also said in the writings He has sent to me that confusion will be vast. Yes. It is time for us to make our own choice. You have a choice to forgive or not. 

Give Me a Pulse
 
a sacrifice on a cross
wasn't the only beat of the toss
‒opening up the vault
sent everyone in a summersault
seeing truly
who was righteous
who was false
 
adding to the one
with the highest pulse
adding ease
adding difficult
adding a given choice
to their final result
 
melchizedek sends word
as God† instructs the waltz
‒a judge to consult
love or a revolt
each has a cross
each has sins to exhaust
up and down
goes their waltz
then it's time to talk
‒take Jesus† along
for the walk
 
until the lesson's taught
each person is left
in sought
finding their own way
separately...together
‒but it isn't necessary
each is still caught
for the final result
 
all individual hearts
carefully weighed
measuring each scar
as its pulled out
the forgotten time-vault
‒waiting patiently
for the toss
 
the judge's final straw
a decision based on law
decided on your own draw

(October 14, 2020)―Thoughts. We are all basically on our own in the choices that we make. I was put into a very hard place over the weekend. I wrote a piece I haven’t published yet. I wanted to but the Lord says it’s not time. Instead this piece.

The Lord said at the end the young will be disrespectful. Yes. He also said in the writings He has sent to me that confusion will be vast. Yes. It is time for us to make our own choice. You have a choice to forgive or not. You have a choice to dishonor your parents or not. It’s not on them. My mother gave me so many reasons to dishonor her. I couldn’t. I would get mad at her, not speak to her for weeks, but then the need of her would come. I never, ever yelled at my mother, nor would even considered it, though at times I wanted to. I bit my tongue. She was my mother. My love for her outweighed anything she did to me. My father has been a different story. I saw the way he treated my mother. Everyone praises him. I don’t. I love him. I do. But I can’t honor him. So, I choose to forgive and let mom take care of the rest.

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‘Words in Wisdom’ and ‘Removing of Chains’

We have to break those chains. If we constantly carry that pain and keep feeding it then we never achieve total peace. We have to be able to lift that hurt off of us. 

Words in Wisdom
 
look up to what's up
oppression happens
in the mind
over years, over time
it brings on despair
something that traumatized‒
and wasn't...at all...fair
 
it took from you
it robbed from you
of an innocence
leaving your mind
in distress
your heart
in confusion
‒it became your affliction
your personal calamity
though you refused to see
too young, too naïve
‒you just saw
it wasn't the way to be
 
so you learned differently
a game of hide and seek
that moved you
to disbelief
 
you threw away empathy
not caring‒
way down deep
‒you learned how to surface
keep things out of seep
showing simple compassion
without making a decision
or turning it into
an intrusion
 
instead you learned to lift
take it off of you‒
to a cause...shift
then bounce it back
‒whomever got a whiff
 
you aced the summersault
getting out of discomfort
byway of other's vaults
‒it's easy for you to stomp
whomever comes‒
revealing your faults
 
‒from your mind
you built a special cult‒
those who live
in the same confusion
‒truth is abruptly put
in halt
cast out...the door barred
in bolt
 
you learned‒
became the master
in shield
‒the enemy
the hidden iniquities:
the unfairness
the immorality
the unjust
the wrong
the evil
the viciousness‒
all that you blame
passed around
with emotions inflamed
 
‒are yours....

(July 10, 2020)―Today, I was lead to Psalm 107 (included fully at the end of the commentary for ‘Removing of Chains’). From that, I was led back into the past and Jesus made me cry. An order I placed weeks ago came in today. It was a dress. It’s the third of six dresses that I ordered in the size 2x. I’m not really a 2x, but I’m not a 6 or a 10 or even a 12 anymore. The 2x dresses fit loose and they are comfortable…COMFORTABLE is the key word. Then I was led to ‘Removing of Chains’ written in 2012. When I got to the end of that writing, that’s when the tears came. And David saying, ‘Yes!’ When you read it, you will totally understand. It is included below, as this is long…an afternoon-sit-with-coffee-or-tea type of writing!

Both ‘Removing of Chains’ and ‘Words in Wisdom’ parallel each other and then to read Psalm 107, either written by King David or Asaph, it doesn’t matter. This writing was written in a time when God clearly made Himself known in big ways. Today, He does it in simple ways that people can see…at least, those who CAN see.

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‘Enclosed We Go!’

This isn’t a joke. I didn’t elect to spend all my free time writing all of this just for the sake of doing it to piss you off. God told me to write all of this. Did you hear that? He TOLD me! 

