I Should I should hate you for your betray but I don't I should want‒ to humiliate you call you crazy, insane like you did to me ‒but I can't I should despise you want to lay‒ all your shit out the truth...unlike you who told lie upon lie ‒but I don't...I can't I should resent you and, at first, I did now...I want to ‒but something's changed I should want‒ to kill myself over all the things‒ you did (each and everyone of you) I should after all that's been‒ robbed from me I should after all the names‒ you called me after all your manipulation ‒but I can't even...here...standing alone without family or a home just empty dial tones on a phone my only connection‒ in clone I should want to do...all these things for...against me‒ all those wrongs ‒but I won't I'll just go on on my own speaking truth no matter‒ what you do I forgive you now I feel‒ sorry for you for the things‒ you do for you don't answer‒ to me I should want to pray for you I should ask God† to be with you ‒I do for He's the one‒ you answer to like me‒ to Him† I voice my complain then Jesus† carefully explained I, like Him†...the lamb ‒your sacrifice for your darkness to hide only...God† has eyes He† saw all‒ your lies so I should‒ go against you but I won't...I can't I am God's† child every, single, tiny inch of this journey's miles I do what I should not what I could ‒WHAT I SHOULD! for I read His† book He† taught me‒ bad from good I don't have to just‒ give it a look I know...in pure certainty I do what my Brother† would! I'm not leaving behind what could be burned‒ with wood I'm leaving behind what'll be known‒ as divine because I didn't cross that line‒ that place where darkness thrives and hope dies
Note: The photograph is from September 27, 2019: Love from Heaven. I titled that set of photographs that because it was love from heaven. I was having a hard time understanding what was being told to me. This trip, egged on by David of course, helped me get with my perspectiveness.
The following, written in February, is very interesting. I don’t know how this virus is affecting the world. As of today, I’ve kept my distance from the news as I as asked to. God is asking for the healing of the world. Since February, He has proven what He’s telling me is truth. He wants everyone to heal from their pain. It is your will, as in the work I published today, ‘Inhuman Love‘ [Jesus’ words in commentary].
(February 2, 2020)—This morning I sat drinking my coffee going over the reason I was the sacrificial lamb in my family. I went over everything that I’ve been through and then I said to the Lord and to David, ‘I don’t want to think about this anymore.’ Then I went to write. The title, ‘I Should’ came to my heart, so I asked the Lord to direct me to a Scripture that will help me write what was in my heart. And He did….Continue reading “‘I Should’”