Inside Thinking (Jesus)
'come to Me†' He† says
wash your hands
wash your feet
on this cement
lay down straight
pass your tears‒
openly weep
as people walk on by
without tears
to cry
don't ask why
‒for them don't cry
in a bitter sigh
on this grass
lay with pizzazz
hear Me† speak
ignore man's voice
instead listen to the wind
listen to the birds
and to the rain
and to the thunder
hear My† voice
I† always speak
I† have come
I† have been
I† am
as He† is
lay in this dirt
forget all hurt
I'll† shoulder it all
if My† name
you call
with a sincere flirt
I† am speaking
are you listening
things are coming
things you cannot prevent
go ahead
practice your 'holy' days
in your solemn ways
crucify Me† again
without understanding
crucify Me†
again and again
I† said I'll† die once
it is enough
for all sins
your guilt does not change
it was the law‒
commands He† gave
you practiced and practiced
until evil schemes
‒what God† put in hearts
to test
‒you failed
it was intended
malicious hearts don't lie
‒and it killed Me†
to kill Me† over and over
guilt
shame
instead of living in harmony
I† divided
as I† said I† would
it is on you
you must decide
My† church isn't in a building
it is inside
where the Father's† gold lives
‒it beats the finest of minerals
it lays bare
all your sins
it's time for cleansing
before you see the extent
of His† wrath
it is I†
the one and only Son†
Emmanuel†
go in peace
when you come to Me†
peace I† will give you
‒paul...he understood
My† peace
he also understood
the requirements
(March 26, 2021)—I was always the ‘different‘. If you are the ‘different‘ than you understand that. I never had a need to actually fit in a crowd or even stand out. I just did what came to me. I just did me. Most in my life penalized me for that. Read on and understand how this works when you do you without the fear of man in you!
Parable of Place of Honor—When He noticed how the guests picked the places of honor at the table, He told them this parable: ‘When someone invites you to a wedding feast, do not take the place of honor, for a person more distinguished than you may have been invited. If so, the host who invited both of you will come and say to you, ‘Give this man your seat.’ Then, humiliated, you will have to take the least important place. But when you are invited, take the lowest place, so that when your host comes, he will say to you, ‘Friend, move up to a better place.’ Then you will be honored in the presence of all your fellow guests. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.’—Luke 14:7-11
‘Inside Thinking‘ actually came to me on the 24th. I sat on it. I still question myself and what is happening to me. The piece was written in two sittings. Unusual for me. Then I was given the title after it was written. Very unusual since all my titles usually come first. I was led to the Scripture first (Luke 14 and 15). I included them below. They are all about planting seeds, saving at least one soul and being humble. Jesus answered my heart and yours. I’ve been questioning again my servitude because I miss my daughter. I really don’t understand what could change that love that I knew. I’m going to get personal again. She, my daughter, blames me for this change because of what I write about. I don’t see it. I always taught my children to be individuals, to not stand with crowds. It seems that was too much to ask because they have…HAVE…to stand with crowds.
It is what it is. People, no matter who they are, have to choose their own paths. I can’t change their paths. Whoever has my daughter’s ear has convinced her that I was the worse mother in the world. Whoever is speaking to her, they are liars. My children had a great childhood. The only one really that has anything to complain about is my baby who got caught up in a divorce at the age of 13. He didn’t deserve that. I’m talking about this again because of the Scriptures, because of what Jesus said in this writing, and what I’ve been thinking about lately.
I used to ask a lot in my writings about how does a person become humble. I always envied those ‘old‘ folks and how mellow they are. God has answered my question. He has to almost destroy us in a way in order to make us humble. In my life, humble not only means mellow, it also means planting seeds calmly…all that after the storm! I can’t fight other people, not even my children. If they want to accuse me of being a thief and a rotten mother, that’s their choice. It is a choice they will have to answer to before the Lord.
I was a thief. I stole some things when I was a little girl and then my mother made me deal, which was worse than stealing. I never stole from my child. I was a good mother. Anyone who truly knows me can vouch for that. It is amazing what people will do to cover their shame. Shame over treating their mother bad, so they turn their folly over to her and blame her for something she never did.
I’m a survivor. I was in a marriage that was a lie. The truth came out at the end and I’m the only one who knows it because I said nothing during the marriage. Many women do this. My mother did this for 56 years. It is what churches teach us to do. It is wrong. The churches lied and so did our parents. You don’t stay when there is abuse involved. You don’t ‘not‘ get involved because abuse is involved. I know in my situation, the ex told everyone that I was crazy and the sad part, they believed him because of what? I don’t know. I did nothing to even consider being labeled as crazy. I served 11 years in the military, I put myself through college, I worked outside the home, I took care of my home, I raised three amazing children, I wrote one novel and 19 other books. I write for the Lord. How is any of that even remotely crazy? This is something that needs to be explained to me one day. I’m a survivor of lies and manipulation.
