‘Roaming Notion’ (Yeshuah)

‘Roaming Notion’ (Yeshuah)…The most holy place of the temple is the heart. This is where everything with sincerity is taught from.

Roaming Notion (Yeshuah)

power is a craving
one sought after
with a vengeance

how can you know
who is seeking
unless death
is at hand

'o wavering sect
which power 
to affirm

the Father's† or man's

what is in power
that drives man
to want to overpower
God†

I†  couldn't overpower Him†
even if I† tried
His† plans are beyond man's
His† powers are beyond eyes
beyond the mind

I† am
therefore you are

the natural balance
of things
are not as you perceive
it is of the universe
a far holier ground
than you can ever imagine

it is pure and absolute
an unprecedented fathom
beyond human condition
beyond human understanding

what you see
is what is meant
for you to see

a vastness so grand
amounting
to not even
every grain of sand

you are small
a spec
in the eyes
of God†

'o wayward one
you try so hard
to decipher Him†
how can you be so dull
it is a waste of time

I† knew this
as man
I† knew
not to overcome it

His† rage is like a thief
quick and phantom like
there and not there
so quick
that it is easy
to blame man
for His† vengeance

His† love is the same way
although it is
often
mistaken for hate

it is not

it is revealing
denoting
upright
and true


what you perceive
is not always
what it seems

you have to look
with good eyes
to look beyond
what man sees
and see
what God† sees

His† eyes are true
just and fair

redeemable
He† sees
and sends what's needed
for the redeem

open wide
your eyes
see
beyond the hear
His† world
is beyond yours

it is I†
the one who came
to save
before I† take

and I† have that right
to take
to do what I† please
according to marks
left in place
the ones you ignored
for pity and self-righteousness
for arrogance and pride
for stubbornness
greed and hate

all of these dark circles
have to be purged
from your heart
time is of the essence
important

how can I† save
if you don't hear or see
how can the Son†
honor a Father's† wish
without the sincere
cooperation
of the soul

I† am
therefore you are

are you willing?

if you are willing
I† am willing

if you are not willing
to the fiery furnace
remains your place
so enjoy luxury and comfort
while in the body
while on earth

it is all the prize
you will get

you have time
but how much time
to redeem, to repent
see God†
as God† is
and not how you want
to see God†

His† graces comes
at your redemption
at your repentance

sell all your riches
feed the hungry
clothe the poor
help the sick, the lame
comfort the imprisoned
for their repentance
comes through you

it is I†
the way and the light
Yeshuah†
the Son† of He†
the creator

I† am in Him†
as you are in Me†

there's still time
but this time is that time
and all the time
in between

more words come
a chance in redemption
is given
don't waste the chance
given
for it won't be given
much longer

the words are comfort
use them to comfort
and heal
bypass lies
and seek truth

I† am truth
it is I†

Notes: The photograph David chose is from October 23, 2019: The Dragon and the All-Seeing Eye. In this particular set of photographs, you have to understand that I had no intention on traveling so far to go for my walk. This park is in North Las Vegas. It was like I had to go there. Also the sprinklers. David had told me to run. I was clean across the park when he told me this and this is the first time I ever saw these sprinklers on. As soon as the photo session was over, they went off! If you count the crosses, where the streams of water cross each other, there are exactly seven. You can go and read the page. I was given a message about the seven churches mentioned in the Revelations. These churches are assumed to be in Asia, but David asked me what does Asia mean. It means ‘under the sun‘. The seven churches under the sun. He said that the seven churches are beginning. They hadn’t existed before. They are beginning. These are not buildings or official organizations. This was the reason why I was led to this park on this day.

Special Note: I thought I’d point out that after my week of prayer, which I was instructed to go in to, a writing has come every day. I don’t know what this means, but something seems to be coming. Like these writings are extremely important. I’m just telling you how I feel. After all, this is happening to my person for you.

