Tag: heal

‘A Faith’s Window’

You don’t need permission to do what is right. You don’t need to ask what’s in your heart. You already know that. Follow that.

Note: The photograph that accompanies this work was taken November 11th.

 A Faith's Window
  
 it's preparing for rain
 when the sun is bright
  
 it's saying truth
 when it's not even–
 expected of you
 knowing–
 it's safe within you
 being something–
 only you knew
 ‒but feeling a pull
 a little hurt to deal
 doing what is real
  
 it's understanding the storm
 to set things right
  
 it's making moves
 ‒just something
 you have to do
 without being told to
 even when no one–
 understands you
 even when they see you
 as a fool
  
 it's staying the course
 no matter the force
 going against the core
 never asking any man–
 what for
  
 taking it straight
 to the Lord†
 for you just know
 He's† in charge
  
 it's being in tuned–
 to your emotions
 hearing what's inside
 letting it overpower–
 everything outside
 –arguing and debating
 alone in a closed-off room
 but never giving into doubt–
 without evidence given
 to what's it all about
 –just doing...even in gloom
 because you heard it–
 from deep within you
  
 when all seems dark
 everyone telling you–
 what to do
 –so lost and confused
 knowing truly–
 what to do
 even if others–
 don't want you to
 –it's coming
 from deep within
 void of family and friends
 –digging deep...trusting
 for you heard the Lord†
 talking to you

‘Time to Pray’

It’s beautiful outside isn’t it? A peaceful time…give Thanks to God. For He is the reason it’s a beautiful day.

Note: The photograph that accompany’s this work was taken on October 15th. God’s talking. It’s simple. Listen.

 Time to Pray
  
 don't bow your head–
 mourn for the dead
 they are now gone
 you're still safe–
 in your home
  
 pray for your resurrection
 pray for spiritual protection
  
 lift your head

 you are not dead
 praise in solemn joy
 in loud sounds–
 raise your voice
 you're given this choice
 let your eyes moist
 then look up–
 not down at soil
 –your life's not yet
 in spoil
  
 pray for happier days
 pray to live the way
  
 unite together
 in these times–
 join and gather
 listen to your heart
 instead of falling apart

 all things done in darkness
 shines again
 with love and forgiveness
  
 pray...it's a time in rejoice
 pray in ease–
 leave out bitterness' claw
 –this is time to review
read over all the clues
 make a choice in go
 then let the heart grow
 forget long ago
 it's time to glow
 –let love flow
  
 pray in a unite
 pray for the light
  
 when all comes in fold
don't grow cold

see...as the sun peaks
 there in...love sneaks
take time in weave....
 pick up piece by piece
 those living in receive

  –leave those in decease
for all those gone...
 Jesus'† wide open
for the receive

 you who remain alive
 know your body didn't die
 open up...feel the vibe
don't fall to plight
 so you too...will walk
 in the light
Continue reading “‘Time to Pray’”

‘A Swayer’s Cup’

Truth: You say you write for the Lord, you hear the Lord, they say you are crazy, insane. You rape and destroy other people’s lives with lies and manipulation, they toast to you and say your a friend!

Note: The picture accompanying this work was taken on November 11th. The arrow and an Orb pointing out the avenging angel God puts in the sky.

A Swayer's Cup
  
 I let it all happen
 I did my thing
 let them all ring
 –the bells they joined
 in cling
  
 I kept going...ya know
 doing instead of talking
 –I wasn't going to stop
 as they began their chop
  
 it was slow...ya know
 small disappointments here
 large disappointments there
 –I brushed it off
 I had control of my hair
 I knew the how and the where
 –so no need...me...down...wear
  
 I kept sucking it all in
 as sickness halted me
 –some kinda shit in my piss
 got into my nerves
 –hurt like a bitch
 I just had to deal
 trying to hide my hiss
  
 this seemed 'a turning for them
 all who called me family
 and friend
 it was a strange turn of events
 'what did I do'
 I kept wondering
  
 pain kept sinking me in
 no one could tell me–
 how to win
 there came a point
 I just wanted to end
 there was no one to help me
 understand this fight
 I was in
  
 it just all became a rage
 some sore of out-of-mind stage
 no one came
 no one believed my range
 –me giving zero reason
 just an illness-fighting season
  
 pain slapping every angle
 my skin on fire
 with no one helping me
 –not even trying
  
 me...'a crying
 maybe some whining
 'what did I do'
 to make everyone
 me...gone in denying
  
 then it all went exploding
 a marriage in killing
 down to total in zero
 gone the hero
 –adding to pain in feeling
 came total confusion
 –that which
 there's no explaining
  
