He† said it once
He† said it twice
still...they're not worried
still...they don't bow
they don't hear His† name
I cry for them
I cry for me
tormented just like them
for my self
for my self
just like them
He† said it once
He† said it twice
it's the same
for they forgot His† name
and the reason
His† Son† came
(August 25)―I’ve been tormenting myself over the visions I’ve been shown. How can one accept that they have been placed in ear shot of the Lord? But I remain faithful. Some things have happened that I didn’t record here, some that I did and are worth repeating. The one huge fact that my vow, pleaded and made in 2012, was to ‘write for You’…meaning the Lord if He rescued me from my peril. I didn’t say ‘I’ll write 13 books’. I said ‘I’ll write for You.’ And as I wrote previously, He reminded me of that this past week. God takes things literally. He doesn’t, like we do, add stuff in there! That’s a very hard lesson to learn.
So, I have written everything that He’s ever sent to me. It’s all there in the 12 books that I’ve published and in this next book. The words come and I write them.
So, I’ve written all that I’ve heard. I have been criticized because of it. I’ve cried a million plus a million tears because I’ve felt betrayed by man, those who said they loved me. But God reminds me that His love is all that matters and the sacrifices I’ve had to make to do what He’s asked is for Him and not for myself. I often forget this. And then I’m reminded over and over the good that He’s brought into my life, the miracles, the graces. How easy it is to forget those things when I am being selfish.
He has taken care of me better than any human could ever do. I can’t see Him. I just hear the words coming in my mind and I know they are not my own. No. I cannot explain this. I just know. I have been blessed with grace time and time again for doing what I’m told. I don’t trust man. I trust God. And if He needs me to suffer to do what He asks of me, then I suffer.
When I moved to this new apartment in June of this year, I knew I had been elevated because of all that I had to do concerning the sweet man. Yes, there is doubt. Yes, I make my argument. But the facts still remain that what I wrote in the testimony concerning those 4 years is still true. And the truth of the unseen is the most difficult to fathom. But faith…faith is all that is truly needed. So I let go…again…and went where I was led willingly.
Then the visions. But first it was training…by the unseen: Oils, diet, concentration, listening, hearing…the training needed to see. I battled with this. It felt odd. I have been completely isolated. When I say isolated, I literally mean isolated. No one talks to me, or even looks at me. When I cry over loneliness, He’ll allow someone to say hello to me or give me a smile. That was at the beginning of this journey. Then slowly more and more smiles have come. But He can quickly shut that down if I get too selfish.
I adhered to this training, although it has been lonely, at times, physically painful, leaving me feel odd, crazy, insane, scared, even evil. I have learned that the spiritual world is so much more advanced that it will bring fear to us and this is why many don’t experience it as some of us do. People…humans…judge because over time since Jesus Christ came, the church and the Jews have managed to distort God’s will and brought confusion to the world, building the evil one’s army.
I’ve been writing about this…not from myself…these words are sent to me. You can understand that or not. It’s okay. So I received this visions and adhered to the ‘write’ and ‘prophecy’ them to the world. I am not a prophet. I keep arguing this fact. I still am going to do what I’m told. How I see myself is not a matter in question. God is in charge. So, I wrote all that I’ve seen as was instructed…yes, by the unseen.
I wrote specific dates down because they were told to me. From August 22 to 25, my anxiousness escalated. I was tormented by 2 things: all those people dying and if this didn’t happened how I would look. I battled a lot with this selfish thought. And…God showed me over and over how these visions were sent to other people and how they accepted them in the past. And my argument has been: That was in a time where no tv existed, no internet, no modern anything.
For many years now, when I open my Bible up, it reveals something I have to write about. This has never failed. Since this all began with this next level of my journey, the pages I open up to rarely have any red lines or writings on them or any writing. As I’ve written so many times, back in 2007 when I read the Bible for the first time, I marked every single thing that touched my heart and wrote my thoughts in the margins. Since 2013, as I was being reborn, this thing I’ve been given where the Bible speaks to me or rather explains words I’m given has grew stronger and stronger until now when exact words I hear from people, or I hear coming in are presented. You can question that until you are blue in the face. It is still ‘Is’.
I’ve posted most of what I’m sent. There are many that I haven’t. I will include all of it in this book. Book 13.
Last night, after going through these terrible emotions from seeing all that I was shown and feeling on the verge of insanity, I made yet another plea in my anger. Yes, I was angry. I never claimed to be Holy. I am NOT. I am a sinner.
