‘Rejection Undone’ (Sinking Vision/Dead Body Vision)

 Rejection Undone 
  
 I'm not going to worry
 I'm not going to try
 I've given up
 the vestibule
 I've given up
 the cry
  
 I'd never even considered
 being part of the dart
 stabbing my own mother's heart
 just to fit in
 with the cart
  
 I'm not going to feel sorry
 I'm not going to say
 good-bye
 I've given up
 on slobbering drool
 I've given up
 on asking why
  
 I'd never ever surrender
 I'd instead
 wear the cuffs
 I would have never
 given her up
 and I did scream:
 'that's enough'
  
 I'm going to be 
 part of history
 I'm not going to sway
 in their giving up
 in die
  
 I've given up
 being the blind fool
 I've given up
 trying to understand
 those who easily abuse
 I damn-right refuse
 for them...curl up
 and lie
  
 I've learned the secret
 to the mystery
 you can't hold me down‒
 in your misery
 or hold me accountable
 for your broken
 unhealed self
 or put me on a shelf
  
 my mother taught me well
 ‒not to adhere
 to cards dealt
 to fight...get myself
 off the shelf
  
 I listened to her actions
 as I watched her suffer
 rejection
 she taught me not to stay
 too long
 in self reflection
 she taught me the 'way'
 and to speak
 what I had to say
 ‒even if they all 
 walk away
  
 I'm part of the last generation
 not wanting to be a part
 of the reflection‒
 who settled for rejection
 for we refuse
 to be part
 of the collection

Note: The photograph is from October 2, 2019: Wave Warning.

(Sinking Vision/Dead Body Vision) He who ignores discipline comes to poverty and shame but whoever heeds correction is honored.—Proverbs 13:18

(May 27, 2021)―‘Rejection Undone’ was written in 2020. David chose it for these visions. I have two in which to share with you. A real-time vision and a meditation/prayer vision. Both seem so surreal to me and they make me cry, but He, that would be God, wants them written and given.

Real-time visions. I’ve written about them before. The first came soon after the visions of August 2019. Sometime before this, we experience an earthquake. It was a minor quake rolling off of the one that had taken place in California. But for me it was absolute. To feel the earth move beneath you is really scary. The light fixtures in my condo moved, glasses rattled. So when my bed shook, I thought we had had another one. We did not. It was my first real-time vision. After I felt the bed shake, the word unstable came. It happened again months later. He, that would be God, shook my sofa…again unstable. Then one day I was on my walk and the sidewalk moved. Not literally for everyone else, but for me literal. It was very unsettling. I actually extending my arms to gain stability. Then I noticed all the cars just continued, no one noticed. Unstable. Then one day He had me walk on one of the floating docks here at the lake and then told me to close my eyes and turn…shaky, He said.

These events actually happened. And they all referred to the earth being unstable and shaky…the way it will get as per the visions.

Sinking Real-Time Vision: Yesterday, I was doing my walk at a local park when suddenly things got small. I felt like an ant. I had to look down to see if my legs were still there. I walked to my car and the sinking or shrinking seemed more profound. When I got to the back of my car, there was a light post near it and it grew in size, my car bumper is usually at my thigh, seemed to be at my head. I kept looking down at my legs to see they were normal. Then all around me got back to normal, so I continued on my walk. I walked for about three minutes when it happened again, only this time He flashed the buildings falling as I wrote about in ‘I Am but Lowliness‘ (Rough Water Dream and Buildings Crashing Vision). I kept asking what it means and knowing God’s love for puzzles, I started guessing. ‘Something’s coming bigger than me,’ I said. I got, ‘Yes.’ ‘We are sinking,’ I said. Meaning as a people, I remember the birds in ‘Listen! Oh Arrogance’ and ‘Your Mother’s Tears’ (the Spin-Top explanation). I got, ‘Yes.’

This was very unsettling for me. I got this feeling of dread.

Then during prayer that night, I received another vision. He didn’t ask. He just presented it.

