‘Silence of Me’

You Tend To Hang On. It’s Normal.

A sample from Book 5

 Silence of Me
 
I look at me
I hear me
wishing
I wouldn't be
hurting
I ruffled the sea
this romantic bee
twisting
words I see
wanting
to be free
saying
it's better for me
misrepresenting
what
I want to be
just you
I do see
putting
all thoughts
free
relating
what's
inside of me
hoping
you'd see
confusion's deed
all that I aim to be
all that I use to be
my wanting
to be free
inside of me
there's more to see
the outside sea
wanting
you along side of me
open and free
awakening
what used to be
 
look at me
hear me
all there is to be
 
a wall closed to me
burying me
deep
inside of me
silence of me
wishing
I wouldn't be
 
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‘Text Me’

Moving Through Anger with Bargaining!

A sample from Book 5

 Text Me
 
in this phone
I am a clone
away from home
easily...I roam
no longer alone
 
words I've thrown
cast a bone
string along
however long
I want you to belong
 
in this phone
I'm on loan
read my worded song
I'm wearing a thong
―hear me moan
I'll send a picture―
for your visual tone
 
with words I'm strong
―played like a trombone
I can turn you on
in my world
you'll be drawn
 
in this phone
nothing's wrong
it's my zone
imaginations grown
 
be careful―
if to me you're drawn
I'll take you
where you've not yet gone
for in this phone
I own
my imaginary throne
I'll make you moan
dance to my song―
your emotions
get too strong
I'll exit
and be gone
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‘Hold My Hand’

Men: Just Do It!

A sample from Book 5

 Hold My Hand
 
when I'm lost
― confused
wanting to give up
will you hold my hand
 
when I doubt
want a way out
will you stick around
 
when I'm angry
―scream
call you names
will you not place blame
 
when I cry
lost in sadness
will you change my mind
to live and not die
 
when I hate
my vision clouded
will you be my guide
tell me my life
is not a lie
 
when I want to run
leave all behind
draw a heavy line
will you walk beside me
―hold my hand
take my feet
from the sand
plant them
on solid ground
 
when I'm alone
lost in darkness
make you want to leave
will you forgive
help my eyes to see
everything
I want to be
 
when I'm here
cold...closed up inside
will you stay
give me space
help me see my way
 
when I want
to give up
will you stand by me
take my hand
help me be free
help me to see
what it takes
to be happy
 
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‘A Woman’s Strength’

You Deserve Appreciation and Love!

A sample from Book 5

  A Woman's Strength
 
did you think of me today
no call came my way
underneath my smile I sway
no words do I say
I thought of you all day
as I rushed through my filled plate
 
early I started to bake
not long the house was laced
with the smell of your favorite
chocolate cake
 
the kids were at play
a new toy
one did break
one became the prey
the other screamed hate
peace...I had to make
clearing the haze
putting smiles on their face
anger left no trace
but it was too late
the cake―
I had to throw away
 
ring phone ring
I did pray
hoping you'd call to say hey
 
then the dog did stray
I had to move in haste
apologies to convey
the neighbor's yard―
a garbage-strung maze
after an hour's pace
a cleaned yard
done in good faith
 
I reentered the house
noticed it was only eight
my day―
moving at a slow rate
still no word from my mate
 
breakfast I did make
then the taste of toothpaste
the cleaned dish plates
no time to wait
everyone dress
screamed hurrah
 
to the babysitters―
who monthly I pay
to take my place
a goodbye kiss
a last minute wave
off to work
my smile...fake
 
then I remember
I hadn't ate
my eight-hour day
drove its heavy weight
still no word from my mate
 
rush-hour traffic
a nerve-raking state
thus beginning the evening chase
babysitter, supper
no flirter's bait
comes my way
sent the children
off to bathe
finally you call
again...you're working late
a quiet evening to waste
long, restless night
again...I must face
until you're home
and I feel safe
 
did you think of me today
no call came my way
underneath my smile I sway
no words do I say
I thought of you all day
as I rushed through
my filled plate
 
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‘The Experience’

Your Anger Turns to Lust to Move You!

A sample from Book 5

 The Experience
 
I'm your past
I'm what
didn't last
I'm what
could
never last
 
I'm the passing blast
to move through
really fast
with the quickness
of a kisser's dash
 
I'm the wine glass
wearing a mask
making
my on-stop splash
 
I'm your past
leaving you
in a gasp
easily slipping
from your grasp
in your mind
thoughts are cast
in my heart
the debris
of a failed lover's task
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‘Anger’s Brethren’

Don’t Use the Children!

A sample from Book 5

 Anger's Brethren
 
its face is ugly
peeking through
little by little
building its soul
one small piece at a time
 
vulnerability
it patiently waits
then the attack
increasing the heartbeat
clouding
a once throughout plan
wilting the roses
rains replacing sunshines
beautiful language
turns to spiteful vengeance
over ruling logic
hardening
closing open hearts
 
its face is ugly
destroying all good
taking its time
taking all time
closing doors
'til love exist
no more
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‘The Depths of Me’

Whatever You Do: Don’t Quit!

A sample from Book 5

 The Depths of Me

it's been many years
since God† put me here
from very young
my ears open to hear
from the depths within
a push
a shove
a demand
His† gentle, silent command
I always knew
like so very few
it's not me
but what I do
that is my truth
I always knew
until I finish
this is my sentence
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write
My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
my heart's been broken
it's just a token
He† wants me to feel
all that's real
my pride's been crushed
but to Him†
there's no rush
I have to plow on
even if all that I love
selfishly moves on
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write
My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
He† wants me to see
life's darkest reality
here He† planted His† seed
so I must feed
amazingly enough
no matter how tough
or how many tears I cry
it's still this pen and I
with a continued faith
in all He† has to say
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
why have you forsaken me
He† cried from the cross
when I feel alone and lost
He† shows me
His† love runs deep
for, I too, cry out
scream anger and shout
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
for others
I wish no hurt
even when
they drag me in the dirt
here...there's no whip
nor blood to squirt
just silence and evil words
leaving me out in the cold
with no arms to hold
each moment I'm weak
wanting to cry and cry
-just fall asleep
He† makes me see
this is not about me
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
He's† given me a gift
I can't ignore it
-it's not a selfish whim
I'm being true to Him†
I've been shown
I've always known
many will criticize
many will ignore
that I'm alive
even those who love me
will cease to be
will leave me
will deceive me
as the devil fights
tries to drown His† light
I must not bend
for the Lord† moves within
I must write 'til the end
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds
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Anger Controls Your Every Emotion!

A sample from Book 5

Yes, it does. That’s why I felt compelled to write this book. Anger does some awful things to us. When you are going through something you really don’t understand and you don’t have the resources to help you, anger builds.

There was nothing for me to grab hold of. For you, you now have this book to help you understand how anger controls you and how to get a grip. The following is from the Introduction to my 5th Book in My 12-Book series. I hope that this book can keep you from making the mistakes I made.

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