‘I Should’

People do some really messed up things to us when they are desperate. And all you can do is sit back and watch and pray for them.

I Should
 
I should hate you
for your betray
but I don't
 
I should want‒
to humiliate you
call you crazy, insane
like you did to me
‒but I can't
 
I should despise you
want to lay‒
all your shit out
the truth...unlike you
who told lie upon lie
‒but I don't...I can't
 
I should resent you
and, at first, I did
now...I want to
‒but something's changed
 
I should want‒
to kill myself
over all the things‒
you did
(each and everyone of you)
I should
after all that's been‒
robbed from me
I should
after all the names‒
you called me
after all your manipulation
‒but I can't
 
even...here...standing alone
without family or a home
just empty dial tones
on a phone
my only connection‒
in clone
 
I should
want
to do...all these things
for...against me‒
all those wrongs
‒but I won't
 
I'll just go on
on my own
speaking truth
no matter‒
what you do
 
I forgive you
now I feel‒
sorry for you
for the things‒
you do
for you don't answer‒
to me
 
I should
want
to pray for you
I should ask God†
to be with you
‒I do
 
for He's the one‒
you answer to
like me‒
to Him† I voice
my complain
then Jesus† carefully
explained
I, like Him†...the lamb
‒your sacrifice
for your darkness to hide
only...God† has eyes
He† saw all‒
your lies
 
so I should‒
go against you
but I won't...I can't
 
I am God's† child
every, single, tiny inch
of this journey's miles
I do what I should
not what I could
‒WHAT I SHOULD!
 
for I read His† book
He† taught me‒
bad from good
I don't have to just‒
give it a look
I know...in pure certainty
I do what my Brother†
would!
I'm not leaving behind
what could be burned‒
with wood
I'm leaving behind
what'll be known‒
as divine
 
because I didn't
cross that line‒
that place where
darkness thrives
and hope dies
 

Note: The photograph is from September 27, 2019: Love from Heaven. I titled that set of photographs that because it was love from heaven. I was having a hard time understanding what was being told to me. This trip, egged on by David of course, helped me get with my perspectiveness.

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The following, written in February, is very interesting. I don’t know how this virus is affecting the world. As of today, I’ve kept my distance from the news as I as asked to. God is asking for the healing of the world. Since February, He has proven what He’s telling me is truth. He wants everyone to heal from their pain. It is your will, as in the work I published today, Inhuman Love [Jesus’ words in commentary].

(February 2, 2020)—This morning I sat drinking my coffee going over the reason I was the sacrificial lamb in my family. I went over everything that I’ve been through and then I said to the Lord and to David, ‘I don’t want to think about this anymore.’ Then I went to write. The title, ‘I Should’ came to my heart, so I asked the Lord to direct me to a Scripture that will help me write what was in my heart. And He did….

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‘Death Groom’

The one thing that I did learn for sure: They hate anyone who wasn’t traumatized. In fact, they fantasize killing them or hurting them. It takes their own pain away.

Death Groom
 
it fell on their lips
‒a rehearsed transcript
among themselves
alone...in their thoughts
 
truth has its way
in profit
‒thoughts in doing it
everyone goes through it‒
doing away with toxic
beating it with a stick
in their face...spit
yelling at them
calling them dick or bitch
 
‒thoughts of the innocent
roaring out in conflict
then to God†‒
an all-in-it submit
 
it's what truth does
in contradict
that which adds to affliction‒
the afflict
reasons to be called
dick or bitch
 
I've been the victim
in the script
among evil's summit
the test in transit
‒taken almost..to it
 
places...playing out‒
taking me to the pulpit
with lies on their lips
their eyes following a skit
‒they were going to do it
 
but something stopped it
not once, not twice
but thrice
I was the object of it
I was the bait in trick
 
but He† stopped it
took me out of it
as they paid for it
sunk deeper down
into it
‒for even thinking it

Note: The Dragon and the All-Seeing Eye…October 23, 2019. I read in places where people associate the dragon with evil. God says, ‘I am.’ He is ALL things. He says, ‘I am the dragon.’ And He has sent the dragon twice. I didn’t go looking for this. David tells me when to go take the photographs. God sends what He needs us to SEE. If you see it, you are open to Him and know Him. If you can’t see, you are veiled from the truth because your heart is full of scars. If you want to be unveiled, you have to do the work of unveiling yourself! It IS that simple.

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(June 27)―Things were revealed to me about my life this afternoon. I sort of knew this, but wasn’t sure. Now I know. After the revelation, I was instructed to write about it then I’d be shown the Scripture, hence, ‘Death Groom’. After I wrote it, ‘Open the book,’ and ‘Jonah’s Prayer’!