(April 28, 2022)—I received ‘Roaming Notion’ early and then the last paragraph of Ezekiel 42:1-14 was pointed out to me and explained. It was important that I put this up early. There’s a nervousness that I feel, an anxiousness, a nauseousness…it is what you make of it, but it seems extremely important for you to have this as soon as possible.

‘…Then he said to me, ‘The north and south rooms facing the temple courtyard are the priests’ rooms, where the priests who approach the Lord will eat the most holy offerings. There they will put the most holy offerings—the grain offerings, the sin offerings and the guilt offerings—for the place is holy. Once the priests enter the holy precincts, they are not to go into the outer court until they leave behind the garments in which they minister, for these are holy. They are to put on other clothes before they go near the places that are for the people.—Ezekiel 42:1-14

The most holy place of the temple is the heart. This is where everything with sincerity is taught from. This is where we offer or deal with our guilt, our shame, our sins, our honesty—all things. This is where we replace all our pride, ego, hate, anger, etc., etc. with love. This is the most holy of places and the only place where through love we abandon evil. Here is where our most sacred love lives. We are not to abuse this love, or scorn it. It is the place where God lives. To abuse this place is to abuse God. It is most sacred, most holy. It is the essence of life.

You can read all of the visions, dreams and words, as well as see all the images and see the time frame in which they were given by clicking on Message Index.

‘Dreams Upon Dreams’ (Yeshuah)

‘Dreams Upon Dreams’ (Yeshuah)…They don’t see Earth as God does. She is His lady, His footstool, His creation. The Potter’s clay constantly evolving. She matters more than you. You respect her. He respects you. It is that simple.

Dreams Upon Dreams (Yeshuah)

imaginations are vast
there are good ones
there are bad ones
to learn the difference
takes humbleness

what is humbleness
it is simple
respecting earth
and all that she is

it is respecting people
understanding
the vast amounts
of differences
accepting

staying focused
on the Lord's† words
and all that He† says
all His† truth

not parts of it
to suit your situation
not parts of it
to make light
of your darkened thoughts

it is I†
the one that adhered
to all His† commands
as I†, Jesus†, had to give
new commands
but
staying with the old

I† had to stick
to His† word
the Father†
while giving new
by replacing old
with one
love

it is not easy
stripping a tradition
from under stiff-necked
people
who like how previous
generations
molded their own ways
into the Father's ways

these ways of man
are not the Father's† ways

these ways of man
all from the imagination
of man
their own ways
to make their selfishness
seem righteousness

it isn't

building on high places
sitting in high places
are ways of man
ways of the world
and the strongest way
to see what lies
in a human's heart

comfort can come
from many things
things don't breathe
they just sit there
monuments of stuff
not helping anyone

comfort comes from
what breathes

humbleness doesn't come
from things
it comes from what is
how you use the imagination
for the good of man
from all aspects
not some
all


if what you imagine
disrespects earth
in any way
but brings comfort
to man
by things
it is a defeated purpose
a helpless try
disguised in wealth
of the world

the poorest of the poor
have My† sympathy
if only they would ask
My† giving
is simple
to keep you humble
to keep your soul safe

it is not in riches
that you find this kind
of 'safe'

be well with your life
understand
right and wrong
adhere to right
even if wrong
the tempter's song
bullies you
teases you
right is the way
wrong is of the world

the imagination
a vastness of thoughts
has to be sorted
prayed on
and wondered about

just because millions
of people
want what you imagined
doesn't make it right

I† am He†
the one and only Son†
go in peace
then peace I'll† give you

Note: The photograph chosen is from October 7, 2019: Faces. I didn’t realize this until moments ago. The two big X’s…Jesus! As well as the four corners of Earth. You should know what that means.

