‘Aggravation’s Portion’ (Yeshuah)

…But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God.”—John 3:1-21

Aggravation's Portion (Yeshuah)

we seek understanding
we demand that we know
but the only way
to truly know
which brings true understanding
is to allow truth to prevail

on the road to truth
aggravation endows
to exploit you

I† send you aggravation
I†, the Son†, Jesus†
send you thought's process
so deep inside
you are able to deal
with the chains that bind you

and there are chains
chains you cannot see
but can feel
and they hold you
in captivity
as long as needed
for you to heal from them

if it were sins you committed
against another
or sins that where committed
against you

hatred and anger
rage and disappointment
all bring into your heart
shame

I† charge each of you
to release this
from this day forward
stand against shame

and how do you do this?
you will ask

Me†!

I† put the words on your tongue
I† put the words on another's tongue

not to insult you
nor to bring on more shame

what you feel
when this is done
brings out what is already there
no less and no more

the aggravation
is formed in many ways

anger is the worse
what you feel as humiliation
is nothing more than the anger
you already felt
but hid from everyone

something was done to you
or you did something to another

this is where your 'humiliation'
the mask of hurt and anger
comes from

but this is how society
has made you feel:

•if it is not a certified person
meaning one who holds degrees
(given a status among men)
then you don't listen

•if it isn't a priest
or someone of the 'cloth'
that man deemed worthy
then you don't listen

I† have proven this truth
to the prophet of the pen
through the prophet of the pen

it does not matter
what man thinks
did you know that?

it matters what God† thinks

and He† is
as I† am

taking your shame out
on another
especially the one charged
with drawing it out
has become 'normal'
but it only places more marks
on an already scared heart

you have done this to yourself
for you were presented
with a choice
seeing the charge against yourself
and your 'self' not willing
to face the charge
you decided to hurt another
you decided to place blame
on an innocent being

do you know
that
that person charged
was a way of forcing
a healing of the heart
from God† Himself†
for He† found you worthy
and you refused His† help?

your life of luxury and leisure
does not mean you are favored

satan lies
he loves his tricks
he is charged with trickery
for he is evil and deceptive
but still a being
who is not above God†!

I† was crucified
a lamb without blemish
I† take those charged to Me†
and bring them low
through the Father†
they are also sacrificed
and the resurrection
that you proclaimed about Myself†
also happens to them
the first ascension

and for many being hard hearts
it takes several
to completely let go of the world

they will lose their life first
and until they do
they will continue going
around and around

the sacrifice for sin
is taking the innocent
and giving them to the Father†
in order for salvation
to be released

this is what you cannot understand
unless you seek truth
not in scientific data
or research or digging in the ground
nor debate that never reaches
any kind of conclusion

it is only in trusting
what you cannot see
'faith'
opening yourself to understanding

all of those who have truly
felt Me†
many of them
are willing to die for Me†
in life
and live with your ostracism
your ignore, your swords
your knives, your ropes,
your bullets
they fell into understanding
without a need to see

those on the other side of that
need to see
they cannot feel Me†
because they are stuck
in tradition
stuck in death
stuck in the world

release the aggravation
do not get frustrated
because you have felt Me†
and truly know the truth
and those you love don't
it is not their time
and perhaps never will be their time

it is not your choice
who is saved
and who is not

a choice is given
it is their choice to make

as long as each body lives
the choice is still theirs
they still have time
but they, as well as, you
do not know when I† will come for you

so always be prepared
keep the light in your 'self'
always lit
and each time the darkness comes
do not go to bed
until the light reemerges

the teachings will continue
until the time comes
which the Father† deemed

the charge is underway
you see it as 'normal'
explained away
as previously told to you
as 'normal'

as the change continues
as 'normal' explanations are given
so it will be
when the Father† and Myself†
slip away
for a time
you will not have the strength
to hold onto Me†
on the outside
it is only on the inside
that you will prevail
what you do in secret
the Father† will see
what you say in secret
the Father† will hear

hold Me† close to your heart
confined in the inner most recesses
the chamber where man
cannot go
for I† will remain with those
who remain in Me†

to save the world
the remnants have been chosen
those who's hearts are plenty
will feel the Spirit† upon them
and no matter what
their offspring will inherit
a new earth
and a new Heaven will emerge

(November 20, 2023)―He led me to the John 3:1-21 a day before this writing. Yesterday, in fact, after I was questioning myself and my life. He said, ‘Open the book,’ and there was the answer, then He said that He will give me a writing to be used with this Scripture. So, He has.

