‘Fight!’

Crimes against you…it’s nothing to do with you. It’s a test of will…those God holds dearest are tested the hardest. Don’t give up! Don’t lose faith.

 Fight!
 
put your heart
into it
fight the beast
of it
cry, yell, scream‒
beat the walls
of it
‒tear it down
to bits
you got this
all the evil‒
resist
 
fight, fight, fight it
 
you can get
the best of it
 
strip it, yank it
‒it wasn't your bit
it wasn't your fault‒
in any of it
 
destroy that bitch
 
fight, fight, fight
 
punch the shit
out of it
be bigger than it
you've got this
 
scream...hiss!
 
tear it
to fucking bits
 
fight! fight!
fight it!

‘His Softness’

That Which Gives You Inspiration to Go On!

A sample from Book 12

(January 4, 2018)—It’s taken me a while to gather my thoughts with this piece. ‘His Softness’ was the very last piece I wrote for 2018.‘His Softness’…the sweet man. I’ve written about him since 2012 when we first met as friends. I wrote about him as my lover. I wrote about him as my enemy. I wrote about him as my best friend. There’s a lot I didn’t write about.

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‘Knife’

Surviving the Knife of Those Who Betray You!

A sample from Book 12

(April 21, 2018)—That knife becomes weaker when we gain the support of others, when we start to see the true meaning behind our life. That knife doesn’t come out that easy especially when you see everyone’s true disclosure.

There’s so much to say, then there’s nothing to say. I have this much on my mind: If they don’t want to see you, it doesn’t matter what you say or do, they won’t see you.

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‘Aversion’

Forgive Yourself for God Has Already Done That!

(April 8, 2019)—The commentary for my piece titled ‘Salvation’s Need’ I speak about salvation and God taking grace away if we go against Him. A friend called and told me that God does not take away grace. I beg you differ.

Ever since the incident with the Jeep, I have been reverted back to feeling like crap. I can’t seem to return to the good diet that was making me feel great, nor the tanning, nor the exercising. I’m told to get an attorney and sue these people, but, at the same time, that’s not what I’m supposed to do. Faith. I’m supposed to rely on faith. I’ve been battling with all of this lately.

I finished my vow. I’m supposed to wait now. And my relationship with the sweet man…what relationship? All my values, morals, principles are in question right now…every single thing I stand for! The voice of death has crossed my threshold several times in these last couple of months because I’m so tired of fighting, so tired of people lying to me. I’ve been in a battle per say.

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‘The Bitch of It’

Sometimes You Just Gotta To Be A Bitch!

A sample from Book 12

(April 12, 2018)―Closure. I read a post this week written by a lady who is going through what I went through back in 2012 and 2013 and it struck me how insensitive and selfish some people can be.

When one party in a relationship leaves without explaining…really explaining…what’s the deal, it is called narcissism.I didn’t know this when I was going through it. I didn’t fully understand what was happening to me. All I knew was that I was angry…very angry…and it wouldn’t let up.

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‘Ex-foliate My Soul’

You Have to Leave Others Out of ‘Self’!

A sample from Book 12

(April 3, 2018)—(February 26-27, 2018)—I did have the courage. Everything I said was going to happen in my books…have! That’s because the heart and intuition never lies. Never! You just have to have the guts to follow both and not waiver because of nay-sayers who want nothing more than to see you fail.

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‘Thank You for the Time’

Let Yourself Learn From the Lessons Given!

A sample from Book 12

(January 14, 2018)—Fortunes. Do you believe in them? I believe in messages. I believe that we receive messages in the spiritual realm byway of the concrete world. An example would be if you’re praying for something and the message comes through a song or a call from someone least expected or something that’s around you that just showed up. It’s not like you pray for something today and bam something shows up. No. It’s something you pray hard for and the message eventually appears…when you least expect it.

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‘Allegorium’

What It Takes To Keep Love!

A sample from Book 11

(December 22, 2017)—We have one life. One chance. What you do with that one life, one chance is totally up to you and no one else. How you choose to life that one life, that one chance reveals your heart and character. The heart and character that God will examine on that final day. It’s up to you how you want that final day to turn out. Are you willing to gamble with that?

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‘Win the Game’

You Gotta Stomp ‘Negative’ to the Ground!

A sample from Book 11

(November 20, 2017)—What other people do isn’t your problem! Read that statement again. The mind likes to make us think that what other people do is our problem. How does that thought get into our head? That fucking evil whore the devil…that’s how! It wants to interfere in our lives. It wants to fuck us up. It uses anything and anyone to achieve its goal. It has no mercy.

‘Win the Game’…we are given the right to choose how we play this life we are given. It’s strictly up to us how we play our hand…our hand. Not other people’s hand. Ours…and ours alone.

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‘Frustrated Notions’

Don’t Let Anyone Halt Your Dreams!

A sample from Book 11

(October 19, 2017)—So many families destroyed because of abuse of any kind. So many lives mixed up.—I wrote this on Feb. 24, 2017. The day I wrote ‘Dedications Unfold.’I was leaving. It was a hard decision. I had forgotten about this poem until today while I was editing.

Strange how God shows us when we are lost. I’ve been lost. Tormented. Not by my past, but by my future and my present. I’m struggling…then ‘Dedications Unfold!’ (This work is in Book 11.) There’s a lot going on inside of me…a lot I can’t explain. I have this very clear mind, focus, then nothing. Is it fibro? Or is it something else? I don’t know.

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