‘Crucifying Jesus†’

Persecution. I was led to the Acts in the Bible today. The historical account of what happened to Peter and the rest of them who initially was appointed to tell the world about their experience, their testimony, about Jesus Christ. Nothing much has changed!

Note: The purple ray that you see in the picture that accompanies this writing is the purple love of Jesus. It is a blessing that He is placing on the 2 orbs inside of the red bubble. Those 2 orbs represent 2 people whom God has already married. There is a marriage under God and a marriage under man. You will know who these 2 people are, I’m told, in the near future. I already know. (I’m told to write this because of my self-doubt. It is dated now as everything else I’m told to write. It is for the sole purpose of revealing truth to me, personally, and to you. I can’t deny my self-doubt because I can’t see how this will happen, but in God and in Jesus, everything is possible. In Jesus’ name, Amen.)

 Crucifying Jesus†
I'm part of the body
‒that of Christ†
the head
the bullying of me
is the bullying of Him†
the name calling...judgment
of me
is the judgment of Him†
I am special
for He† is special
if am part of Him†
He† lives
inside of me
I am in Christ†
Christ† is in me

you forsake His† name
deny His† claim
I shall speak‒
all the same
–for He† removed my chains
as to peter‒
the angel came
you crucify Jesus†
when you crucify me
you ignore Jesus†
when you ignore me
your faith is tested
‒as mine
I cry for you
as your doubt...revealed
no longer can you conceal
a heart...wasted
I am in Christ†
Christ† is in me

not just words
someone once heard
but forever in flight
the light
‒the saving bird
who gave His† life
–to redeem the world

(October 6, 2019)—Persecution. I was led to the following Scriptures today. Acts. The historical account of what happened to Peter and the rest of them who initially was appointed to tell the world about their experience, their testimony, about Jesus Christ. Nothing much has changed!

I say I’m told to write about how I feel. I hate writing how I feel. I used to not, but that was before the veils were lifted and I had this I-don’t-give-a-damn kind of heart. Things are different. God told me that now…there will be no more veils put on me. I must deal with my resentment of how others behave towards me and what they have done to me in the past. Currently, I’m told not to meditate, to wait…and write.

In ‘Crucifying Jesus†’, I wrote ‘I am in Christ†, Christ† is in me’. These words were put into my heart when I first heard Jesus’ voice. I was overwhelmed with Him. I couldn’t wait to tell the world that He was so real, and so humble, and so…everything! I never dreamed that by revealing this, I’d be worse off than I was before…crucified!

How? How is it that after all this time, He is still crucified? How many others out there in this great big ole world are crucified because they spoke, they told that Jesus spoke through them and this crucifixion made them go into silence?

I’ve seen this light that Peter saw. Three times in my life. I didn’t have to question from whom this light was from. I just knew. When I saw this light behind a man, a human being, I knew God wanted something from him. I knew that I was part of this journey. I had no idea how difficult it would be. God didn’t want me to know. Why? Because I am human. I would run so fast from it. So…He veiled me from that knowledge.

Peter Responds to QuestionsThe apostles and the brothers throughout Judea heard that the Gentiles also had received the word of God. So when Peter went up to Jerusalem, the circumcised believers criticized him and said, ‘You went into the house of uncircumcised men and ate with them.’ Peter began and explained everything to them precisely as it had happened: ‘I was in the city of Joppa praying, and in a trance I saw a vision I saw something like a large sheet being let down from heaven by its four corners and it came down to where I was. I looked into it and saw four-footed animals of the earth, wild beasts, reptiles, and birds of the air. Then I heard a voice telling me, ‘Get up, Peter. Kill and eat.’ I replied, ‘Surely not, Lord! Nothing impure or unclean has ever entered my mouth.’ The voice spoke from heaven a second time, ‘Do not call anything impure that God has made clean.’ This happened three times, and then it was all pulled up to heaven again.

