Spilling of Blood
(A Plea for the Innocent)
Lord†, is it of mercy
as esther pleaded for her people
that I plead for all the innocent
all those defenseless souls
struggling for hope
as they are submerged in hate
as they are submerged in the greed of others
–innocent lives sold for sex
as those buying and selling
worship and praise–
proclaiming it is all right
in God's† eyes!
Lord†, I plead for them
I beg for Your† hand to come
to slam into these fools
for stealing the innocence
for robbing their dignity, their grace
Lord†, it's all over the earth
every where I turn–
I see beauty and nature
but lying beneath this mask
is what's smothering Your† love
condemned, I stand
suffering with all the innocent
pillaged, I withstand
hate and angry words
from those unhealed
–those who cause strife
those who spread bitterness
Lord†, I feel Your† heart
I feel Your† disappointment
I feel Your† disapproval
–please bring comfort
to all those putting their souls
in Your† hands
for their bodies are sold
to the highest bidder
all declaring it is right
in God's† name!
Lord†, this isn't just one nation
Lord†, this isn't just one people
it's all over the earth
the darkness has consumed them
–God's† veils have reached the maximum
they do not see
as God's† prophets of the past
deemed...to say it will be
Lord†, Your† time is coming
those with malicious hearts
those will never be allowed to see
–this, as God's† servant, I understand
Lord†, I ask for those in see
I ask for those with good hearts
–they stand the victims
of the blind
Lord†, I ask that You† continue
to keep their hearts pure
whatever comes to them–
in their suffering
at the hands of the blind
give them the strength
to remain in You†
give them the strength–
in all the wickedness around them–
to understand Your† unconditional love
give them the strength–
in their given gift of free will
to continue to choose You†, Lord Jesus†
so that God's† kingdom
will be their inheritance
as I write this–
I humbly pray for the broken–
those in the mince of their choosing
may they make the right choice
may their veils be removed
and they see Your† grace
they see the energy of God†
all around them
–bring them their salvation
so when it's time
a proper room will be prepared for them
help those weak in faith
help those lost to the bad shepherds
help them discover Your† truth
help them see God's† wrath
help them see why He† is so angry
as I write this–
as a servant of God†
I know this world will see worse
I know the war is escalating
I humbly pray for the innocent
I humbly pray for the good in heart
I humbly pray for those fighting
through the tests God† has them in
I humbly pray that they come to understand
that God† is always in charge
–all good, all evil
God† is the Alpha, the Omega
I humbly pray that they come to understand
what You†, Jesus the Christ†, meant by saying:
'everyone is invited, but not everyone gets in'
may the innocent take it into advisement:
Your† hand is their only salvation
this my loving, gracious Brother†
this my humble Lord Jesus the Christ†
I ask in God's† righteous glory
for His† wrath be spared
to leave the innocent with humble hearts
and lighted souls
this, God's† humble servant
ask and beg
for those who remain in You†
for ever and ever
(January 19, 2020)—Since the middle of last year, I have been led to Esther over and over again, and each time there’s something new pointed out to me. Today was no exemption. The two Scriptures that I include here point out this: Standing up for the innocent. Standing up to the adversary, the bully, the mean people of the world.
Last night I was led to a documentary titled, ‘Iraq’s Secret Sex Trade’. I had no idea. I have been led to this abuse of ‘sex‘ since I began this journey. In the Visions, in the last of the visions, God points out this horrible truth. It was a horrible thing to write about and it was an even more horrible thing to see! He told me in the visions that these things were happening now. I didn’t want to believe that. So, He’s been showing me examples of all of it around the world.
To be a witness to abuse in its ugliness is the saddest of things. I have been saying that ‘everything is not what it seems’ and it has been pointed out to me over and over the truth in that.
I have been doing my physical exercises more this past week and a new bike route has been added to my regiment. Again, I pass the Jewish community on Saturdays. It struck me that they all wear black. I thought it was just this one group, which I saw on the first bike route, but on this new bike route, it’s the same thing. So, I posted my question on my social media page. It was a simple question. I was finally told that they do this on purpose to mourn the lost of all those who died in the Holocaust. This, I did not know, and I’m glad I asked.
