(July 10)―Today, I was lead to Psalm 107 (included fully at the end of the commentary for ‘Removing of Chains’). From that, I was led back into the past and Jesus made me cry. An order I placed weeks ago came in today. It was a dress. It’s the third of six dresses that I ordered in the size 2x. I’m not really a 2x, but I’m not a 6 or a 10 or even a 12 anymore. The 2x dresses fit loose and they are comfortable…COMFORTABLE is the key word. Then I was led to ‘Removing of Chains’ written in 2012. When I got to the end of that writing, that’s when the tears came. And David saying, ‘Yes!’ When you read it, you will totally understand. It is included below, as this is long…an afternoon-sit-with-coffee-or-tea type of writing!
Words in Wisdom look up to what's up oppression happens in the mind over years, over time it brings on despair something that traumatized‒ and wasn't...at all...fair it took from you it robbed from you of an innocence leaving your mind in distress your heart in confusion ‒it became your affliction your personal calamity though you refused to see too young, too naïve ‒you just saw it wasn't the way to be so you learned differently a game of hide and seek that moved you to disbelief you threw away empathy not caring‒ way down deep ‒you learned how to surface keep things out of seep showing simple compassion without making a decision or turning it into an intrusion instead you learned to lift take it off of you‒ to a cause...shift then bounce it back ‒whomever got a whiff you aced the summersault getting out of discomfort byway of other's vaults ‒it's easy for you to stomp whomever comes‒ revealing your faults ‒from your mind you built a special cult‒ those who live in the same confusion ‒truth is abruptly put in halt cast out...the door barred in bolt you learned‒ became the master in shield ‒the enemy the hidden iniquities: the unfairness the immorality the unjust the wrong the evil the viciousness‒ all that you blame passed around with emotions inflamed ‒are yours....
Note: The photograph was taken October 7, 2019: Faces. In this set of frames, David points the faces out to me. I didn’t see them before. He said I wasn’t ready to see them. I point them out to you as much as I can. He also points out other things, things that pass a message on. I discuss these messages on the page, just click the link. You can see or not. All I can do is present. I can’t help your unbelief or your pain. I can plant a seed and give it to God. May the Lord always be in your corner. Amen.
Both ‘Removing of Chains’ and ‘Words in Wisdom’ parallel each other and then to read Psalm 107, either written by King David or Asaph, it doesn’t matter. This writing was written in a time when God clearly made Himself known in big ways. Today, He does it in simple ways that people can see…at least, those who CAN see.
Since the beginning of 2019, my writing has changed. I knew it was coming. I even wrote about me knowing this change was coming. That will be included in book 13, which the writing is extensive that year and this year. How was my writing before this? Book 12 and before, the five stages of grief (the GOD process)! So, why am I including this writing today? God. Why else!
Jesus wanted me to show you in three different ways the God process. The stage of King David, the stage of grief through abuse as in the writing from 2012 and before, and the stage of now, a pandemic and what God is demanding…HEALING! All three stages cover the very same topic: HEALING! God has wanted, has demanded this from the beginning. He will bring calamity on you, but He will take you out of it as well. You first have to ask! When He gave us Jesus, He made it easier. Well, it was supposed to be easier. I mean He didn’t say once Jesus came that we can have sin all we want. He didn’t say that once we have Jesus we don’t have to listen to HIM anymore. NO! God does NOT change!
Jesus came with one simple law: Love. It sounds easy. It really isn’t. Because God is still going to test us. And through those tests, we have to remember LOVE. That’s hard! But God knows we are going to fall. In fact, that’s the whole point of testing us. It enables Him to leave us. When we are left alone, He test to see what will we do? Haven’t you been in that situation with your earth parents? They leave you at home all by yourself to test to see if you are responsible enough. God does the same thing. In our darkness, our death, He leaves us. It’s up to our truth to call Him back in. Then we are on our way to humble.
