‘Aggravation’s Portion’ (Yeshuah)

November 20, 2023: ‘Aggravation’s Portion’ (Yeshuah)…I tell you the truth, no one can enter the Kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit…I tell you the truth, we speak of what we know, and we testify to what we have seen, but still you people do not accept our testimony…Just as Moses lifted up the snake in the desert, so the Son of Man must be lifted up, that everyone who believes in Him may have eternal life. For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life…This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God.”—John 3:1-21

Aggravation's Portion (Yeshuah)

we seek understanding
we demand that we know
but the only way
to truly know
which brings true understanding
is to allow truth to prevail

on the road to truth
aggravation endows
to exploit you

I† send you aggravation
I†, the Son†, Jesus†
send you thought's process
so deep inside
you are able to deal
with the chains that bind you

and there are chains
chains you cannot see
but can feel
and they hold you
in captivity
as long as needed
for you to heal from them

if it were sins you committed
against another
or sins that where committed
against you

hatred and anger
rage and disappointment
all bring into your heart

I† charge each of you
to release this
from this day forward
stand against shame

and how do you do this?
you will ask


I† put the words on your tongue
I† put the words on another's tongue

not to insult you
nor to bring on more shame

what you feel
when this is done
brings out what is already there
no less and no more

the aggravation
is formed in many ways

anger is the worse
what you feel as humiliation
is nothing more than the anger
you already felt
but hid from everyone

something was done to you
or you did something to another

this is where your 'humiliation'
the mask of hurt and anger
comes from

but this is how society
has made you feel:

•if it is not a certified person
meaning one who holds degrees
(given a status among men)
then you don't listen

•if it isn't a priest
or someone of the 'cloth'
that man deemed worthy
then you don't listen

I† have proven this truth
to the prophet of the pen
through the prophet of the pen

it does not matter
what man thinks
did you know that?

it matters what God† thinks

and He† is
as I† am

taking your shame out
on another
especially the one charged
with drawing it out
has become 'normal'
but it only places more marks
on an already scared heart

you have done this to yourself
for you were presented
with a choice
seeing the charge against yourself
and your 'self' not willing
to face the charge
you decided to hurt another
you decided to place blame
on an innocent being

do you know
that person charged
was a way of forcing
a healing of the heart
from God† Himself†
for He† found you worthy
and you refused His† help?

your life of luxury and leisure
does not mean you are favored

satan lies
he loves his tricks
he is charged with trickery
for he is evil and deceptive
but still a being
who is not above God†!

I† was crucified
a lamb without blemish
I† take those charged to Me†
and bring them low
through the Father†
they are also sacrificed
and the resurrection
that you proclaimed about Myself†
also happens to them
the first ascension

and for many being hard hearts
it takes several
to completely let go of the world

they will lose their life first
and until they do
they will continue going
around and around

the sacrifice for sin
is taking the innocent
and giving them to the Father†
in order for salvation
to be released

this is what you cannot understand
unless you seek truth
not in scientific data
or research or digging in the ground
nor debate that never reaches
any kind of conclusion

it is only in trusting
what you cannot see
opening yourself to understanding

all of those who have truly
felt Me†
many of them
are willing to die for Me†
in life
and live with your ostracism
your ignore, your swords
your knives, your ropes,
your bullets
they fell into understanding
without a need to see

those on the other side of that
need to see
they cannot feel Me†
because they are stuck
in tradition
stuck in death
stuck in the world

release the aggravation
do not get frustrated
because you have felt Me†
and truly know the truth
and those you love don't
it is not their time
and perhaps never will be their time

it is not your choice
who is saved
and who is not

a choice is given
it is their choice to make

as long as each body lives
the choice is still theirs
they still have time
but they, as well as, you
do not know when I† will come for you

so always be prepared
keep the light in your 'self'
always lit
and each time the darkness comes
do not go to bed
until the light reemerges

the teachings will continue
until the time comes
which the Father† deemed

the charge is underway
you see it as 'normal'
explained away
as previously told to you
as 'normal'

as the change continues
as 'normal' explanations are given
so it will be
when the Father† and Myself†
slip away
for a time
you will not have the strength
to hold onto Me†
on the outside
it is only on the inside
that you will prevail
what you do in secret
the Father† will see
what you say in secret
the Father† will hear

hold Me† close to your heart
confined in the inner most recesses
the chamber where man
cannot go
for I† will remain with those
who remain in Me†

to save the world
the remnants have been chosen
those who's hearts are plenty
will feel the Spirit† upon them
and no matter what
their offspring will inherit
a new earth
and a new Heaven will emerge