I received a dream. I haven’t been dreaming for a long time then they started again about 3 weeks ago, some scaring me. This one was me in the country, at someone’s house, I think my family was there and the ex. He was polishing some expensive water toy and I walked by him saying things out of anger like happy you got all your money and such. I woke up mad because I asked for a peaceful dream and I received that. Then I got it.
What I saw in the ex and this water toy was of the world. I live not of the world. And those of us who live this way, who listen to God and do what is told suffer and have suffered from the beginning. A whole, entire book…the Bible…reveals this. Those of us who are asked to do something for Him can refuse all we want, He eventually gets what He wants…without fail. And…AND if we say we are going to do something for Him…He holds us to that with a vengeance!
So I sat at my table, puffed on a clove because I got angry and started smoking again, and opened my Bible with a sarcastic feeling. This is after me saying, ‘Yeah, nothing happened!’ It was Jeremiah again. I’m telling you the truth. I don’t play around with the Lord! His wrath is horrible to experience and I’ve experienced it straight up. The following part of Jeremiah…what the commentators have to say and what the Scripture says should make you wake up. It won’t. Because history is repeating itself yet again. The visions of what was sent to me. They will happen. God’s time is not ours. I saw it. I wrote it. It’s for you to ponder. But I was forewarned: No one will figure it out. No one can stop it. And that it is going to happen.
But I said, ‘Ah, Sovereign Lord, the prophets keep telling them, ‘You will not see the sword or suffer famine. Indeed, I will give you lasting peace in this place.’—Jeremiah 14:13
NOTES: The commentators of my Bible write:
When Jeremiah prophesies about Judah’s impending peril, the people turn to other prophets. They undoubtedly want a second opinion. After all, in an age of prophets, with many speaking in God’s name and many claiming to know His will, it is not that easy to distinguish the true and the false. The people, therefore, search for a message more favorable and comforting than that of Jeremiah. Perhaps even Jeremiah is once again wavering in his confidence. (Why should he alone be preaching doom? Could he be misunderstanding God’s revelations? Is it possible that the other prophets are right?) Or perhaps Jeremiah is fully assured in his own mind but needs to know how to respond to his opposition. Whatever his reason, Jeremiah puts the question to God and receives a clear response.
This part, what the commentators say, I surely can relate. Like I said, I haven’t seen these pages since 2007…I had no idea this was there. I completely forgot about reading it. Oh, the veils can be so cruel. And it made me see that I’m not the only one who questions the Lord. After all, the Bible does instruct us to question everything. And…I do!
Then the Lord said to me, ‘The prophets are prophesying lies in My name. I have not send them or appointed them or spoken to them. They are prophesying to you false visions, divinations, idolatries and the delusions of their own minds. Therefore, this is what the Lord says about the prophets who are prophesying in My name: I did not send them, yet they are saying, ‘No sword or famine will touch this land.’ Those same prophets will perish by sword and famine. And the people they are prophesying to will be thrown out into the streets of Jerusalem because of the famine and sword. There will be no one to bury them or their wives, their sons or their daughters. I will pour out on them the calamity they deserve. ‘Speak this word to them: ‘Let my eyes overflow with tears night and day without ceasing; for my virgin daughter―my people―has suffered a grievous wound, a crushing blow. If I go into the country, I see those slain by the sword; if I go into the city, I see the ravages of famine. Both prophet and priest have gone to a land they know not.’—Jeremiah 14:14-18
NOTES: During my argument last night, I threw this at God because of what was commented on my author page…about false prophets. I often question what I write and what I hear and what I see. Why question? Oh, because I’m a human and no one else is hearing like this that I know personally. Yes, there are others who hear but I don’t know them. I don’t speak to them. And the world has this deal going on that if you see visions, bypass the visions, or if you hear voices, you need mental doctors. They have completely forgotten how God communicates.
They don’t see that the universe is God. That the spiritual rem…that which houses life beyond this one can’t readily speak to us like we do to each other as humans. This is the saddest part because churches have governed man so much that they made man forget the power of God. And they did that to control man. And man doesn’t see this because they are weak and allow themselves to be controlled. So when they receive messages from the unseen world, they go to a doctor and get medications because when they tell the doctor what is happening, the doctor deems them depressed or crazy and drugs them to suppress what is happening. So…man’s greed can build by way of lies. Isn’t that something!
