‘Listen! Oh Arrogance’ and ‘Your Mother’s Tears’

Shackles. Black ones around solid white pigeons. Spin tops. What does it mean?

 Listen! Oh Arrogance
  
 you say you are christian
 but clearly‒
 it's a thoughtless decision
 ‒leaving out the crucifixion
  
 so here's something
 in consideration:
  
 we aren't in competition
 we ARE in cultivation
 separate in conception
 separate in our conclusion
 but in between‒
 we are to help each's corrosion
 through a mere conversation
 to help the conversion
 that needs to take place
 in our resurrection
  
 it's a wiping away
 of the contamination
 of the corruption
 without basking in the explosion
 without leaving another
 in the concussion
 without some caution
 ‒a given salutation
  
 be careful...your declarations
 you are also
 under evaluation
 by the One†
 in charge
 of your creation
  
 listen carefully
 to the instructions
 there was only One†
 made into perfection
 ‒the Harvester†
 waiting for your retribution
 ‒it's an individual
 invitation
 by-way of the vine‒
 the collection
 by-way of the faith
 in sanctification
 by-way of
 preservation 

Note: The photograph that leads this writing was taking on September 12, 2019. That day was amazing as all of those days were. You can find this set of photographs under the page title ‘My 5:55 Lake Visits‘. Everything that David explained to me is in the notes under each photograph. The sun and the rays are very important in the message God is sending. All of the orbs and the symbols are not camera tricks. They are what God wanted for you to see. Including what He does to my face. He’s talking. It’s up to you to hear.

(April 10-13, 2021)―Two works for you to read ‘Laying It Down‘ and ‘Tell Me, My Lord†’. They were both written in 2019. The first is instruction on some Jesus love and the second is a prayer from my heart about myself. Yes, myself. We have to first look within ourselves before we can start thinking of fixing others, or planting those God seeds. It is of false hope if you take on God’s work before fixing yourself.

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‘Inside Thinking’ (Jesus)

I was always the ‘different’. If you are the ‘different’ than you understand that. I never had a need to actually fit in a crowd or even stand out. I just did what came to me. I just did me. Most in my life penalized me for that. Read on and understand how this works when you do you without the fear of man in you!

 Inside Thinking (Jesus)
  
 'come to Me†' He† says
 wash your hands
 wash your feet
  
 on this cement
 lay down straight
 pass your tears‒
 openly weep
  
 as people walk on by
 without tears
 to cry
 don't ask why
 ‒for them don't cry
 in a bitter sigh
  
 on this grass
 lay with pizzazz
 hear Me† speak
 ignore man's voice
 instead listen to the wind
 listen to the birds
 and to the rain
 and to the thunder
 hear My† voice
 I†  always speak
 I† have come
 I† have been
 I† am
 as He† is
  
 lay in this dirt
 forget all hurt
 I'll† shoulder it all
 if My† name
 you call
 with a sincere flirt
  
 I† am speaking
 are you listening
  
 things are coming
 things you cannot prevent
 go ahead
 practice your 'holy' days
 in your solemn ways
 crucify Me†  again
 without understanding
 crucify Me† 
 again and again
  
 I†  said I'll†  die once
 it is enough
 for all sins
  
 your guilt does not change
 it was the law‒
 commands He† gave
 you practiced and practiced
 until evil schemes
 ‒what God† put in hearts
 to test
 ‒you failed
  
 it was intended
 malicious hearts don't lie
 ‒and it killed Me† 
  
 to kill Me† over and over
 guilt
 shame
 instead of living in harmony
  
 I† divided
 as I† said I† would
  
 it is on you
 you must decide
  
 My† church isn't in a building
 it is inside
 where the Father's† gold lives
 ‒it beats the finest of minerals
 it lays bear
 all your sins
  
 it's time for cleansing
 before you see the extent
 of His† wrath
  
 it is I† 
 the one and only Son† 
 Emmanuel† 
 go in peace
 when you come to Me† 
 peace I†  will give you
  
 ‒paul...he understood
 My† peace
 he also understood
 the requirements 

Note: The picture is from November 9, 2019: Certainty of Visions. It was an interesting day for me. But it became even more interesting once I got home and downloaded the pictures and David started pointing out God’s art! These images that I blew up are from the shadows on top of the water behind me. Not only does he show me how brilliant God is, but also how quick He is and from where the art was coming from. In this set of images, you’ll find the masked lady. God warning us what was coming!