(November 20, 2023)―He led me to the John 3:1-21 a day before this writing. Yesterday, in fact, after I was questioning myself and my life. He said, ‘Open the book,’ and there was the answer, then He said that He will give me a writing to be used with this Scripture. So, He has.

Now there was a man of the Pharisees named Nicodemus, a member of the Jewish ruling council. He came to Jesus at night and said, ‘Rabbi, we know You are a teacher who has come from God. For no one could perform the miraculous signs You are doing if God were not with Him.’ In reply Jesus declared, ‘I tell you the truth, no one can see the Kingdom of God unless he is born again.’ ‘How can a man be born when he is old?’ Nicodemus asked. ‘Surely, he cannot enter a second time into his mother’s womb to be born!’ Jesus answered, ‘I tell you the truth, no one can enter the Kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at My saying, ‘You must be born again.’ The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.’ ‘How can this be?’ Nicodemus asked. ‘You are Israel’s teacher,’ said Jesus, ‘and do you not understand these things? I tell you the truth, we speak of what we know, and we testify to what we have seen, but still you people do not accept our testimony. I have spoken to you of earthly things and you do not believe; how then will you believe if I speak of heavenly things? No one has ever gone into Heaven except the One who came from Heaven—the Son of Man. Just as Moses lifted up the snake in the desert, so the Son of Man must be lifted up, that everyone who believes in Him may have eternal life. For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him. Whoever believes in Him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God.’—John 3:1-21

The photograph David led me to was actually a screenshot (below) is from September 27, 2019: Love from Heaven. The heart that was being formed in my hair. Notice the numbers to the right of that heart. I make out a 4 and a 6. There were no numbers on any billboards and such. Behind me were only trees.

You can read all of the visions, dreams and words, as well as see all the images and see the time frame in which they were given by clicking on Message Index.

‘The Showth of God†’

‘The Showth of God’…I can’t force this knowledge on you. I can only share what is given to me. And I do it willingly. I was reluctant to share these today. And both of Them gave me time to think about it. Just like in the Crucifixion Vision, Yeshuah made me take the time to think about my decision before answering Him. This is Yeshuah’s nature. He wants you to think about it, consider all the options….’

The Showth of God†

you would not know of Him†
had He† not shown Himself†

but…and...He† did
He† opened Himself† up
‒showth it to one people
but not just to one
‒it was for that one
who spread the truth
throughout the world

all those who belong to Him†
know the truth of Him†
He† is still with us‒
the offspring of the patriarchs
abraham, issac, jacob
moses and all those
who've witnessed His† power
who learned the truth of the past
‒the comings of the future

all the way down
to me—His† prophet
thousands of years later
when once again
the great, majestic King†
showth Himself†
revealing His† unconditional love
‒His† mysterious ways

so to give you
parts of Wisdom Herself

listen, my children: be careful
on your judgment of others
do not say words with your mouth
about another person
with guesses and lack of knowledge
for you will become
the false words you preach
in your gossip 
in your malicious hearts

know that Wisdom Herself
has revealed this to be true

it may take years
for God's† mysteries to reveal themselves
but they will reveal themselves
‒out of your eyes
when God† is ready
He† will show you His† mysterious power

ten years it took
then He† showth them to me
those who whispered 'she is crazy'
about God's† servant
have become 'crazy'
‒their minds robbed
their actions inconceivable

fear Him† who showth such things
‒revele Him† too
for He† is king
‒all powers
belong to Him†

(September 6, 2023)―The following works: Trapped Under’, The Riches of Lowliness’, Humble’s Renaissance’, The Ant’s Surface’, Lesson’s Given’,To Be Known’, The Showth of God† and ‘a Ways from Danger’ were written between August 27 and September 3, 2023 preceding Yeshuah’s Step Found’ which was given September 5, 2023.