 I went to that place
 job wrote about in telling
 down, down, down
 not anymore
 no use in fighting
  
 they chopped me to pieces
 all my moral standing
 gone...no more handling
 I let it all go
 as anger...out of me
 began its flow
  
 no one understood
 I was already
 turned to wood
 not even seeing
 'what did I do'
 no more diving
 into books
 –only my figure and looks
 gave me a reason
 in could–
 sexing it all up
 –just to feel good
  
 a good christian life
 didn't matter
 I was thrown to the knife
 cast down...like louella–
 in her sin-lived life
  
 there was nothing to do
 but watch them all
 undo
 everything I'd accomplished
 down, down, down
 they all smashed
 pushing, pushing
 trying to force me
 in crash
  
 I surely stumbled
 I sexed it up in humble
 for a time...I wandered
 even in gay
 mocking an ex in disarray
 for his truth...hidden behind
 false in stay
  
 I finally had enough
 for myself...stood up
 they all spit in my face
 all in doings of betray
 –using my life
 as their punching bag–
 I was crucified
 stripped
 of all my bright
  
 house, friends, children
 all my reputation
 all my education
 gone for the prideful stride
 as down, down, down
 went my buried life
  
 'what did I do'
  
 I went over and over
 uncovered all the covers
 I never stole
 from any of them
 never cheated, never lied
 never betrayed
 never killed or beat
 –I wrote words on a page–
 my life in a little bit of rage
  
 I gave
 I loved
 I helped
  
 even in mad–
 I gave what I could
 even in hurt–
 I did whatever I could
 make another life
 soft, kind
 –even in my anger
 I never crossed the line
  
 so me...they hate
 speaking truth
 living honestly
 letting God† work through–
 undoing all they glued
 as He† wants me to work–
 to better a life
 for you
  
 they hate me even more
 closed...shut all the doors
 me...not caring anymore
 or wondering what for
 for their lives...I prayed
 –and mine…they stabbed
 with a knife
  
 so I raise my cup
 I've had enough
 I've educated myself
 I've given 110 as a wife
 I've stood the wall–
 eleven years without strife
 I've raised three children
 worked, slaved without–
 a husband giving
 –as in the same house
 we went on living
  
 I raise my cup...to all–
 betrayal...an evil whore's bluff
 for God† pulled me up
 –gave me strength
 in enough
 as they all showed–
 their truth–
 the wickedness of crud
 –I walk in sway
 maybe alone–
 but I can honestly say
 I hear the Lord†
 I don't have to fake
  
 I'm for real
 the true in deal
 for I didn't give up
 when the devil thought–
 I didn't get enough
 of its...in the rear...fuck
  
 that's right!
 I'm in the sway–
 a filled cup
 of Jesus† love
 –for I took His† crumbs
 got the fuck up
 drew in...with a deep suck
 'I got this!'
 I know I didn't do anything
 to deserve this bitch's twitch
 ‒I'm so down with this!
  
 yeah! I let out my sway
 let God† fill my cup
 kept my head up
 even when I wanted
 to give the fuck up
 –for trusting in the Lord†
 even with a broken heart
 was me...being the bard
 the writer of truth–
 from the start
 –a fucking swayer
 with a God†-filled cup
 rich with spiritual loot
 all because I was true
 –surviving the ring–
 of evil-driven fools
  
 now I know what to do
 speak nothing but truth
 the devil has no clue
 of the power in God's† truth
 –that which I share with you
 so you'll know what to do
 when that bitch
 is allowed
 to play with you, too!
Continue reading “‘A Swayer’s Cup’”

‘Good of Earth’

Reason…in my personal life…because they had a dark secret as well! The guilty help the guilty. So, when the victim of a crime screams wolf….all the wolves help the wolf.

Note: The photograph that accompanies this writing was taken on October 23rd. It is the white dove that I write about later in this writing when talking about the Sign of Jonah!