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‘Depression’s Mango’ (Yeshuah)

…But in order that sin might be recognized as sin, it produced death in me through what was good, so that through the commandment sin might become utterly sinful. We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin.—Romans 7:13,14

Depression's Mango (Yeshuah)

it's words you
don't want to hear
passiveness
anguish
stagnation
wanting to survive
with anger in your heart

the sadness draws you
in
pulling you deep
twisting knots
avoiding good
for the sadness
begins to feel good
it becomes familiar

let Me† take you
on a journey
walk with Me†
I†, Yeshuah†
can help you see through
this dark void

there's light
through Me†
I† can help you
find it
but you've got to be
willing

if not
the suffering continues
you begin to use means
any means
to make you feel good

it's an illusion
it is not truth

use Me† instead
to give you strength

the strength comes
slowly
but it comes

it wages up
boundaries
small little walls
protection
where…before
none was found

it's preciseness
giving what you need
to see pass the darkness
giving you a strength
to stand alone
in all the confusion
hate and anger
jealousy and envy
that surrounds you

in this time
your strength builds
learning
the pain has given you
lessons to teach

the sadness turns
to wisdom
little by little
you rise
from way down deep

a careful way
for you
is being paved

it is your choice
once you call upon Me†
to take the path
being laid out to you

I† will offer a cup
to you
it is a choice
to drink from the cup

don't let man fool you

there are many cups
being offered

how can you tell
from which cup to drink?

is it the one in force?

no, it is the one felt
deep in your heart
one of sorrow
the one to humble
the one which brings upon you
questions
questioning your very self

this cup I† offer
is divine in nature
it becomes in you
the seeker of truth
your truth
that which made you
into who you are becoming

it is a solo journey
one very much needed
tears of anguish will fall
but so will anger and hate
jealousy and envy
even pride
they all fall to the ground
down the sides
of your face
they begin to fall away
as sin begins to fade

until you emerge
washed clean
by the tears shed
tears of My† hand

then you have defeated
sin
it falls beneath your feet
no more
does sin live inside you

I† can help you do this
I† am the strength
you need
for sin to be defeated

from this fear
of diving into this sadness
to not be afraid
of what awaits you
of not being afraid
to let tears fall
strength shows its wonderful
face

a new self emerges
as sadness dissipates
and your rebirth
given to the Spirit†
and the Spirit† returns
to you
truth

it isn't easy
but it isn't hard either

you must overcome pride
and face self
your God†-self
without interference
of the sinful nature

be well in your journey
many are too afraid
to take this journey
they fear the pain
needed
to truly let in the light

Me†!

(October 30, 2022)—This writing was given on October 29, 2022, and after He led me to Romans 7: 7-12 through Romans 7:21-25.

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‘Consensual’ (Yeshuah)

…Yet the Lord rescued me from all of them. In fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted, while evil men and impostors will go from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived….—2 Timothy 3:10-17

Consensual (Yeshuah)

it is in the heart
that we know truth
down deep
what tears us apart

if it isn't said
it leaves us dead
lost in death
separate from the rest

when truth is hidden
it drives in the forbidden
brings in darkness
that leaves us in
restlessness

a pull from within
filling us
deepening
a strange notion
of demotion
of anger and hate
changing the course
of our fate

the truth must be spoken
it's an honorable token
from strength given
to speak what others
deemed forbidden

the truth must be spoken

no matter the hurt
or the ill-feelings
in flirt

it is the call of Christ†
it is today
a called sacrifice
a force in heal
from forbidden's deal
bringing it into the real
unlocking the hurt sealed

the one who finds courage
to speak it
the cup has been given
it is up to them
to drink from it
‒bringing out the course
of sin

this isn't easy to do
it is a charge
put upon you
the one drinking
from the cup

animosity and blame
finds their way
out of tame
burning in rages
of flame

it is I† speaking
the one who fills the cup
the one who offers the cup
Yeshuah†
the only one who can offer

blame comes out
within fears of doubt
who has the clout
who doesn't
to call such sins out

it is written
long ago
to bring such sins out
to take them out of hiding
place them on the table
forcing a discussion
enabling a heal
of what is damaged

