Rejection Undone I'm not going to worry I'm not going to try I've given up the vestibule I've given up the cry I'd never even considered being part of the dart stabbing my own mother's heart just to fit in with the cart I'm not going to feel sorry I'm not going to say good-bye I've given up on slobbering drool I've given up on asking why I'd never ever surrender I'd instead wear the cuffs I would have never given her up and I did scream: 'that's enough' I'm going to be part of history I'm not going to sway in their giving up in die I've given up being the blind fool I've given up trying to understand those who easily abuse I damn-right refuse for them...curl up and lie I've learned the secret to the mystery you can't hold me down‒ in your misery or hold me accountable for your broken unhealed self or put me on a shelf my mother taught me well ‒not to adhere to cards dealt to fight...get myself off the shelf I listened to her actions as I watched her suffer rejection she taught me not to stay too long in self reflection she taught me the 'way' and to speak what I had to say ‒even if they all walk away I'm part of the last generation not wanting to be a part of the reflection‒ who settled for rejection for we refuse to be part of the collection
Note: The photograph is from October 2, 2019: Wave Warning.
(May 27, 2021)―‘Rejection Undone’ was written in 2020. David chose it for these visions. I have two in which to share with you. A real-time vision and a meditation/prayer vision. Both seem so surreal to me and they make me cry, but He, that would be God, wants them written and given.
Real-time visions. I’ve written about them before. The first came soon after the visions of August 2019. Sometime before this, we experience an earthquake. It was a minor quake rolling off of the one that had taken place in California. But for me it was absolute. To feel the earth move beneath you is really scary. The light fixtures in my condo moved, glasses rattled. So when my bed shook, I thought we had had another one. We did not. It was my first real-time vision. After I felt the bed shake, the word unstable came. It happened again months later. He, that would be God, shook my sofa…again unstable. Then one day I was on my walk and the sidewalk moved. Not literally for everyone else, but for me literal. It was very unsettling. I actually extending my arms to gain stability. Then I noticed all the cars just continued, no one noticed. Unstable. Then one day He had me walk on one of the floating docks here at the lake and then told me to close my eyes and turn…shaky, He said.
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