‘Careful Watch’

 Careful Watch
  
 He's† taken the chalice of my womb
 sent it away
 He's† taken the depths of my knowledge
 stripped it and remade
 He's† taken the love in my heart
 succumbed it to death
 ‒strangled it in plea
 forced me into bleed
  
 He's† forced me to see man
 the depths of his heart
 from the agonizing of sin
 as he pillaged my soul
 to see breaks of beauty within
  
 He's† taken my pride
 emptied its glass
 He's† smashed my vanity
 revealed how beauty doesn't last
  
 He's† placed His† hands on me
 holding me down deep
 'til all anger seeped
 ‒as on my bed...I selfishly wept
 He's† forced me to see
 depths of insecurity
 every seam of my body
 ‒forcing me to look at it
 in sincerity
  
 He† strangled my throat
 stripped me of my prideful-laden coat
 He† put strips of silver in my hair
 lowered my cheeks
 ‒keeping me from smiles
 as I laid down to weep
  
 He† sent rivers to my eyes
 He† laced me with horrible scenes
 ‒revealing man's discrepancies
 truth in what he denies
 ‒right before his very eyes
  
 He† brought pain to my heart
 as I listened to man's lies
 ‒lessons from He†
 forcing me to see‒
 the depths...inside of me
  
 like the thunder in the night
 He† forced me into fight
 turning me inside out
 struggling through a blind man's sight
  
 He† waged His† war on me
 taking me from a marsh, soggy land
 to a desert's broken sea
 He† swarmed me with locust
 He† opened up the lion's den
 devouring me down to bones
 covered in a blanket of skin‒
 not seeming my own
 ‒lost and unsure
 of where I belong
  
 He† singled me out
 forcing me to see man's empty clout
 He† filled me again with knowledge
 put a strong whip in my hand
 slashing a worded belt
 pulling empty judgment
 from man's mouth
  
 He† forced my body in paradise
 striping this mind
 with His† roll of the dice
 ‒using my voided, naked body
 as an eagle grips a helpless bunny
 He† took my heart and mind
 drawing out evil in kind
 ‒as I crossed every line
  
 ―†―†―
  
 His† power is beyond
 anything known to mankind
 He† can force us to see
 what He† wants us to see
 He† can force us to hear
 what He† wants us to hear
 ‒nothing is beyond His† reach
 it all happens‒
 for Him to teach
  
 man thinks he understands
 man thinks he's reached
 the depths of God†
 man throws:
 'listen, we can teach you'
 'listen, let us correct you'
 but man is wrong
 God† controls every song
 His† whispers are louder
 than the lowest of sounds
 His† eyes pierce the thickest of walls
  
 man can not teach
 where God† instructs
 His† knowledge out weighs
 any man's scale
 His† abilities are beyond
 any notion of achievement
  
 He† can bring you pleasure
 endless treasures
 then in a swipe of His† hand
 destroy with a swift puff
 of the sand
  
 who can dispute
 who can say they understand
  
 who buries themselves in science
 thinking they are in control
 of their conscience
 who can perform surgery
 thinking they are in control‒
 their knowledge is their own mastery
  
 who can build their wealth
 thinking they rule their money
 thinking they outsmarted
 the one and only Creator†
  
 who bows down to statues‒
 man's endless idols
 thinking praying to them
 will grant their request
 thinking God† doesn't see
 their devotion to idolatry
  
 who controls industry
 thinking they themselves
 came up with the designs
 came up with the formulas
 came up with the ideas
 who writes a book
 who sings a song
 who acts in a play
 who plays an instrument
 who dances a dance
 who paints a picture
 who mothers a child
 who marries a wife
 who does any type of art
 ‒any type of skill
 thinking they rule their nest
 thinking they are excellence
 ‒above all the rest
  
 lost sheep
 in a blind man's sea
 ‒not looking at the truth of He†
  
 the Artist† of artists
 gives you the heart
 ‒you have a responsibility
 through this given creativity
  
 He† puts it all into motion
 from the slightest of movements
 to the biggest of bangs
 from the slightest of whispers
 to the loudest of declarations
 ALL...at the mercy of His† hands
  
 —†—†—
  
 SEE in ALL things‒
 God† created
 ‒there is nothing
 that does not belong to Him†
  
 He† sends the good
 He† sends the bad
  
 ALL answer to Him†
  
 who can say
 tomorrow will be theirs
 who can say
 their lamp is good
 who can say
 they are seeing in careful watch
 who can declare righteousness
 through anger and hate
  
 SPEAK UP! ANSWER!
  