(April 23, 2022)—I was awakened twice this morning. Once at 2:22 and once at 4:44. No joke. Then this morning I got 22 and 44 again. I’ve been up to ‘a thing’ lately. In fact, just the last few days. It’s a testing of sorts. I’m looking at buying a house. I’m not wealthy by any means. I live on a fixed income and I make do. In my mind, this house is extraordinary. I can have a vivid imagination and design beautiful things when I want or desire. It’s just that: Thoughts. What God has in mind, and I’ve always known, is simplicity. Humbleness. So, in the process of buying this house, which I’ve gone through the steps of the pre-approval process and picking a place that is simple, but being careful of what I asked for, because I’m fighting these thoughts of ‘much‘. It isn’t easy in the world that we live in.

It’s a test. Am I humble enough to accept what God gives me? or Will I live in disappointment, regret, want? This house that was put before me is not how I’m used to living. I am rather spoiled. So, I’ve been getting questioned on this. And this ‘questioning‘ has me thinking about the ‘way‘ and the potter. I often think, ‘What is He molding me to become?‘ Then today ‘Dreams Upon Dreams’ and AFTER, Jeremiah 18:1-17 and the Potter! Nothing is by accident.

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‘A Trustworthy Song’ (God)

A Trustworthy Song (God)…’I look for a man among them who would build up the wall and stand before Me in the gap on behalf of the land so I would not have to destroy it, but I found none. So I will pour out My wrath on them and consume them with My fiery anger, bring down on their own heads all they have done, declares the Sovereign Lord.’—Ezekiel 22:17-31

A Trustworthy Song (God)

how do you get
from point A to point B
without the absence
of forget

all the places in between
do you just let
slip pass
without a moment's notice
‒a chance to see something new
gone
without a thought
in slip

how can this be

it is

to get you
to not notice
something
a bunch of something
anything
has to be put before you

for you to miss
this one something
a bunch of nothing
has to be put in its way

there's so much for you to notice
that the thing to notice
gets missed

what if there's something
really big
‒a careful gesture
hidden right before your eyes
then a 'lot' of anything
has to surround
without you noticing
the big something
hidden in plain view

it is of this magnitude
deception lies
the unnoticed
hidden amongst the noticed
hence, why there is so much stuff
so much information

you are being redirected
your eyes
from the possibility of notion
time absent of time
a tom-foolery conception
of exalted proportions

you must find this
ample onlooker

you must discover
its hidden agenda
its multitude of stats

its range of precepts

confusion is massive
its range is undetectable
its power vast

a time is coming
a time after the in between

the surrender has its form
completely
eyes are being redirected
to what's most fitting

it is I†, the Lord Almighty God†
the Father†, the creator

to turn one's back
on His† children
is something I† cannot do

the discipline at hand
is note worthy
per My† scribe
for the future generations
those yet to come
their path is being paved
a journey set
without an ability to change

it’s a worldly matter
one set long ago

hidden piles of rubbish
hidden piles of secrets

do you not think I† know?

I† do.

like a well-oiled machine
working day and night
stopping from time to time
for maintenance
it eventually wears out
as all things do

'o unhumbled nations
all your vacation resorts
all your cars and planes
but nothing compares
to energy being burned
for a money
you cannot see

'o hail to your faultiness
your incompetence
for believing the iron
being put around
your neck!

for I† 'am' making you believe
it is true
as discipline for your prideful
imbalance
for your lustfulness
for your drive for idols
that do not breathe

I† breathe!

billions, billions of people
now incur My† mountain
inhabitants that are pure
lustfulness
full of sexual immorality
full of hatred
taking what doesn't belong
to them
injuring justice and
her beautiful ways
inciting My† words to make
you more
instead of inciting them 
for Me†!

ón ni ón dá

here is My† word:

a prediction doesn't stand
a prophecy stands until
it comes to pass
‒says the Lord Almighty God†

a prediction is tid-bits of hope
in divination
prophecy, all of them
are war through words
power from Me† to the pen

sync chee ve

audacity demands
incompetence
carelessness
vagueness
all leading to destruction

you mess with things
outside your boundaries
you get My† jealous rage

on goes those who seek Me†
for money
in pretension of grace

foul! are you!

your buildings will fall
'o you church builders
of man

I† am not done with
the preliminary discipline
a four and five
a count before My† eye
millions more will die
billions and billions
cannot stay alive
a plague, a shake
the beginning of the mark
made long ago
but misdirected
into man's prideful harm
into lustful desires
sneaky, malicious ways

the balance thrown
a balance in reset
a change in range
slow but precise
for I† never miss My† mark
‒says the Lord Almighty God†

the alpha comes
then comes omega
then the alpha
then the omega

Note: David chose this photograph after several of my face that I really didn’t want to use. This is from October 2, 2019: Wave Warning.