So, the happenings of today: riots, killings, destruction, disease…total confusion. It’s all happening for a reason. If God wasn’t in the mix like He is, you wouldn’t question the mask thing. You would just wear it. I mean think of all those back in 1918. They were coming out of a war where millions had already died. The newspapers weren’t as crazy as they are today, but the government was. They said the same things that it wasn’t that bad, etc., etc. But those people wore mask…duck-looking ones. They didn’t care. Do you know why they didn’t care? Thousands were dying. God had to make it real for them. Because the human is a funny creature when it comes to truth. I mean during the holocaust, people were being taken away and never coming back and the Jews still didn’t get it. Fact: They believed they were going take showers all together, buck-ass naked, women and men and children. A pandemic: your brain is having a hard time comprehending.
As in the writing I wrote in 2012 about abuse and the video that I posted, truth…is hard for people to admit! Especially, when it impacts their person. God said that when it gets really bad, people will refuse to go to the hospital, they will refuse to admit they are sick, they will refuse to admit that this pandemic is real right to the very end, when the body bags have to be brought to private homes to collect the bodies. That is really sad. Of course, thousands and thousands of boys for hundreds of years were raped by the Catholic church people and people swear the Catholic church is better than sliced bread. They are the richest thing on earth and there are people starving, being abused, being enslaved…but their monopoly of priests and such live in nice places and wear nice clothes. That’s not of God. And they are just the beginning. It’s all coming…God WILL reveal TRUTH if you like it or not byway of DOING! He will SHOW you!
The spread of abuse, the way those young people are bullying in Portland and Seattle. The way they bullied for statues to be removed and brand labels to be changed…oh, America…it’s just the beginning for you. You celebrated abuse by not helping abused women and children: There is a consequence for your actions!
Removing of Chains struggles come and go tests...outwardly flow seeing which way winds blow ‒giving you dough seeing how you'll sew failing‒ back around you go putting you in a free throw testing the cogito ‒who is good, who is foe who'll lead, who'll follow who'll walk to the gallows who'll live in mellow who'll thread surfaces...just below struggles come and go tests...outwardly flow seeing which way winds blow providing a manifesto seeing who'll be a hero without wanting the mistletoe showing pieces in foreshadow watching for the plateau ‒will you over-indulge its overflow or leave it in outgrow‒ preventing a jericho what's behind tiny mosquitoes or words like negro‒ depends on how you flow how you change your scenario stay forever in ditto or rise above‒ remove the chains of shadows understand which way winds blow go the way makes you glow instead of sinking down below
(June 1, 2018)―…Some sat in darkness and the deepest gloom, prisoners suffering in iron chains, for they had rebelled against the wishes of God and despised the counsel of the Most High. So He subjected them to bitter labor; they stumbled, and there was no one to help. Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and He saved them from their distress. He brought them out of darkness and the deepest gloom and broke away their chains. Let them give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love and His wonderful deeds for men, for He breaks down gates of bronze and cuts through bars of iron…..Psalm 107 is long (I included it’s entirety at the end.).
This is the third part of it. The entirety of it teaches us that no matter how far we sink, we can rise. This year has been quite an eventful year for me. Some of it…I could just sink and not get up, but something keeps pushing me forward and that’s a good thing.
‘Removing of Chains’…speaks about the tests we face…all of us face. A few days ago I posted a video about statistics concerning domestic abuse and how many of those abuse cases ended up with the woman being killed. The video said nothing about men being killed. It wasn’t about men. It was a video about the statistics of men killing their wife, girlfriend, ex. The video wasn’t meant to mislead anyone into thinking that men didn’t get killed or men didn’t get abused. It just touched base on one aspect of abuse. I don’t think men get it. Or I should say some men.
I’ve never seen a domestic abuse shelter for men. Why is this? If men are abused like women, where are those shelters…if men are equal in abuse to women, where are they? Where’s those shelters?! This raises a lot of questions, a lot of topics to discuss. I had a very long debate on the thread of this video…a video not knocking any other abuse, nope, just pointing out the fact of the most horrible part of domestic abuse. I wasn’t going to read the thread. I was just going to let the conversation take its road…but…I always have a but…I ended up reading and responding.
My generalization of the word men offends some men. Why is that?