I did not know what I was taking pictures of. David said take pictures so I did. I didn’t realize that I took so many pictures of the shadows on the water behind me. That was one of the purposes of this set of photographs. God revealing how quick He is on top of the art. He’s telling us that He can do what He pleases. The warnings are to give you time to prepare.
The man sitting in the middle of the image caught my attention first. Then the other images of people conversing with each other face to face. Interesting since the masked lady appeared this day and the revealing tale of the virus that was to come.

I was always the ‘different‘. If you are the ‘different‘ than you understand that. I never had a need to actually fit in a crowd or even stand out. I just did what came to me. I just did me. Most in my life penalized me for that. Read on and understand how this works when you do you without the fear of man in you!

Parable of Place of HonorWhen He noticed how the guests picked the places of honor at the table, He told them this parable: ‘When someone invites you to a wedding feast, do not take the place of honor, for a person more distinguished than you may have been invited. If so, the host who invited both of you will come and say to you, ‘Give this man your seat.’ Then, humiliated, you will have to take the least important place. But when you are invited, take the lowest place, so that when your host comes, he will say to you, ‘Friend, move up to a better place.’ Then you will be honored in the presence of all your fellow guests. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.’—Luke 14:7-11

(March 26, 2021)—’Inside Thinking‘ actually came to me on the 24th. I sat on it. I still question myself and what is happening to me. The piece was written in two sittings. Unusual for me. Then I was given the title after it was written. Very unusual since all my titles usually come first. I was led to the Scripture first (Luke 14 and 15). I included them below. They are all about planting seeds, saving at least one soul and being humble. Jesus answered my heart and yours. I’ve been questioning again my servitude because I miss my daughter. I really don’t understand what could change that love that I knew. I’m going to get personal again. She, my daughter, blames me for this change because of what I write about. I don’t see it. I always taught my children to be individuals, to not stand with crowds. It seems that was too much to ask because they have…HAVE…to stand with crowds.

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‘Everyday Human’

He came to save HUMANS. He was put as head of the human. The human is the body! We are ALL humans, thus we are all sinners! NO ONE escapes this.

 Everyday Human
  
 I don't write for kings
 or even queens
 or those suffering
 in wealth
 ‒they truly don't know
 how to find self
 they're too busy
 in stealth
 ‒filling unfillable shelves
  
 I write for the everyday human
 the ones struggling
 the ones somewhat comfortable
 in their lost existence
  
 I write with insistence
 a certain arrogance
 only found
 in a Lord†-driven cadence
  
 He† called me 'prophet'
 I can't live
 anymore candid
 everything's changed
 hearing His† voice sing
 feeling His† discipline's range
 ‒knowing truth
 isn't found in gold rings
  
 to write for Him†
 passing it to them
 I'm forced in solitude
 ‒a well-schooled tool
 creating a vestibule
 inside each one of you
 for the sake 
 of what He† asked
 me to do
  
 no, I don't write for kings
 or even queens
 I write for the struggling
 of means
 for those wishing dreams
 of being kings and queens
  
 I write to say
 that's not the way
 in all these words
 He† has me say 

Note: Again I’m directed to October 15, 2019: The Phoenix. Rebirth. Since I was asked to take these photographs (My 5:55 Photo Shoots), God sent these symbols. He said that they were for those who knew how to figure them out. No one took Him serious, or me! Then October 15th, He sent this angel. Clearly it’s an angel. There’s no dispute. And clearly folks still don’t get it. All that He sent to me in these photographs and what David told me to say is truth. Some things I guess are just hard for people to understand. He sent warnings in August 2019 by way of visions. Still…so many are not hearing. Today’s writing…serious. I can keep writing until the day I die. It’s for Him! Why wouldn’t I?!