I also posted a link to the documentary mentioned above along with my outburst about the horrors of what that film revealed…a little of my ‘fuck-you’ church. So far, no one commented. I find that strange. The film spoke of this temporary ‘legal‘ marriage men go to Islam clerics to get in order for them to have sex with under-aged girls and single women. In the film, clerics actually said that a young girl can’t be penetrated from the front, but it was okay for the men, adult men, to penetrate their anus! They actually said that it was right in the eyes of GOD!
Islam is the work of evil. Their Sharia is the work of evil. This sex deal…God has been revealing all its horrors to me, and I get…‘You’re a witch. You need to be healed. You need to get off the pharmas. You’re evil.’ I wonder how is it possible for people to judge a servant of God in this way, but openly allow the horrors that are clearly known to go on without world…WORLD…screams of how wrong it is and declare WAR against it!? How are you going to declare war over oil and greed and not the gold and silver of God’s kingdom!? That would be the human body! And how is it that you are going to persecute those who stand up for good? I mean there was one man who stood up to these Islamic hypocrites and they threatened his life. I stood up for women and myself and truth and I get judged harshly as well. I’m deemed mental! Really!? Your SEX immorality is MORE important than TRUTH, than the HUMAN body! It is MORE important than GOD! Your orgasm is MORE important than GOD!
How would you feel if GOD took the gift of the ORGASM AWAY!?
As in Esther below, we are to stand up for the weaker. We are to stand up for the mercy of honest judgment. We are to stand up for the innocent. In all the years I’ve been writing and experiencing the truth that God has put me through, I have yet to witness anyone standing up just for me! Instead, they judge. The men get all the glory and the woman gets all the shame!
I have ZERO shame!
Men who abuse anyone are of the world, they are working the dark side of life! Here’s something these men like to say: Prove it! I don’t have to, nor does any woman. God sees all. And I don’t need not one human being to justify what I’ve seen, what I’ve witnessed because I’m not a witness for any human! I AM a WITNESS FOR GOD!
The writing today. God’s been pushing me to write these prayers. I’ve been having a hard time. Then I received some text from the only person who condemns me…go figure…and the above documentary. But not only that, case after case has been put before me about human trafficking. People are so big to speak against politics and that sort of B.S….where’s the screams for the truth of what is really happening in the world? Where?
I’m 51 years old, do you know how many news reports I’ve read about young women and kids going missing in my life time? They just disappear. The authorities search for them for a time then these missing people are written off! Why? Do you really think they don’t have the resources to look? They do. They give up because they know exactly what is happening and a lot of these officials are in on it. They want the sex with these under-aged people. They want the place to go to so they can release their rage in rape! The truth is sick. It is. It is still the truth.
Here’s the biggest truth: It all balls down to desirable lust! Passion! The hidden dark secrets that lurk in men’s hearts. In Iraq, the mothers are selling their own daughters to men who want anal sex. Mothers see daughters there as expensive and a burden! That’s MOTHERS! Why? Because it was done to them and they were conditioned by men to think this way!
And you judge me because I say I’m God’s Prophet! Nothing has changed. God says it. NOT I! All the prophets of the Lord were judged. Many killed because of ignorance, because men love the darkness on earth and don’t think about what happens to them after their body dies. Let me tell you: Your soul lives forever…either in the light (the kingdom) or in the pit…that would be hell. Yes, there is an IS after the body dies. This is a major part of the old and new testament in the Bible, God’s book…the ONLY book of GOD, that man just really doesn’t teach!
The bad shepherds are warned about in the Bible. You aren’t paying attention. The war…the real war that leads to the New Earth…is beginning. Here’s fact: the surface of earth has already begun the turn…the northern magnetic pole is not where it used to be. It’s moved at least 45 degrees LEFT! Go on and do the research. If the governments haven’t removed all the data, you should be able to find the facts. That’s the surface. The beneath HAS to catch up. This you don’t seem to understand. All this global warming B.S. It is just that…lies. The governments know exactly what’s happening. They monitor all the earth for quakes.