 He† gives knowledge
 where knowledge is due
 He† gives wisdom
 where wisdom is due
 He† will give, He† will take away
 He† will veil‒
 seal your mind
 seal your eyes
 seal your ears
 when He† needs to move you
 when it's time for you to prove
 the depths of your heart
  
 He† will send in hard love
 He† will challenge the depths of you
 ‒see what lies deep in your heart
 He† will shake you
 He† will rattle you
 He† will put before you
 what your mind cannot conceive
  
 when He† calls you
 He† will seek you
 when you turn on Him†
 He† will darken you
 until you answer Him†
 until you blast open your heart
 until you face your self
  
 that's
 that's
  
 the mercy...God's† help
  
 that's
 that's
  
 the reveal in judgment
 ‒the love of a Son†
 coming in‒
  
 for only then
 have you opened your eyes
 in careful watch‒
 you see truth all around you
 you become aware‒
 those blankets in deception
 that try to again steal you
 ‒absent is hate and angre's drool
 for Jesus†, you become the fool
 LOVE...LOVE is all around you
  
 that's
 that's
  
 when true knowledge awakens
 you become just a child
 your Father† tested you
 your Father† challenged you
 ‒you've learned...at last
 how to win your prized key
  
 by the force of heal
 from wounds buried deep
 ‒what God† wanted you to see
 destroying the shame
 that kept you in captivity
  
 that's
 that's
  
 when you are totally free
 ‒no fear to see
 for you surrendered
 to the ultimate Holy in See†! 

Note: The photograph that accompanies this work was taken a week ago in my home. What you are seeing is my relationship with David. You can learn more about him on my page titled David (Spiritual Guides) under God’s Mercy.

(December 28, 2019)—A hypocrite. Shame. I addressed the hypocrite on my personal Facebook page discussing that I wasn’t a preacher. You can go read it. It’s public. Karen E. Leger…my page name. or k. e. leger my author page name. A hypocrite. I was called that too many times to count. Jesus called the Jews who were entrusted to teach the Law of Moses (God’s Law) hypocrites. Do you know why? Apparently not. I also heard that I needed to hang out with other Christians, so that they can correct me, by someone who calls himself a Christian, while calling me  names and saying I am the worse thing in the world and the cause of all his miseries. He is the second person to say such a thing in my life. How can I be the cause of another person’s misery? That’s the solid question.

Hard love. That’s the answer. Someone who is actually true will call you out on your wrongs, so that you can correct yourself and get to heaven. That’s what love is all about. Some didn’t get the memo, so I’m here to enlighten you.

I am God’s messenger. You can dispute that. You can gossip tales around that. Go ahead. It’s your choice. You are in denial of truth. No one can be the cause of anyone’s misery. You are the cause of your own misery! It IS that simple.

Jesus. Let’s talk about Him for a moment. Do you know why He came? To open up the way to the kingdom. Do you know His ultimate objective? To put sin under His feet. To defeat sin! Is He winning? No. The simple fact of a man calling himself a Christian (that which believes in Jesus the Christ and why He came) and at the same time denying his pain, denying what God did for him, believing that he is talking to God directly while pillaging another human being. Sin. That one man is not healed. That one man is living in death. God isn’t talking directly to him because he is still not doing the work needed to fight sin…lying, cheating, living selfishly, manipulating, saying hurtful things to another human being, gossiping, thinking money is coming from God, thinking success is bleeding another human being dry and plundering what is stolen, thinking that hiding in the dark is going to save him. All of these things say that that man is NOT healed.

Shame. I have written a lot on the lie. Here’s the bottom line: Shame…the emotion of ALL emotions…is responsible for the LIE! You can NOT conquer your pain unless you deal with shame. And you will keep on burying yourself unless you deal with shame. Shame is what you feel about yourself because of what you did to others and what others have done to you. Shame is difficult. But your fear… and you do have fear…comes from that shame. You are too afraid to let others know what happened to you because it wasn’t natural. You are too afraid to face the reality of yourself due to the shame that another made you feel. And SHAME is the root of your misery, not another person! Shame is your enemy. You HAVE to face your shame in order to heal. It is that simple. It IS that hard! Why do you think God gave us this emotion? You can’t conquer fear. You can’t conquer your hate. You can’t conquer your anger. Unless you face yourself…and facing yourself is dealing with the shame you have inside.

God is IN charge.

I was called a witch by that same person. A witch. God isn’t too happy with that man I’m sure, even though God finds a certain favor with him. Even I can fall again. Even I am put in front of Satan over and over. No one escapes God’s tests. NO ONE! Jesus. How can you say that you believe when you are still denying your own pain? That thing that happened to you…rape, abuse, murder, theft, whatever wrong you experienced…God brought that to you for a reason. For you to suffer in order to humble your heart. Do you fully understand what it takes to humble a person? I don’t think you do. This person, who said all these things to me, is NOT humbled. Not even close.

When God wins? When He brings you down so far that you have no choice but deal with all of your sin. When that happens, then you are humbled. You don’t fear man anymore. You fear GOD! Because then you fully understand who is in charge. When you are humbled, you don’t let anger get you, you don’t pillage other people, you don’t blame other people. When you are humbled, you see that God did all those things in your life for a reason and you love HIM all the more. You easily can feel the love of Jesus all around you.