Jonah’s PrayerFrom inside the fish Jonah prayed to the Lord his God. He said: ‘In my distress I called to the Lord, and He answered me. From the depths of the grave I called for help, and You listened to my cry. You hurled me into the deep, into the very heart of the seas, and the currents swirled about me; all Your waves and breakers swept over me. I said, ‘I have been banished from Your sight; yet I will look again toward Your holy temple.’ The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head. To the roots of the mountains I sank down; the earth beneath barred me in forever. But You brought my life up from the pit, O Lord my God. When my life was ebbing away, I remembered You, Lord, and my prayer rose to You, to Your holy temple. Those who cling to worthless idols forfeit the grace that could be theirs. But I, with a song of thanksgiving, will sacrifice to You. What I have vowed I will make good. Salvation comes from the Lord.—Jonah 2:1-9

My Lord brought me through all of what He put me in, as He used me as the ultimate test for others. The ex husband, the plantation and the sweet man were the three ultimate tests. Sure, there were an amazing amount of tests for me, and I, too, had to go through this ultimate test, but not like these three did.

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‘Here’s My Mercy’

The Lord is here for the broken. Jesus said that the healthy don’t need to be healed. He didn’t come for the healthy. He came for the sick! What part of this don’t you understand?

Here's My Mercy
 
He† said to have mercy
on you
‒I fought what He† said
for I see you
as a fool
for I see you
as stupid drool
‒a wasted vestibule
that dishonors the gift
dishonors yourself, too
 
He† demands from me
mercy
He† wants me to comfort you
me...to be your place
of refuge
‒I damn well scream
and refuse
for you steal from hands
that help you
for you strangle and use
for you demean and abuse
you are reckless
and dangerous
‒but the Lord†, wants you
as He† wanted saul
 
He† scaled saul
He† will scale your eyes
too
He's† waiting for you
‒in a corner
He's† moving you
into the force of you
‒to heal through and through
 
He† said to have mercy
on you
that He† will heal you
He† will convert all the things
you did do
into good deeds
‒using what's been done to you
what He† put you through
to help others get through
 
I do
what He† wants me to do
if it's mercy given to you
then mercy I will do
 
pride is something
I want to do
but it escapes my drool
‒I can't help
but obey His† rule
 
so do what ya gotta do
 
He's† called you
there's nothing you can do
He'll† scale you
when He's† ready to
‒that's when
mercy
I'll grant to you
for I'll know‒
it is ALL true!

Note: The photographs used are included on God’s Mercy under Messages By way of the Sun, My 555 Lake Visits. After the last Vision, I couldn’t handle what I was being shown, so David started wanting to go for a walk around the lake. It wasn’t long before I realized he wanted me at a certain spot at 5:55. This set of photographs were the beginning of that. I also did a few night ones, where he had me be at that same spot but at 11:11 p.m. It was very interesting. All I can tell you is what David has pointed out in the photographs and what these things mean. So, the photographs replaced the visions for a while. Then there were other places, other photographs taken for various messages. You can discover them all, there are thousands of them on God’s Mercy. You can also learn about the sweet man and what happened with him by reading the testimony which is really long but worth the read if you are open to the spiritual realm of life.

(June 8)—I received a call this morning from a first cousin, Jennifer, who is sitting at the side of her husband, waiting for him to pass to the other side. She is having a difficult time. She knows death. She’s already lost her parents and sister, grandmothers and aunts. She’s comforted others and not many are there to comfort her. This all led to me the New Testament and Jesus!

Oh, how I love me some Jesus! The Sermon on the Mount and the beatitudes which starts with Matthew 5:1-12, read them in your Bible. I  have included them in Book 12, under the piece titled ‘Mercy’s Hallo‘, if you care to get that book. Below is the part of Jesus’ sermon that day that struck me hard this morning.

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‘Are You Tired Yet’

Are You Tired Yet’—I’m wondering how long it will take for you to answer that question! I’ll sit back and wait. The seed is planted!