 Enclosed We Go!
  
 His† wrath is coming‒
 ‒a sending of bull dogs
 with their spike-filled teeth
 growling at the innocent
 ‒playfulness...they seek
 in indecent
 inviting willing men
 hand in hand‒
 their spears
 their only needed weapon
 ‒confusing minds
 controlling every line
  
 His† wrath is coming‒
 His† words will disappear
 He'll† hide Himself† totally
 –from every hemisphere
  
 you'll search
 but you won't find
 unless you're one‒
 in the divine
  
 then you will see
 parts of Him†
 here and there
 leaving you hungry
 and thirsty‒
 begging around every turn
 'where is He†? 
 I need to know!'
  
 His† words‒
 will become your lust
 His† words‒
 will become your greed
 His† words‒
 will become your lies
 His† words‒
 will become your darkness
  
 ‒all the things you so love
 better than He†
 all that evil‒
 you will trade it all
 –just for one look!
 just for one tiny glimpse!
  
 how precious‒
 He† will become!
  
 after, He† closes
 Himself† out
 ‒leaves earth in destruction
 after He† hides
 He† will become‒
 ALL that you seek!
  

(January 23, 2020)―I was led to Amos for the second time this week. There was something that the Lord wanted me see and I did finally. I had to include the entire Scripture concerning what Amos saw and heard so you’ll see how God reveals things through His prophets. But before…I have to release a little whoop-ass per say.

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‘The Sending of Lies’

‘…The new wine dries up and the vine withers; all the merrymakers groan. The gaiety of the tambourines is stilled, the noise of the revelers has stopped, the joyful harp is silent….’―Isaiah 24:1-23

 The Sending of Lies
  
 God's† mercy is upon thee–
 when asked
 for a place to be
 with a good-weighing heart
 –absent of deception and deceit
  
 pray that you see
 all the angels sent
 see to it...their time
 is well spent
  
 God† works–
 in ways mysteriously
 in the smallest set
 of flowers seen
 to the destruction
 of your security
 He'll† raise you up
 to free
 or bring you down
 to your knees
  
 the heart...a scaled commodity
 God† praises its divinity
 but first–
 He's† going to hand you over
 to the enemy
 –this...is life's certainty
  
 there are a few things
 He† needs to see
 it's the process of He†
 –seeing....
 'are you worth the light
 of eternity'
  
 so He† takes away
 the moon, the sun, the stars
 darkness becomes–
 your reality
 –destruction changes
 your me
 in mind and heart–
 you struggle in fighting
 –depending on His† variety
 which cross is your certainty
  
 there...down there....
 comes in the enemy
 setting your heart to stone
 confusing your mind–
 everything seems wrong
 –fighting your every bit
 of strong
  
 it'll offer you some peace
 it'll tell you to ease
 –you...it's sent to burn
 push you to the limits
 –see what decisions
 you'll enlighten
 in firm
  
 for years and years–
 it'll stick around
 tearing you down
 piece by piece
 it'll bring in–
 hurt, anger...even disease
 leaving behind
 the final key
 in destroying you
 with ease
  
 shame
  
 its ultimate end game
 –what's left behind
 the struggle
 of crossing the line
  
 God† is watching: patiently
 –the ask from a good heart
 sets the good vine apart
  
 'what will you do'
  
 as one by one–
 His† angels appear
 a ragged-out homeless chum
 a raging woman
 pushing you to dumb
  
 the looking glass–
 staring back at you
 the enemy enjoys its play
 it'll pull you further in
 welcoming you–
 in its den
 it'll send false friends
 put you into win
 –it'll build your pride and ego
  
 'those angels have to go
 this isn't...that kind of show'
  
 oh! no, no, no!
  
 your heart still confused
 –back around you go
 the same show–
 again and again
 as you keep on seeing
 every angel sent to you
 –forcing the enemy
 to drool
  
 'run..they're the fiends
 hide within
 shh...I'll bring you to win
 –all the world's possessions
 I'll bring on in'
  
 God† continues on watching
 tapping His† toes
 waiting
 sometimes...shaking His† head
  
 'oh my! back around again!'
  
 He† hears you beg and plead
 He† sees your heart bleed
  
 'oh that vine...so diseased'
  
 but...He† waits patiently
 for your heart–
 to finally heed
 –knowing the worse
 could very well
 lead you to the hearse
  
 the ultimate end game
 shame
 the hardest part to heal
 God† very well–
 knows the deal
 –shame carries
 the strongest seal
 –it's the humble
 that awaits
 after the stumble–
 the over and over rumble
 –for shame:
 destroys, steals, and kills
  
 it is the ultimate real
 that which breaks
 a man's strongest will

(December 30, 2019)—Shame: Again the poem came first this morning. This is really odd for me, especially since the Scripture usually inspires the poem. Instead the poem is coming, then I’m led to the Scripture that backs it!