‘Right then three men who had been sent to me from Caesarea stopped at the house where I was staying. The Spirit told me to have no hesitation about going with them. These six brothers also went with me, and we entered the man’s house. He told us how he had seen an angel appear in his house and say, ‘Send to Joppa for Simon who is called Peter. He will bring you a message through which you and all your household will be saved.’ As I began to speak, the Holy Spirit came on them as he had come on us at the beginning. Then I remembered what the Lord had said: ‘John baptized with water, but you will be baptized with the Holy Spirit.’ So if God gave them the same gift as he gave us, who believed in the Lord Jesus Christ, who was I to think that I could oppose God?’ When they heard this, they had no further objections and praised God, saying, ‘So then, God has granted even the Gentiles repentance unto life.’—Acts 11:1-18 (Jerusalem)

NOTES:  I cry over the sad results of God’s words. No one listens. No one hears. The criticizing things said to me by those I love…I can’t even imagine what those who don’t know me are saying. I have a mental disease. That’s what I’m told. I hear voices in my head…thus I need serious therapy. This hasn’t changed for over 2,019 years. Can you just imagine how Jesus felt when He had to say He was THE SON of GOD!?

He did miracles in the front of people. And they crucified Him all the same. I’m told that I’m writing all of this because I want to feel special, I want attention. How? Anyone who’s ever said that God or Jesus is speaking through them has been crucified one way or another! Jesus said to love. Because of His name…instead…people hate!

What is WRONG with you? You HATE instead of LOVE! You hate because of skin color. You hate because of people’s past mistakes. You hate because of society. You hate because you can’t face your own truth, so you judge others who just love you. You hate because of other people’s lies. You hate because you, yourself, can’t pick up a Bible and read it. Instead, you’d rather be told…and thus you are told lies! You are lazy. And you hate even to admit that. So…you hate those who do DO the work. You hate those whom God sends to reveal HIS truth…because you hate yourself for you have failed HIM! You are too lazy to pray, to seek Jesus…GOD’s given EASY way to the light! Strange are YOU!

Gospel Preached in AntiochNow those who had been scattered by the persecution in connection with Stephen traveled as far as Phoenicia, Cyprus, and Antioch, telling the message only to Jews. Some of them, however, men from Cyprus and Cyrene, went to Antioch and began to speak to Greeks also, telling them the good news about the Lord Jesus. The Lord’s hand was with them, and a great number of people believed and turned to the Lord.—Acts 11:19-21

NOTES: From the beginning, persecution…constantly! You go to church. You say, ‘Thank you God’ when something good happens, or when horrible things come to you…you beg for His help, but you don’t stay. You forget that God is there. You don’t even recognize His Son. You don’t know who the Holy Spirit is. You don’t invite Him into your life. You are embarrassed to talk about either One of the Them! Yet, you cross yourself and say, ‘In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.’ You don’t even know who They are!

Barnabas and Soul in AntiochNews of this reached the ears of the church at Jerusalem, and they sent Barnabas to Antioch. When he arrived and saw the evidence of the grace of God, he was glad and encouraged them all to remain true to the Lord with all their hearts. He was a good man, full of the Holy Spirit and faith, and a great number of people were brought to the Lord. Then Barnabas went to Tarsus to look for Saul, and when he found him, he brought him to Antioch. So for a whole year Barnabas and Saul met with the church and taught great numbers of people. The disciples were called Christians first at Antioch.—Acts 11:22-26 (Antioch)

NOTES:  I keep telling you that being a Christian is NOT a church…it IS a state of being. It’s being saved under the One true Savior: Jesus Christ. But you don’t listen. You blow me off. God has stepped in again. I’m so sorry that you don’t believe that.

Agabus Predicts FamineDuring this time some prophets came down from Jerusalem to Antioch. One of them, named Agabus, stood up and through the Spirit predicted that a severe famine would spread over the entire Roman world. (This happened during the reign of Claudius.)—Acts 11:27-28 (Antioch)

NOTES:  They didn’t believe either. God’s timing is not ours. He gives people time to redeem themselves. I was told, ‘What happens if what you said does not happen? What will you do then?’ How much of a hypocrite to say such a thing? God gives us all time to return to Him. He waits. His patience is beyond measure. In the times of the biblical writings, He’s given hundreds of years between visions and it actually happening. You don’t seem to understand this. Sometimes, it’s only weeks or months.

