‘Love Exist!’ (Jesus)

Jesus replied, ‘The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds….’—John 12:20-26

 Love Exist!
they say it's for the righteous
that I† came
but there was no one righteous
they say it's for the sinner
that I† came
‒those kneeling down
begging for mercy
but what about those standing
didn't I† come for them, too
‒can't they hear, too

it is for them
that I† came, too
for them to have honor
and forgiveness
for them to be given light
but they don't hear
they are blinded
for their hearts are dark

veiling them from understanding
reveals the truth on their hearts
if they are bad fruit
they will not see truth
because their hearts are dark
they will perish
the same way
they have lived–
confused...not certain
it was never meant to be clear
confusion sets the pace
if you can see through it
‒remember the sea
how it parted
trust kept the waters parted
confusion then enclosed
the water...it returned
hear My† words
I† am here
you have to see through
the confusion
you can return to Me†
if you wanted to
I† will not force you
through the waters‒
it is I†
go in peace

....the Lord, Jesus the Christ

Note: The photograph that accompanies this work was taken October 23, The Dragon and the All-Seeing Eye. A dove…a sign of Jesus.

(February 27)―‘The Adjunct’ and ‘He† Breathes’ and ‘I Am Truth’s Voice’ now ‘Love Exist!’. And this is Jesus. Our heavenly Father is every where and He is in control. To hear our Brother…He’s like this precious flower and He’s very difficult to write for because I don’t want to mess what He says up. I feared writing directly for God! It was one thing writing indirectly, but directly is a whole different story.

[I wrote what He had to say first. Then the title came. That’s a first! Like He wanted me to know.]

Something you should know before you read the Scripture below. When I receive these writings, they aren’t out of thin-air. These come after days of something troubling me. On my social media pages on Facebook, I’ve been writing a lot about narcissism and what the men in my life had done, as well as my sisters. It down-right pisses me off! So, I take it to God. Well, almost.

The sweet man started contacting me each month since November and I would be nice then flat-out mean because I hear no apologies, I hear no admittance of guilt. Instead it’s denial of facts and name calling and evil. I hear no Jesus love…At ALL! So, I resort back to what God wanted me to do at the end of my stay in our shared house, drill the importance of what was asked of him.

Then my sister contacts me, thinking she knows me and thinking she has a right to pair me with a guy because she ‘thinks‘ we have chemistry! I laid it into her as well. She did pretty much what the sweet man did! And then my kids. Only one talks to me. The other two totally ignore me, like I never raised them, like I never carried them in my belly for nine months, like I don’t exist. And I think about all of this. I never did drugs. I was never an alcoholic. I never had any addictions. I never ran wild in bars. I never abused money. I suffered betrayal and had to go through the five stages of grief, then this past year, the Lord spoke to me!

I saw the darkness of those who said they loved me. I saw betrayal of the ugliest kind. My entire community back home except for a few turned their backs on me…they all go to a church and claim to love Jesus and God, and claim to be this God-fearing bunch and yet, someone they know has heard Him! And Jesus has shown me many times now how this happens to truth. Today, was no exception!

All of this has been going on in my mind. It’s not about forgiving anyone. It’s about how they are hypocrites. It’s about the things they said to me and they couldn’t even look at themselves in the mirror to see that they were actually talking about themselves. My heart is broken…because they are batting for the wrong side! And I’ve never seen real love face to face. I have felt true love from God and Jesus and David. Oh, how precious it is! But from a human being…no. I’m not talking about the handful of friends that I have including several cousins, kinfolk, that talk to me. I’m talking about those that were actually in my life daily. As long as I was giving, as long as I wasn’t commenting on their lives, but dealt with the comments they made about me…all was good. But as soon as I made my adjustments and called them out on their behavior, I wasn’t even worth saying hello to.

So, I questioned my Lord about love. Where is it? I’ve cried for days on this. I know other people say they have seen it. Are they lying? Or is it just me who hasn’t truly seen it? And Jesus comes…the following Scripture and then He speaks.

