Mistakened Weakness tragedy struck my inner self no blood or guts no...it was worse ‒betrayal by those in trust I was weak ‒for a moment I pivoted stripped all love's endowment but your strip of me came way before‒ when I left home got out on my own we always bickered you and I you never told me‒ giving me reason to stay so I left ‒I went away then…you canceled me out just like that I became replaceable forgettable it all made me strong living on my own crying 'til dawn a little lost sheep gone I grew and soared ‒through all of it even war by myself I returned to you I busted trains and plans all for you to watch you say 'I do' you never knew the hoops I went through for you then it wired down like normal me and sis doing our thing ‒it was like when we were kids hanging and singing just being us but…then a third wheel returned then another and another I never knew what changed the view who can throw such a curve between sisters ‒who has such nerve I never asked I never will I grew weak a spell or two ‒but just a few through it all I stood alone all own my own by myself in stealth with no one to comfort me but the one who created me I learned through misery love left my family ‒all that I felt inside was all just for my eye making me see how much none of them knew me not at all strength built through what others' misery tried to kill I forgive you I made it through all that happened to me because I let you get to me thank you for hating me for betraying me for if you hadn't me and Jesus† wouldn't have met so intimately
Notes: The photograph David chose is from October 7, 2022: Faces. Interesting that David picked this particular day to go with this writing. God’s eyes are every where and this is what this day shows. No matter what you try to hide, it won’t work. At all. So why hide? Why think you can outsmart God? That’s just dumb!
(March 29, 2022)―Today, I was directed to write from the heart. Lately, my little sister has been on my mind. I called her for the holidays. She didn’t answer. So, I left her a message. She never called back.
Again, after the work, I was led to Acts 5:17-6:1-7. After writing ‘To Wait Amongst Men’, I was led to these same pages.
It’s a strange thing when you get older and realize all the things that happened to you, happened for a reason. It is really sad to see people who were taught as you were, who were raised as you were, don’t grow as you did.
The Scripture shows how jealousy works in us and how faith prevails. There is no stopping God’s plans. No matter how smart you are. No matter how much money you have. No matter who you marry or who your friends are. God prevails.Continue reading “‘Mistakened Weakness’”