The photograph David chose is a photograph was taken October 8, 2019: Oil Spill.

‘Doubting Occurrence’

Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life—in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing. But even if I am being poured out like a drink offering on the sacrifice and service coming from your faith, I am glad and rejoice with all of you. So you too should be glad and rejoice with me.—Philippians 2:14-18

Doubting Occurrence

I've come down this road
guided along
by the hand of the old
the One† who held me
in blindfold
so truth
could be told

I stand here‒
in the middle of this road
not one bit
in bitter cold
no longer in blindfold
no feelings in explode
no longer feelings in limbo

I'm alone in my home
but not at all
in hollow
around me‒
I feel a hallo
in the smart
of gold

often, in the past
I allowed the incommunicado
to cause my emotions
to off load
in voice‒
not so much, the de facto
but in text, online
I would off balance
a freeload
looking for sympathy
be part of the 'following' flow

not any mo'

I'm out the ghetto

freedom…sometimes in cognito
but balanced
in and out…my soul

now 'a days, I get holy hellos
from Heaven's front do'
I see truth
when everyone else
sees mumbo-jumbo

I was given a seat
not in a gestapo
but seeing…it's a LIFO

I accept this human gallow
I know its truth
but I'm on the other side
behind me…the inferno

out of the fires in burrow
into the golden glow
of the Boss† in honco

He† says I am His†
|that my redemption
is the winner
in bingo
my faith‒an abraham tornado
that couldn't be stopped‒
no matter the embargo|

I sit down to write
with gusto
for I sincerely know
I'm no religious gigolo
but a servant
with eyes in magnifico

I don't have to wonder‒
I don't have to abide
by man's echo

I know
from where comes
the rainbows
and in my mind
there's no echo
but the voice
of the One†
who casted my mold

above all things
God†, the Most High
has been the hand
through my kaleidoscope
'til I evolved
into the 'dope'
in which my inside kinetoscope
is plain and clear
for He† put me into the hands
of the ultimate loophole
the one true Son†
who took me out of hold
‒released me
I give you the Father's† manifesto
tell them
the warnings are so'

this is no human designed lingo
it is His†
the part that I know
is pure heavenly gold
I know it is so
for He† told me so

UPDATE: As I was discussing this piece with the Lord, after I posted it, He said: ‘The Lord says of American political machines, ‘I will break both the right and the left then they will die.’

He told me to add this to this post as an update and to the top of the post. So I have.

(August 6, 2023)—This morning, I asked whether to read or write. The answer came slow until I knew what to do: Write from my heart. But, lately, I feel trapped in writing from my heart because I couldn’t possibly match those of the Lord. So, they helped me and ‘Doubting Occurrence’ is the result. Then I was led to Philippians 2: 3-11 and 2:14-18. Perfect! (The Scriptures follow the commentary)

Last night…this work is an answer to my shortcomings when I had to cry and I felt my heart break. He answered me!

I have never changed…in the since of my faith. You can go back to all the writings here on this site or get my books (they are still available) and see. What did change was my emotions, my grasp on life, my pain. And I could not do that without God! I could not change to the point of not wanting to sin without Yeshuah! That is fact.

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‘Consensual’ (Yeshuah)

Consensual (Yeshuah)

it is in the heart
that we know truth
down deep
what tears us apart

if it isn't said
it leaves us dead
lost in death
separate from the rest

when truth is hidden
it drives in the forbidden
brings in darkness
that leaves us in

a pull from within
filling us
a strange notion
of demotion
of anger and hate
changing the course
of our fate

the truth must be spoken
it's an honorable token
from strength given
to speak what others
deemed forbidden

the truth must be spoken

no matter the hurt
or the ill-feelings
in flirt

it is the call of Christ†
it is today
a called sacrifice
a force in heal
from forbidden's deal
bringing it into the real
unlocking the hurt sealed

the one who finds courage
to speak it
the cup has been given
it is up to them
to drink from it
‒bringing out the course
of sin

this isn't easy to do
it is a charge
put upon you
the one drinking
from the cup

animosity and blame
finds their way
out of tame
burning in rages
of flame

it is I† speaking
the one who fills the cup
the one who offers the cup
the only one who can offer

blame comes out
within fears of doubt
who has the clout
who doesn't
to call such sins out

it is written
long ago
to bring such sins out
to take them out of hiding
place them on the table
forcing a discussion
enabling a heal
of what is damaged