I’m told the visions He sent to me will happen in 2019. I’ve gotten on my knees and cried for this not to be true. If it doesn’t happen, what will I do? Rejoice! Rejoice! because I saw all the people dead. I saw their bodies every where. What is wrong with you? Do you think I WANTED to see that? Do you think I WANT that to happen? I’ve cried so much in the past month because it was so devastating to have seen that! You are the most heartless people! Your faith is so weak!

Gift Taken to JerusalemThe disciples, each according to his ability, decided to provide help for the brothers living in Judea. This they did, sending their gift to the elders by Barnabas and Saul.—Acts 11:29,30 (Jerusalem)

NOTES:  We are all supposed to be helping each other. If God sends visions, dreams, telling one of us something, we are to share it, guide the others back to Him. I don’t understand your minds. That evil whore has so many of you entrapped that you don’t even see it! How? Where is your faith? Why read a Bible or go into a church if you can’t even believe in your heart when God sends a message to you?

James KilledIt was about this time that King Herod arrested some who belonged to the church, intending to persecute them. He had James, the brother of John, put to death with the sword. When he saw that this pleased the Jews, he proceeded to seize Peter also. This happened during the Feast of Unleavened Bread. After arresting him, he put him in prison, handing him over to be guarded by four squads of four soldiers each. Herod intended to bring him out for public trial after the Passover. So Peter was kept in prison, but the church was earnestly praying to God for him.—Acts 12:1-5 (Jerusalem)

NOTES: This is just ONE account of death because of Jesus in the BIBLE! Today, that evil whore is killing over and over those who believe in Jesus! Those people are called Christians. And when God sends you a message, this time through me, you fail to listen. How is this possible? Do you fear that evil whore more than you fear GOD!? Don’t you know that GOD controls all? That HE IS ALL? He allows that evil whore to fuck with you! He brings the wrath upon you! Don’t you comprehend this?

In this passage, do you see the hypocrites? They were practicing God’s holy days while persecuting one who was talking about HIS SON!

*Angel Rescues PeterThe night before Herod was to bring him to trial, Peter was sleeping between two soldiers, bound with two chains, and sentries stood guard at the entrance. Suddenly an angel of the Lord appeared and a light shown in the cell. He struck Peter on the side and woke him up. ‘Quick, get up!’ he said, and the chains fell off Peter’s wrists. Then the angel said to him, ‘Put on your clothes and sandals.’ And Peter did so. ‘Wrap your cloak around you and follow me,’ the angel told him. Peter followed him out of the prison, but he had no idea that what the angel was doing was really happening; he thought he was seeing a vision. They passed the first and second guards and came to the iron gate leading to the city. It opened for them by itself, and they went through it. When they had walked the length of one street, suddenly the angel left him. Then Peter came to himself and said, ‘Now I know without a doubt that the Lord sent His angel and rescued me from Herod’s clutches and from everything the Jewish people were anticipating.’—Acts 12:6-11

NOTES: Veils. God’s In Charge. Over and over in the Bible, that would be the book that God wrote…GOD WROTE through His WRITERS!…He reveals to you His power. He gave you His Son. He gave you His book! He made it so easy for you to go to heaven. You’ve failed Him. And He is STILL doing you justice by warning you what is coming, and you ignore. You crucify me…because, what, I’m not worthy…I’m insane…yet, you are struggling and He’s given me an income and an apartment and restored my heart. You STILL don’t see.

He sent all those messages. Warning you through visions, through PICTURES…STILL you don’t see. I told Him, ‘You know Lord, in today’s world, they lock people up for speaking the way I am.’ Then He shows me these Scriptures over and over again. Sad, nothing has changed. The Jews, the biggest hypocrites of them all. And I’m not judging. ‘Thou Shall NOT Kill!’ And they have persecuted and killed over and over again! Shame! That they preach the Torah, but they don’t believe in it. Shame! They bang their heads at the wall, they wear all this holy clothes but they don’t truly believe in God! Shame! No matter what Jesus sends, they will all go to the pit. And SHAME that so many in this world believe them instead of GOD!