My† demands
have not changed

My† prophet was put
through this
for reason
not for glory
she receives no glory

everything
she was charged with
she did
not for glory
she will receive none

faith is tested
as hearts are tested
learn the ways of the Father†
He† is simple
man makes it complicated
he endures complication
he wanders in its confusion
trying to sort through it
by himself

he can't

those whom speak for Me†
through ways and words
are condemned by man
I† have warned you
of such things

Mine† feel the pain
of others
they seek the truth
in all things

when I† charge them
to set the truth free
they do as they are told
no matter the consequence
because they know Me†
as they know the Father†

no one wants Truth†
to speak
but its Spirit† is powerful
it forces itself to the surface
by what means it deems

be careful your living
be careful your hearing
be careful your seeing

to see Truth†
through the darkness
has to be consensual
between you and
the Spirit of Truth†

if doubt plagues you
you will get parts
of the truth

the vine is charged
with the rest

be careful of the vine
parts are broken
choosing the world
instead of Truth†

anger surfaces
because your heart
knows this
and it is fighting
what the world knows
comparing it to Truth†
and wanting to trust
what is of the world
those lost in shame
those lost to sin

I† call upon Truth†
the Spirit of Truth†
who does not lie
He† lies within My† servant
He† lies within all My† servants

your conflictions
lie within your self only
the charge is
for you to battle
these conflictions
it is a consensual act
of bravery

once you have resolved
these conflictions
with self
you must stand behind
the answers you
receive

for the Father† demands
either a yes or a no
anything in between
is of the world

the darkness that
surrounds you
is of your making
you cannot blame
anyone else
this is your place
of resurrection
you either rise or not
it is your choice
it is a given choice
for you to make

My† servants guide you
they will not force
neither will I†
nor will the Father†

(October 1, 2022)―I didn’t expect this writing. Yeshuah is discussing what I witnessed the last couple of days. Then the Scriptures: 2 Timothy 2:14-19 through 2 Timothy 4:6-8 right after. If you actually read the writing and the Scripture, then you can feel what I felt: Pure Love.

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‘Empty Hallow Spot’ (Yeshuah)

…But the Scripture declares that the whole world is a prisoner of sin, so that what was promised, being given through faith in Jesus Christ, might be given to those who believe.—Galatians 3:19-22

Empty Hallow Spot (Yeshuah) 

it isn't empty
it seems empty
this waywardness
digging deep
needing the insides
to seep

come closer
you will see
the autumn
around the corner
creeps
then the winter
a mourning feat

come close 'o winter
come close all who mourn
set your sites on Me†
Yeshuah†, the one who keeps
pure hearts of righteousness

the opening vastly awaits
comfort brings
above people and things

'o solemn awakeness
seek the openings
the smallest endeavors
for anew is coming

hold forth to needing
but need the right things
comfort of sorrow
in the mince of confusion

the combining agent
just a fragment
of the lost and found

awaken 'o wonder
listen to the rain
as the waters rush
can't you hear its sound

beat, beat, beat
goes the rain
a hunger of thirst
that's never quenched
a wayward host
pretending in boast

as the prophesies lay
so does the hand of God†
a waywardness in wrath
for man's guess
a triumph in the wrong things
a nontrusting fellowship
of words He† commands

all of them
will come to pass

the iron making its way east
no time to cease
as conditions worsen
as fighting becomes less
monies falling
in the wrong hands

be patient My† dear prophet
these things must take place
in the face
of all the human race

they will know
His† mighty hand
protection will become
upmost important

currently, they are struggling
with man made
their discussion on what to fear

it is His† wrath
they should fear
but they don't
for they can't see
through the lies and deceit

they will

a combine is making its way
a child of the wrath
a golden spike
one 'you' can't hold

don't undertake His† wrath
don't think you can
He† sees the pillage
of His† seed
it abhors Him†

the truth to man
is never what truth is
man has a way
changing things to fit his need

don't waiver in faith
those who seek Me†
with all their heart
with all their soul