I read posts all the time posted by men who describe women as sluts, just seeing guys for money, etc., etc. Yes, I’m sure there are some women like that. I’m intelligent enough to understand that I’m not one of them, so I don’t go on their posts and yell and scream. Why do that? I know it doesn’t concern me.
‘Removing of Chains’…This is not the first time I posted something as disturbing as this particular video, and it is not the first time I had men comment their insane remarks. I say insane because…well…it is. If people actually check my [Facebook] personal page as well as my author page then they would know what I’m about and what I write about. You can tell by reading the comments which ones do. The rest just comment really out their ass without having any research or knowledge in their corner. There was one guy, which I deleted, who has been on my page forever. I respected him. I always read his posts when they appeared in my feed, so I’m familiar with a lot of things he’s gone through. To read his comments, I was a bit taken off guard so I eventually deleted him. (If a person doesn’t help, but, instead hinders the steps needed to be taken to prevent domestic violence, then I don’t see the need for them to stick around. Do you?)
‘Removing of Chains’…I’ve been called a lot of names: Arrogant, self-serving, bitch, witch, one-sided, crazy, insane, narcissist…just to name a few. I am good with those names now because I know better. My way of writing just the term men instead of some men have insulted certain kinds of men for years. I laugh at this actually because I’m 49 years old and from the deep south, and all…all of my life I’ve heard their remarks about women. I’ve sat quietly in rooms and heard their names for women, their sexually explicit talk…and this wasn’t just in the south. This has been every where men are. Oh, look at that fine ass. Oh, I could fuck her. I bet I could get her to cheat on her husband. Bitches are crazy. Women are poison. When I get bored, I get rid of her and go fuck another. My wife does that, I’ll beat the shit out of her. Etc, etc. Zero respect. There are very few men who have not said something close to these remarks.
Now, I’ve been around a ton of women…and I might have heard one or two women make a comment close to these…and always, a laugh came and a sly, sexy expression. Never anything serious. Ever. Sure there are exceptions to that rule. In every gender, there are the bad eggs. My writing is not about that. Yes, I’ll explain. Keep reading.
Where do men…men…get off competing against women? More women have died at the hands of men than anything! Women get raped. Brutally. If you don’t know what that means, a man forces himself on a woman by beating her down so she is defenseless then has sex with her against her will! How many men are raped by women? How many men are brutally beaten down and raped by a woman? How many hospitals have records of men going in for being brutally beaten by a woman? How many?
‘Removing of Chains’…I don’t want to fear walking down the street and being attacked by a man. I don’t fear being attacked by a woman. I fear being attacked by a man. Why do women have this fear? Because men attack women for being caught cheating by them, lying to them, or just for the fact they are a woman. Men attack women, a lot of times, for no reason at all. They just want to have sex, or they have a fetish to have complete control of a woman. This isn’t made up stuff. This is reality. This isn’t just American men…there is world-wide. Sure men are attacked…mostly by other men.
The statistics of men being attacked by women is astronomically lower than women being attacked by men…hands down! A remark made by one man on this video was something like no one needs to listen to a woman crying abuse because they lie! What does that remark tell you about that man? A lot…for me.
‘Removing of Chains’…Abuse is not gender ridden. I, for one, am very aware of that…but…there’s my but again…men are strong. They are built that way. Their strength is overwhelming giving them the upper hand. The number of women who can do that is very, very low. Our bodies were not designed for muscle strength. The same goes with small children. So, for men to have the argument that oh, my wife beat me is almost absurd. He can easily grab her and hold her so her anger can subside. A woman can’t. I think of all the variables involved.
My case: I slapped the ex’s face [four] times between 2012 and 2013. Why? Defense. I didn’t have this defensive nature in me until I went through basic training. It became a natural thing when someone threatened me to the point of me raising my hands in defense. I had to go through therapy to understand that and to learn I’m not in a war, but I will always have this defensive nature, so I had to learn to control it.