 Good of Earth
  
 healing begins
 in the heart
 setting pride aside
 that which tears us apart
 letting out the light
 which brightens stars
 building another's heart
 by halting pain
 from the start
  
 without this healing bark
 pain lives on
 adding to its cart
 more parts of the dark
 stripping lives
 –that mercy of heart
 building the prince of the earth
 –it's army in surf
  
 it is only through
 admittance, accountability
 that we add a ball
 in curve
 understanding...fully
 who we serve
  
 by casting out
 pain's dart
 dealing immediately
 byway of God's†
 merciful heart
 that we justify
 Jesus'† part
  
 His† death wasn't a fart
 for the innocent–
 always pay the heaviest cost
  
 go to the cross
 then sort
 –the heaviness
 won't be a part
  
 hide in the dark
 deny the sort
 –the heaviness
 becomes the burden
 in pain's cross
 becoming too difficult
 to sort
 leading us to
 true intimacy
 of the dark
Continue reading “‘Good of Earth’”

‘Pillage of Souls’

I am His messenger. I am His witness…this IS a Message from God:

Note: I’m told to use this photograph again. The All-Seeing Eye and the orb on my lips says I’m speaking truth. Photograph taken October 23rd.

 Pillage of Souls
  
 it is in the vastness
 of hide
 where it is
 you'll find the lie
 –that which bleeds souls
 to die
  
 it is in the masquerade–
 leaving questions
 in why
 tearing you apart
 inside
 leaving your mind
 hallow and dry
 staring from eyes
 as tears you cry
  
 it is in this charade
 you play along–
 for those in hide
 play on your weak side
 pull you
 in their jive
 laughing and smiling
 all the while in connive
 not allowing you to see
 –where lies the suicide
  
 you go along with it
 you battle in your mind
 for what you know
 and what you see
 collide
  
 you finally accept
 the ride
 its joyful, happier times
 leaving it behind
 or not even knowing
 what lies in the hide
  
 deception is a lie
 no matter the looks
 outside
 –some lie in die
 on the inside
 over a hide
 buried in the homicide
  
 mixing it all up
 to points of destroy–
 of good lives
 for over the lie
 someone has to die
 –a life to justify
  
 gone is where truth lies
 –souls live pass
 a body's life
  
 all matters–
 seen by God's† eyes
 –as they laugh out loud
 feel all is right
 they are protected
 in the hide–
  
 God† is moving pieces–
 setting it all up
 for the dark–
 (that hidden hide)
 to be awakened
 brought to light
 revealing truth
 –reclaiming souls
 from the devil's eyes
Continue reading “‘Pillage of Souls’”

‘Spaces to Stay’

Believing in love is hard after being let down. Sometimes, we just have to throw our hands up and trust in God’s plan. Those who don’t see God’s plan: they just keep going round and round. Trust in that Jesus Love. He’ll come through when He knows we are ready.

 Spaces to Stay
  
 I wanted to think
 you cared
 I wanted to believe
 I was more than a barbie doll
 to stare
 I wanted to be in arms
 somewhere...anywhere
 just to feel accepted
 –not just in skin...bare
  
 I was wrong
  
 a constant staring in air
 playing dress up–
 fixing my hair
 without a soul to care
  
 just once...wanting to be
 more than just a dare
 to not dawn sex to wear
 –just being there
 believing...I'm finally
 free of the tear
 leaving behind
 every frightful scare
 that I'd be left
 for another in bare
  
 I was wrong
  
 the weakest link–
 everywhere
 the spear always wanting
 to be somewhere
 –in a different anywhere
  
 in blank spaces I stare
 voiding empty glares
 all those running
 to somewhere
 spreading themselves
 anywhere
 –getting no wheres

‘Crucifying Jesus†’

Persecution. I was led to the Acts in the Bible today. The historical account of what happened to Peter and the rest of them who initially was appointed to tell the world about their experience, their testimony, about Jesus Christ. Nothing much has changed!

Note: The purple ray that you see in the picture that accompanies this writing is the purple love of Jesus. It is a blessing that He is placing on the 2 orbs inside of the red bubble. Those 2 orbs represent 2 people whom God has already married. There is a marriage under God and a marriage under man. You will know who these 2 people are, I’m told, in the near future. I already know. (I’m told to write this because of my self-doubt. It is dated now as everything else I’m told to write. It is for the sole purpose of revealing truth to me, personally, and to you. I can’t deny my self-doubt because I can’t see how this will happen, but in God and in Jesus, everything is possible. In Jesus’ name, Amen.)