Have You rejected Judah completely? Do You despise Zion? Why have You afflicted us so that we cannot be healed? We hoped for peace but no good has come, for a time of healing but there is only terror. O Lord, we acknowledge our wickedness and the guilt of our fathers; we have indeed sinned against You. For the sake of Your name do not despise us; do not dishonor Your glorious throne. Remember Your covenant with us and do not break it. Do any of the worthless idols of the nations bring rain? Do the skies themselves send down showers? No, it is You, O Lord our God. Therefore our hope is in You, for You are the one who done all this.—Jeremiah 14:19-22
NOTES: The commentators of my Bible write:
Surely there are some who understand and believe Jeremiah’s preaching. Surely there are righteous individuals left in this sinful nation. (King Josiah, for example, has already begun the first of what will be many reforms.) Therefore it is likely that those who are still trying to do God’s will are praying fervently for God to refrain from bringing judgment against Judah. Why, they ask, must they be punished at a time of righteous renewal? Jeremiah frames the issue in the form of a prayer, and receives what appears to be a harsh answer.
How many read the visions I had? How many even thought twice about it? How many got on their knees to pray for the people that will be affected by this horror? Hint: They didn’t believe Jeremiah either.
Then the Lord said to me: ‘Even if Moses and Samuel were to stand before Me, My heart would not go out to this people. Send them away from My presence! Let them go! And if they ask You, ‘Where shall we go?’ tell them, ‘This is what the Lord says: ‘Those destined for death, to death; those for the sword, to the sword; those for starvation, to starvation; those for captivity, to captivity.’—Jeremiah 15:1,2
NOTES: I wrote in red in 2007: It’s called sticking to your word. This sentence, written in red, stuck out to me like a blazing star. I’m to write what I see and reveal. It’s not to make you believe. I cannot do that. It’s up to you to believe. I’m just to write. I’m just the writer. So, you won’t see me demanding that you hear, or see, or believe, or on some grandstand preaching. Nope. That’s not what I’m to do. I’m just to reveal to you. It’s up to you to hear.
‘I will send four kinds of destroyers against them,’ declares the Lord, ‘the sword to kill and the dogs to drag away and the birds of the air and the beasts of the earth to devour and destroy. I will make them abhorrent to all the kingdoms of the earth because of what Manasseh son of Hezekiah king of Judah did in Jerusalem.—Jeremiah 15:3,4
‘Who will have pity on you, O Jerusalem? Who will mourn for you? Who will stop to ask how you are? You have rejected Me,’ declares the Lord. ‘You keep on backsliding. So I will lay hands on you and destroy you; I can no longer show compassion. I will winnow them with a winnowing fork at the city gates of the land. I will bring bereavement and destruction on My people, for they have not changed their ways. I will make their windows more numerous than the sand of the sea. At midday I will bring a destroyer against the mothers of their young men; suddenly I will bring down on them anguish and terror. The mother of seven will grow faint and breathe her last. Her sun will set while it is still day; she will be disgraced and humiliated. I will put the survivors to the sword before their enemies,’ declares the Lord.—Jeremiah 15:5-9
Note: The highlighted words here…I cannot even tell you how much my heart was beating when I read them. The sweet man constantly told me he was a backslider. I told you that God puts words in people’s mouths. You have no idea. This you should fear because you never know when it is that God will need you for something. He can change the whole, entire course of your life in a snap of a finger! He can put those veils on you and you will make moves in your life that you never fathomed. That’s truth.
The constant ‘sea’ that keeps coming into my life! Read my testimony if you can’t understand that. And in the visions, ‘ocean’ is never used…it’s always ‘sea’. Just like ‘nations’ is the word used…never ‘countries’. ‘Midday’…I saw 12 on the clock three times and He said ‘12,12’. I heard Him say that. And here it is again being pointed out. The ‘hands’…He said the word ‘hand’ a bunch of times in these visions. ‘Change your ways’…‘change their ways’…both phrases were said not only in the visions but also in the writings that I’ve been writing recently. ‘Healing’ and ‘heal’…need I say more?
There are several ways the Lord speaks to us. No. I do not claim to fully know the Lord. How could I? How could anyone? But He can speak to us directly, through spirits…not any spirit…our guardians or guides, through Jesus, and through our thoughts or feelings. We have to learn to listen. Like I said, Jesus didn’t say ‘if they have ears, let them hear’ for nothing. I was told that there is no need for society to write another book…the words that are needed are already written. You can take that how you like.
I was sent several more works today and told to give them to the people. I will.