(March 23, 2021)—Please read all the way through in order to understand truth. ‘Everyday Human‘ was written March 19. After the writing, I was led to pages 1584-85 in my Bible: Paul. I didn’t do anything with the piece. Then today, no writing came. Just pages 1416-17: Jesus. After reading the work and then both sets of Scriptures this morning, I bowed my head and cried.

‘Everyday Human‘ is written about why I write all these words. I don’t like to publish work that involves me. I really don’t like calling myself a prophet. I don’t feel so worthy. The sets of Scriptures are about what Jesus expects, what God expects and what is often the result of that expectation.

The lesson I received about both God and Jesus is this: God is head of nations. Jesus is head of humans. God calls people, His servants, to prophesy ahead of what is coming in order to make humans aware that He is. What God does affects all humans, but that is not His concern. He is all powerful. His energy is super and so great that He can move whole bits of humans without effort. Hence the riots in the United States…just a small example. Jesus was put as head of humans. Us. We must go through Him to get to God in any circumstance. So if you don’t believe Jesus is, you are just swimming in a continuous ocean current that never stops.

Jesus is. And He chooses sinners because He came to save the sinner…the HUMAN! We are all sinners. So, the Bible just says He came to save sinners. Churches preach that Jesus came to save sinners. They don’t say it like it is. He came to save HUMANS. He was put as head of the human. The human is the body! We are ALL humans, thus we are all sinners! NO ONE escapes this. There are NO righteous 100% humans on earth. Jesus…JESUS…was the ONLY righteous human when He was in the human form. No one came before Him or after Him to equal what He was as a human!

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‘Punishments of Me’

 Punishments of Me
  
 You† give, You† take away
 I've seen the dark of night
 I've seen the brightest of Your† light
 I've written it all―outright
 including this plea―wrong or right
  
 You've† taken me down
 turn me up-side-down
 round and round
 I plea with Job in sound
 how much more 'til I'm found
 ‒in the complete of bound
  
 I'm doing the work
 my body withering in hurt
 my heart, with death, does flirt
 my eyes filled with dirt
 how much longer will my legs‒
 vertical―surf
  
 You† give, You† take away
 ‒a constant revolving sway
 I pray every day
 sometimes, struggling with faith
 holding on, happiness‒
 one day, You'll† pay
 maybe, that day‒
 I finally finish these words in say
  
 how much longer, Lord†‒
 how many more days must I wait
 ‒too much time in weigh
 passed me by
 so much gone away
 so much anger said
 without anything given in brave
  
 hear my words, Lord†‒
 please return my grateful, humble way
 please return a home‒
 where peace remains in stay
 ‒I'm just asking today
 for You† to hear my say 

Notes: The photograph was taken September 7, 2019. It was part of a message to me regarding a promise made to me by God. It was, and is, a promise that I find hard to believe. It is one of those laughable, incomprehensible deals…like when Abraham told Sarah she would conceive a child in her old age after being barren for 80 years! She laughed. Well, this is one of those! I know God does not lie and that His will always comes to pass. So, when this promise comes to pass, I will disclose the entire set of photographs that go with this one photograph (there’s quite a few). The most amazing part of the revelation of these particular photographs, and the whole deal was amazing, was that David told me to look at the photographs backwards and then the promise was revealed! God sort of pulled a Moses on me…when He turned Moses’ staff into a snake. Well, these pictures, what He put in the sky, matched what David was telling me before, which I recorded every word! Maybe some wonder why I’m so bold in the Lord. This is why. He revealed Himself to me profoundly in all of the photographs He had me take and events that took place in person. The photographs are so revealing to me because David told me about them BEFORE I took them! One day, you will understand this and see GOD!

*God the ‘I Am’Moses said to God, ‘Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them, ‘The God of your fathers has sent me to you,’ and they ask me, ‘What is His name? Then what shall I tell them?’ God said to Moses, ‘I AM who I AM. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I AM has sent me to you.” God also said to Moses, ‘Say to the Israelites, ‘The Lord, the God of your fathers—the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob—has sent me to you.’ This is My name forever, the name by which I am to be remembered from generation to generation.’—Exodus 3:13-15

‘Punishments of Me’ was written July 10, 2017. I was struggling. I had a job to do for the Lord, I always knew it, and it had been years since the promise ‘Write and they will come.’ They didn’t come. They still haven’t come. But then I know the truth of my work now. This work isn’t for this generation. It is for the future. This generation, I’m told, has failed.