The plates will move LEFT! THIS is how God will reveal HIMSELF! The governments will race to cover this fact up! Trust me on this. All the facts are there. You have been manipulated so much and they…the people who have you believing they are in control and there’s no such thing as God…THEY think they have won. They haven’t. God’s been watching. The Book of Truth exist…and there is a time for all things. Do you really think that the way things are will continue? Read the time before Noah. Just go read it. The cycles end all the same…the reason that is…earth gets sick, sin increases. The pillage of children increase dramatically every time! This IS your biggest sign! And you are ignoring it and pay more attention to Jews being offended, those who deny Christ, and politics, people who get paid to lie to you, and abusers, men who pillage women and children for no other reason then they aren’t healed!
And when God sends you signs, messages, and prophets, you ignore them! As every one in the past was ignored. Nothing has changed in that arena. Neither has GOD!
So the king and Haman [name means: noise, tumult (a loud, confused noise)] went to dine with Queen Esther [name means: Star; hidden, conceal, to be hidden], and as they were drinking wine on the second day, the king again asked, ‘Queen Esther, what is your petition? It will be given you. What is your request? Even up to half the kingdom, it will be granted.’ Then Queen Esther answered, ‘If I have found favor with you, O king, and if it pleases your majesty, grant me my life―this is my petition. And spare my people—this is my request. For I and my people have been sold for destruction and slaughter and annihilation. If we had merely been sold as male and female slaves, I would have kept quiet, because no such distress would justify disturbing the king.’ King Xerxes [name means: monarch, hero among rulers] asked Queen Esther, ‘Who is he? Where is the man who has dared to do such a thing?’ Esther said, ‘The adversary and enemy is this vile Haman.’ Then Haman was terrified before the king and queen. The king got up in a rage, left his wine and went out into the palace garden. But Haman, realizing that the king had already decided his fate, stayed behind to beg Queen Esther for his life. Just as the king returned from the palace garden to the banquet hall, Haman was falling on the couch where Esther was reclining. The king exclaimed, ‘Will he even molest the queen while she is with me in the house.?’ As soon as the word left the king’s mouth, they covered Haman’s face. Then Harbona [name means: ass-driver], one of the eunuchs attending the king, said, ‘A gallows seventy-five feet high stands by Haman’s house. He had it made for Mordecai [name means: little man, warrior], who spoke up to help the king.’ The king said, ‘Hang him on it!’ So they hanged Haman on the gallows he had prepared for Mordecai. Then the king’s fury subsided.—Esther 7:1-10
Notes: What are you willing to do to help the weaker? Are you willing to die for it? Even if they don’t appreciate it? Even if they go on to persecute you after? This is what Jesus did! Can you actually love like Jesus? Are you willing to put your life on the line for your friends? Even if it means your death? This is what Jesus did!
‘Queen Esther, what is your petition? It will be given you. What is your request? Even up to half the kingdom, it will be granted.’…This is how Jesus said to ask. Jesus came how many years AFTER Esther. God’s book. God never changes!
If I have found favor with you, O king, and if it pleases your majesty, grant me my life―this is my petition. And spare my people—this is my request…If I have found favor with You, O King, my Lord, my gracious God, and if it pleases Your majesty, grant me my life―this is my petition. And spare my people, the innocent of the world, the good hearts that love Your Son, Jesus the Christ, those who would do anything for You, those who do what You ask without thought and even when they are persecuted―this is my request: That You, my Almighty Lord, bring Your hand down on these awful people who have spread sexual immorality throughout the world, pillaging Your children and Your gift. My request is that You remove the element in which they seek. That You strike down their desires, that you make them fools of men, babies in their minds and in their bodies, that you strip them of their abilities and leave them with the ground to pray on. I ask that you drain their homes of any wealth, that you shatter their very roofs, that you deem their means of transportation broken and destroyed, that you put them in corners around the world begging you for salvation. I pray that You make known Your hand in these matters across the earth…in every country, every nation, every people, every state, every city, every town. This is my request, my Lord. It is a large request, but one much needed in this world full of darkness. I pray that You hear my request. I pray that You see that it is from my heart for the innocent children and young women of the world. I pray, that for us, Your gift to man, that You come through and reveal Yourself in these coming dark times. In Jesus’ name, Your precious Son, I pray that You hear my request.