In ‘I Am Truth’s Voice’, the commentary includes Scripture from Jeremiah. I received a spiritual blessing and part of that blessing is including in that commentary…a message within the Scripture. Confusion. What Jesus is talking about here, God sent the same message hundreds of years before Jesus came to earth. God has been showing me confusion. When I lived with the sweet man, God revealed what the sweet man was doing to keep me confused. I was totally bewildered for a while, like what the hell is going on?! There were things I knew and I saw that had happened and that man just manipulated the words so good that he had my head spinning. God showed me what he was doing. At the end, God revealed to me why.

So you can accept narcissism. You can call the innocent narcissist because of the smooth talking of the real narcissist. And you have. My own children have. I read a text by the sweet man’s ex and she knew who he was yet he was conning his way back into her life and she was buying it! Desperateness does that. It truly does. God wanted me to see all of this and reveal it because to HEAL…for a narcissist to heal, the victims have to keep calling them out! Because narcissist don’t acknowledge that there’s anything wrong with them! Childhood trauma! You bet your ass something is wrong with them! And they can’t cure themselves! Sorry, won’t happen. I don’t care how much they deny anything ever happening. Narcissism is so plain to see once you have witnessed it. They are unhealed! And they are dangerous to society if they remain unhealed for starters, and everyone who has come into contact with them remain unhealed! The source. They have to face the source. Most narcissists are deathly terrified to do such a thing. That’s the whole point!

Jesus. Let’s walk….

Final Week―Monday

Unfruitful Fig TreeThe next day as they were leaving Bethany, Jesus was hungry. Seeing in the distance a fig tree in leaf, He went to find out if it had any fruit. When He reached it, He found nothing but leaves, because it was not the season for figs. Then He said to the tree, ‘May no one ever eat fruit from you again.’ And His disciples heard Him say it.—Matthew 21:18,19; Mark 11:12-14

Notes:  Later the tree dies. Hence, a symbol of what happens when you don’t produce the good fruit. So, I’d pay attention if I were you!

Jesus Cleanses TempleOn reaching Jerusalem, Jesus entered the temple area and began driving out those who were buying and selling there. He overturned the tables of the money changers and the benches of those selling doves, and would not allow anyone to carry merchandise through the temple courts. And as He taught them, He said, ‘Is it not written: ‘My house will be called a house of prayer for all nations?’ [Isaiah 56:7] But you have made it ‘a den of robbers.’ [Jeremiah 7:11]—Matthew 21:12,13; Mark 11:15-17; Luke 19:15-17 (At temple)

Notes: He overturned the tables of the money changers and the benches of those selling doves,…This isn’t the first time He does this. His love is hard love. His actions are that of God. Bad shepherds will always say God is great and Jesus is love. They never tell you the whole truth. Oh, they preach on God giving grace…and they will say it’s automatic. WRONG! But go on believing that if you want. It’s your soul you are gambling with, not theirs. You are only filling their pockets and emptying your own soul!

Doves…why even mention doves. That seems a bit petty, but no one seems to mention or question why it’s mentioned. Jesus. The sign of Jesus is the DOVE! He sent the dove in the pictures on God’s Mercy in September and He sent me a broken dove before He brought that journey I was on to an end to reveal to me that there was one broken dove in that house…the sweet man. I remember the sweet man stooping down and saying it was a sign of peace. Wrong! It was a sign of Jesus coming for him to heal…it was a month or so later that I was directed to receive the entire message as written about in the testimony. Isn’t that something!

Jesus says a lot here. God’s house of prayer…man’s body! The temple was a symbol of the human body! The heart is the sanctuary! Gold and silver…God’s treasures…the human heart and mind! Y’all are so missing the boat all because of these preaches who are after riches not saving your soul! You give God’s temple away to just anyone…He brought me down to that to show me how easy it is. Do I hate Him for that? No. I thank Him for showing me how it feels, so I can plant the seeds He needs. So many bad shepherds out there…and they rob the human body of so much more and you are letting them!