I† am not gone
nor am I† a folktale
or something ancient
I† am
as He† is
as you are

seek comfort in prayer
lift your burdens
through faith

changes are coming
they must come
preparation of the change
is a must
confusion is set
words will be said
maybe miracles and delusions
question all that's put
before you

truth doesn't change
God† doesn't change

awaken 'o wonder and see
preparation of the prepared
those belonging to Me†
are guides for those who 
cannot see

all the words given
blend
they are instruction
for preparation
they are warnings
for this preparation

don't wither in your prepare
heal
be on guard
'o watchmen of the tower
warn them
or their deaths fall 
on your heads

the ways have been told
not for your academia
but for light
for the life of those sincere
to live in the light

for the kingdom overshadows
death
and I† am the way

it is I†, Yeshuah†
speaking for Him†, the Father†
speaking for Myself†
with words He† gives
thus I† give to the prophet

go in peace
if you have ears, hear
these words are truth

(June 19, 2022)―He led me to Galatians 3:19-22 through Galatians  4:21-5:1.

If you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham’s seed, and heirs according to the promise.Galatians 3:23-29. The ‘if’ factor. If you are true, then you have the faith. What exactly is the faith? The Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is truth. He knows who is true. You can appear to be a righteous person on the outside, but inside you are manipulative and deceiving…the Holy Spirit knows and bypasses you.

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‘Knife’

Surviving the Knife of Those Who Betray You!

A sample from Book 12

(April 21, 2018)—That knife becomes weaker when we gain the support of others, when we start to see the true meaning behind our life. That knife doesn’t come out that easy especially when you see everyone’s true disclosure.

There’s so much to say, then there’s nothing to say. I have this much on my mind: If they don’t want to see you, it doesn’t matter what you say or do, they won’t see you.

I’ve said a lot here on Facebook. I revealed a lot…but there’s a lot I haven’t revealed. So you only get a piece of the puzzle…never the whole picture. Why? Because I do have a life and part of that life is private as for everyone else. There’s a lot of pain I cover up…and, yes, there is still pain. There will always be pain because an entire portion of my life has been wiped out…and not by choice.

I tried calling my daughter. It appears that she’s changed her number. I think that odd because the words I last typed her in text were answers to words she said to me, but I’m held totally accountable. Why? Oh, because I’m 49 years old and should know better. I’m the mom…but that doesn’t come into affect when I’m called by my name instead of Mom. Just saying….

 Knife
 
it was put in there‒
nice and tight
when I move around
to the left, to the right
it reveals its price
‒how it changed my life
the strength it took‒
robbing my mind
the way it makes me wanna fight
even if it isn't right
even if I said...say...things impolite
I was...am...gonna fight
‒even while speaking of the light
 
at times, I feel like a poltergeist
a faded memory...sliced and diced
forgotten the way I was
forever entombed in what I've become
not a homicide
‒a genocide of all that was nice
womanly, motherly...dignified
downgraded to a parasite
‒not fit for normal's life
 
should I be lost in contrite
bowed down in pity...outright
or was I absolutely right
turning childlike
begging for help‒
from Jesus Christ†
 
who has the right to decide‒
I'm the sacrifice
in order for them‒
to have their paradise
 
who had the right‒
shift truth to lies
bury this knife
in what used to be‒
a mother, sister, daughter, wife
 
in me...it so mystifies
how everyone becomes tongue-tied
when abuse is in transcribe
‒the victim screams in alive
how extreme...me...it mortifies
that, no matter which way‒
death...comes in die
twist, twist, twist the knife
gone daughter, sister, mother, wife
 
rebuilding exemplified
the alibis become jives
words in wisdom...just implied
while words...wombs...rob the mind
memories of building the first life‒
took one times forty-five
 
pull, pull, pull out the knife
time in modify
is there another forty-five
my, my, my how it mystifies
what comes of‒
pulling out the knife
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‘Depths of Heart’

Mind your heart or others will not!

A sample from Book 11

 Depths of Heart
 
protecting self‒
not letting any other
put it on a shelf
seems to be utmost important
‒above anything else
 
for in self
happiness lies
rises high
above health
any amount of wealth
‒pulling the heart
out of hell
out of the darkest well
 
for in truth heart dwells
untied from man's inhuman belt
released from whatever shelf
man tries to impel
keeping the heart from melt
‒happiness locked in a cell
 
get out, get out
see yourself‒
way deep inside
where happiness compels
in heart
where it truly swells
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‘Source’

Anxiety created from the fight against codependency!