(April 1, 2022)—Ezekiel 22:1-16 and Ezekiel 22:17-31…that is what I was led to right after the words finished coming! He’s speaking so loud and so few are hearing. Notice the word ‘gap‘ at the end of Ezekiel 22:17-31. As I explained in one of the writings at the end of March, God does this wide, upside down U with my head in prayer. He calls it ‘the gap’. He has explained this gap to me since 2019. It is the time between the virus and the warnings from the visions of 2019. Today, it was put into my heart to go walking. When I got to the walking trail, David said, ‘Look up,’ and there was the gap! A huge upside down U in the sky! As He had me explain in an earlier writing, we are in this GAP!

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‘Unleavened’ (Yeshuah)

‘Unleavened’ (Yeshuah)…Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind…―Romans 12:1,2

Unleavened (Yeshuah)

We† always tell you
the right thing
truth never comes easy
but it comes
and it never forsakens

lies wipe over the earth
like a carefully placed
grandmother's blanket
neatly stitched
carefully woven
with great care and love

its deceiving magnitude
is unsettling
it makes the heart pound
the heart knows the wrong
but follows any way
‒for the collection
the heart will do anything
for it needs to be
with more

unleavened
to be without
to stand apart
without the collection
to not be so fluffy
so tasty
to be what most
don't want

a sacrifice

it is I†
I† tell the truth

Yeshuah†
'your' Jesus†
the arrogance of the times

be unleavened

Notes: The photograph David chose is from November 9, 2019: Certainty of Visions. If you are blind, you won’t see the drawing. As I pointed out on this page, God revealed His speed and His creative genius on the water behind me. This is of a lady leaning against a post with her legs down in front of her. She’s is holding what looks like two children.

(March 22, 2022)―After ‘Unleavened’, He led me to a set of Scripture that has been pointed out to us a lot in the last three years: Romans 12:1-13:14. Love. I won’t go over each Scripture here. I’ve written a lot about them already. What I will briefly talk about is Love.

You can’t say you love or as Yeshuah says, ‘In love,’ if you are lying, deceiving, manipulating…i.e. having a malicious heart. God hates a malicious heart. If you are covering up lies, deception, hate, greed…you are not in love. You are NOT living IN love.

I see it all the time. I hear it all the time. So much that God called for me to have a media black out because it’s too much. I agree.

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‘A Watchman’s Journey’

‘A Watchman’s Journey’….But if you do warn the wicked man to turn from his ways and he does not do so, he will die for his sin, but you will have saved yourself.―Ezekiel 33:1-9

 A Watchman's Journey
  
 He† called to me
  
 write what I say
 write what you see
  
 bringing me to words
 already shown
 already written
 so new words
 can flow
 and His† light
 continues to glow
  
 He† shows me what's lies
 He† shows me what's right
 as for me
 tears fall through the night
  
 the button's been pushed
 there's no turning back
  
 as from power
 He† removed the agitator
 and installed the second enabler
  
 I watch in wonder
 His† wonder
 as His plague moves
 ‒as He† said
 riots and chaos
 fires and crowds
  
 I watch His† wonder‒
 doing all the things
 He† had me write about
 ‒as I have to bite my tongue
 as He† puts before me
 false prophets
 mocking Him†
 for money and fame
  
 confusion is set
  
 He† tells me
 as Jesus† sends words
 to teach
  
 heal...His† primary demand
 heal hearts plagued with shame
 Jesus' words to get
 ‒hanging onto them
 like a leech
 bypassing man's interpretations
 for the divine
 ‒where only truth
 I find
  