Now, what makes me slapping him in the face different. I didn’t just slap him for just any reason. There was this element of danger when a person gets in your face and won’t stop yelling, calling you names, belittling you to the point of break…over and over. In my natural way, it’s like if you disrespect your grandmother to the point of totally offending her or saying something that is downright against God. She will backhand you before you can take another breath. This is where I’m coming from…from a woman’s point of view.
Is it wrong? Of course, but where does a woman’s defense of herself collide with just pure meanness. There is a huge difference. Now, for those women who have no control over this defensive thing or they have been so abused throughout their life that they just attack on a whim I can’t speak for in detail, but I’ve seen that, too. And I always witnessed the element of the set off...something said or done that set her off. Now if a man didn’t do anything to set her off, then there’s something else going on. I’m not a doctor. I can’t explain that part.
Sometimes people just bring out the worse in each other. That’s not what I’m talking about either. Those people should either figure it out together or go their separate ways. That’s different from being in a relationship and there’s this underlying issue that is just not right. Silent abuse is just that…silent. Until it wakes up the rest of the abusive factors.
If what I write about disturbs you to the point of attacking me, it’s not me. I don’t write because I’m arrogant or hate men. I love my boys, I love the man I’m with, I have male friends that I truly adore…and they all have issues just like me that they have to deal with. The point is: These men I totally respect know how…how…to deal with their pain. They don’t go around smashing girls’ faces in, or killing them.
‘Removing of Chains’…I’ve written many times that anger is a strange thing. It can take hold of us and strip us down to nothing…hence, we become someone else. I’ve read a lot on PTSD. This isn’t just a war thing. Every single person who experienced childhood abuse has PTSD. It could lay dormant for years. I would say 100% of the time that when childhood abuse (be it bullying, abuse of any kind, neglect, rape) comes out, it’s taken out on the one closest to us. That’s fact. We do this because we trust that one person, and because we know deep down inside that our outburst is a cry for help, we hope that that person sees through our bullshit and goes the distance to help us overcome our hurt.
There’s a line to be drawn here. After my initial grieving process, I had to learn not to take my deep hurt out on the ones I truly loved. My children and the sweet man…I had to learn again respect. They have boundaries, too. I learned mine. I had to learn theirs as well. [Since this writing, the sweet man and I are no longer together (over a year now) because of an underlying pain that he hasn’t dealt with. It’s now Jesus’ time with him.]
The chains are what hold us to anger, resentment, hurt, fear…all those negative emotions that come out of abuse (bullying, racism, sexual trauma, physical trauma…being beat up, seeing death in a very gruesome manner, war, being ridiculed and reduced to nothing because of someone else’s words, as well as witnessing abuse and its after affects). All of that hurt, no matter at what age we suffered the damaged, will come out one way or another. Suicide is not the answer. Talking about it and learning how not to hurt others because of our own pain is the answer.
We have to break those chains. If we constantly carry that pain and keep feeding it then we never achieve total peace. We have to be able to lift that hurt off of us. I really didn’t know what that meant at first. I just knew I hurt and this heavy weight sat on me. It felt horrible…and even though I continued to talk about it, it wouldn’t leave. I hurt others by not healing myself…but healing our self takes time and we can only pray that when we make it through, those whom we hurt will forgive us. They don’t see you the same after…this I do know, but, at least, you get to some kind of even ground where you feel okay to be with those people again and you can communicate without an angry heart and without resentment.
This is what my work is about.
We all suffer hurt…and if you haven’t yet, you will. It’s the tests we are put through to build us. The 40s…that’s the age when you are most likely to feel it…and I said most likely…you might have gone through it way before or not at all. It’s not for us to decide. What is for us to decide is how we are going to get through it…and we can’t get through it alone…and you can’t get through it by hurting another human being, or lying about it. Honesty is the only way out of it. I hurt…please help me!…That’s the only way.
‘Removing of Chains’…there are five stages in the grieving process. Grief doesn’t just happen because of a death…someone we love dies. It could happen over losing our homes to natural disasters or losing a friend from a misunderstanding or betraying them, or divorce. Grief is universal. It affects us all…and we all go through the same stages: Denial and isolation, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance. There’s no getting around this. You have to go through all the stages to be healed from the trauma. If you say—No—then you are still in the first stage Denial.