A hypocrite is the one who says he’s of God and still doesn’t understand who God is. And today, God sent me to Job. Fitting! I was called a miss-know-it-all again. Well, I am hearing GOD! He allows me to know what He wants me to know. And if He sent a message through me to you, you bet your ass He KNOWS ALL about you! Just because He sent the message through me, doesn’t mean it’s about me, doesn’t give you the right to gossip about me and call me a witch! In that sense, you are calling God a witch and blaspheming HIM! Good luck with that! I will open my mouth. I will speak these words. I will write these words. This isn’t about me. This is about you choosing. It’s about YOU making a choice. Two gates. Which one will you choose?

Seeds. I’m here to plant the seeds. All my life, 50 years, I’ve been through school with the Lord. He brought me down and rose me up to teach me what sin is. To teach me how to get through the five stages of grief while others betrayed me. He did this so that I may become who I am right now: His prophet. You want to dispute that, talk to Him. You are NOT talking directly to God if your heart is blaming, angry, or refusing to understand what He has done in your life. And you are NOT talking to God if He sent you a direct message and you refuse to answer His call! I have always written for God, but I never heard His voice until the middle of this year. He had to put me through the wringer first. I had to deal with ALL my sins. I had to confess ALL my sins. I had to face everything that people did to me all the way down to my childhood. You don’t get to hear His voice until you clean the marks on your heart, deal with them all!

If you hate me, if you gossip about me, if you call me names and pillage my life, you are STILL under Satan’s grip. I am HARD LOVE! What I have to say isn’t a sermon. It is TRUTH. And you getting pissed off when you read me, that’s right on cue. I’m supposed to piss you off. I’m supposed to get into the heart of your soul and plant a fucking seed! What the hell do you think I’m doing all of this for? For my health? For wealth? I won’t get a dime from this. I can’t.

I’m not your average prophet that you read about in the Bible. I’m hard love. Once you understand that, then you will fully understand my tiny role in this great big ole world that God created. He’s not playing. Hence, He taught me and molded me into being this type of writer, this type of person. He sent me to people to shake them up, to unsettle them…for they refuse to hear Him. In comes ME! So, it does NOT matter how you see me. I’m not here for that. I’m here to plant seeds, to deliver His message. He made me. Discuss it with Him. All your name calling, all your gossip, He’s listening.

The Book of Job. God is showing us all that He IS in charge. It doesn’t matter what we think, He is in Charge! He brings us down to humble us, to test our hearts. Again: This is so very important: Everyone is invited but not everyone will get in! Eternity. Damn that’s forever. The Kingdom or the pit. Your choice.

Warning Against Wickedness—‘He is wooing you from the jaws of distress to a spacious place free from restriction, to the comfort of your table laden with choice food. But now you are laden with the judgment due the wicked; judgment and justice have taken hold of you. Be careful that no one entices you by riches; do not let a large bribe turn you aside. Would your health or even all your mighty efforts sustain you so you would not be in distress? Do not long for the night, to drag people away from their homes. Beware of turning to evil, which you seem to prefer to affliction.―Job 36:16-21 (Elihu is Speaking.)

Note: ….judgment and justice have taken hold of you. Be careful that no one entices you by riches; do not let a large bribe turn you aside…This is very important after God humbles you. Oh, that evil whore will come in and try to entice you. It will try to sway you back to anger, back to revenge. It’s really hard for that to happen after you are humbled. Yes, you go through the thoughts in your mind, but that’s as far as it goes.

God’s Greatness—‘God is exalted in His power. Who is a teacher like Him? Who has prescribed His ways for Him, or said to Him, ‘You have done wrong?’ Remember to extol His work, which men have praised in song. All mankind has seen it; men gaze on it from afar. How great is God—beyond our understanding! The number of His years is past finding out.―Job 36:22-26 (Elihu is Speaking.)

Lightening-Like Power—‘He draws up the drops of water, which distill as rain to the streams; the clouds pour down their moisture and abundant showers fall on mankind. Who can understand how He spreads out the clouds, how He thunders from His pavilion? See how He scatters His lightning about Him, bathing the depths of the sea. This is the way He governs [nourishes] the nations and provides food in abundance. He fills His hands with lightning and commands it to strike its mark. His thunder announces the coming storm; even the cattle make known its approach. At this my heart pounds and leaps from its place. Listen! Listen to the roar of His voice, to the rumbling that comes from His mouth. He unleashes His lightning beneath the whole heaven and sends it to the ends of the earth.

After that comes the sound of His roar; He thunders with His majestic voice. When His voice resounds, He holds nothing back. God’s voice thunders in marvelous ways; He does great things beyond our understanding. He says to the snow, ‘Fall on the earth,’ and to the rain shower, ‘Be a mighty downpour.’ So that all men He has made may know His work, He stops every man from His labor.’ The animals take cover; they remain in their dens. The tempest comes out from its chamber, the cold from the driving winds. The breath of God produces ice, and the broad waters become frozen. He loads the clouds with moisture; He scatters His lightning through them. At His direction they swirl around over the face of the whole earth to do whatever He commands them. He brings the clouds to punish men, or to water His earth and show His love.’—Job 36:27-37:13 ( Elihu is Speaking.)

