‘Yelled Sarcasm’

5 Ways to Heal ‘Self’ from Abuse and Trauma

 Yelled Sarcasm
 
speaking out of turn
oh! how this heart burns
 
this once gentle character
stripped
each time a tone of voice
tips
 
gone the plow
that once endured
for this ache!
there is no cure
 
once betrayed
bitterness lays
honesty...only the heart craves
 
that forever solid pace
yearned
‒left with only discern
 
out the heart‒
emotions...flipped
drops of dimes‒
where truth is clipped
 
all smells like week-old manure
‒nothing left that's pure
 
seconds, minutes, hours‒
turn to days
as what was
gets lost in a bitter haze
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‘Ignorance of Spirit’

Would You Listen If Someone Tried To Help You?

 Ignorance of Spirit

our bodies are the temple
our hearts...filled with love
a mark placed from above
through the spilling‒
of an innocent man's blood

since that day
comes few miracles
in faith, we must see
when words are sent to believe
to take us out of deceive
words placed in hearts
way down deep
for only us to reach
for only one to receive

we set boundaries, principles
God's† words come in a nudge
giving us a rush
with a unwelcomed blush
‒something He† wants of us
something we can't‒
down toilets...flush
in dreams, in signs
comes the flood
'til we no longer‒
to the side...can shove
 
we become
a quiet little disciple
knowing what‒
inside...breathes
relaying messages to relieve
to tone down‒
the spiritual creed
‒silently waddling in scream
 
how will they believe
without something in see
 
any forced retrieve
will just not be!
...goes further the decree
faith...for some...so weak
matching the heart's message in lead‒
a solid force shown in see
 
disclosing the known‒
small strokes to brush
without any lust
‒crushing every bit of trust
 
a task so tough
the pull to run...give up
wanting to do away
with this stuff
‒too deep holds the grudge
 
all the pieces‒
just too much
too many things
running a muck
realizing the struggling pup‒
unbelief
buried in dirty mud
‒thoughts in heart
begins to be enough
 
down, down, down
into so much mush
 
if you don't help
erase the slush
 
then...comes in
the morning dove
the symbol of love
saying don't give up
‒messages from above
that you can't
aside...shove!
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‘The Depths of Me’

Whatever You Do: Don’t Quit!

A sample from Book 5

 The Depths of Me

it's been many years
since God† put me here
from very young
my ears open to hear
from the depths within
a push
a shove
a demand
His† gentle, silent command
I always knew
like so very few
it's not me
but what I do
that is my truth
I always knew
until I finish
this is my sentence
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write
My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
my heart's been broken
it's just a token
He† wants me to feel
all that's real
my pride's been crushed
but to Him†
there's no rush
I have to plow on
even if all that I love
selfishly moves on
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write
My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
He† wants me to see
life's darkest reality
here He† planted His† seed
so I must feed
amazingly enough
no matter how tough
or how many tears I cry
it's still this pen and I
with a continued faith
in all He† has to say
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
why have you forsaken me
He† cried from the cross
when I feel alone and lost
He† shows me
His† love runs deep
for, I too, cry out
scream anger and shout
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
for others
I wish no hurt
even when
they drag me in the dirt
here...there's no whip
nor blood to squirt
just silence and evil words
leaving me out in the cold
with no arms to hold
each moment I'm weak
wanting to cry and cry
-just fall asleep
He† makes me see
this is not about me
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
He's† given me a gift
I can't ignore it
-it's not a selfish whim
I'm being true to Him†
I've been shown
I've always known
many will criticize
many will ignore
that I'm alive
even those who love me
will cease to be
will leave me
will deceive me
as the devil fights
tries to drown His† light
I must not bend
for the Lord† moves within
I must write 'til the end
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds
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‘Fight from Inside’

How Do You Want To Heal?

 Fight from Inside
 
all around
build a shield
allow inside
glory in heal
this magic of love...feel
–let it be
your strongest appeal
 
in Christ†
let His† words build
hold steady
forbid evil to steal
all around
let love be real
 
devour it
like your last meal
on your knees...kneel
make it your biggest deal
all that bottled, stored away pain–
let it all
to the floor
spill
 
let Jesus† take the wheel
don't anymore
this pain
conceal
break loose
fill your heart with zeal
all the layers
back
peal
 
then...after you break through
all the fears
after all the tears
after all the fight
after all
what made you cry
through nights
–everything that put you
through the mill
release all that you feel
send it all to God†–
that final bill
 
then...begin a new life's reel
with only joy
consuming
your journey's field
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