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‘If I Could’

To give that Jesus kind of love is the hardest kind of love. It is rare but when you see it, you know what it is.

If I Could
 
if I could
I would
if I had known
words I wouldn't have blown
if I'd heard
I wouldn't have wasted words
 
but I didn't know
all I know
if I was angry
for love...hungry
all I know‒
I move in haste
at the sight of hate
I change my perception
when faced with deception
grab the illusion‒
shake it
in the realm of manipulation
 
all I know
I don't deal with evils‒
in forms of trivia
I don't take them
in my head‒
swirl
I beat them down
‒it doesn't matter
you or someone else
‒this is how evil's dealt
 
I throw all back to hell
match for match
I don't bow down
‒play like some silly clown
 
may way…just may
cause you to frown
‒feel beat down
this...for...you're in drown
with evil's in found
 
if I could
I would
smash that bitch
to the ground
bring you back around
shake you...tell you‒
hey, it's me
 
but I said the words
I wrote the words
 
hurt...I didn't betray
anyone
‒except evil
and all its ways
 
with better eyes
you have to see
hard love was heard
I flew like a bird
‒for with evil
I don't swerve
 
I hit it straight on
 
so if I could
be party to evil‒
I would
‒but I can't
I'll take the chance
so when I'm gone
you'll have a chance
‒with the light
dance

Note: The picture was taken on September 27, 2019: Love from Heaven. I wrote about this many times. The green orb and the helicopter. David said to take pictures of the helicopter and that I will see he is for real. I have a number of frames where the Orb is playing with the helicopter. I see orbs in all the movies and TV shows that I watch…IN EVERYONE of them. Those are different from this one. I’ve seen this type of orb in many pictures from friends. They are there for a reason. I know because David has told me things and when I look at the frames, when I get inside my apartment because I could never see the screen outside, I then see what he was talking about and why he had me take those particular pictures at that particular time. It’s something when you believe in something you cannot see. It’s awesome when God shows…SHOWS you what you normally cannot see! And in ALL these pictures, including those of my face, HE IS SHOWING YOU!

(November 20)—I love you. I feel this way for all that I meet. And this leaves a person with hardly any friends, but I feel, deep in my heart, that it is worth it. There’s a deeper love that all should feel, but most just feel the surface love or no love at all…love for self. That deeper love is the love that Jesus was talking about. If you can feel that, then you are not of the world. Instead you belong to Him. But it can’t have prejudice or hate or envy or jealousy or anything like that mixed with it…that makes you of the world.

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‘Salt’

He will not let you continue to parade your bull on His sons and daughters. He will take revenge. Why? Because He’s a very jealous God.

Salt
 
it's all up-wind, ya know
all these words
you know you heard
but you're still‒
shuffling through dirt
not knowing‒
which way to flirt
just on anyone's coattail‒
you skirt
‒just getting by
telling lies
offering made-up alibis
hoping it'll all fly
‒so with them
you can lie
 
I just sit here
throw up a yawn
maybe a fart or burp
‒up that ally
I can't even surf
on too many shoulders‒
it jerks
‒leaving me ask myself:
 
'what exactly am I worth?'
 
yhea, I just pass on
a little sigh
‒with telling the truth
I'm not at all shy
 
through you‒
I went pass the sky
up into the universe
to God† the most high
He† made me see‒
of you…the seriousness
of why
 
so go on now
this second half of life‒
to the Lord† I bow
no longer do I need‒
little boys to give me a wow
 
I'm duty-bound
to the place that taught me
what it means
to be found
‒without having to first
drown

Note: This set of frames was taken on November 9, 2019: Certainty of Visions. There are so many things right before our eyes that we refuse to see. In this particular frame, God is revealing something massive! In the ray, which David has pointed out over and over, God uses the the energy to draw, paint. And I was overwhelmed this day by what David was showing me. Are you going to deny that the art ISN’T there? Why do you keep lying to yourself? God is the ultimate creator. This isn’t make-believe. Of all the things He reveals in the pictures, you deny them. So, He pointed out this particular day these paintings to you. And He ask, ‘Are you still blind?’