Power is Inexplicable—‘Listen to this, Job: stop and consider God’s wonders. Do you know how God controls the clouds and makes His lightning flash? Do you know how the clouds hang poised, those wonders of Him who is perfect in knowledge? You who swelter in your clothes when the land lies hushed under the south wind, can you join Him in spreading out the skies, hard as a mirror of cast bronze?’―Job 37:14-18( Elihu is Speaking.)

Note: hard as a mirror of cast bronze?…The choice of words here are interesting. This phrase doesn’t seem to fit the rest of the passage.

No Standing Before God—‘Tell us what we should say to Him: we cannot draw up our case because of our darkness. Should He be told that I want to speak? Would any man ask to be swallowed up? Now no one can look at the sun, bright as it is in the skies after the wind has swept them clean. Out of the north He comes in golden splendor; God comes in awesome majesty. The Almighty is beyond our reach and exalted in power; in His justice and great righteousness, He does not oppress. Therefore, men revere Him, for does He not have regard for all the wise in heart?’―Job 37:19-24( Elihu is Speaking.)

Note: …we cannot draw up our case because of our darkness…I disagree. And at the end of this Scripture, so does God. I bring up my case all the time. Recently, God showed me how Abraham did the same thing when God was about to destroy Sodom and Gomorrah. Abraham tried to bargain with God about saving the cities if there were a certain number of righteous people there. Of course, Abraham lost. God knows all. But God wants us to bring our cases to Him…out loud. This isn’t for His benefit. It is for ours. Once we get it out from our mouths, we hear ourselves, we start to understand what we’ve been through. It helps us to put it into perspective in order for us to heal.

Would any man ask to be swallowed up?…Maybe a lot of people fear this. And you should. God is not a game. He always means business, even when we don’t understand what He’s doing in our life. I know He confuses the hell out of me, but then when the end point comes, I bow my head down in awesome wonder! His plan is always for the better of us. Here’s a mistake the wounded make all the time: When you leave the relationship, they think it’s God removing you because you are the bad one. They don’t, can’t, see that it is them. This isn’t your fault. You can’t defend truth, although I tend to do it all the time. I can’t help this. God made me the warrior…the fighter. Just remember this: Things are not always what they seem. Fear God. His plan is righteous always. Sometimes He has to remove us from situations in order for Jesus to work. It is not up to you to decide. When God moves you, He will move you.

He does not oppress…This I disagree with as well, so does God. He does oppress. That’s the darkness I’m always writing about. He drops us down there in order to rebuild us, humble us. And He will keep dropping us down until we are humbled! We just have to learn to trust the process.

 God’s Turn to Question—Then the Lord answered Job out of the storm. He said: ‘Who is this that darkens My counsel with words without knowledge? Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer Me.’―Job 38:1-3 ( The Lord is Speaking.)

Note: God isn’t playing. He is in charge. When I hear that, ‘You think you know all,’ I want to puke. No, I don’t know all, but I do know what God has taught me. And when God thinks I’ve over-stepped my boundaries, He corrects me. When you learn how He corrects you, then you understand part of the process.

In the following Scriptures when God is questioning Job, He is telling us who He is as the creator. Who’s to argue with Him? And if you think it’s just written in Scripture, you are so wrong! On November 9th, I took over 1,000 photographs. In those photographs, God reveals His artistic side. Go look. I blew a lot of the frames up to point His art out. He’s awesome. If you really paid attention to what is around you, He’d throw you some crumbs. Damn straight! If I were a painter, I’d being paying attention to the shadows in the world!

 What Power Do You Have?—‘Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation? Tell Me, if you understand. Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know! Who stretched a measuring line across it? On what were its footings set, or who laid its cornerstone—while the morning stars sang together and all the angels shouted for joy? Who shut up the sea behind doors when it burst forth from the womb, when I made the clouds its garment and wrapped it in thick darkness, when I fixed limits for it and set its doors and bars in place, when I said, ‘This far you may come and no further; here is where your proud waves halt?’ Have you ever given orders to the morning, or shown the dawn its place, that it might take the earth by the edges and shake the wicked out of it? The earth takes shape like clay under a seal; its features stand out like those of a garment. The wicked are denied their light and their upraised arm is broken.‘―Job 38:4-15( The Lord is Speaking.)

Note: …it might take the earth by the edges and shake the wicked out of it…The wicked are denied their light and their upraised arm is broken.‘…Those who don’t want to heal. It is a choice. How strange to choose such a road! Why would you risk that? No, I take that back. You aren’t risking. You are doing. You are paving your way to the pit. Do you actually know what that means? Your life here is so very short compared to eternity!