Are You Tired Yet
 
aren't you tired yet‒
haven't you learned
from where comes
the burn
 
don't you feel
His† heavy hand
in firm
 
teaching you
wanting you
to learn
 
are your eyes
still blind
in wayward‒
held in adjourn
 
do you have
the will to fight
through all the mess‒
discern
‒from the wrong path
turn
all the false teachings
overturn
 
where are you
are you part of
the churn
wasting time
in germs
‒the right things
spurn
the wrong things
confirm
 
isn't if for hope‒
that you yearn
why then‒
do you mix...affirm
in things leading you
to an early urn
 
aren't you tired yet‒
His† words are stern
for calm‒
you haven't earned
‒you are just an intern
sit there, open your heart
learn
 
for you‒
He† is very concerned
so for Him†
don't sit there‒
squirm
open all your stops
see...hear
 
in all His† lessons‒
soak in
what He† wants you
to learn
 
then entrance
into the banquet
you will earn!

Note: The photograph was taken October 7…Faces. This is when David pointed out to me these faces. These aren’t those structural faces that you see in fabrics and things like that. This is WAY different. I would not have known they are there if were not for David telling me to blow up the picture and then telling me where to look. This is what was meant by the wheels, all the eyes, in Ezekiel’s first vision when he was called to service by God. God has shown the same thing to me in the  Four Disc Dream. These are the eyes that tell God everything! They are everywhere. Go to the page and check out what was revealed to us.

(April 9)—Two pieces came this morning. This one and ‘He† Warns’ which is about real prophets and false prophets. God has me working overtime! After I wrote them, I sat down to eat then something made me check my local store app to see if my grocery order indeed had gone through. The first time I did it, it didn’t and I didn’t know, and I’ve had to wait another week. I thought my order was going to be ready for Saturday. There’s a reason for everything! Nope. My order was ready today. Thank you David for putting it in my heart to check!

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‘Party Line’

When you say you’re true to your word and in your heart, you are lying. God knows that B.S.!

Party Line
 
I openly say
all that I hear
I don't hold back
for He's† scolded me‒
for appeasing His† words
‒it's Him† that I fear
 
He† says I'm to deliver
for the glory of God†
I have seen‒
as well as felt
a small portion
of His† wrath
‒I don't need another
answer
 
if I don't speak
if I don't write
your sins fall upon me
I rather God's† glory
than your scrutiny
 
so here goes another try:
 
in my head
I see many more to die
deception on a rise
the holy three‒
slowly move into hide
but...first‒
a wake in divide
 
prophesy of false gods
after a quaking ride
four shifts‒
an equally timed slide
left to right
oh my! how they'll lie
 
all will feel
not daylight but night
a darkened weight
of uncontrollable cries
 
it's not governments
but God†
be careful what you say
He's† listening‒
on every side
‒guard your hearts
His† test...on high
 
it all began in the eighth
a two and a five
'the button's been pushed'
enjoy the ride
since you refuse to abide
'heal...come out alive'
 
this isn't a jive
God's† time...not ours
His† plans set to motion
‒He† does not lie
 
you are receiving
what the Boss† says
‒an open party line
it's up to you
read the words
I had to write
 
He's† consumed
all of my time
telling you what to do
‒His† unconditional love
right on time
 
all you can do:
ignore...say I lie
 
it's just a matter of time
watch, watch, watch
shake, shake, shake
 
He† closed you in
He† drew all the lines
for your time
forced...times nine
 
heal, heal, heal
seek His† Son†
close your eyes
your life is on the line
in all the words
He† had me write
telling you the time
 
now open your eyes
welcome to the party line!
 

(March 26)―I delivered a message last night, yet another direct message. I was told in September to contact this person, I didn’t want to. Then I was sent a dream. Forcing the issue. This time I have no idea what is in the heart, just Jesus thought of this person enough to intervene. Yeah, right! Today, pretty much called a liar again. All because people think going to the Catholic church and saying the rosary will save their lives. How misled you are!

So I sit down to write. Jesus knowing how I felt…the following Scripture. Jeremiah called a liar! Of course he was. If you don’t know God, why go to church…what are you seeking? You clearly believe man-made religion! When the spiritual world intervenes byway of another person, that person putting everything on the line to get the message to you, you don’t call them a liar, you don’t call up their kids and tell them lies, you don’t call them a witch, you don’t crucify them because you can’t admit your own heart!

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‘Rippled Sadness’

‘Who has helped you utter these words? And whose spirit spoke from your mouth?’—Job 26:1-4

Rippled Sadness
 
thinking back
things that were done
words said
people lost in their head
–those welcomed
in that I-thee-wed
the same–
who caused the hole
in this back
–all that blood
it bled
 
all their lies
all the answers–
that answered the whys
be careful–
oh, so careful
the truth
aids in your die
–no longer wishing
to look in eyes
that once
you gave all your time
 
it's not those words said
in your mind–
making them dead
it's their actions–
what they did
–with an ax
hit you over the head
the same–
what their actions fed
 
it all makes you shy
way deep inside
to forgive them–
not even a try
it's a do
something you must abide
 
but to set time aside
for their cry
would be matters for God†
mercy given–
by His† sigh

Note: The photograph that accompany’s this work was taken September 27…Love from Heaven, where God and Jesus and David send a lot of love to me as I was battling this transition of opening up fully to being God’s messenger. The symbols are amazing and I haven’t yet had anyone who can duplicate these and/or disprove that they are indeed from God. They remain as always a mystery! For God is a mystery and anything from Him, the human brain has a hard time understanding. Here’s a note to your human brain: These are from God!