‘Removing of Chains’…is ridding ourselves of the hurt, the pain. It’s when we stop running and start excepting who we are and what we do at that very moment. It’s not needing anything else. It’s being grateful at that moment. It’s a lighter version of you. Of course, that’s when you get really content with yourself and you gain back some weight that depression caused you to lose. For me, I see a pattern. A traditional one. I loss all that weight during my journey through grief. Now I’ve gained it back and I find myself constantly mentioning my weight, I need to exercise, I can’t eat that, I need to eat less, etc., etc. The battle my mom fault all of her adult life.
‘Removing of Chains‘…Mine currently is the idea that I need to be a size 6 to be loved, that I need to take that young-adult care of myself to make my fella look good. I need to get that out of my head. It killed my mother in so many ways. She wouldn’t want that for me. So instead of staring at all that clothes (Size 6), I need to get comfortable with being a 10. I need not to talk about exercise, just do it when I feel good and let it be. This isn’t easy by the way, but a lot of you know this already. I know that I can’t move forward until I remove this chain.
I know what it feels like to have those chains fall to the ground. I felt it at my mom’s funeral. I was light, floating…dealing properly. You can do this, too. First you have to admit it. It is not unmanly, or weak to admit that you are denying pain, or hurt. The worse thing society ever did was teach its boys that it was not good to cry. The worse! It’s okay to show weakness. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to say—I’m depressed. It’s okay to tell your deepest secrets to your girl or a dear friend and it’s okay to let them help.
For men, you have to let them learn you. The same goes for women. It’s so very hard to trust after we’ve been hurt. I know…but…it’s possible. It’s necessary. We can’t stay back there…we must…must…remove the chains that bind our hearts…move forward. Simply trying to throw your hurt on another person…that’s not the answer. It starts with that person staring at you in the mirror. God forgives. As in Psalm 107. He gives us what we can handle.
Sometimes, we just don’t know what we can handle. Trust me, God knows the measurements of our abilities, of our hearts. Trust in that. Ask. There’s a reason you get a heavy burden to carry. Understand that reason and you’ll be okay.
Israel’s Restoration After Punishment—Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good; His love endures forever. Let the redeemed of the Lord say this—those He redeemed from the hand of the foe, those He gathered from the lands, from east and west, from north and south. Some wandered in desert wastelands, finding no way to a city where they could settle. They were hungry and thirsty, and their lives ebbed away. Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and He delivered them from their distress. He led them by a straight way to a city where they could settle. Let them give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love and His wonderful deeds for men, for He satisfies the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things. Some sat in darkness and the deepest gloom, prisoners suffering in iron chains, for they had rebelled against the wishes of God and despised the counsel of the Most High. So He subjected them to bitter labor; they stumbled, and there was no one to help. Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and He saved them from their distress. He brought them out of darkness and the deepest gloom and broke away their chains. Let them give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love and His wonderful deeds for men, for He breaks down gates of bronze and cuts through bars of iron.
Some became fools through their rebellious ways and suffered affliction because of their iniquities. They loathed all food and drew near the gates of death. Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and He saved them from their distress. He sent forth His word and healed them; He rescued them from the grave. Let them give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love and His wonderful deeds for men. Let them sacrifice thank offerings and tell of His works with songs of joy. Others went out on the sea in ships; they were merchants on the mighty waters. They saw the works of the Lord, His wonderful deeds in the deep. For He spoke and stirred up a tempest that lifted high the waves. They mounted up to the heavens and went down to the depths; in their peril their courage melted away. They reeled and staggered like drunken men; they were at their wits’ end. Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and He brought them out of their distress. He stilled the storm to a whisper, the waves of the sea were hushed. They were glad when it grew calm, and He guided them to their desired haven. Let them give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love and His wonderful deeds for men.