 What Understanding?—’Have you journeyed to the springs of the sea or walked in the recesses of the deep? Have the gates of death been shown to you? Have you seen the gates of the shadow of death? Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth? Tell Me, if you know all this. What is the way to the abode of light? And where does darkness reside? Can you take them to their places? Do you know the paths to their dwellings? Surely you know, for you were already born! You have lived so many years!’―Job 38:16-21( The Lord is Speaking.)

Note: He’s questioning arrogance here. How do you know that you are right? Haven’t you looked at yourself first? That’s what He wants to know. Or are you that proud that you know more than God?

I can say that He’s taken me to the middle of the earth in the Visions. It is destructive looking….a hot fiery furnace that’s really loud and scary. I can say He took me to the bottom of the ocean where I stood on the ocean floor staring up at this huge oil platform that had legs bigger than my apartment. I can say that much. And I can say that He took me to these places in order for me to tell you what He’s capable of.

 What Control?—‘Have you entered the storehouses of the snow or seen the storehouses of the hail, which I reserve for times of trouble, for days of war and battle? What is the way to the place where the lightning is dispersed, or the place where the east winds are scattered over the earth? Who cuts a channel for the torrents of rain, and a path for the thunderstorm, to water a land where no man lives, a desert with no one in it, to satisfy a desolate wasteland and make it sprout with grass? Does the rain have a father? Who fathers the drops of dew? From whose womb comes the ice? Who gives birth to the frost from the heavens when the waters become hard as stone, when the surface of the deep is frozen?’―Job 38:22-30( The Lord is Speaking.)

Note: ...I reserve for times of trouble, for days of war and battle?…That’s interesting. Don’t you think? He talks about war and battle a lot. He brings countries to battles and wars. In the visions that He has sent to us through me, the war and battle…earth, which He surely points out here. Everything else is survival.

 What Dominion?—‘Can you bind the beautiful Pleiades? Can you loose the cords of Orion? Can you bring forth the constellations in their seasons or lead out the Bear with its cubs? Do you know the laws of the heavens? Can you set up God’s dominion over the earth?’―Job 38:31-33( The Lord is Speaking.)

Note: …Do you know the laws of the heavens?...He teaches us a lot about His home, our next home. Are you paying attention?

 What Authority?—‘Can you raise your voice to the clouds and cover yourself with a flood of water? Do you send the lightning bolts on their way? Do they report to you, ‘Here we are’?―Job 38:34,35 ( The Lord is Speaking.)

 What Wisdom?—‘Who endowed the heart with wisdom or gave understanding to the mind? Who has the wisdom to count the clouds? Who can tip over the water jars of he heavens when the dust becomes hard and the clods of earth stick together?―Job 38:36-38( The Lord is Speaking.)

Note: Who endowed the heart with wisdom or gave understanding to the mind?...Are you smarter than God? Those who say there is no God think so. I hate to break the news to you: You are wrong? That’s as simple as I can put it. You gamble with your soul, that’s on you. He has sent enough to tell you what is the deal, if you are so smart, then you should be able to figure it out!

What Providence?—‘Do you hunt the prey for the lioness and satisfy the hunger of the lions when they crouch in their dens or lie in wait in a thicket? Who provides food for the raven when its young cry out to God and wander about for lack of food?’―Job 38:39-41

What Knowledge?—’ Do you know when the mountain goats give birth? Do you watch when the doe bears her fawn? Do you count the months till they bear? Do you know the time they give birth? They crouch down and bring forth their young; their labor pains are ended. Their young thrive and grow strong in the wilds; they leave and do not return.’―Job 39:1-4

What Freedom?—’Who let the wild donkey go free? Who untied his ropes? I gave him the wasteland as his home, the salt flats as his habitat. He laughs at the commotion in the town; he does not hear a driver’s shout. He ranges the hills for his pasture and searches for any green thing. Will the wild ox consent to serve you? Will he stay by your manger at night? Can you hold him to the furrow with a harness? Will he till the valleys behind you? Will you rely on him for his great strength? Will you leave your heavy work for him? Can you trust him to bring in your grain and gather it to your threshing floor?’―Job 39:5-12( The Lord is Speaking.)

Note: Will he stay by your manger at night?…Interesting phrase.

What Creativity?—‘The wings of the ostrich flap joyfully, but they cannot compare with the pinions and feathers of he stork. She lays her eggs on the ground and lets them warm in the sand, unmindful that a foot may crush them, that some wild animal may trample them. She treats her young harshly, as if they were not hers; she cares not that her labor was in vain, for God did not endow her with wisdom or give her a share of good sense. Yet when she spreads her feathers to run, she laughs at horse and rider. Do you give the horse his strength or clothes his neck with a flowing mane? Do you make him leap like a locust, striking terror with his proud snorting? He paws fiercely, rejoicing in his strength, and charges into the fray. He laughs at fear, afraid of nothing; he does not shy away from the sword. The quiver rattles against his side, along with the flashing spear and lance. In frenzied excitement he eats up the ground; he cannot stand still when the trumpet sounds. At the blast of the trumpet he snorts, ‘Aha!’ He catches the scent of battle from afar, the shout of commanders and the battle cry. Does the hawk take flight by your wisdom and spread his wings toward the south? Does the eagle soar at your command and build his nest on high? He dwells on a cliff and stays there at night; a rocky crag is his stronghold. From there he seeks out his food; his eyes detect it from afar. His young ones feast on blood, and where the slain are, there is he.’―Job 39:13-30( The Lord is Speaking.)