Plot Delayed—[Mark] The chief priests and the teachers of the law heard this and began looking for a way to kill Him, for they feared Him, because the whole crowd was amazed at His teaching. [Luke] Yet they could not find any way to do it, because all the people hung on His words.—Mark 11:18; Luke 19:47,48

Notes: began looking for a way to kill Him…They still are! I heard it from members of my family, people who said they loved me…they denounced Jesus! How? Why? Is Satan that much sweeter!? Control. It’s always been about control! God called those out who said they loved me…His daughter…He revealed what they were hiding in the dark. He revealed why I was the sacrificial lamb. And do you know what those who SAID they loved me did? They ostracized me. They called me a witch. They called me a liar. I didn’t call them out. God did! He revealed what no one else knew. He revealed their darkest secrets. Why? So they can heal! And they returned His love with HATE! They are still looking for ways to KILL HIS SON!

But YOU Can NOT! Because He lives forever! Hello! Earth to Mars! You are missing the boat because your churches are lying to you! You don’t have the leeway to commit seven sins every day. You can’t allow abuse to be hidden. It’s NOT your call! God sees all. He SAW what you allowed! He saw what was done! He knows the damage done! Fools! You crucify His messengers instead of healing your own soul! My soul…that of HIS messenger…is already in HIS hands! Trust me! You can come put a bullet in me! It doesn’t matter…I’m going to the kingdom! Where are those who are trying to kill Him going….that’s on you! I deliver the message! That’s ALL I have to do!

Children Praise JesusThe blind and the lame came to Him at the temple, and He healed them. But when the chief priests and the teachers of the law saw the wonderful things He did and the children shouting in the temple area, ‘Hosanna to the Son of David,’ they were indignant. ‘Do you hear what these children are saying?’ they asked Him. ‘Yes,’ replied Jesus, ‘have you never read, ‘From the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise’?’ [Psalm 8:2]—Matthew 21:14-16

indignant: feeling or showing anger or annoyance at what is perceived as unfair treatment

Notes: Why would the priests and teachers of God’s law be annoyed at what children were saying? Why would they think it was ‘unfair‘ treatment? Basically, why would they be jealous? Oh, my! how I understand this! When people can’t be like you because they have their dark secrets, the things they will do and say about you is amazing! Oh, how I know. If grown-ass men are going to be jealous of a man who performs miracles like healing people and walking on water and calming storms, it is not a far cry to understand why Satan’s kids will be jealous of your righteous-like behavior! Trust me, they are jealous of you. They can’t be you because they think they fell too far away! They do NOT know Jesus or God! At ALL! Keep talking…that seed will get in there!

Basically, they fucked up and they are embarrassed…ASHAMED as hell! So, they’ll lie their asses off to keep their shame from being discovered. They are just foolish idiots and they don’t need sex, or money, or material anything…they need a lot of hard love! They need you to topple over the tables!

**Purpose of Christ’s DeathNow there were some Greeks among those who went up to worship at the Feast. They came to Philip, who was from Bethsaida in Galilee, with a request, ‘Sir,’ they said, ‘we would like to see Jesus.’ Philip went to tell Andrew; Andrew and Philip in turn told Jesus. Jesus replied, ‘The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves Me must follow Me; and where I am, My servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves Me.’—John 12:20-26

Notes: The Greeks role in the Bible is very interesting if you know anything about the Greek gods. But that’s beside the point. What Jesus says here in bold is very important, especially in the role I must play in all of this (which I’m aware of), and to anyone else, which there are many, receiving messages from God. It does NOT matter what people do to us. What does matter is that WE plant as many seeds as possible. As God showed me years and years ago, it would be what I would leave behind that will matter. He showed me that I wouldn’t receive glory for my work while I’m alive. That dream that revealed this is in Book 1! It’s not about how popular we are while we are alive. It’s what we leave behind that cannot be burned. It’s what we leave behind that inspires souls to be saved.

