‘Consensual’ (Yeshuah)

Consensual (Yeshuah)

it is in the heart
that we know truth
down deep
what tears us apart

if it isn't said
it leaves us dead
lost in death
separate from the rest

when truth is hidden
it drives in the forbidden
brings in darkness
that leaves us in
restlessness

a pull from within
filling us
deepening
a strange notion
of demotion
of anger and hate
changing the course
of our fate

the truth must be spoken
it's an honorable token
from strength given
to speak what others
deemed forbidden

the truth must be spoken

no matter the hurt
or the ill-feelings
in flirt

it is the call of Christ†
it is today
a called sacrifice
a force in heal
from forbidden's deal
bringing it into the real
unlocking the hurt sealed

the one who finds courage
to speak it
the cup has been given
it is up to them
to drink from it
‒bringing out the course
of sin

this isn't easy to do
it is a charge
put upon you
the one drinking
from the cup

animosity and blame
finds their way
out of tame
burning in rages
of flame

it is I† speaking
the one who fills the cup
the one who offers the cup
Yeshuah†
the only one who can offer

blame comes out
within fears of doubt
who has the clout
who doesn't
to call such sins out

it is written
long ago
to bring such sins out
to take them out of hiding
place them on the table
forcing a discussion
enabling a heal
of what is damaged

My† demands
have not changed

My† prophet was put
through this
for reason
not for glory
she receives no glory

everything
she was charged with
she did
not for glory
she will receive none

faith is tested
as hearts are tested
learn the ways of the Father†
He† is simple
man makes it complicated
he endures complication
he wanders in its confusion
trying to sort through it
by himself

he can't

those whom speak for Me†
through ways and words
are condemned by man
I† have warned you
of such things

Mine† feel the pain
of others
they seek the truth
in all things

when I† charge them
to set the truth free
they do as they are told
no matter the consequence
because they know Me†
as they know the Father†

no one wants Truth†
to speak
but its Spirit† is powerful
it forces itself to the surface
by what means it deems

be careful your living
be careful your hearing
be careful your seeing

to see Truth†
through the darkness
has to be consensual
between you and
the Spirit of Truth†

if doubt plagues you
you will get parts
of the truth

the vine is charged
with the rest

be careful of the vine
parts are broken
choosing the world
instead of Truth†

anger surfaces
because your heart
knows this
and it is fighting
what the world knows
comparing it to Truth†
and wanting to trust
what is of the world
those lost in shame
those lost to sin

I† call upon Truth†
the Spirit of Truth†
who does not lie
He† lies within My† servant
He† lies within all My† servants

your conflictions
lie within your self only
the charge is
for you to battle
these conflictions
it is a consensual act
of bravery

once you have resolved
these conflictions
with self
you must stand behind
the answers you
receive

for the Father† demands
either a yes or a no
anything in between
is of the world

the darkness that
surrounds you
is of your making
you cannot blame
anyone else
this is your place
of resurrection
you either rise or not
it is your choice
it is a given choice
for you to make

My† servants guide you
they will not force
neither will I†
nor will the Father†

Notes: The photograph David chose is from October 8, 2019: Oil Spill Warning. He actually chose the screenshot below. Oil on top of water. This is for you. You can click the link and read the explanations given yourself. It is a test of faith on your part.

the bright green object to the center

(October 1, 2022)―I didn’t expect this writing. Yeshuah is discussing what I witnessed the last couple of days. Then the Scriptures: 2 Timothy 2:14-19 through 2 Timothy 4:6-8 right after. If you actually read the writing and the Scripture, then you can feel what I felt: Pure Love.

Truth. I was brought down to the darkness beginning in 2011. It was put into my heart to write everything that went on outside my mind and inside. I didn’t know what I was doing. All I knew was this profound demand to write and if I didn’t write, I would be filled with this huge guilty feeling that made me feel even worse. I’ve written about this plenty of times, but it seems it needs to be said again.

It wasn’t before 2014 that I knew what I was suppose to do and then I was shown. What was shown to me? How to configure all the writings into books, even how to format them and arrange them, what to title them and how to make the covers. I was not alone in this. I know this because I was still in the grieving process (the God process man labeled the Five Stages of Grief). In fact, I was in the depression part of this process and thinking beyond what was in front of me was nearly impossible. God knew when to present this to me.