This is the original frame. What is happening is behind me.
David said blow up the ray, and this was what was inside of it…see the energy?
This is what, through the energy of the ray, was being painted. It changes by second, even less than a second. If you can’t see the picture, you are blind and you need to focus on why your eyes are blind because there is so much to see when your eyes are opened!

(October 3)―My registration on my car expired and I can’t renew it until I get a smog test done, so I went today to get one. Funny thing. I failed, or rather, it is incomplete! Strange how that sounds. My battery finally gave out. I got a new one this pass week. Well, these new model cars, mine’s a 2012, need to recompute! Isn’t that something! I have to go drive my car around about 40 miles for it to complete its recompute! Then I can get my smog ‘pass‘ so I can renew my registration.

Salt‘ was written before this happened. God thought I needed to learn a little more. Then He reopened me to the following Scriptures. Matthew 18:15-17 to be particular about it! I often scold myself for calling people out on their BS. I don’t do that to be mean. Way, waaaayyyy…far from that! I do it for them to repent, to make them see their errors and fix them. I forgive them. I always do. The turn side: They don’t forgive me and they further bury themselves in their debts to the Lord. And the Lord says to me: They need to recompute…have a rebirth in Me as you have. Give them time and you will see!

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‘Inhuman Love’ [Jesus’ words in commentary]

Words of Jesus: “I† cannot counsel you if you do not want counsel
I† cannot tell you truth if you do not acknowledge truth….”

Inhuman Love [Jesus' words in commentary]
 
she never thought
she was waterproof
she never thought
she was better at being new
‒many things
she just saw through
 
it didn't make her fireproof
‒she never really waited
for the burden of proof
she didn't need to
‒much like ruth
she waited...followed her heart‒
it told her
what to say and do
 
her movements
weren't always smooth
she never gave into
the spoof
she did what
she was supposed to
she wasn't hurtful or cruel
she was honest‒
stuck to the truth
 
oh! there was a time or two
she play the goof
tried to fit in‒
all the way down to fool
‒playing that old school
not the good-vestibule school
oh, no, that's not cool
'old school' compares
to april fool
it's the hidden molecules
that lives in dark pools
as long as it's secret‒
you're part of the school
 
once it's known‒
they do away with you
you're the punt of jokes
the redeemer for all
in ridicule
you become 'karen'‒
the bottom of tomfool
 
oh! yes she tried that school
when she finished‒
she beat her skin
turning it red from blue
 
she paid her price
in cruel
over her...men drooled
behind her‒
women played peek-a-boo
 
all the while‒
she always cooked
her own stews
she by-passed the taboo
dawned sin…twice the part
to get through
first a baby‒
instead of a coo-coo
second...a life‒
with a tattoo
 
she almost met her waterloo
she walked through
a witch's brew
of lies on a bayou
but....
she didn't flinch
at the bug-a-boo
 
instead…with raised arms
she moved with
the impromptu
a love so far in‒
giving her strength
to continue
she wasn't the ruth
she was being 'ruthed'
‒at every move…moved
protected and soothed
when she didn't know
what to do
there came the coup
‒the hand of God†
the ultimate rescue
 
she knew there was no
whoop-de-do
with God†‒
there's no easy
walk-through
 
but of all life‒
His† way was above
all value
‒she didn't need
a rendezvous
or the humanistic
games in zoo
 
she just needed Him†
 
His† love‒
was always true
through Him†‒
she became
weatherproof

Note: The photograph is from October 8, 2019: Oil Spill Warning. The screen shot was from the original frame which is much larger than the one here. What is it that I caught? Don’t know, but I’ve caught several things in photographs. Some I’m told to point and shot because something will be there and other times I’m not told. As in the second photograph taken less than a second before and no object, but the orb is there. This was a very interesting day of photographs.

