A sample from Book 9
don't look at me
don't say you know me
–a casual acquaintance
don't try to control me
–words are just cadence
don't think you have me
all things of me–
–piece after piece
glued, sewn, stapled...rebuilt
whatever it took–
rekindled this book
take a good, hard look–
whatever I could
not caring...if I should
nor daring...if I would
it's all just burned wood
back to peace
–a whole lot of free
I can just be
don't come at me
you'll change me
this unshattering of me
took time, deeds
please, please, please
of others' reprieve
the beating of me
secrets aren't hidden from me
through your swirling sea
clearly I see
–it's so easy
in a breeze
I know what I deserve
no longer...this me
covered in ego's dirt
no, no...I'm in free
I'll easily flirt
test the waters
–even in the deepest of curves
avoid pride's careless surf
'cause I can, you see
no longer...this heart beat
buried in condition's thirst
me...you cannot convert
aware, I am
this value in worth
the whole of me–
a choosing little tweet
in choice...I'm free
no longer sufferings in need‒
in wanting desires of please
–the truth of me
who I'm meant to be
(January 6, 2016)—Rehashing old stories…brings to mind life. Look back on your life for a minute…mainly your principles. Did they change? They shouldn’t have.
We’re born a certain way, then we have these things, way deep inside, that make us who we are like: Having a conscious (no matter how much you want to live in sin…I mean, treat others the way they treat you…you can’t), having a big heart (you have always wanted to help in someway), being mindful of how you behave in front of people (you’re a lady, a gentlemen, you make people laugh, etc.), your work ethics (you work hard no matter what), what you do for people, even when they don’t do for you, your truthfulness, what you enjoy the most in life (meaning—what’s your gift, that certain thing that makes you lose time and puts you in a complete place of peace), etc.
All these things, if you really look back at how you really are, is the real you. That’s not your old story. It’s who you are. These deep things come from who we were born to be.
Throughout our childhood and young adult life, there are traditions that condition our thoughts. If you really pay attention to them, you can separate those from who you really are. For some, like me, it takes years and years of going through the confusion to see it. I never changed the person I was deep inside. I changed the reactionary person of me, the make-other-people-happy of me. A lot of us do that to please other people. In the process, we leave our me behind.
It helps to write down the characteristics of the person you really are. My advanced writing students at [school], made me think about this a lot. We had little writing assignments that made us all think hard in this manner, then when I decided to go back into the public school system, they made me look at the reasons why…pros and cons.
That really makes you see who you really are over the conditioned-self others made. That’s the old story of you. When you wake up from this conditioned-self, that’s the changed you. The time in your life when you revert back to your authentic self, the self that no one wanted to see. Hint: The conditioning of you.
Think about the person you really are. Look around you and see the person you are now. Are you doing the things you do to please others to fit in or to make them happy? Are you happy? Are you being your authentic self? Does your actions hurt others? Why?
Being honest and straight up often hurts others. Are you the problem? Or are they the problem? That’s a hard answer to face. When you, finally, see it, you start seeing the conditioning that is not your authentic self. Have a good day and smile. You never know who’s life you’ll change with that simple act. Treat others with kindness, but don’t let others walk all over you because you are kind. As my mother told me, you have to separate yourself from some for a while and take care of you.
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