Tag: deadbodyvision

 Rejection Undone 
  
 I'm not going to worry
 I'm not going to try
 I've given up
 the vestibule
 I've given up
 the cry
  
 I'd never even considered
 being part of the dart
 stabbing my own mother's heart
 just to fit in
 with the cart
  
 I'm not going to feel sorry
 I'm not going to say
 good-bye
 I've given up
 on slobbering drool
 I've given up
 on asking why
  
 I'd never ever surrender
 I'd instead
 wear the cuffs
 I would have never
 given her up
 and I did scream:
 'that's enough'
  
 I'm going to be 
 part of history
 I'm not going to sway
 in their giving up
 in die
  
 I've given up
 being the blind fool
 I've given up
 trying to understand
 those who easily abuse
 I damn-right refuse
 for them...curl up
 and lie
  
 I've learned the secret
 to the mystery
 you can't hold me down‒
 in your misery
 or hold me accountable
 for your broken
 unhealed self
 or put me on a shelf
  
 my mother taught me well
 ‒not to adhere
 to cards dealt
 to fight...get myself
 off the shelf
  
 I listened to her actions
 as I watched her suffer
 rejection
 she taught me not to stay
 too long
 in self reflection
 she taught me the 'Way'
 and to speak
 what I had to say
 ‒even if they all 
 walk away
  
 I'm part of the last generation
 not wanting to be a part
 of the reflection‒
 who settled for rejection
 for we refuse
 to be part
 of the collection 

(May 27, 2021)―‘Rejection Undone’ was written in 2020. David chose it for these visions. I have two in which to share with you. A real-time vision and a meditation/prayer vision. Both seem so surreal to me and they make me cry, but He, that would be God, wants them written and given.

Real-time visions. I’ve written about them before. The first came soon after the visions of August 2019. Sometime before this, we experience an earthquake. It was a minor quake rolling off of the one that had taken place in California. But for me it was absolute. To feel the Earth move beneath you is really scary. The light fixtures in my condo moved, glasses rattled. So when my bed shook, I thought we had had another one. We did not. It was my first real-time vision. After I felt the bed shake, the word unstable came. It happened again months later. He, that would be God, shook my sofa…again unstable. Then one day I was on my walk and the sidewalk moved. Not literally for everyone else, but for me literal. It was very unsettling. I actually extending my arms to gain stability. Then I noticed all the cars just continued, no one noticed. Unstable. Then one day He had me walk on one of the floating docks here at the lake and then told me to close my eyes and turn…shaky, He said.

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