For I and my people have been sold for destruction and slaughter and annihilation. If we had merely been sold as male and female slaves, I would have kept quiet, because no such distress would justify disturbing the king.’…Slaves…servants…were always a part of life, but not only life, God as well. For I am a slave for God. I am a servant for God. He disciplines me if I don’t do what He ask. As He disciplines all! The destruction, slaughter, annihilation of life is NOT of God. In the film I mentioned above, these Iraq families sell their children to be raped and if their virginity is taken, these families kill their daughters to seal or maintain their status in society! That is not of God. That is of pure evil. They will enjoy the pit.
These people are in the U.S. These people are in every country. Do you really think they are of God? You allowed them to actually get into the governments. They are GOG! You willingly handed over the keys to your earthily kingdoms. Do you know that more men will welcome Islam then any because of the sex part and the authority given to them by Sharia to kill their wives, beat their wives, share their wives. None of this is of GOD!
The adversary and enemy is this vile Haman.’…Haman…there are so many Hamans in the world. I got to know a few of them. They act like your friend to your face, but through jealous, envy, hate, ego, pride, they plot behind your back…they betray you. God is showing in the story of Esther how this never pans out for the adversary because God is in charge of everything. We are all used to elevate or destroy. Haman was used to destroy, but also to test the king and Esther…would they stand up for the weaker? And they did. Esther put her life at risk to stand up for her people. Her husband, the king, did not know she was a Jew. She risked everything!
Then Haman was terrified before the king and queen…When truth smacks them in the face, they are always terrified…see what Haman does behind the king’s back….Haman, realizing that the king had already decided his fate, stayed behind to beg Queen Esther for his life…He was going to try and threaten her. They always do this. They try and terrify us by calling us names, threaten to expose something we did in the past (pictures, videos, writings, emails)…only when we lay ourselves out before the Lord…it doesn’t matter. Me, I had a broken heart valve, irregular EKGs over and over, the talk of a pacemaker came up. I did for God what He asked and He fixed that mess.
Here’s the thing: When we give ourselves to God, He will use us because we invited Him to do so. I was told the world sexy is a word of the devil. Wrong answer! EVERYTHING is of GOD! Sexy, being sexy, sex, lovemaking are ALL of God…but for One partner. That…people don’t get. For me, and I can say this because I was put into this position, God used me to get to one person. And through that experience I made personal videos and took personal pictures for him…just for him. Oh, before that, I did the dating sites and shared pictures…in today’s world, a lot of us experience this…that’s the bargaining stage by the way. Evil…is when those who were a part of this experience threaten to reveal these private images because you discovered a truth about them.
Here’s another point: Let them. I have tons of pictures of myself. I looked good. And I know why they were done, I know the reason. The evil people will see revenge and hate. Especially if you see the truth in them. They love the dark. As Haman…don’t worry! What happened to Haman…pay attention!
The king got up in a rage, left his wine and went out into the palace garden…This is what God does. He gives Himself time to think about it, as He gives us time to think about it. He declares His position, gives His warnings then waits. Go read the Bible. Through every prophet, every single time, He waits.
Just as the king returned from the palace garden to the banquet hall, Haman was falling on the couch where Esther was reclining. The king exclaimed, ‘Will he even molest the queen while she is with me in the house.?’ As soon as the word left the king’s mouth, they covered Haman’s face…What is God’s house? The kingdom! What is His temple? Our bodies. That is why He says here in the house…instead of in my house! He’s talking to everybody. Will you molest my child while he/she is with me in their heart?…Isn’t that something!
Point: Banquet Hall…Jesus talks about this all the time! You need to pay attention! What is the Banquet Hall? What is the bride and the bridegroom? Do you know?
‘A gallows seventy-five feet high stands by Haman’s house. He had it made for Mordecai who spoke up to help the king.’ The king said, ‘Hang him on it!’ So they hanged Haman on the gallows he had prepared for Mordecai. Then the king’s fury subsided…There’s a reason that 75 was spelled out and even mentioned. Have you ever wondered why God was so specific on the size of this gallows? Interesting, isn’t it? The things people never question! Haman’s gallows! It will get you every time. Hurt God’s children…He will go after you. Not right away. Nope, because God takes time to think about it. He doesn’t show His wrath directly like this. This is an example of a fast decision…a symbol…of what He’ll eventually do. He is more ingenious about His discipline. When you Hamans are least thinking about it, you won’t see it coming. He will leave you gasping for air, saying, ‘What the fuck?’ Yes, that’s how He’ll leave you.