Let them exalt Him in the assembly of the people and praise Him in the council of the elders. He turned rivers into a desert, flowing springs into thirsty ground, and fruitful land into a salt waste, because of the wickedness of those who lived there. He turned the desert into pools of water and the parched ground into flowing springs; there He brought the hungry to live, and they founded a city where they could settle. They sowed fields and planted vineyards that yielded a fruitful harvest; He blessed them, and their numbers greatly increased, and He did not let their herds diminish. Then their numbers decreased, and they were humbled by oppression, calamity and sorrow; He who pours contempt on nobles made them wander in a trackless waste. But He lifted the needy out of their affliction and increased their families like flocks. The upright see and rejoice, but all the wicked shut their mouths. Whoever is wise, let him heed these things and consider the great love of the Lord.—Psalm 107
The following works are direct writings from God and Jesus, meaning I heard them speak and these words are not mine.
God: (2019) ‘A Bid for the People‘, A Prophet’s Dew‘, ‘Brave in the Snatch‘ (bus story warning), ‘Prophecy’s Awakeness‘, Tests of Worth‘; (2020) ‘Blessings‘, ‘Busy‘, ‘Death-Toll Rise’, ‘Failure’s Birth‘, ‘Fallen Traps’, ‘From Left to Right’, ‘God† is Father‘, ‘He† Speaks‘, ‘He† Speaks to Me‘, ‘His† Fellowship’, ‘His† Pardon‘, ‘His† Time‘, ‘I Am Truth’s Voice‘ (3 separate messages from both), ‘Initiation‘, ‘No Exchanges: Your Masks for Mine‘, ‘Noose‘, ‘On the Ground‘, ‘Open Structure‘, ‘Pillage of Souls’, ‘Pleading for Audience‘, ‘Smells of Manure‘ (both), ‘Spinning Heart‘, ‘The Lord’s† Will‘, ‘The Seer’, ‘Twenty, Twenty‘ (commentary), ‘Uprest: Non-Negotiable’, ‘What Is: Is!‘, ‘Who Am I?’
Jesus: (2019) ‘His† Spirit’; (2020) ‘Decided‘, ‘Foreseeing’s Agony’, ‘He† Breathes‘, ‘He† Speaks Softly’, ‘Inhuman Love’ [Jesus’ words in commentary], ‘Love Exists’, ‘My Feet‘, ‘Rotten Figs‘, ‘Sheba’s Matter‘, ‘Slow it Down‘, ‘Small Miracle‘, ‘Spiritual Blessing‘, Stamped Heart‘, ‘Swagger’s Dance‘, ‘The Adjunct‘, ‘The Clown‘, ‘The Sound of Songs‘, ‘Words’ Song‘, ‘You’ve Come‘,
Dreams/Visions: (August 2019) Visions; (2020) March 22: Four Disc Dream, ‘Hard-head’ (Jack-ass vision),‘This ‘If’ By-Law’ (Apr. 25: Virus Vision), June 17, 2020: Black Body Bag Vision, June 26: U.S. Presidential Wake Vision; April 11: the Jackass Dream; January 21: Aladdin’s Genie Lamp
Below is a list of all the pages and subpages included on God’s Mercy
August 2019: Visions From God!; June 17, 2020: Black Body Bag Vision; June 26: Presidential Wake Vision; April 11: the Jackass Dream; January 21: Aladdin’s Genie Lamp; David: My Spiritual Guide; God Sends Love Orbs; God, the Sun and Me; October 23, 2019: The Dragon and the All-Seeing Eye; November 11, 2019 : The Avenging Angel; December 10, 2019: The Dragon, Angel, Mom and Baby; Jesus’ Army and Jesus Sprinkles; March 1, 2020: Jesus Speaks and Reveals
My 5:55 Lake Visits: Messages Through Photographs; September 27, 2019: Love From Heaven; October 2, 2019: Wave Warning; October 7, 2019: Faces; October 8, 2019: Oil Spill Warning; October 15, 2019: The Phoenix; November 9, 2019: Certainty of Visions; Feb. 9, 2020: Rough Waters…Millions Will Die; My Aura: The Love of Jesus; The Rainbow Story: God’s Promise In the Sky (Will remain unpublished until it happens.); The Third Eye (Spiritual Gifts)