 He† called me
 He† opened my ears
 He† opened my eyes
 after He† resurrected 
 my I
  
 now it's only His† time
 that I make time
 for what He† has shown
 all nations headed to doom
 is coming
 ‒with zero power
 in stopping 

Note: The top photograph was taken September 13, 2019: Messages byway of the Sun: My 5:55 Lake Visits. You can laugh and say all the markings that David points out and I write about are just camera tricks, etc., etc. God, through all of this, sends me signs because He says, ‘You’re human.’ So after the big visions and preparing me for massive amounts of photographs and why He was doing this, He did what He did to the second photograph. This was a set of three photographs my sister put together many moons ago, way before 2012, for Mother’s Day. It had a glass front but during one of my moves, the glass broke. So, I had set the photograph on my dresser and when I returned home from one of these photo-taking adventures, there it was. The symbols you see there where NOT part of the photographs before! They just appeared. The orb on my daughter’s mouth and the symbol on mine is telling me that it is our mouths that keep us apart! My mouth affects her mouth. With my son, it’s what I say that affects His mind and that I need to think more about him! In the first picture the symbol is on my forehead. God calls me Truth. The symbol is in between my eyes. Later, as you can witness in the photographs of my face during this receiving the third eye, the photographs that David allows me to see him, is between my eyes or covering the top of my eyes. I’m told that ALL the symbols in these pictures as well as the sun’s reflective rays on the water have meaning. It’s a math thing. I’m not math. He said that there are people in this world who know what they are. I will leave that to them. My job was just to take the pictures and post them for the world, all nations, to have access to them. I did my part.

(July 1, 2021)—I’m tired. I know what I hear and I know what I see and it is exhausting trying to get anyone to listen. They don’t care. They want to spend all their energy blaming and accusing yet they have not one bit of reasoning behind actually protecting their lives. They bitched about the masks, called everyone who wore them sheep, controlled hypocrites. Then they complied, but…but…they hated being the SAME. Vaccines…of the rush kind…all those screaming sheep ran to get those vaccines.

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‘Being Accepted’

*I feel ashamed in a way for not totally seeing the truth. I saw some of it…the yelling and belittling constantly, but not the threats. I won’t celebrate that. I won’t honor that. If that business is going to be rewarded by those who HAVE to fit in, then they don’t have a business with me! I will not reward evil. Sorry, God made me a bit different!

 Being Accepted
  
 they'll rally together
 cast you out‒
 all those you knew
 ‒as in the testament
 of the crucifier
 a symbol...in justifier
  
 there will be excuses
 or they'll just block you out
 ‒either way...does it matter
 they'll still reveal
 their inside character
  
 ‒even if they don't want
 to be a blender
 they will become a joiner
 ‒becoming keepers
 of secrets‒
 joining the preservers
 on the outside
 the pretenders
 hoping no one notices
 no one comes
 to smother
  
 if some tries
 to be the penetrator
 (that would be you)
 they'll gang together
 pull in
 whomever
 ‒creating the solid
 in rubber
  
 bounce, bounce, bounce
  
 how far goes their ladder
  
 well, well, well
  
 on a cross
 they hung the Savior†
  
 no one escapes
 their slaughter 

NOTE: The photograph was taken October 15, 2019: The Phoenix. The phoenix I do point out. It shows up on top of the water. The phoenix is the sign of new birth! A strong and powerful message. Part of the promise made to me is that the man returning to me will go through this ‘new birth’ in a very God way! It is very hard to digest such a promise, but God said: I will make the impossible possible! This promise to me isn’t for me. It’s for Him, for me to glorify Him, and it is for all, a symbol of what He is about to do to earth! In the frame below, David had me blow it up and he showed me what I couldn’t see on my own. This brilliant green shows up in a lot of the frames. David explains this as God’s energy. And He moves it around, reshapes it to reveal this isn’t a joke. As David told me when I first saw this: ‘Karen, that’s God’s footprint!’ Free-will, unconditional love…you have a choice. It’s up to you!