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(June 30)―I wrote ‘Inhuman Love’ yesterday. I was led to the story of Ruth two days ago. I don’t know what it is, but something struck me so profound that it’s had me sad since I read the story. It isn’t the first time that I read it. The first time was in 2007, but nothing inspired me then. Things have changed. So I thought about the story, then ‘Inhuman Love’ came. This made me even sadder, and I still don’t know why except that to see that my Lord has shown love to me the way Ruth has shown love to Naomi.

It also highlighted in my mind the betrayal of those who were supposed to love me no matter what. And this part really made me sad. Then this morning, after reading words of David, Jesus came:

Words of Jesus:

I† cannot counsel you
if you do not want counsel
I† cannot tell you truth
if you do not acknowledge truth
 
I† cannot shed light
if you cannot welcome it
I† cannot redeem sin
if you do not lift it up
I† cannot release burdens
if you do not acknowledge them
 
I† cannot save
if you do not want to be saved
I† will not enter
unless you welcome Me†
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‘Rippled Sadness’

‘Who has helped you utter these words? And whose spirit spoke from your mouth?’—Job 26:1-4

Rippled Sadness
 
thinking back
things that were done
words said
people lost in their head
–those welcomed
in that I-thee-wed
the same–
who caused the hole
in this back
–all that blood
it bled
 
all their lies
all the answers–
that answered the whys
be careful–
oh, so careful
the truth
aids in your die
–no longer wishing
to look in eyes
that once
you gave all your time
 
it's not those words said
in your mind–
making them dead
it's their actions–
what they did
–with an ax
hit you over the head
the same–
what their actions fed
 
it all makes you shy
way deep inside
to forgive them–
not even a try
it's a do
something you must abide
 
but to set time aside
for their cry
would be matters for God†
mercy given–
by His† sigh

Note: The photograph that accompany’s this work was taken September 27…Love from Heaven, where God and Jesus and David send a lot of love to me as I was battling this transition of opening up fully to being God’s messenger. The symbols are amazing and I haven’t yet had anyone who can duplicate these and/or disprove that they are indeed from God. They remain as always a mystery! For God is a mystery and anything from Him, the human brain has a hard time understanding. Here’s a note to your human brain: These are from God!

(February 25)—I have been dwelling on my life lately, just a little bit. This morning I woke up early and laid there in bed with this odd emotion and thinking of my family. Specifically my sisters. It’s been three months since I discovered their sin and I’m still in awe of it. I laid there thinking of that. When I finally picked up my phone because I couldn’t go back to sleep, it was 5:33 a.m. I knew God had something for me to say.

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‘Tested Hearts’

‘If you don’t stand for something, you’ll fall for anything.’―Author Unknown

Tested Hearts
 
I tested them you know
to see how'd they flow
to see if their love would show
to see...if they were real
in gold
 
every, single one–
fell to the flo'
just hit it...out...sold
my little libido
love's true row
–they so easily
put it out in the cold
 
on me, they all rolled
put me on death row
for a popularity show
'she's crazy ya know'
–all for a people-pleasing fold
 
I tested the forceful in bold
just to tell myself–
'I told ya so'
 
easy...so very easy–
they'd made me the mold
for themselves...blame to unload
–without a second thought–
any love for me
to hold

Note: The photograph that accompanies this piece was taken October 15th after I asked David to prove himself again by sending me a daisy. I knew the spiritual world could manipulate technology by what they had already shown me in the previous photographs and by a message put on this website (I left them up) back in August. When I was reviewing this set of frames and noticed the daisy sun, it was a bow-the-head moment. This was also the day the Phoenix was sent over the water, to reveal new birth is coming. In this particular frame: The daisy sun, the promise made to me in the pink bubble and the ray of purple light: Jesus blessing the promise.

‘Mechanical’s Return’

The worse mark on the heart: Malicious intent: refers to the intent, without just cause or reason, to commit a wrongful act that will result in harm to another. It is the intent to harm or do some evil purpose.