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‘Good of Earth’

Reason…in my personal life…because they had a dark secret as well! The guilty help the guilty. So, when the victim of a crime screams wolf….all the wolves help the wolf.

 Good of Earth
  
 healing begins
 in the heart
 setting pride aside
 that which tears us apart
 letting out the light
 which brightens stars
 building another's heart
 by halting pain
 from the start
  
 without this healing bark
 pain lives on
 adding to its cart
 more parts of the dark
 stripping lives
 –that mercy of heart
 building the prince of the earth
 –it's army in surf
  
 it is only through
 admittance, accountability
 that we add a ball
 in curve
 understanding...fully
 who we serve
  
 by casting out
 pain's dart
 dealing immediately
 byway of God's†
 merciful heart
 that we justify
 Jesus'† part
  
 His† death wasn't a fart
 for the innocent–
 always pay the heaviest cost
  
 go to the cross
 then sort
 –the heaviness
 won't be a part
  
 hide in the dark
 deny the sort
 –the heaviness
 becomes the burden
 in pain's cross
 becoming too difficult
 to sort
 leading us to
 true intimacy
 of the dark

(November 12, 2019)―Judgment. Abandoning the weak for pride and selfish ego. Today’s Scripture: WOW!

I posted a number of things on my Facebook personal page this weekend and past week. Again, God working through me. Judgment. I said posted today: They crucified Jesus for the words He said. Not what He did. And the Lord directed me to more of the good works Jesus did. He did not ONE thing wrong. He spoke. And they nailed Him to a cross because of the words He spoke. Hypocrites!

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‘Your ‘Why”

For the morning dove, how sweet it is to finally know the truth. The decision to live life over society byway of the truth is the most courageous act of love mankind could ever witness.

 Your 'Why'
  
 I know your why
 it's okay
 you...no longer
 have to just get by
 it's okay
 lay it out–
 let yourself cry
  
 before you came back
 in this earthly body–
 you made a truth
 in decide
 a cross to occupy
 in honor of the One†
 on the cross...died
  
 you came here
 in His† honor
 to experience
 then to testify
 to stab that evil prince
 in the eye
  
 no one else
 made such a decide
 you already knew–
 the truth
 behind the lie
  
 you came here
 to verify
 –put an end
 to the genocide
  
 of all the crimes
 added to this homicide
 you chose the worse
 in horrify
 the one left out
 in write
 the one to evil
 to supply–
 stripping dignify
 of the preciousness
 of the Magi†
  
 your importance
 now...in verify
 the love
 in transcribe
 not in implied
 not in modified
 not in mystified
 never...again...in nullify
 but in exemplified
 –for you died
 in deny
 then resurrected
 in verify
 on how to beat
 evil's formaldehyde
  
 for out of vampire
 you fought the fires
 to break the liars
 of their infested pesticide
 elevating the life
 of Jesus Christ†
  
 for you...and you alone–
 chose to bear the cross
 that didn't even
 live in deny
 –one hidden by evil
 to awaken and thrive
 –stealing little lives
 for sake of die!
  
 you will change the ride
  
 for you came back
 to experience
 then testify
  
 this...the meaning
 of your why
  
 so do it...outwardly cry
 for your cross
 reasons...from way up high
 –a dove in flight
 for all mankind

(November 3, 2019) Note: The photograph that accompanies this writing was taken October 23.

‘Fight!’

Crimes against you…it’s nothing to do with you. It’s a test of will…those God holds dearest are tested the hardest. Don’t give up! Don’t lose faith.

 Fight!
  
 put your heart
 into it
 fight the beast
 of it
 cry, yell, scream‒
 beat the walls
 of it
 ‒tear it down
 to bits
 you got this
 all the evil‒
 resist
  
 fight, fight, fight it
  
 you can get
 the best of it
  
 strip it, yank it
 ‒it wasn't your bit
 it wasn't your fault‒
 in any of it
  
 destroy that bitch
  
 fight, fight, fight
  
 punch the shit
 out of it
 be bigger than it
 you've got this
  
 scream...hiss!
  
 tear it
 to fucking bits
  
 fight! fight!
 fight it!

(Written October 4, 2019)