(February 25)—I have been dwelling on my life lately, just a little bit. This morning I woke up early and laid there in bed with this odd emotion and thinking of my family. Specifically my sisters. It’s been three months since I discovered their sin and I’m still in awe of it. I laid there thinking of that. When I finally picked up my phone because I couldn’t go back to sleep, it was 5:33 a.m. I knew God had something for me to say.

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‘The Puzzle’s End’

When God wants you, He will shake your world up! And He will keep shaking you until you get the memo, ‘Hey dude, I’m calling you, answer the phone!’ It steadily rings until you DO pick it up!

  The Puzzle's End
 
so young
so in between
–living and running
fast-paced scenes
 
knowing this
knowing that
putting it all together
in fact
not knowing
it's all a trap
–in will come
the collapse
in physical or in mind–
the hands will clap
they'll stand a little
for that
–then you'll see
only their backs
obvious or not
it'll happen...count of that
 
you'll question
all in your habitat–
where you once felt
the autocrat
–sometimes the bureaucrat
–even the true diplomat
whatever format
–your knowledge–
the smart-ass cat
was all that
 
then you fell to rat
on the ground...splat
or against a wall...splash
 
all you knew crashed
leaving you lost
in a unquestionable gasp
 
it's when you see the vast
–after that sudden ask
–like it was a forced task
but it happened so fast
yet so slow in contrast
 
it's when you recognize
this upper-class act
this thing beyond
just a simple glass
it seems‒
a I-don't-want-to-let-go mask
but it's not at all...a mask
it's an all-around broadcast
–you know, but you don't
you think you're in trespass
but you're not an outcast
so how can it be that
‒it's a different hourglass
catching you in pizzazz
 
it's when you understand
the acrobat
simply doesn't swing
but glides with hands clasped
around their back
 
it's knowing your mind
was kidnapped
but now it's back
–you no longer live
in a man-driven syntax
no need for a polygraph
 
you now hear the phonograph
although...it's not a phonograph
you just know the path
like knowing truth about this
and that
like spacecrafts, even witchcraft
it's now above all that
 
it's knowing–
you can know that
then not know that
it's knowing–
you can see that
or not see that
it's knowing–
you can hear that
or not hear that
 
it's just depends on
where you're at
–your journey's path
 
it's understanding–
not being mad
accepting–
knowing who can change
all that
‒with a wind's simple laugh
 
that's when you've crossed
the graph
from ignorance in testing
to knowledge in wisdom
 
there's a path
–you will enact
you will react–
adhere to the telegraph:
 
stay on the raft
however hard the path
it won't last
if you fall off–
get back on the raft
it will pass
deal with the riffraff
–the wiretap
question...ask
it will all pass
don't get off the raft
whatever sass–
stay on the raft!

(February 24)—This was written on January 3 of this year, my 51st Birthday! I spent it alone. In fact, against my will, but I understand it now, I’m working on spending an entire year by myself! Something I’ve been wanting to do for a very long time. No more codependency! God is awesome! No more need for a man in my life. I don’t even need my family. Just me. And this awesome experience with the spiritual world. And birds! Twice a day, they come to the trees outside my apartment and hold meetings! They commence all at once and then they adjourn ALL at once! It’s really interesting and beautiful!

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‘Alone in Security’

Those who plant them seeds and bring the lost to God, trust me on this, He will bring you more, so be prepared.

 Alone in Security
 
if He† puts you in alone
going through each day
passing through each night
on your own
the Lord† has secured you‒
protecting His† own
from the thieves‒
that like to clone
 
so when He†
removes the want‒
all those desires
those entertaining songs
that once kept you gone
‒know He's† replaced them
(that solitude
maybe you complain about
a time or two)
‒that's God†
shielding you
from unnecessary storms
for to Him†...you belong
 
so hold on
He'll† reveal the road‒
you're going to travel
soon
‒in all your time
in alone
‒enjoy!‒
He's† keeping you safe
from dogs
with fake bones

Note: The picture that accompany’s this work was taken on Feb. 7, 2020 after the symbol for water dancing was shown to me the night before during my prayer session with David, then God brought me to the lake to show me dancing water. He is constantly proving Himself to me to help me with my human weakness: doubt. He is pretty great that way!