 Mechanical's Return
 
I could tell you to heal
it doesn't mean–
I'm not gonna have to deal
 
I've been fooled by men, too–
saying they were real
giving me all the deep thrills
while kicking my ass
on the treadmill
–that looking-good-for-them
became a perfected skill
–to be honest–
that inside need of mine–
they never fulfilled
 
I've been lied to by family–
that bloodline...not sealed
it's the worse manipulative
battlefield–
I've ever saw revealed
–especially when your ex–
helps the overkill
 
it all adds up in life–
becomes the great ball
of surreal
'did that really happen'
you asking yourself
trying to peel
all those layers–
in betrayal's ordeal
 
you move, then move again–
time...trying to steal
just to keep the heavy pounding
in your heart...still
 
you forgive all of them–
a bit of goodwill
done...you wipe up–
every tear you spill
alone...you move about
doing the ordinary:
eat, dress, clean, pay bills
waiting for the phone to squeal
waiting for:
'I'm sorry'
'I was wrong'
'what was I thinking, please forgive me'
'mom, I'm so sorry...you were right'

 
but it never comes–
even when the total truth...revealed
you realize you're dispensable–
you've been repealed
all their shame–
placed on your head–
without having to drill
–for them...it was so easy
your whole life gone…killed
 
of course, I know what comes next:
it's all your fault–
they'll claim you had control
of the wheel
they'll demand you get down–
kneel
pray, get saved
to God†...appeal
they'll shake you down–
all done in freewill
–you were put on a platter
served up like choiced veal
 
yes, I could tell you to heal
your life...rebuild
stitch together–
all the parts of your quilt
then put it all behind you–
move forward–
on an even keel
 
but then...I'd be lying to you–
I'd be better off
buying you a cocktail
take you...get some pretty nails
put your hair in a ponytail
then get ready...do some blackmail
 
but then...you'd be no better
than that betraying cartel
you'd become just  a plain ole infidel
–your soul...so easy to sell
 
to heal...you yourself
has to...outright...deal
 
you gotta face truth–
you're not the jezebel
you're better than all they dispel
you're stronger, wiser–
ring, ring goes the liberty bell
but first–
you've gotta face the swell
all that shit that put you in hell–
you've gotta roll in its pungent smell
you've gotta cry, scream, yell
–get it all out
in movements of a snail
you've gotta face every detail
learn why...in came...the fail–
their destructive zeal
–not anything...for long
you can conceal
 
then you're gonna bounce–
that's right...bounce
all that pain–
you're gonna unveil
forward....
you're gonna willingly propel
–the chains of your forced jail
no longer for the regale
–no longer...you...for sale
 
after you popped those chains–
you'll realize you fucking derailed
all they tried to nail
on your pretty little fingernails
–you done exhaled
you put yourself in prevail
the mechanical tall-tell
–the tipping of the scales
 
you're gonna learn
–on your own–
you've done been rebuilt
they can't even drown you–
in the best of ales
they can't even go
to the court of appeals
or on you–
seek the navy seals
 
you've become the real
in deal
for you didn't just heal
you've become the truth–
of the kneel!

Note: The photograph that accompanies this work was taken October 23rd, which revealed a lot through the spiritual world: the All-Seeing Eye (an interesting use of the gazebo to tell us that God sees all); the Dragon (The Dragon in Symbolization: The dragon, a legendary creature symbolizes protection, success, wisdom, loyalty, fearlessness, strength, balance, and immense possibility. Being the master of all four elements of Fire, Water, Earth, and Wind, it also embodies primordial power. Details of the Power Primordial Force is the primordial energy that originated everything – reality, time, space, life, death, matter, energy, and every possible and impossible concept existing and non-existing in the omniverse, from a single particular to the infinite  omniverse….God revealing His power and that He is over everything); the cross, God’s use of His energy through the orbs; faces and images of those present…spirits; and the earth’s change coming. In this particular photograph, the All-Seeing Eye; the promise made to me in the pink bubble; and Jesus’ love or presence showing through in the purple light.

(January 6, 2020)―This morning: Write from the heart today. I was empty then full…thinking about the things people will do and say when they have a mark on their heart labeled: Malicious Intent. These thoughts that I write about today started yesterday with me taking myself out for dinner and listening to hypocrites talk about segregated pre-planned housing and how they didn’t want to mix with other people’s traditions and cultures.

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