When it was all said and done, I had 12 books. There are four more books. Those four are the words of God and Yeshuah given to me and how it came to be. It is those first 12 books that covers the God process which is extremely important in the healing process. Part of that process is the anger part…the worse of the grieving part. It is the stage that many get lost in and stay there for years. It just doesn’t end in one year. All the stages don’t have a time limit. They carry over each other until you are completely healed.

With that said, you can’t just read Book 5 (the anger book) and then judge accordingly. If you have done this, you are part of the problem and need healing yourself because you didn’t recognize my place in this process. There were people who did recognize it. My therapists for one. My doctors are others. They were educated in this process. They knew how to help me. They knew more than those judging.

I say this because I learned in the last few days what I feared. I feared it, not now, but then…as I wrote it. I knew I had to write it and present it and I knew what small-minds would do with it, but I had to write it. Why? Because I knew that which is put into the heart is truth.

Those 12 books are not about other people, although those who read bits and pieces of them chose to decide this on their own that they were. These books are about ME! What goes on in the darkness of a person, in their mind, in their body, around them…everything they (I) perceived. There was a reason for this: To teach how the mind works in the process of grieving from abuse and a divorce, a death.

I don’t know how many read my work. I put my work out at the beginning on Facebook. It was supposed to be this way. And I know that people take things that don’t belong to them and build it into something that it isn’t to make themselves stand out in crowds: “O, I have something to tell you!”

I know what I wrote. I know the process I went through. And if these quarrelsome people would have read ALL the writings, every single word of all 12 books, then they would have understood the writings in Book 5. They would understand the process that the mind takes. My thoughts, my confusion, my assumptions, my everything that went on in Books 1-8 were part of the healing process. Everyone goes through them. No, not exactly like my thinking, but similar. Everyone struggles with this type of thinking, especially if it’s involving a divorce that came out of no where and they were left with zero answers and zero help from family. Those first thoughts build into bigger ones until through therapy and reading and faith they become smaller and smaller until they no longer exist.

This part, what I just wrote, went unnoticed. And instead of understanding the hurt I was going through, some people began what Yeshuah talks about here, what He showed me in the Scripture today: People need to gossip, they need to spread rumors, they need to involve themselves to hurt not heed. I can’t change what I wrote. How can I? The truth of my mind can’t be changed. It was an experience I had to go through. Everyone in the anger stage goes through these irrational thoughts to survive, to figure things out, especially when the hurt is caused by someone who refuses to talk, refuses to give answers and says things to you that doesn’t make sense.

Truth. If I was talked to by the ex, if things were actually discussed, counseling was involved right from the beginning, none of the thoughts that I experienced would have happened. If my family would have supported me instead of the ex, none of my thinking would have taken placed. I’m not blaming. I can’t blame anyone. The facts are facts. These things did happen and because of the events that happened, my thinking was shaped and I wrote about it.

Many would say that I should never have written about it. And I have to ask Why? Why can’t someone write about it? I know plenty of writers who have written about their pain and they aren’t condemn so much.

I stand my ground: The naysayers read what they ‘wanted‘ to read, enough to egg their ego to have something to back up their gossip. They didn’t read all the thoughts… and that’s a shame. Because as the process of healing went on, I acknowledge with the help of therapy, my anger, my words, my thoughts, my hate, my depression: Get that: MY!

In order to heal from a traumatizing event, the hurt has to be acknowledged. I know, I knew, that the words I wrote would hurt others, especially my children, but the truth behind the pain had to be acknowledged. This is the whole reason why abuse and traditions continue to live on: Because everyone is afraid of the truth! They don’t want others to know what they are thinking. They don’t want others to know their secrets and their ways of hurting others. I chose to speak out. You may not like the ways in which I spoke out. I can’t help that. I know my children. I know how my work affected them and I have acknowledged this again and again in those 12 books. Those naysayers who are hiding behind their shame chose to make a big deal out of my pain to egg on more hurt towards me using my children instead of reading the entire 12 books. That…THAT…I have no control over. I gave it all to God and I let God work. And He did.

Some say that my writing changed their opinion of God and Jesus. Maybe it was meant to because God and Jesus aren’t the objects of just grace and not at all money. The whole truth of God and Jesus is not being preached. The Book of Job…read it. The way God used my life…He used Job’s life as well. In the process of God rebuilding us, the naysayers come out. Those who do not have any authority to judge, judge. The gossipers come out in full force. And they all work to use the one going through the God process to raise their status in their cliques.