My† demands
have not changed

My† prophet was put
through this
for reason
not for glory
she receives no glory

she was charged with
she did
not for glory
she will receive none

faith is tested
as hearts are tested
learn the ways of the Father†
He† is simple
man makes it complicated
he endures complication
he wanders in its confusion
trying to sort through it
by himself

he can't

those whom speak for Me†
through ways and words
are condemned by man
I† have warned you
of such things

Mine† feel the pain
of others
they seek the truth
in all things

when I† charge them
to set the truth free
they do as they are told
no matter the consequence
because they know Me†
as they know the Father†

no one wants Truth†
to speak
but its Spirit† is powerful
it forces itself to the surface
by what means it deems

be careful your living
be careful your hearing
be careful your seeing

to see Truth†
through the darkness
has to be consensual
between you and
the Spirit of Truth†

if doubt plagues you
you will get parts
of the truth

the vine is charged
with the rest

be careful of the vine
parts are broken
choosing the world
instead of Truth†

anger surfaces
because your heart
knows this
and it is fighting
what the world knows
comparing it to Truth†
and wanting to trust
what is of the world
those lost in shame
those lost to sin

I† call upon Truth†
the Spirit of Truth†
who does not lie
He† lies within My† servant
He† lies within all My† servants

your conflictions
lie within your self only
the charge is
for you to battle
these conflictions
it is a consensual act
of bravery

once you have resolved
these conflictions
with self
you must stand behind
the answers you

for the Father† demands
either a yes or a no
anything in between
is of the world

the darkness that
surrounds you
is of your making
you cannot blame
anyone else
this is your place
of resurrection
you either rise or not
it is your choice
it is a given choice
for you to make

My† servants guide you
they will not force
neither will I†
nor will the Father†

Notes: The photograph David chose is from October 8, 2019: Oil Spill Warning. He actually chose the screenshot below. Oil on top of water. This is for you. You can click the link and read the explanations given yourself. It is a test of faith on your part.

the bright green object to the center

(October 1, 2022)―I didn’t expect this writing. Yeshuah is discussing what I witnessed the last couple of days. Then the Scriptures: 2 Timothy 2:14-19 through 2 Timothy 4:6-8 right after. If you actually read the writing and the Scripture, then you can feel what I felt: Pure Love.

Truth. I was brought down to the darkness beginning in 2011. It was put into my heart to write everything that went on outside my mind and inside. I didn’t know what I was doing. All I knew was this profound demand to write and if I didn’t write, I would be filled with this huge guilty feeling that made me feel even worse. I’ve written about this plenty of times, but it seems it needs to be said again.

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‘His Softness’

That which gives you inspiration to go on!

A sample from Book 12

 His Softness
(Sweet Man)
there's moments
I want to cry
in this aging bit of life
‒not understanding
what to fight
he comes into my sight
deep in my thoughts
I get lost...caught
then he kneels before me
‒my world gets lost
in his sea
cradling me in his arms
all that fight...gone
aren't you tired of this yet
his question without hiss
we both knowing
we keep rocking a boat
that just needs
to float
my response in insist
over and over...rowing
this knotting rope
without losing
gentle's hope
feeling it all melt away
with soft words‒
he has to say
as he pulls me
in his sway
I want this‒
not just for today
but every day, in every way
I know the truth‒
when I look into his face
love...in every line
to trace
as his black hair
fades to gray
by his side
I feel everything safe
when he leaves the room
behind...closes the door
I'm left with my thoughts
shifting deep
in my core
yes, I'm tired of this
love is far more perfect
surrounded by his softness
then sitting in a room
lost in miss
his love
trying to forget
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‘Humble of Mercy’

You Want It to Be! So Bad….