I’m a survivor of unbelief. That’s right. I was raised a Catholic. I went through all the sacraments. And I truly believed in that community until I needed help. No one was there but the angels that the Lord sent, who weren’t a part of that community. No one from my community who attended that church every week was there to help me and my children through lies and manipulation. None of them believed abuse was involved. I guess they would have believed had I turned up dead. Just saying…people and man-made religions are an interesting lot. They aren’t there to save. They are there to show face.
Whatever happens in my future, I can attest to this: I didn’t deny. It’s a lonely road when you stand on the ledge and do your ‘me‘. And they will hate you and ignore you (that’s the new crucifixion) and talk about you behind your back. Me: I’m crazy! That’s what my whole family decided on their own without reading my books, without understanding my life, without considering that I’m innocent of their accusation. My sisters and ex started that rumor to hide the sins they committed. My children and past friends believed them because of the need to fit in. I don’t have this need. I’m innocent of their stupid accusations but I’m not going up to them to argue my point. Instead, I just smile inside knowing the truth: God will deal with them through the Judge. I don’t have to do anything. And I won’t. I write my life. They did wrong and they inserted that wrong into my life. Isn’t that something.
Don’t let anyone tell you you are wrong. Go to God. Let Him show you. Humans are all fucked up. They are. They can’t tell you how to live your life because they don’t even know how to live their own life. That is on you. You are the only one who will have to answer to all the choices and decisions you make. None of those who are affecting you right now, have anything to do with those choices. It will be between you and Jesus only! So, don’t let the ignorant put their manipulative arrogance on you. I did that. I suffered because of it and Jesus released me and God put His hand on me because I was right. I did what He wanted me to do. Do what is put into your heart. Just do it. Don’t question. If it feels right, do it. Leave the crowd out of it. The first sinner you need to be saving is yourself. You can’t plant seeds unless your seed is solidly planted in yourself. The crowd is meant to lead you astray. And they will. Do your ME! Your Me is very, very important.
Urging Unselfishness―Then Jesus said to His host, ‘When you give a luncheon or dinner, do not invite friends, your brothers or relatives, or your rich neighbors; if you do, they may invite you back and so you will be repaid. But when you give a banquet, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind, and you will be blessed, although they cannot repay you, you will be repaid at the resurrection of the righteous.’—Luke 14:12-14
Parable of Great Banquet—When one of those at the table with Him heard this, he said to Jesus, ‘Blessed is the man who will eat at the feast in the kingdom of God.’ Jesus replied: ‘A certain man was preparing a great banquet and invited many guest. At the time of the banquet he sent his servants to tell those who had been invited, ‘Come, for everything is now ready.’ But they all alike began to make excuses. The first said, ‘I have just bought a field, and I must go and see it. Please excuse me.’ Another said, ‘I have just bought five yoke of oxen, and I’m on my way to try them out. Please excuse me.’ Still another said, ‘I just got married, so I can’t come.’ The servant came back and reported this to his master. Then the owner of the house became angry and ordered his servant, ‘Go out quickly into the streets and alleys of the town and bring in the poor, the crippled, the blind and the lame.’ ‘Sir,’ the servant said, ‘what you ordered has been done, but there is still room.’ Then the master told his servant, ‘Go out to the roads and country lanes and make them come in, so that my house will be full. I tell you, not one of those men who were invited will get a taste of my banquet.”—Luke 14:15-24
Cost of Discipleship—Large crowds were traveling with Jesus, and turning to them He said: ‘If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters—yes, even his own life—he cannot be My disciple. And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow Me cannot be My disciple. Suppose one of you wants to build a tower. Will he not first sit down and estimate the cost to see if he has enough money to complete it? For if he lays the foundation and is not able to finish it, everyone who sees it will ridicule him, saying, ‘This fellow began to build and was not able to finish?’ ‘Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Will he not first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms of peace. In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be My disciple.’—Luke 14:25-33
Parable of the Salt―‘Salt is good, but if it loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is fit neither for the soil nor for the manure pile; it is thrown out. He who has ears to hear, let him hear.’―Luke 14:34,35
Parable of Lost Sheep―Now the tax collectors and ‘sinners’ were all gathering around to hear Him. But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, ‘This man welcomes sinners and eats with them.’ Then Jesus told them this parable: ‘Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.’―Luke 15:1-7
Parable of Lost Coin—‘Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins and loses one. Does she not light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.’ In the same, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.’—Luke 15:8-10
Note: The picture is from November 9, 2019: Certainty of Visions. It was an interesting day for me. But it became even more interesting once I got home and downloaded the pictures and David started pointing out God’s art! These images that I blew up are from the shadows on top of the water behind me. Not only does he show me how brilliant God is, but also how quick He is and from where the art was coming from. In this set of images, you’ll find the masked lady. God warning us what was coming!
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