 Crucifying Jesus†
  
 I'm part of the body
 ‒that of Christ†
 the head
  
 the bullying of me
 is the bullying of Him†
 the name calling...judgment
 of me
 is the judgment of Him†
  
 I am special
 for He† is special
 if am part of Him†
 He† lives
 inside of me
  
 for:
  
 I am in Christ†
 Christ† is in me
  
 you forsake His† name
 deny His† claim
 I shall speak‒
 all the same
 –for He† removed my chains
 as to peter‒
 the angel came
  
 you crucify Jesus†
 when you crucify me
  
 you ignore Jesus†
 when you ignore me
  
 your faith is tested
 ‒as mine
  
 I cry for you
 as your doubt...revealed
 no longer can you conceal
 a heart...wasted
  
 for:
  
 I am in Christ†
 Christ† is in me
  
 not just words
 someone once heard
 but forever in flight
 the light
 ‒the saving bird
 who gave His† life
 –to redeem the world
Continue reading “‘Crucifying Jesus†’”

‘Told but Not Heard’

God’s choice on how He reveals Himself is His call. He’s leaving how we see it up to us individually. Will you see it?

Note: The photograph attached to this commentary reveals who’s speaking. If you can’t see Him, you are blind. This isn’t in my imagination. All the photographs from September 27, reveal Him is the most extraordinary ways. Those whose faith is solid will see it. Those in disbelief are veiled and will not…that is His ultimate test for you.

 Told but Not Heard
  
 the past is not history
 ‒its repeating
 to God†
 not a mystery
  
 no matter the millennium
 not matter the decade
  
 the repeated rebellion
 against the Father†
 of all creation
 who sent His† Son†
 ‒seeing how hard
 to listen with the heart‒
 He† dealt an easier card
 but that too...too hard
  
 His† wrath was shown
 again and again
 ‒disasters of nature
 turned to scientific adventure
  
 to Him†...forgotten amends
 left for a sunday's amen
 instead of an every day win
  
 lessons not learned
 as fires in forests burned
 as wars over and over turned
 ‒rewards taken
 not earned
  
 rape, murder, lies
 pillage, corruption
  
 on and on and on
 then judge
 when God steps 
 on the ledge
 ‒criticizing, condemning
 those He† uses
 to spread His† news
  
 go on, go on, go on‒
 He's† already prepared them
 for your abuse
 ‒they...have a place
 reserved...in heaven's muse
 your criticism
 doesn't have a chance
 ‒only puts you further
 out of heaven's range
  
 look to your selves
 seek refuge inside
 rather than outside
 ‒debate with your self
 heal your own
 spiritual health‒
 then and only then
 can you reach out
 beyond your self
  
 repeating of history
 not at all a mystery
  
 nothing is better
 ‒hence God's† coming wrath
 coming...to re-gather
 what's been shattered
Continue reading “‘Told but Not Heard’”

‘Undo What’s Done’

You are worth every bit of struggle. It is up to you to take those struggles and help others with theirs. That’s the meaning of being the body and Jesus† being the head. He† is with you. Never forget that!

 Undo What's Done
  
 you are His† son
 a tiny dot of sun‒
 that can wage wars
 beneath the stars
 from so close
 yet so far
  
 I feel it all‒
 deep inside
 ‒you have
 what it takes
 undo what's done
 ‒show the world
 your sum
  
 you are His† son
 larger than life
 cut by a knife
 bleeding deep‒
 from the inside
 ‒throw it, throw it
 far from your outside
 grow outward‒
 don't hide
  
 prove to Him†
 you are more‒
 than just a son
  ‒you are a light
 shining
 from a darkened sun

‘Erase Anger’s Mark’

Forgiveness. It is not just about forgiving in general, it’s about all the little parts that go along with hurt…anger, resentfulness. It’s setting ego and pride aside. It’s not bowing down. It’s living up to God’s standards. It’s what truth is all about. 

 Erase Anger's Mark
  
 to fix the heart
 erase...has to go–
 anger's mark
 –leaving not one trace
 of remorse
  
 so how to start
 cleansing this heart
 to forgive all debts
 forgive being brought
 to death
 by another's empty head
  
 completely put love
 in every place
 when their name
 is but a trace–
 on any person's tongue
 –not one word, or thought
 in any formed base
 –can hate lace
  
 how to remove
 this force–
 that keeps wanting
 to have its course
  
 how to convert it
 to love
 –remove
 the resentment glove
 –to completely
 wipe anger away
  
 I ask for this answer
 –this tiny little favor
 if I'm to be a teacher
 –a hurt healer
 please tell, my Lord†
 my own heart–
 how do I wipe it off–
 those who broke it
 those who never
 said sorry
 or gave reason for it–
 –how do I cleanse it
 so I can teach it
Continue reading “‘Erase Anger’s Mark’”