You must understand this very important message! And…AND this is one of the most important things Jesus says! Sowing those seeds is beyond important. Remember: Everyone is invited but not everyone gets in. You must understand the clear, precise meaning behind this!

*Foretelling Crucifixion‘Now My heart is troubled, and what shall I say? ‘Father, save Me from this hour’? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify Your name!’ Then a voice came from heaven, ‘I have glorified it, and will glorify it again.’ The crowd that was there and heard it said it had thundered; others said an angel had spoken to Him. Jesus said, ‘The voice was for your benefit, not Mine. Now is the time for judgment on this world; now the prince of this world will be driven out. But I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all men to Myself.’ He said this to show the kind of death He was going to die.—John 12:27-33

Notes: Foretelling. He already knew. He already lived. And God acknowledged it. The power between them would have been awesome to see in person! Hearing them both is awesome! Seeing Jesus is beyond words. I can put it in words, but I can’t describe the pure awesomeness…how He is whom I follow without question.

I’m not going to get into the whole process of Satan and God. I’ve written a lot about this. You need to understand it to understand when Jesus comes into your life. Point: God is NOT the god of the dead. I can’t blast this out enough because those bad shepherds are misleading so many of the flock. DEATH is SIN! When you are being tested, you go down to death and God leaves you. Jesus isn’t there either. This is when your heart is being tested! You have to ask God to return to you and He won’t until you’ve reached that child heart; when you are in sincerity, then He will send Jesus in. I’ve written about this whole process as I was going through it in my books. You can believe it or not. I’m here to plant one seed inside of you…and God will take over. Open up that heart, dear one! I want you, no matter what you have done, to get to the kingdom! You are worth all these words!

Call For Walking in LightThe crowd spoke up, ‘We have heard from the Law that the Christ will remain forever, so how can you say, ‘The Son of Man must be lifted up’? Who is this ‘Son of Man’?’ Then Jesus told them, ‘You are going to have the light just a little while longer. Walk while you have the light, before darkness overtakes you. The man who walks in the dark does not know where he is going. Put your trust in the light while you have it, so that you may become sons of light.’ When He finished speaking, Jesus left and hid Himself from them.—John 12:34-36

Notes:  Can you imagine hearing this in person? This is the final week of His life here on earth. He only went around for about three years. And during that short time, He healed plenty, He had done miracles…MIRACLES…in front of many…and they still questioned Him. He raised a man from the dead. He walked on water. He calmed a storm. He made blind men see and crippled men walk. Him…this ONE man. He told people things before they happened. He turned water into wine in front of many. He feed many with little in front of many. Still…those who don’t know God wouldn’t recognize His Son. Those who don’t know God can’t see God in me or you. They sure as hell can’t see Jesus in me or you. God’s lessons are hard. And His tests are designed for you to beg for mercy because at the end of the road, your journey on earth, your behavior determines if you get to have a share in the inheritance.

Are you worthy? What will your heavenly job be? How about sitting in a tree and being the eyes for God? Or lower (any job for God is an honor), pond scum, or the eyes that lay in manure. Those are all workers and it starts at the bottom and goes to the top! Nope, God does NOT like anyone to go to the pit! If you don’t accept His Son, it’s automatic. He doesn’t care for…well Sodom and Gomorrah…you get the point! There’s a huge reason for that. You are just too naïve to understand it. One day…maybe!

The man who walks in the dark does not know where he is going…Do you understand what He meant? He didn’t mean that you’d be like lost in space or something. Confusion is part of it. But the pit is the other…Jesus knew exactly what that is. You don’t want the pit! I assure you.

Return to BethanyWhen evening came, they went out to the city.—Mark 11:19 (Bethany)

Author: k. e. leger

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