What’s been happening in the Philippines…pay attention…that’s an example of what is coming to the world. Back to back experiences…not giving you a chance to catch your breath! He is going to shake the world up just like that. He’s giving you all the warnings you need. I would start preparing…and that preparation is inside the body, not out!
Again I ask: Do you really believe that God doesn’t speak to us anymore? How is it that the world’s society as a whole have come to this? Have you ever questioned this? Do you know why? Are you not concerned to the why of it? Just the answers to these questions should have you rattled.
That same day King Xerxes gave Queen Esther the estate of Haman, the enemy of the Jews. And Mordecai came into the presence of the king, for Esther had told how he was related to her. The king took off his signet ring, which he had reclaimed from Haman, and presented it to Mordecai. And Esther appointed him over Haman’s estate. Esther again pleaded with the king, falling at his feet and weeping. She begged him to put an end to the evil plan of Haman the Agagite, which he had devised against the Jews. Then the king extended the gold scepter to Esther and she arose and stood before him. ‘If it pleases the king,’ she said, ‘and if he regards me with favor and thinks it the right thing to do, and if he is pleased with me, let an order be written overruling the dispatches that Haman son of Hammedatha [name means he that troubles the law], the Agagite , devised and wrote to destroy the Jews in all the king’s provinces. For how can I bear to see disaster fall on my people? How can I bear to see the destruction of my family?’ King Xerxes replied to Queen Esther and to Mordecai the Jew, ‘Because Haman attacked the Jews, I have given his estate to Esther, and they have hanged him on the gallows. Now write another decree in the king’s name in behalf of the Jews as seems best to you, and seal it with the king’s signet ring―for no document written in the king’s name and sealed with his ring can be revoked.’
At once the royal secretaries were summoned―on the twenty-third day of the third month, the month of Sivan*. They wrote out all Mordecai’s orders to the Jews, and to the satraps, governors and nobles of the 127 provinces stretching from India to Cush. These orders were written in the script of each province and the language of each people and also to the Jews in their own script and language. Mordecai wrote in the name of King Xerxes, sealed the dispatches with the king’s signet ring, and sent them by mounted couriers, who rode fast horses especially bred for the king. The king’s edict granted the Jews in every city the right to assemble and protect themselves; to destroy, kill and annihilate any armed force of any nationality or province that might attack them and their women and children; and to plunder the property of their enemies. The day appointed for the Jews to do this in all the provinces of King Xerxes was the thirteenth day of the twelfth month, the month of Adar*. A copy of the text of the edict was to be issued as law in every province and made known to the people of every nationality so that the Jews would be ready on that day to avenge themselves on their enemies.
The couriers, riding the royal horses, raced out, spurred on by the king’s command. And the edict was also issued in the citadel of Susa. Mordecai left the king’s presence wearing royal garments of blue and white, a large crown of gold and a purple robe of fine linen. And the city of Susa held a joyous celebration. For the Jews it was a time of happiness and joy, gladness and honor. In every province and in every city, wherever the edict of the king went, there was joy and gladness among the Jews, with feasting and celebrating. And many people of other nationalities became Jews because fear of the Jews had seized them.—Esther 8:1-17
- *Sivan: third month, season, time [ is the ninth month of the civil year and the third month of the ecclesiastical year on the Hebrew calendar. It is a spring month of 30 days. Sivan usually falls in May–June on the Gregorian calendar.]
- *Adar: Noble. [is the sixth month of the civil year and the twelfth month of the ecclesiastical year on the Hebrew calendar, roughly corresponding to the month of March in the Gregorian calendar. It is a winter month of 29 days. The key Purim-related liberating wartime events and main mention of the month appear in the holy scripture of Esther 9, its last book. In leap years, it is preceded by a 30-day intercalary month named Adar Aleph]