Response Demanded—‘Will the one who contends with the Almighty correct Him? Let him, who accuses God, answer Him!’—Job 40:1,2 (The Lord is Speaking.)

Job is Dumbfounded—Then Job answered the Lord: ‘I am unworthy—how can I reply to You? I put my hand over my mouth. I spoke once, but I have no answer—twice, but I will say no more.’—Job 40:3-5 (Job is Speaking.)

Note: Yes, I can agree: I am unworthy. It’s for Him to decide if we are worthy or not. We have to trust in His decision.

More Questions—Then the Lord spoke to Job out of the storm: ‘Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer Me.’—Job 40:6,7 (The Lord is Speaking.)

What Right to Accuse God?—‘Would you discredit My justice? Would you condemn Me to justify yourself? Do you have an arm like God’s, and can your voice thunder like His? Then adorn yourself with glory and splendor, and clothe yourself in honor and majesty. Unleash the fury of your wrath, look at every proud man and bring him low, look at every proud man and humble him, crush the wicked where they stand. Bury them all in the dust together; shroud their faces in the grave, then I, Myself, will admit to you that your own right hand can save you.’—Job 40:8-14 (The Lord is Speaking.)

Note: Would you discredit My justice? Would you condemn Me to justify yourself?…I heard someone do this this week. There is only one GOD! And He is powerful and mighty. If you are healed, you’d know this and say no different. A troubled heart is not sure and will spill accusations and condemn others because they are not happy with themselves. That’s what the darkness feels like. When you are in Jesus’ hands, this comes after you plow into nowhere land and you cry and you are angry at the world then you finally bow down and beg for mercy. Jesus comes in.

Remember God leaves us when we are brought down to the darkness. He does not reenter until we invite Him, until we ask for His help. Then little by little Jesus starts sending us crumbs, a little rope here, a little rope there. Those who remain in the bargaining stage, they learn to live with the darkness. They get comfortable with the darkness. They enjoy the sin stage too much to give it up. They are having too much fun. This is when they might ask for mercy, but with deceptive hearts. They can’t fool God. He doesn’t not reappear until your heart is sincere. This you must learn. All those churches are teaching you wrong. Learn the truth.

Then adorn yourself with glory and splendor, and clothe yourself in honor and majesty. …If you are so arrogant thinking you are better than God, then be GOD! That is what He is saying. If you think you can handle what God has to handle, or create what He creates, then be His guess. Go ahead!

Unleash the fury of your wrath, look at every proud man and bring him low, look at every proud man and humble him…The ultimate in my book. He’s telling you what He does. He’s telling you why He brings you down, why He strips you of everything. Listen! To HUMBLE you! Then He is saying if you are strong enough to do what He does, go ahead!

...crush the wicked where they stand. Bury them all in the dust together; shroud their faces in the grave…Can you do this? Are you strong enough to do this? Well, …then I, Myself, will admit to you that your own right hand can save you.‘…You don’t need Him! Be on your way! To the pit you go!

Man Fears Large Animals—‘Look at the behemoth [Elephant], which I made along with you and which feeds on grass like an ox. What strength he has in his loins, what power in the muscles on his belly! His tail [trunk] sways like a cedar; the sinews of his thighs are close-knit. His bones are tubes of bronze, his limbs like rods of iron. He ranks first among the works of God, yet his Maker can approach him with His sword. The hills bring him their produce, and all the wild animals play nearby. Under the lotus plants he lies, hidden among the reeds in the marsh. The lotuses conceal him in their shadow; the poplars by the stream surround him. When the rive rages, he is not alarmed; he is secure, though the Jordan should surge against his mouth. Can anyone capture him by the eyes [water hole], or trap him and pierce his nose?’―Job 40:15-24 (The Lord is Speaking.)

Even Large Reptiles Feared—‘Can you pull in the leviathan [crocodile] with a fishhook or tie down his tongue with a rope? Can you put a cord through his nose or pierce his jaw with a hook? Will he keep begging you for mercy? Will he speak to you with gentle words? Will he make an agreement with you for you to take him as your slave for life? Can you make a pet of him like a bird or put him on a leash for your girls? Will traders barter for him? Will they divide him up among the merchants? Can you fill his hide with harpoons or his head with fishing spears? If you lay a hand on him, you will remember the struggle and never do it again! Any hope of subduing him is false; the mere sight of him is overpowering. No one is fierce enough to rouse him. Who then is able to stand against Me? Who has a claim against Me that I must pay? Everything under heaven belongs to Me.