(February 15)―The day after Valentine’s and things really make sense. All those posts about love and I wonder how much of it is really real. Then I see all those posts by single people, then I think about my own life. I’m not single…for He tells me so!

I have learned the truth. All the times in my life that I sat at home watching movie after movie, He was keeping me secure. So look at it this way, the more He keeps you home, the less sins you commit, the closer to the kingdom you are!

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‘His† Pardon’ (God)

For you, know that you have to pay attention to what is happening around you. I know it can get really crazy with anguish, crying, heartache…all those emotions you have and the emotions other people have. It gets hard to see through all of that. But…in God’s process…you have to.

 His† Pardon
  
 'I† pardoned you, My† servant
 I† washed you clean
 you have listened to instructions
 –you now have rules
 in forbidden'
  
 words He† said to me
 more instructions
 in see
 –to abide by carefully
  
 'give forgiveness
 but take what was given
 to give the forgiveness
 and, in return, give
 –reveal the wrongs
 of the giver
 teach the ways 
 of the Christ†
 –don't give advice
 (this...this isn't advice)
 this...teach...what is right
 through all these words
 you write'
  
 instructions given
 from Him†–
 who gave me life
  
 who am I to argue
 (for sure not with you)
 He's† given me the tools
 go on...over...drool
 jealousy, envy–
 not things to do
 –only heaven
 I'm to get you to
  
 He† pardoned my sins
 by washing me clean
 by keeping His† hands
 on me
 all His† mystery–
 teaching me
 as His† test (satan)–
 comes at me
 as God† moves me
 –humble...in its means
 of complete
  
 I'm not here for you–
 to believe in me
 neither for you–
 to like me
 –His† love for me
 greater than any human
 will ever be
  
 I am free
 from any in deceive
 He† will awaken me
 –each time
 you cry in lies
 your heart is revealed–
 you can no longer conceal
 your darkened seals
  
 He† pardoned me
 He† removed the chains
 –freed me from captivity
  
 He† gave me
 the heart of love
 to cry and mourn
 to pray and see
 –vows to Him†
 I'm sworn
  
 for Him†...I'm enough
 for He† pardoned me
 –completed in freewill and....
 in unconditional love 

Note: The photograph accompanying this piece was taken November 9, 2019, Certainty of Visions. These are some amazing images and God is truly trying to get His message to everyone. You have to want to see. His message is being sent all across the world. The cycle is ending. All the symbols He sent us through me. How will people save their souls if they don’t actually be serious about it?

(February 5, 2020)―God is wonderful in all ways. There was something serious on my mind this morning. In fact, the role of man and woman has been a debate between me and the Lord for sometime now. When I was called to the prophet service, I debated that I was not worthy enough for this calling. The Scribe, I understand, but anything more, I have an issue with. God led me to the patriarchs in the Bible. Why? Because one of my issues was the fact that I have three children with two different men and that I went through my sexual immorality…which makes me feel unclean. Abraham had four baby-mamas! Point taken. When God calls us to do His work, He already knows who we are. When He elevates us, He washes us clean of our previous sin. He was very physical with me on that part.

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‘Tested Hearts’

‘If you don’t stand for something, you’ll fall for anything.’―Author Unknown

Tested Hearts
 
I tested them you know
to see how'd they flow
to see if their love would show
to see...if they were real
in gold
 
every, single one–
fell to the flo'
just hit it...out...sold
my little libido
love's true row
–they so easily
put it out in the cold
 
on me, they all rolled
put me on death row
for a popularity show
'she's crazy ya know'
–all for a people-pleasing fold
 
I tested the forceful in bold
just to tell myself–
'I told ya so'
 
easy...so very easy–
they'd made me the mold
for themselves...blame to unload
–without a second thought–
any love for me
to hold

Note: The photograph that accompanies this piece was taken October 15th after I asked David to prove himself again by sending me a daisy. I knew the spiritual world could manipulate technology by what they had already shown me in the previous photographs and by a message put on this website (I left them up) back in August. When I was reviewing this set of frames and noticed the daisy sun, it was a bow-the-head moment. This was also the day the Phoenix was sent over the water, to reveal new birth is coming. In this particular frame: The daisy sun, the promise made to me in the pink bubble and the ray of purple light: Jesus blessing the promise.