(December 26, 2020)—If you are wondering, He’s still talking, but He’s given nothing to write directly. He tells me to be calm. He reminds me of the promise He made to me and He tells me that what He said already is still going to happen: Millions will die.

His lesson to me today: Being accepted…what people do to be accepted. To stress this lesson, He lead me to Jesus’ crucifixion.

Jesus’ Crucifixion Demanded—[Matthew] ‘What shall I do, then, with Jesus who is called Christ?’ Pilate asked. They all answered, ‘Crucify Him!’ ‘Why? What crime has He committed?’ asked Pilate. But they shouted all the louder, ‘Crucify Him!’ [Luke] Wanting to release Jesus, Pilate appealed to them again. But they kept shouting, ‘Crucify Him! Crucify Him!’ For the third time he spoke to them: ‘Why? What crime has this Man committed? I have found in Him no grounds for the death penalty. Therefore I will have Him punished and then release Him.’ But with the loud shouts they insistently demanded that He be crucified, and their shouts prevailed.[3]—Matthew 27:22,23; Mark 15:12-14; Luke 23:20-23/4778

You can’t deny the lesson: To follow the crowd, to fit in, people will forget everything they stand for!

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‘Death Groom’

The one thing that I did learn for sure: They hate anyone who wasn’t traumatized. In fact, they fantasize killing them or hurting them. It takes their own pain away.

Death Groom
 
it fell on their lips
‒a rehearsed transcript
among themselves
alone...in their thoughts
 
truth has its way
in profit
‒thoughts in doing it
everyone goes through it‒
doing away with toxic
beating it with a stick
in their face...spit
yelling at them
calling them dick or bitch
 
‒thoughts of the innocent
roaring out in conflict
then to God†‒
an all-in-it submit
 
it's what truth does
in contradict
that which adds to affliction‒
the afflict
reasons to be called
dick or bitch
 
I've been the victim
in the script
among evil's summit
the test in transit
‒taken almost..to it
 
places...playing out‒
taking me to the pulpit
with lies on their lips
their eyes following a skit
‒they were going to do it
 
but something stopped it
not once, not twice
but thrice
I was the object of it
I was the bait in trick
 
but He† stopped it
took me out of it
as they paid for it
sunk deeper down
into it
‒for even thinking it

Note: The Dragon and the All-Seeing Eye…October 23, 2019. I read in places where people associate the dragon with evil. God says, ‘I am.’ He is ALL things. He says, ‘I am the dragon.’ And He has sent the dragon twice. I didn’t go looking for this. David tells me when to go take the photographs. God sends what He needs us to SEE. If you see it, you are open to Him and know Him. If you can’t see, you are veiled from the truth because your heart is full of scars. If you want to be unveiled, you have to do the work of unveiling yourself! It IS that simple.

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(June 27)―Things were revealed to me about my life this afternoon. I sort of knew this, but wasn’t sure. Now I know. After the revelation, I was instructed to write about it then I’d be shown the Scripture, hence, ‘Death Groom’. After I wrote it, ‘Open the book,’ and ‘Jonah’s Prayer’!

Jonah’s PrayerFrom inside the fish Jonah prayed to the Lord his God. He said: ‘In my distress I called to the Lord, and He answered me. From the depths of the grave I called for help, and You listened to my cry. You hurled me into the deep, into the very heart of the seas, and the currents swirled about me; all Your waves and breakers swept over me. I said, ‘I have been banished from Your sight; yet I will look again toward Your holy temple.’ The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head. To the roots of the mountains I sank down; the earth beneath barred me in forever. But You brought my life up from the pit, O Lord my God. When my life was ebbing away, I remembered You, Lord, and my prayer rose to You, to Your holy temple. Those who cling to worthless idols forfeit the grace that could be theirs. But I, with a song of thanksgiving, will sacrifice to You. What I have vowed I will make good. Salvation comes from the Lord.—Jonah 2:1-9

My Lord brought me through all of what He put me in, as He used me as the ultimate test for others. The ex husband, the plantation and the sweet man were the three ultimate tests. Sure, there were an amazing amount of tests for me, and I, too, had to go through this ultimate test, but not like these three did.

