My Magnificence I drown in my own malevolence singing a cadence I'm not sure I deserve I struggle through my intelligence hoping for a bit of indulgence ‒just to breathe in competence but the over-indulgence gets the knowledge or rather the eye ‒a stern hand stops my reckless self-indulgence even if it's just a thought‒ the halt comes like a turbulence I bow my head in an acceptance for I sure have an audience ‒forever am I trapped in a sentence but celebrate in reverence oh the slightest suspect wanting a bit of prevalence ‒in any type of insistence down comes the hand taking my bold nonsense placing me in obedience ‒keeping clean my conscience as tears fall‒ wanting my independence my Father† insuring‒ with a bit of inconvenience I remain free of selfish indulgence ‒in total acquiescence to His† every forward affluence
Note: In the picture that I included with this writing, there’s a genie lamp. I’ve included all the pictures from this day, January 21, 2020 on the following page: June 26: Presidential Wake Vision; April 11: the Jackass Dream; January 21: Aladdin’s Genie Lamp. I’ve explained about the Aladdin lamp on this page as well. It means a lot here when we are talking about God. You can have what you want. Ask. But be sure you know what you are asking. When I contending with the Lord last year, I was angry because He was promising me something I didn’t want and couldn’t, for the life of me, comprehend how it was even possible. So, I yelled at him and said, ‘Make me fat and ugly!’ Yes, I was that angry. And He did. Now, He said to prove to myself I love myself, I have to work for my figure back and He will not make it easy. Be sure you know what you are saying to God before you say it. Be sure you know ALL that involves with what you desire because everything is not what it seems. Example: Fame. Do you know what you seek when you ask for this? You risk the very thing that gives you life. Are you truly willing to risk the light for a few years of everyone knowing your name? Like I said, be sure you know what you are asking for.
(June 25, 2021)—I’ve written before about my weight gain last year. I’ve written how I contended with the Lord and it was like He put a vice on my hips and I couldn’t exercise without feeling this fire in my legs. I’ve written how once I began doing what He intended for me to do, He removed the vice and the fire.
I’ve written how God uses my life to reveal truth. And that I have to write about what He reveals. I’ve written how He fixed my heart because I did what He wanted and wrote how He wanted me to write no matter what people thought of me, no matter what people think of me. I’ve written about it all. I’ve written how He put His hand on me in 2019 and revealed Jesus in a very personal way to me. I’ve written how He’s been sharing secrets to the kingdom with me and having me write about it.Continue reading “‘My Magnificence’”