‘I will not fail to speak of his limbs, his strength and his graceful form. Who can strip off his otter coat? Who would approach him with a bridle? Who dares open the doors of his mouth, ringed about with his fearsome teeth? His back has rows of shields tightly sealed together; each is so close to the next that no air can pass between. They are joined fast to one another; they cling together and cannot be parted. His snorting throws out flashes of light; his eyes are like the rays of dawn. Firebrands stream from his mouth; sparks of fire shoot out. Smoke pours from his nostrils as from a boiling pot over a fire of reeds. His breath sets coals ablaze, and flames dart from his mouth. Strength resides in his neck; dismay goes before him. The folds of his flesh are tightly joined; they are firm and immovable. His chest is hard as rock, hard as a lower millstone. When he rises up, the might are terrified; they retreat before his thrashing.

‘The sword that that reaches him has no effect, nor does the spear or the dart or the javelin. Iron he treats like straw and bronze like rotten wood. Arrows do not make him flee; sling stones are like chaff to him. A club seems to him but a piece of straw; he laughs at the rattling of the lance. His undersides are jagged potsherds, leaving a trail in the mud like a threshing sledge. He makes the depths churn like a boiling caldron and stirs up the sea like a pot of ointment. Behind him he leaves a glistening wake; one would think the deep had white hair. Nothing on earth is his equal—a creature without fear. He looks down on all that are haughty; he is king over all that are proud.’―Job 41:1-34 (The Lord is Speaking.)

Note: Who then is able to stand against Me? Who has a claim against Me that I must pay? Everything under heaven belongs to Me….Do you get it yet? In this passage, He is the crocodile. He is describing Himself in a very beautiful analogy. You can’t buy Him! You can’t replace Him with material things! You can’t outsmart Him. Face it: He’s really smarter than you.

Firebrands stream from his mouth; sparks of fire shoot out. Smoke pours from his nostrils as from a boiling pot over a fire of reeds. His breath sets coals ablaze, and flames dart from his mouth…He makes the depths churn like a boiling caldron and stirs up the sea like a pot of ointment. Behind him he leaves a glistening wake; one would think the deep had white hair. Nothing on earth is his equal—a creature without fear. The dragon! On October 23rd and December 10th, He sent us the dragon.

Dragon: encompasses the primordial natural forces on all planes of existence, longevity and the most earliest of magicks some of which have been lost to time. The never ending battles between knights and dragons reflect the inner struggle of human kind to come to terms with the Spiritual or Ethereal nature.

Dragon Symbolization: a legendary creature symbolizes protection, success, wisdom, loyalty, fearlessness, strength, balance, and immense possibility. Being the master of all four elements of Fire, Water, Earth, and Wind, it also embodies primordial power.

Primordial: existing at or from the beginning of time; primeval; first created or developed; constituting a beginning; giving origin to something derived or developed; original

I thought it interesting that the Western culture and its religions misrepresent the dragon as evil. That would be understandable since the churches, the Catholic being the most brutal, go against everything Jesus stood for, everything God stood for in the form of killing in God’s name [NOPE!], in the form of idol worship [NOPE!], in the form of raping children [NOPE], in the form of not teaching the entire Bible [NOPE]! So, yes, their definition would fit their scheme perfectly. Only God says different!

Job’s Reply—Then Job replied to the Lord:―Job 42:1

Job’s Confession—‘I know that You can do all things; no plan of Yours can be thwarted. You asked, ‘Who is this that obscures My counsel without knowledge?’ Surely I spoke of things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know.’―Job 42:2,3

Note: ‘I know that You can do all things; no plan of Yours can be thwarted….I know this as well. I’m such the stubborn child, but what He presents me with is seemingly the impossible to me. I know all things are possible with God. I know this with all my heart. Currently, I’m going through the greatest of test. He’s put me through something: I saw, smelt, tasted, felt…first hand with all the senses totally involved. Then He comes and says I will see the opposite of what I experienced. How? That’s my question. And then I question my faith: Is it that weak? He says: No, you are human. I know I’ve written about this a lot, but it’s so inconceivable to me.

The whole issue around this promise is that when it happens, the testimony will be beyond any I’ve experienced, and that would erase doubt completely from me. Not just for me, but for the others involved. And…You will know it is Him: God: the big man upstairs: Our heavenly Father! Trust me, you will know because for this promise to happen, it will take a true God miracle!

Job’s Repentance—You said, ‘Listen now, and I will speak; I will question you, and you shall answer Me.’ My ears had heard of You but now my eyes have seen You. Therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes.’―Job 42:4-6

Note: Yes. I understand what this feels like. He’s had me on the floor begging for forgiveness. This is what happens when He humbles you completely. To be totally honest, what humans do can’t even come close to what God is capable of. He can literally change what your eyes see. He can literally change what your ears hear. He can make a person that you would not normally like look like a million dollars! That’s God! He can put information inside of your mind and take it out just as fast. You play around with life thinking you know it all. Honey, you don’t know anything. God is in control. So, if He wants you to crash your car, your car will crash!