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‘Mocker’s Beat’

From the simplest of person to the biggest of corporations or non-profit corporations, lies are a dime a dozen. Job’s story is a symbol of how God works. He does not change.

 Mocker's Beat
 
the counsel of hypocrites
will never be it
they will smother
the best of it
 
to no wrongs‒
do they admit
they'll speak of Jesus†
say God† is guiding it
while bedding that and this
while lying...
taking no credit
‒for the wrong of it
 
they'll say all is good‒
enjoy it
they'll say God† saved it
when they were...actually‒
the poison of it
 
they'll say all that material bliss
God† gave it
they'll demand it!
‒they'll say you're a witch
a down-right bitch‒
when you don't give in
to their shit
 
it all adds up‒
to the job of it
those not truly in it
don't know the half of it
 
they're blinded‒
to the God† of it
‒for He† does the blinding
they're deaf‒
to the God† of it
‒for He† blocks out
their hearing
 
why does He† do it
‒they aren't His† kids
He† washes
His† hands of it
He's† not present‒
in the death of it
‒not even the Spirit†
sees any of it
 
He's† all about His† kids
those who know‒
the truth of it
they suffered for it
‒by the hands
of the mockers of it
 
He's† not in the materialistic
that's satan's dish
‒have fun with it
it's the prelude
to the pit

(February 10, 2020)—A few things have been bothering me lately. The healing of a narcissist is one of them, and the terror in which a narcissist puts on their victims. Their cunningness. Their manipulative ways. Their stealing, lying, cheating. All of it has me really thinking how can they be healed when they refuse to even admit they are not healed, and because of this line of thought, God shows me a lot in the Bible that relate to this. This morning it was through Job. I love Job! I wrote the process of God through the experience as it happened and in steps, that’s the books. Job wrote about it as an all-at-once experience and sometimes this does happen, but a lot of time it’s a losing of things over a period of time.

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‘Mechanical’s Return’

The worse mark on the heart: Malicious intent: refers to the intent, without just cause or reason, to commit a wrongful act that will result in harm to another. It is the intent to harm or do some evil purpose.

 Mechanical's Return
 
I could tell you to heal
it doesn't mean–
I'm not gonna have to deal
 
I've been fooled by men, too–
saying they were real
giving me all the deep thrills
while kicking my ass
on the treadmill
–that looking-good-for-them
became a perfected skill
–to be honest–
that inside need of mine–
they never fulfilled
 
I've been lied to by family–
that bloodline...not sealed
it's the worse manipulative
battlefield–
I've ever saw revealed
–especially when your ex–
helps the overkill
 
it all adds up in life–
becomes the great ball
of surreal
'did that really happen'
you asking yourself
trying to peel
all those layers–
in betrayal's ordeal
 
you move, then move again–
time...trying to steal
just to keep the heavy pounding
in your heart...still
 
you forgive all of them–
a bit of goodwill
done...you wipe up–
every tear you spill
alone...you move about
doing the ordinary:
eat, dress, clean, pay bills
waiting for the phone to squeal
waiting for:
'I'm sorry'
'I was wrong'
'what was I thinking, please forgive me'
'mom, I'm so sorry...you were right'

 
but it never comes–
even when the total truth...revealed
you realize you're dispensable–
you've been repealed
all their shame–
placed on your head–
without having to drill
–for them...it was so easy
your whole life gone…killed
 
of course, I know what comes next:
it's all your fault–
they'll claim you had control
of the wheel
they'll demand you get down–
kneel
pray, get saved
to God†...appeal
they'll shake you down–
all done in freewill
–you were put on a platter
served up like choiced veal
 
yes, I could tell you to heal
your life...rebuild
stitch together–
all the parts of your quilt
then put it all behind you–
move forward–
on an even keel
 
