‘Shouldering Damage’

You Deal and Accept the Physical Damage Caused By Narcissism’s Carelessness

(April 24, 21019)—I was sent to a heart specialist today. Although I’m 50, I’m always the youngest in the room when it comes to things like this. (I started saying this phrase back in 2013 when I returned to the VA. I was always the youngest in the room back then.) So, I’m sitting there going through Scriptures, keeping my mind occupied. I didn’t want to think about why I was there. Then I got called to the back. A slew of tests were ordered, including a monitor, which I’ll have to wear for a week.

I was there because an EKG came back abnormal. It’s not the first time. The very first time, I’m sitting in my therapist’s office and she told me I had a rash all over my skin. I tan so I didn’t realize it. The EKG read Sudden Death at the top. In the course of several months, I had four Sudden Death EKGs! I can’t even tell you what that does to a person’s mind. I had all kinds of thoughts racing: Did I do enough? Will my kids ever forgive me? Will I finish my books in time? Etc., etc.

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‘Anger’s Infest’

Anger Wants You Steadfast! God Wants You Moving Forward!

(April 15, 2019)―‘Anger’s Infest’…A lot of thoughts have been going through my mind lately. Back in October, during my intervention, I had this strong feeling put into my heart to apply for graduate school. It was so powerful that it actually made me happy. I bypassed it when the sweet man started texting me, then we started seeing each other again. Wrong move, or was it?

Call to HolinessTherefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God―this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is―His good, pleasing and perfect will.―Romans 12:1,2

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‘His Softness’

That Which Gives You Inspiration to Go On!

A sample from Book 12

(January 4, 2018)—It’s taken me a while to gather my thoughts with this piece. ‘His Softness’ was the very last piece I wrote for 2018.‘His Softness’…the sweet man. I’ve written about him since 2012 when we first met as friends. I wrote about him as my lover. I wrote about him as my enemy. I wrote about him as my best friend. There’s a lot I didn’t write about.

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‘Humble of Mercy’

You Want It to Be! So Bad….

A sample from Book 12

(September 26, 2018)—

Praise for Joy and Security of the RighteousKeep me safe, O God, for in You I take refuge. I said to the Lord, ‘You are my Lord; apart from You I have no good thing.’ As for the saints who are in the land, they are the glorious ones in whom in all my delight. The sorrows of those will increase who run after other gods. I will not pour out their libations of blood or take up their names on my lips. Lord, You have assigned me my portion and my cup; You have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance.

I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I have set the Lord always before me. Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because You will not abandon me to the grave, nor will You let Your Holy One see decay. You have made known to me the path of life; You will fill me with joy in Your presence, with eternal pleasures at Your right hand.―Psalm 16

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‘Unconditional Terms’

‘Unconditional’ Fades When Another Takes Your Place!

A sample from Book 12

(July 25, 2018 [Didn’t post on Facebook.])—When toxicity takes its toll, there’s nothing to say or do.

A weak heart turns to go, finds a new heart to rip apart. A strong heart cries alone, struggling to regain ground, move on. You don’t lose to cheating. You lose to betrayal. That’s why those who don’t marry, stay single. They can just hang it up, move on to another. The faithful one can’t do this.

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‘Knife’

Surviving the Knife of Those Who Betray You!

A sample from Book 12

(April 21, 2018)—That knife becomes weaker when we gain the support of others, when we start to see the true meaning behind our life. That knife doesn’t come out that easy especially when you see everyone’s true disclosure.

There’s so much to say, then there’s nothing to say. I have this much on my mind: If they don’t want to see you, it doesn’t matter what you say or do, they won’t see you.

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”Do Your Thing”

When They’re Paving the Way for Another ‘Thing’!

A sample from Book 12

(March 2, 2018)—E.G. White writes:

In His Sermon on the Mount, Christ taught His disciples precious lessons in regard to the necessity of trusting in God. These lessons were designed to encourage the children of God through all ages, and they have come down to our time full of instructions and comfort. The Saviour pointed His followers to the birds of the air as they warbled their carols of praise, unencumbered with thoughts of care, for ‘they sow not, neither do they reap.’ And yet the great Father provides for their needs. The Saviour asks, ‘Are ye not much better than they?’ Matthew 6:26. The great Provider for man and beast opens His hand and supplies all His creatures. The birds of the air are not beneath His notice. He does not drop the food into their bills, but He makes provision for their needs. They must gather the grains He has scattered for them. They must prepare the material for their little nests. They must feed their young. They go forth singing to their labor, for ‘you heavenly Father feedeth them.’ And ‘are ye not much better than they?’ Are not you, as intelligent, spiritual worshipers, of more value than the birds of the air? Will not the Author of our being, the Preserve of our life, the One who formed us in His own divine image, provide for our necessities if we but trust in Him?

As I mentioned yesterday about what sin is, this points out the avenue if we trust in God and don’t waiver and fall prey in weakness to getting what we want quicker. Makes sense, don’t you think?

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‘Ex-foliate My Soul’

You Have to Leave Others Out of ‘Self’!

A sample from Book 12

(April 3, 2018)—(February 26-27, 2018)—I did have the courage. Everything I said was going to happen in my books…have! That’s because the heart and intuition never lies. Never! You just have to have the guts to follow both and not waiver because of nay-sayers who want nothing more than to see you fail.

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‘Depths of Heart’

Mind Your Heart or Others Will Not!

A sample from Book 11

(May 6, 2017)—I had a rough day. Anxiety, panic attack, depression, pain…these things make you see a lot of what you don’t want to see. Unconditional love and free-will reveal so much in yourself and in others.

My story continues. It isn’t always roses and wine. No one’s story is. Sharing is easier than holding it in. I did a video as well. Come to my page to see…give it a like, share it. Be merciful with grace. We are not all super stars. Most of us are just treading waters and trying not to drown…love the skin you are in. You, and me, are worth it. Even if our illnesses mask it. We are still worth it.

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‘Thoughts in Suicide’

When You’re Driven to the Point of Wanting to Take Your Life!

A sample from Book 11

(May 2, 2017)—You will fall. It’s a given. Over and over. Rise. Each time, the sun shines a little bit brighter.

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