Job’s Friends Rebuked—After the Lord had said these things to Job, He said to Eliphaz the Temanite, ‘I am angry with you and your two friends, because you have not spoken of Me what is right, as My servant Job has. So now take seven bulls and seven rams and go to My servant Job and sacrifice a burnt offering for yourselves. My servant Job will pray for you, and I will accept his prayer and not deal with you according to your folly. You have not spoken of Me what is right, as My servant Job has.‘ So Eliphaz the Temanite, Bildad the Shuhite and Zophar the Naamathite did what the Lord told them; and the Lord accepted Job’s prayer.―Job 42:7-9

Note: I am angry with you and your two friends, because you have not spoken of Me what is right, as My servant Job has….Notice what He says twice! You should read Job all the way through in order to understand this. Although Job’s friends offer insight in what they have to say, their over-all argument is so wrong and off the path of God. Job tells it like it is. God has been trying to get me to write like this for a while now. Not the form in which Job writes, but what he writes about. I find it very hard to do this. I have praised my heavenly Father since I began this journey. To write how He torments and brings us down to the darkness and how He allows Satan in to do His dirty work is so very hard for me.

I’ve published a number of pieces this year that describe this way of His. Here’s what I get: You write as if you are crazy! How can you help people when people think you need help yourself? Yes, that stuff was literally said to me! How about even worse: You have dementia and you need medical attention! It is very hard to write what God wants. He challenges me to the core. People don’t understand that I’m writing for the Lord. I literally write for God. And the subject matter is all Him. There are a few times where I’m told to write how I feel, or I will be left to myself. I literally feel this…when I’m left to write on my own. It’s very hard to explain, but it’s real all the same.

So, writing about what Job wrote about is difficult. I had to write through the five stages of grief, the 12 books, and that was hard. I had to write every emotion…from what I felt every hour almost. He wanted me to document every emotion, even if I felt the emotion briefly, and if I didn’t feel it, He brought me to feel it quickly, then as soon as the writing was over, the emotion would be gone. Trust me, this was very trying and everyone around me judged me harshly, and I couldn’t make them understand.

Writing for the Lord is not an easy task. Maybe that’s why there are so few prophets. I just have to go on faith and trust that the Lord’s plan is…no, it IS the right plan! And for years, that’s all I have been working on: Faith. I have gained no supporters who rally my writing on. Trust me. No one! I know it’s a test for me: Karen, I’ll take everyone away. Your work will not be celebrated. You will make no money from it. Are you still going to write for Me? My reply: Yes, Lord. No matter what they do to me, no matter what they say about me, I’ll continue.

Job’s Prosperity Restored—After Job had prayed for his friends, the Lord made him prosperous again and gave him twice as much as he had before. All his brothers and sisters and everyone who had known him before came and ate with him in his house. They comforted and consoled him over all the trouble the Lord had brought upon him, and each one gave him a piece of silver and a gold ring. The Lord blessed the latter part of Job’s life more than the first. He had fourteen thousand sheep, six thousand camels, a thousand yoke of oxen and a thousand donkeys. And he also had seven sons and three daughters. The first daughter he named Jemimah, the second Keziah and the third Keren-Happuch. Nowhere in all the land were there found women as beautiful as Job’s daughters, and their father granted them an inheritance along with their brothers. After this, Job lived a hundred and forty years; he saw his children and their children in the fourth generation. And so he died, old and full of years.―Job 42:10-17

Note: The Lord blessed the latter part of Job’s life more than the first…Believe it or not this was actually shown to me in 2012. I had my horoscope read for the entire year. Yes, I paid for it. At that time, I was pulling all the stops…I was sinking and sinking fast and I needed help. This was the first year I had ever contacted a psychic. God is in charge. What that lady had to say changed the course of my life. She was meant to come to me. And she has come to me every three years ever since. Back to the horoscope back in 2012: It literally said that I would come into my own during my second half of life.

I do have to include the following because I’m still in disbelief over this. I looked up my name and I’ve written about it a few times because it is so incredible to me.

• Karen:  pure, chaste
• Hebrew: ‘Ray of Light or Beam of Light’. In the Torah and with regards to the Big Bang, the name Karen is often associated with the Hebrew word Ohr which only means light.
• Keren as a girls’ name is pronounced KARE-en: It is of Hebrew origin, and the meaning of Keren is ‘glorious dignity’. Short form of Kerenhappuch

• Elaine: light; sun ray; shining light; torch
• Hebrew: This name derives from the Hebrew El-yud-ana, ‘Eli’anah, Eliyanah, literally translated as ‘my God has answered me’.
• (Elianna is most likely a Latin corruption of the Hebrew name Eliyanah which means ‘God has answered me’ or the ‘Lord has responded’. The name is derived from the Hebrew roots El (meaning God) and ana (meaning answered).

• Leger: ‘people spear’
• Léger (which it should be): light