Dead-Body Vision: First I just saw dead bodies everywhere. Then I saw ocean waves beating on rocks then bodies falling from the waves to the beach below and on the rocks like they were nothing. Then every where I saw them. I grew upset so I asked for something beautiful. He showed me beautiful trees and birds singing in the trees, then He showed me the ground. It was covered with dead bodies.

I noticed that they were all young. They didn’t have any wounds on them. There was no blood just dead bodies and they appeared wet. I said, ‘Why are You showing me this?’ ‘It is,’ He said.

He brought me to the following Scripture yesterday. He is telling me that He (Jesus) is my witness.

Light of the World—When Jesus spoke again to the people, He said, ‘I am the light of the world. Whoever follows Me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.’ The Pharisees challenged Him, ‘Here You are, appearing as Your own witness; Your testimony is not valid.’ Jesus answered, ‘Even if I testify on My own behalf, My testimony is valid, for I know where I came from and where I am going. But you have no idea where I come from or where I am going. You judge by human standards; I pass judgment on no one, but if I do judge, My decisions are right, because I am not alone. I stand with the Father who sent Me. In your own law it is written that the testimony of two men is valid. I am one who testifies for Myself; My other witness is the Father who sent Me.’ Then they asked Him, ‘Where is Your Father?’ ‘You do not know Me or My Father,’ Jesus replied. ‘If you knew Me, you would know My Father also.’ He spoke these words while teaching in the temple area near the place where the offerings were put. Yet no one seized Him, because His time had not yet come.—John 8:12-20

Warning Against Unbelief—Once more Jesus said to them, ‘I am going away, and you will look for Me, and you will die in your sin. Where I go, you cannot come.’ This made the Jews ask, ‘Will He kill Himself? is that why He says, ‘Where I go, you cannot come?’ But He continued, ‘You are from below; I am from above. You are of this world; I am not of this world. I told you that you would die in your sins; if you do not believe that I am the One I claim to be, you will indeed die in your sins.’ ‘Who are You?’ they asked. ‘Just what I have been claiming all along,’ Jesus replied. ‘I have much to say in judgment of you. But He who sent Me is reliable, and what I have heard from Him I tell the world.’ They did not understand that He was telling them about His Father. So Jesus said, ‘When you have lifted up the Son of Man, then you will know that I am the One I claim to be and that I do nothing on My own but speak just what the Father has taught Me. The One who sent Me is with Me; He has not left Me alone, for I always do what pleases Him.’ Even as He spoke, many put their faith in Him.—John 8:21-30

*On Spiritual Freedom—To the Jews who had believed Him, Jesus said, ‘If you hold to My teachings, you are really My disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.’ They answered Him, ‘We are Abraham’s descendants and have never been slaves of anyone. How can You say that we shall be set free?’ Jesus replied, ‘I tell you the truth, everyone who sins is a slave to sin. Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. I know you are Abraham’s descendants. Yet you are ready to kill Me, because you have no room for My word. I am telling you what I have seen in the Father’s presence, and you do what you have heard from your father.’ ―John 8:31-38

True Children of Abraham—‘Abraham is our father,’ they answered. ‘If you were Abraham’s children,’ said Jesus, ‘then you would do the things Abraham did. As it is, you are determined to kill Me, a Man who has told you the truth that I heard from God. Abraham did not do such things. You are doing the things your own father does.’ ‘We are not illegitimate children,’ they protested. ‘The only Father we have is God Himself.’ Jesus said to them, ‘If God were your Father, you would love Me, for I came from God and now am here. I have not come on My own; but He sent Me. Why is My language not clear to you? Because you are unable to hear what I say. You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father’s desire. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. Yet because I tell the truth, you do not believe Me! Can any of you prove Me guilty of sin? If I am telling the truth, why don’t you believe Me? He who belongs to God hears what God says. The reason you do not hear is that you do not belong to God.—John 8:39-47