You know what? That last line in this Scripture…God has been testing the hell out of me. And I cry for my self-doubt. Then He shows me Peter…who saw it ALL and had doubt. So, He’s telling me that it’s okay, to not cry so much because at the end of the day, I will still write for HIM. I will still tell the truth no matter what names they call me, no matter how much they deny me or what God is revealing through me. God knows I’ll suffer, willingly, because when all’s said and done, this body…dies…stops working…but my soul…lives on. So persecute away! It is YOU who is placing judgment. It is YOUR marks. I will accept more scars on my heart because of your persecution. Those are the scars you see in all those pictures. You caused those. And YOU have to answer to God.

Added Note: On the morning of August 25th, I was awakened by a jolt, 3 times. I was sent visions of the plates moving. Then I head a voice, ‘Prophesize!’ I don’t know how to prophesize, but I understood the urgency in the tone of that voice. So, I wrote like I usually do but with more force almost all day long. What would you do? Would you ignore such a thing? I was told that day, August 25th, the button was pushed. I saw what that means. You didn’t. I saw it. I saw the people dead every where.

When have you heard in the 21st Century someone saying such things as these? I never have. I read about people’s predictions…a term maybe replacing the word prophesy. However the case, you seem to believe predictions only when they happen. I guess, this, too, will only be believed when it happens. So weak is the faith of the world. In one Scripture I recently wrote about, Jesus asked will He find faith on earth when He returns? I recon He already knew the answer to that.

Peter Tells of DeliveranceWhen this had dawned on him, he went to the house of Mary the mother of John, also called Mark, where many people had gathered and were praying. Peter knocked at the outer entrance and a servant girl named Rhoda came to answer the door. When she recognized Peter’s voice, she was so overjoyed she ran back without opening it and exclaimed, ‘Peter is at the door!’ ‘You’re out of your mind,’ they told her. When she kept insisting that it was so, they said, ‘It must be his angel.’ But Peter kept on knocking, and when they opened the door and saw him, they were astonished. Peter motioned with his hand for them to be quiet and described how the Lord had brought him out of prison. ‘Tell James and the brothers about this,’ he said, and then he left for another place.—Acts 12:12-17

NOTES: They, at first, denied the truth. They had to see! God showed His power in my testimony, but you did not believe. Because I am not HOLY enough for you? But you don’t understand that everything that I’ve written about, everything that I put on social media and on here was HIM…using me to reveal HIM. Every single person who reveals their story is revealing how HE works and you condemn them, bully them. YOU ARE BULLYING JESUS AND GOD!

He WANTS people to reveal their pain. He WANTS people to reveal their story. He recently showed His power in my son’s life. Then HE revealed Himself by all those who helped my son out in his time of need. Did you thank God and JESUS for that? Did you not see that that whole ordeal was THEM? How…HOW can you be SO BLIND?

He used me to reveal HIMSELF with the sweet man. I didn’t write all that stuff just because I’m seeking attention. I’m not that type of person. I just wanted privacy. You don’t know how many nights I’ve cried and cried because I didn’t want to write this. But He put it into my heart to do so. You don’t know how many nights I’ve cried over what I had to say to the sweet man, but I had to. His soul is that important to God, to Jesus. All everyone saw was a poor black man causing me abuse. But you didn’t see what God saw. You didn’t see the role I had to play for GOD to reach him. ALL for YOU, as a people, to heal. You DO NOT see how GOD uses us all for the better of us ALL! THE BODY OF CHRIST!

I asked God, ‘Is there not just ONE person on earth who can love me, who loves you?’ He has kept me alone, revealing the answer…so far, NO! How is that possible? There are billions of people on this earth, and NOT ONE? Instead…they persecute because I’ve revealed that I write and speak for God and Jesus. Sad! Because MAN has deemed who can and cannot speak for God. His answer: YOU ARE WRONG!

Author: k. e. leger

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