A sample from Book 12

(September 26, 2018)—

Praise for Joy and Security of the RighteousKeep me safe, O God, for in You I take refuge. I said to the Lord, ‘You are my Lord; apart from You I have no good thing.’ As for the saints who are in the land, they are the glorious ones in whom in all my delight. The sorrows of those will increase who run after other gods. I will not pour out their libations of blood or take up their names on my lips. Lord, You have assigned me my portion and my cup; You have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance.

I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I have set the Lord always before me. Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because You will not abandon me to the grave, nor will You let Your Holy One see decay. You have made known to me the path of life; You will fill me with joy in Your presence, with eternal pleasures at Your right hand.―Psalm 16

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‘Frustrated Notions’

Don’t let anyone halt your dreams!

A sample from Book 11

 Frustrated Notions
the planes fly
just as they did when I died
‒came back alive
music still plays
on the radio
in the same way
as back in the day
when every piece of life
seemed to just go away
the sun shines
even in a different state
everything's find
except one‒
a meaning in define
the way...crossing that line
‒the other side
of the rhythm and rhyme
plagued in this frustrated notion
a little self-induced commotion
focus on you indication
‒away from all the ramifications
that sunk me in damnation
knowing from which it all comes
‒sometimes, stuck in dumb
waiting around‒
dropped bread crumbs
to build an inside beating strum
from some kind of outward drum
that never seems to come
this fucked up halt
‒encaged self-provided vault
has it all locked
a walled-up block
as time keeps ticking
on the clock
fight, fight, fight
it's all there in sight
just one more night
‒do what's right
minus the blight
winds still blow
waters still flow
as imagined thoughts flaunt
its desire to haunt
just playing its taunt
fight, fight, fight
climb that final mountain top
‒don't stop
as planes fly
as the sun shines
as winds blow
as waters flow
‒it's all God's† big show
to the other side
it's time for the ride
feel the second half of life
without any
frustrating tides
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‘Depths of Heart’

Mind your heart or others will not!

A sample from Book 11

 Depths of Heart
protecting self‒
not letting any other
put it on a shelf
seems to be utmost important
‒above anything else
for in self
happiness lies
rises high
above health
any amount of wealth
‒pulling the heart
out of hell
out of the darkest well
for in truth heart dwells
untied from man's inhuman belt
released from whatever shelf
man tries to impel
keeping the heart from melt
‒happiness locked in a cell
get out, get out
see yourself‒
way deep inside
where happiness compels
in heart
where it truly swells
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‘Thoughts in Suicide’

When you’re driven to the point of wanting to take your life!

A sample from Book 11

 Thoughts in Suicide
I sit to write‒
I had a destructive night
one...again...I had to fight
get out, get out
I screamed in shout
then alone I pout
wanting to die
‒these thoughts in suicide
I gather the pills
then to the floor
let them spill
then picked up the phone
dialed somewhere
not to feel so alone
1-800-273-8255 press 1
my crying's already won
death won't come
I can't forget‒
a promise not moved to undone
she waits in my thoughts
the one in memories
the one to the floor
pills fell
myself's destruction
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Anxiety created from the fight against codependency!

A sample from Book 11

she waits‒
closes her eyes
breathes deep
‒her face tingles
her heart races
her palms sweat‒
a heat under her skin
rises...coming quick
shh...she repeats to herself
each sound
each speck of light

builds the burning

she fights
shh...again and again
don't do it...not again
she begs repeatedly
settle down, please
begging, begging

the exploding need

building, building
forcing her mouth closed
forcing her body steal
‒as tears stream down her face
begging, begging
can't you see...anyone
can't you see

I'm trying, trying...
my grip is slipping...

as she loses control‒
her mouth yells
or her tears fall
‒no matter who's around
down, down, down
she falls
back to a child‒
innocent, broken
just for a while
'til she regains
to go
one more round
in life's paradigm
where between herself
and herself
she fights
hoping, hoping
the next time‒
she'll steady the line
‒that too often...
breaks her holding-together vine
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