Jesus says: If they slap one cheek, give them the other cheek as well.

This I have done. Without reading the whole 12 books, these people do not know what they are talking about. They are hating and judging and this…God well told me was part of the reason for this writing: To reveal man’s true heart. It has. For those who have done this, they brought more pain to my children. It would have been better for them to read all 12 books, then speak, in stead of reading just one writing, one book and spread lies. Truth hurts. I’ve seen the pain truth brings. I cannot defend truth. That is a charge given to me by God. If those who can’t read the whole 12 books continue their pillage, I can’t do anything about it.

Reasons. Truth. Those who condemned my life for what I wrote in the beginning, can’t and will not sit through the entire 12 books because it forces them to see their own selves. The healing process is not pretty. Healing by ways of Yeshuah forces you to look at all parts of your life. Therapy forces you to look at all parts of your life. I had to sit through classes on anger and depression, hate and resentfulness. I had to read book after book on different personality disorders because I feared a mental disease. I wasn’t plagued by any mental disease other then depression because I deal with pain every single second of the day. I’m normal. And to confirm this, I had to be reevaluated in my new home so I can continue therapy, which I requested to help me deal with the physical pain I will live with for the rest of my life. My numbers on this evaluation were two and four. Ten years ago, they were both in the high 20s. I no longer need a therapist to help me unload emotional baggage. Yet, by naysayers, I’m still called crazy. Why? Now it’s because I hear the Lord! Isn’t that something!

Truth. No matter what you do, speaking the truth will not gain you many friends. I elect to continue being truthful. I elect to not sugarcoat. If people stay away from me out of fear that their secrets will become known, how sad they are. The truth is brought out for your soul to be saved. It’s not about your body, or your reputation, or you freaking clique status. It’s about your soul. That’s pretty powerful. Your body dies, turns back to ash. Your soul lives on. It is your choice where your soul lives.

*Handling Truth CarefullyKeep reminding them of these things. Warn them before God against quarreling about words; it is of no value, and only ruins those who listen. Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. Avoid godless chatter because those who indulge in it will become more and more ungodly. Their teaching will spread like gangrene. Among them are Hymenaeus and Philetus, who have wandered away from the truth. They say that the resurrection has already taken place, and they destroy the faith of some. Nevertheless, God’s solid foundation stands firm, sealed with this inscription: ‘The Lord knows those who are His’ [Numbers 16:5] and, ‘Everyone who confesses the name of the Lord must turn away from wickedness.’—2 Timothy 2:14-19
Teaching Above QuarrelingIn a large house there are articles not only of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay; some are for noble purposes and some for ignoble. If a man cleanses himself from the latter, he will be an instrument for noble purposes, made holy, useful to the Master and prepared to do any good work. Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of pure heart. Don’t have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord’s servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hopes that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will.—2 Timothy 2:20-26
[b1 Southern Louisiana People] *Prediction of Godless TimeBut mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God—having a form of godliness, but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them.—2 Timothy 3:1-5
*Evil Teachers to Be ExposedThey are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over weak-willed women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires, always learning, but never able to acknowledge the truth. Just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses, so also these men oppose the truth—men of depraved minds, who, as far as the faith is concerned, are rejected. But they will not get very far because, as in the case of those men, their folly will be clear to everyone.—2 Timothy 3:6-9
Respect for ScriptureYou, however, know all about my teaching, my way of life, my purpose, faith, patience, love, endurance, persecutions, sufferings―what kinds of things happened to me in Antioch, Iconium and Lystra, the persecutions I endured. Yet the Lord rescued me from all of them. In fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted, while evil men and impostors will go from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived. But as for you, continue in what you have learned and have been convinced of, because you know those from whom you learned it, and how from infancy you have known the holy Scriptures, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith in Christ Jesus. All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.—2 Timothy 3:10-17
*Preach the WordIn the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who will judge the living and the dead, and in view of His appearing and His kingdom, I give you this charge: Preach the Word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage―with great patience and careful instruction. For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear. They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths. But you, keep your head in all situations, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, discharge all the duties of your ministry.—2 Timothy 4:1-5
Reward for Faithful MinistryFor I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day―and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for His appearing.—2 Timothy 4:6-8

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Author: k. e. leger

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