A sample from Book 11

  Source
 
she waits‒
closes her eyes
breathes deep
‒her face tingles
her heart races
her palms sweat‒
a heat under her skin
rises...coming quick
 
shh...she repeats to herself
 
each sound
each speck of light

builds the burning

she fights
 
shh...again and again
 
don't do it...not again
she begs repeatedly
 
settle down, please
 
begging, begging

the exploding need

building, building
 
forcing her mouth closed
forcing her body steal
‒as tears stream down her face
 
begging, begging
 
can't you see...anyone
can't you see

I'm trying, trying...
my grip is slipping...

 
as she loses control‒
her mouth yells
or her tears fall
‒no matter who's around
down, down, down
she falls
 
back to a child‒
innocent, broken
just for a while
 
'til she regains
strengthens
to go
one more round
in life's paradigm
where between herself
and herself
she fights
 
hoping, hoping
 
the next time‒
she'll steady the line
‒that too often...
breaks her holding-together vine
 
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‘Truth’

Racism, hate: Evil’s best friends. Don’t let it consume you!

A sample from Book 11

 Truth
 
liars seek truth‒
falsifying a life
without any light
 
manipulation...their due
cutting it on cue
‒without noticing
the coming dues
 
their belief‒
trying to convince you
all they do
true, true, true
backing them‒
there are few
 
their spots change
sending you to the loo
oh! what to do?
‒without cursing them, too
 
truth is truth
existing
no half truths
‒it's either all true
or just makings
of a waterloo
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‘Disillusionment’

When politics blinds your truth!

A sample from Book 11

 Disillusionment  

she stood there shaking
what have I done‒
causing this imagined awakening
‒have I forsaken
forgive me, Lord†

ease this hating
 
in her silence
her heart opened
‒a simple token
what truly lived
in this here maiden
 
she watched them all
as the stones began to fall
‒to her knees
no longer...she felt tall
over and over
coming at her skin‒
little hard balls
 
then a sudden stall
stopped...silence
a mere moment
she recalled
 
the dust settled
her tightly closed eyes opened
upon her dress‒
tiny red splattered drops dribbled
her pain...tiny tickles
what...a blink before
it seemed a fable
 
her fear lifted
was this a gift
her sins shifting
to ultimate's forgiveness
‒this she did not know
but the sudden stop
she felt her heart unfold
 
cast your stone‒
if clean...your bones
 
she heard the voice
then the made choice
as all around
stone after stone
hit...not her
but the ground
 
silence remained
she still knelt‒
in blood stains
as shifting of feet
the sudden in retreat
 
silence...not daring
to lift her head
then a shadow overcame the red
a hand reached out
get up child
a mere whisper without shout
 
strength from Him† came
as her legs rose
her eyes did the same
 
His† light dried her tears
all became so clear
her heart felt clean
in His† eyes...she seen
truth's unending scene
her life redeemed
it wasn't a dream
‒pure and serene
forever...trust in Him†
she proclaimed
for the Lord†...by her side
remained
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‘Troubled Soul’

Other people’s issues are not yours!

A sample from Book 9

  Troubled Soul
 
your mixed personality
doesn't blend with reality
 
your verbal kindness
doesn't add to
your stalking rudeness
 
returning to reality
‒stripping all vulnerability
takes...taking responsibility‒
actions of self
before experiencing life...truly
 
changing personalities
doesn't insure securities
needed‒
to strengthen possibilities
 
living in denial
mile after mile‒
brings the mind
to crash
heading south‒
once there
‒getting there
you can only ask...how
 
take a look inside
your round and round ride
‒a mind in hide
never subsides
'til you stop for a while
sink in like a child‒
all your wounds...untie
 
open that book
given by God†
look deep...deep into your I
write down your whys
all that pain
bringing you to hide‒
all those cries
 
all those ancient words‒
so many have heard
let them be your guide
it takes time
 
people won't untie‒
all those knots inside
‒admittance...of self
the help of only God†‒
your only needed drive
way...way deep inside
‒then He'll† show you
how to fly
without you‒
having to ask why
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