Indecisive Humanist
all of these emotions
beings‒
living in the kingdom
sent to stir
from He†―the top sir
in order to set in confusion‒
a top being
where wars are waged
where jealousy and hate‒
kill and maim
where folks go insane
it is the outside humanist
trying
to make sense
of this inside being
separating the two
we have no clue
when sealed tight
without spiritual glue
in comes―faith
we all have a date
with this here bait
most win, ya know
they learn
which way to go
some trial and error
a lot of fear
much tears
but it comes
‒it's never too late
the rest do lose
too lazy
to punch through
they roll around
in the confusion
never cross over to faith
they bask in delusion
which is never real, ya know
it's just a ho'
to the ultimate confusion
standing firm
‒ways to learn
listening to the heart
even when it's breaking
apart
it'll help you sort
‒leave the mind
out of it
there―too much
hit or miss
the heart‒
wearing surety in insist
pounding its beat
just right
wrong or right
listen close
it'll tell you
exactly what to do
the kingdom
watches close
‒all the mind over matter
all its clatter
all its humanistic chatter
‒the banter
of so desperately
trying to be a winner
how extraordinary
they must see us
the mind always turns to rust
seeing lust and distrust
all‒
in the same sentence
so baffling‒
to them―we must seem
patience
they do have
to our humanist
in crazy
in lazy
‒all watching
waiting
what will they do
as God† moves
all these emotions
through our lives
‒just to save us
from die
(June 7, 2021)—‘Indecisive Humanist’ was written June 3 under the guidance of something higher than me. It is instruction of sorts. I sat on it because I wasn’t sure of its nature, then this morning I had another real-time vision experience. It was a continuation of ‘Rejection Undone‘ (Sinking Vision/Dead Body Vision), in which things around me became very large and I seemed to sink or shrink. This morning it happened again, but there was something different. I stepped OUT of the vision. I know that is hard to understand but it was like I was in the vortex of sorts where everything around me was very large and I was small or sinking into the ground then there was a door of sorts that I stepped through back to me being normal. So try to picture this: one second you are in this world where everything is large then the next everything is normal and you are very aware of the moment things became normal!
On the other side of this door, when everything became normal again, I questioned. I was assured that what I just experienced had actually happened, then I was given a glimpse of the move in which I watch about Nostradamus and how he was literally thrown in his real-time visions without warning. And then I heard, ‘I will be with you.’ Before He said that, there was an implied response…like through my subconscious…not a voice…that told me I would be give more visions like this (real time). Then He asked me if I was willing. Of course, I said yes. I will never turn the Lord down.
I’m telling you this because He wants me to. All of it, since 2019 through me, has been instruction on who God is, from God Himself. He wants you to know how He works.
So, the meaning behind what He showed me this morning still remains: We, as a people, the world, is sinking…we are headed to a dark place. That is all I know thus far, and I’m not to guess…just present what I’m shown and told.
The following scripture was shown to me before I wrote ‘Indecisive Humanist’. It’s been put in front of me for years now the jealousy and opposition of people. I’ve even had to deal with the emotion of jealousy straight on in recent years because I’ve never been a jealous person. It just wasn’t in my cards. I experienced envy but not outright jealousy. But I head to feel this emotion in order to understand exactly what happened to Jesus.
Jealousy and Opposition—On the next Sabbath almost the whole city gathered to hear the word of the Lord. When the Jews saw the crowds, they were filled with jealousy and talked abusively against what Paul was saying. Then Paul and Barnabas answered them boldly: ‘We had to speak the word of God to you first. Since you reject it and do not consider yourselves worthy of eternal life, we now turn to the Gentiles. For this is what the Lord has commanded us: ‘I have made you a light for the Gentiles, that you may bring salvation to the ends of the earth’ [Isaiah 49:6].—Acts 13:44-47
Jealousy is a really bad emotion and one of God’s most powerful beings. It is up to you to recognize it and cast it out of you. If you don’t, it will destroy you in so many ways. I had jealousy used against me in so many ways, that me actually feeling it wasn’t anything to feeling the energy from someone dying of this emotion. God gives us all gifts. They are not all the same. My gifts can’t be compared to someone who can sew, or dance, or sing, or act, or is good with money. And the people who are good at those things can’t compare themselves to my gifts.
On the subject of spiritual gifts, I have witnessed a lot of people pretending to have these gifts. I’m going to tell you truth: This isn’t a game. God isn’t a game. The Holy Spirit isn’t a game. And the Holy Spirit gives spiritual gifts and He comes and instructs how to use them when He is ready. Your time is not valuable compared to God’s. And using spiritual gifts for other than healing means is not good. Using them for popularity, for money, for greed in all ways is not of God and you are working for the other side. Also, saying you have them and you don’t is also not good. You choose to do what you need to. I’m just warning you…you can pretend to be anyone under the sun but pretending to have something of the spiritual world and you don’t is very bad.
Having said this: I’ve also witnessed jealousy when it comes to spiritual gifts given. Why? If God sends you a message through someone He chose, listen. Why do you oppose? Why do you get aggressive or challenge? This part of this assignment I’ve been given, I could do without. I can’t help you if you oppose what is good for you. I can’t and I won’t. And God can deal with me however severe He wills it for me saying this, but I’m not after your acceptance card. I’m me. I have always been me. God asked me to do something for Him. I will NOT say No to God. Sorry.
I had to say this because something my child said to me directly and somethings I see happening to other people who get messages from God. My children should NEVER have to defend me! Ever. My sisters and their families, shame on them! for putting my children in this position. Shame on them! A message from the Lord means He loves you and He’s reaching out to you. Don’t you get this. I can’t help your unbelief. He is and He is always. And…AND…you WILL meet with the Judge when your body expires! No matter what others say to you or what denial you have, YOU WILL MEET HIM! And there is one of 2 gates in which you will walk through. In the end, it IS your responsibility alone that decides which gate that will be. Sorry, you can’t blame anyone. Your choice. Good luck with that. Amen.
P.S. Read through the following direct works from God and Jesus. Their words should NOT threaten your attention span. If it does, you need to deal with this issue. These warnings and instruction are coming from them. I’m sure they will stop some day, but what is given will always remain. These words will not burn. I know this because God is and will always be.
Note: The photographs were taken February 9, 2020: Rough Waters…Millions Will Die. I didn’t JUST go out and take pictures on February 9. It was cold and windy and I just wanted to stay in bed! You really need to read the commentary on this page to understand how I ended up out by the lake this particular day. The infinity sign. It is very important to the spiritual world. It comes up every time David and I are in prayer. To the spiritual world, it means ‘Everything is Possible with God!‘ They have put it in my hair on a number of occasions. I know people doubt the things I hear and see. It is. He pointed out this particular picture today for a reason. He sent the sinking vision again for a reason. He said when it is all over, ‘They will know it is I.‘ I leave that to Him!
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