but then...I'd be lying to you–
I'd be better off
buying you a cocktail
take you...get some pretty nails
put your hair in a ponytail
then get ready...do some blackmail
 
but then...you'd be no better
than that betraying cartel
you'd become just  a plain ole infidel
–your soul...so easy to sell
 
to heal...you yourself
has to...outright...deal
 
you gotta face truth–
you're not the jezebel
you're better than all they dispel
you're stronger, wiser–
ring, ring goes the liberty bell
but first–
you've gotta face the swell
all that shit that put you in hell–
you've gotta roll in its pungent smell
you've gotta cry, scream, yell
–get it all out
in movements of a snail
you've gotta face every detail
learn why...in came...the fail–
their destructive zeal
–not anything...for long
you can conceal
 
then you're gonna bounce–
that's right...bounce
all that pain–
you're gonna unveil
forward....
you're gonna willingly propel
–the chains of your forced jail
no longer for the regale
–no longer...you...for sale
 
after you popped those chains–
you'll realize you fucking derailed
all they tried to nail
on your pretty little fingernails
–you done exhaled
you put yourself in prevail
the mechanical tall-tell
–the tipping of the scales
 
you're gonna learn
–on your own–
you've done been rebuilt
they can't even drown you–
in the best of ales
they can't even go
to the court of appeals
or on you–
seek the navy seals
 
you've become the real
in deal
for you didn't just heal
you've become the truth–
of the kneel!

Note: The photograph that accompanies this work was taken October 23rd, which revealed a lot through the spiritual world: the All-Seeing Eye (an interesting use of the gazebo to tell us that God sees all); the Dragon (The Dragon in Symbolization: The dragon, a legendary creature symbolizes protection, success, wisdom, loyalty, fearlessness, strength, balance, and immense possibility. Being the master of all four elements of Fire, Water, Earth, and Wind, it also embodies primordial power. Details of the Power Primordial Force is the primordial energy that originated everything – reality, time, space, life, death, matter, energy, and every possible and impossible concept existing and non-existing in the omniverse, from a single particular to the infinite  omniverse….God revealing His power and that He is over everything); the cross, God’s use of His energy through the orbs; faces and images of those present…spirits; and the earth’s change coming. In this particular photograph, the All-Seeing Eye; the promise made to me in the pink bubble; and Jesus’ love or presence showing through in the purple light.

(January 6, 2020)―This morning: Write from the heart today. I was empty then full…thinking about the things people will do and say when they have a mark on their heart labeled: Malicious Intent. These thoughts that I write about today started yesterday with me taking myself out for dinner and listening to hypocrites talk about segregated pre-planned housing and how they didn’t want to mix with other people’s traditions and cultures.

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‘Death March’

Deal! Lies kill. Lies destroy. Manipulation and living a fake life…God sees ALL!

 Death March
 
God† brings in tests
evil, the prince of sin
freely plays
for the win
–it's all testing
each person involved
in each test
 
who's going to lie
who's going to hide
who's going to fall
to ego and pride
who's going to confess
ease their soul
to rest
 
who's truly the enemy
in disguise
in captivity
–on their backs
a haunting spirit
lost in unrest
 
who's going to pass blame
who's the target
of their aim
who'll seal it
with a kiss
of a snake's hiss
 
God† uses each
for each's test
–those fallen
to the hiss
covering up their sin
for secrets
shh, hush, hush
are best
protecting their darkness
as they steal innocence
–do whatever it takes–
blacken a stolen light
 
God† sends in
the hardest tests
–the devil's unquenchable taste
its darkened thirst of lust–
to those His† heart knows
will win
–taking its time
in condemn–
rebuilding
for His† brethren
as the eating away
takes its place
of the one
who brought in sin
or rather–
those covering up–
the true ones in sin
the ones forbidding
the healing
protecting their own skin
–they are the ones
to the pit...condemned
failing God's† tests
for their own
fake rest
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