Tag: fears

‘Anger’s Infest’

Anger wants you steadfast! God wants you moving forward!

 Anger's Infest
  
 feel it beneath your skin
 evil's way of getting within
 actions in horror's den
 ‒ways of evil's perfect sin
  
 it'll trap you in cussing
 it'll condemn you in swearing
 pulling at you...probing
 wanting your reaction
 for it's only satisfaction
  
 it'll take all
of your triggering notions
 you...down...dragging
 as it smiles
in sadistic laughing
 craving your giving in
 your fight...it's welcoming
 celebrating
your mind's condemn
  
 anger...evil's infested gem
 words, actions
its consistency in playing
 wanting you
self to defend
 so it can celebrate
in its win
  
 feel it beneath your skin
 evil's way of getting within
 actions in horror's den
 ‒ways of evil's perfect sin
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‘Depths of Heart’

Mind your heart or others will not!

A sample from Book 11

 Depths of Heart
  
 protecting self‒ 
not letting any other
 put it on a shelf
 seems to be utmost important
 ‒above anything else
  
 for in self
happiness lies
 rises high
above health
any amount of wealth
 ‒pulling the heart
out of hell
 out of the darkest well
  
 for in truth heart dwells
 untied from man's inhuman belt
 released from whatever shelf
man tries to impel
 keeping the heart from melt
 ‒happiness locked in a cell
  
 get out, get out
see yourself‒
 way deep inside
where happiness compels
 in heart
where it truly swells
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‘Source’

Anxiety created from the fight against codependency!

A sample from Book 11

  Source
  
 she waits‒ 
closes her eyes
 breathes deep
 ‒her face tingles
her heart races
 her palms sweat‒
 a heat under her skin
rises...coming quick
  
 shh...she repeats to herself
  
 each sound
each speck of light

 builds the burning

she fights
  
 shh...again and again
  
 don't do it...not again
 she begs repeatedly
  
 settle down, please
  
 begging, begging

   the exploding need 
 
 building, building
  
 forcing her mouth closed
 forcing her body steal
 ‒as tears stream down her face
  
 begging, begging
  
 can't you see...anyone
 can't you see
I'm trying, trying...
 my grip is slipping...
  
 as she loses control‒
 her mouth yells
or her tears fall
 ‒no matter who's around
 down, down, down
she falls
  
 back to a child‒ 
innocent, broken
 just for a while
  
 'til she regains
strengthens
 to go
one more round
in life's paradigm
 where between herself
and herself
she fights
  
 hoping, hoping
  
 the next time‒ 
she'll steady the line
 ‒that too often...
 breaks her holding-together vine
  
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‘Truth’

Racism, hate: Evil’s best friends. Don’t let it consume you!

A sample from Book 11

 Truth
  
 liars seek truth‒
 falsifying a life
without any light
  
 manipulation...their due
 cutting it on cue
 ‒without noticing
the coming dues
  
 their belief‒ 
trying to convince you
 all they do
true, true, true
 backing them‒ 
there are few
  
 their spots change
sending you to the loo
 oh! what to do?
 ‒without cursing them, too
  
 truth is truth
existing
no half truths
 ‒it's either all true
 or just makings
of a waterloo
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‘Places Shackled’

You’ve got to ask God and stop complaining!

A sample from Book 10

  Places Shackled
  
 He† asked not to forsaken Him†
 yet gives a choice‒
 free-will to accept within
  
 analogies, theological preachings
 leads only to leeching
 the wrong, deceitful teaching
 ‒a constant arguing of bitching
 leaves hungry souls
 waiting, anticipating
in places allowing shackling
  
 He's† proven enough
for everyone's love
  
 He† doesn't have to do rough
 ‒that's the enemy's stuff
but He'll† get tough
 when love's smothered in crud
  
 to push buttons
lead people to suffering
 ‒He's† testing
seeing who's believing
 wondering how long
for hearts in changing‒
 faith begins ringing
  
 amazing to watch‒ 
tickings of the cock
 deceptions...coming in hot
 ‒evil's little bot
 it'll be easy to come in‒ 
without a knock
 as you wage wars
on a dot
  
 careful now‒ 
He† understands wow
 hears every prayer in loud
  
 evil things...He† does allow
 waiting for the choice
a hungry heart's voice
 in free-will...the bow
 ‒without asking how!
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‘Troubled Soul’

Other people’s issues are not yours!

A sample from Book 9

  Troubled Soul
  
 your mixed personality
 doesn't blend with reality
  
 your verbal kindness
 doesn't add to
your stalking rudeness
  
 returning to reality
 ‒stripping all vulnerability
 takes...taking responsibility‒
 actions of self
before experiencing life...truly
  
 changing personalities
 doesn't insure securities
 needed‒ 
to strengthen possibilities
  
 living in denial
mile after mile‒
 brings the mind
to crash
heading south‒
 once there
 ‒getting there
 you can only ask...how
  
 take a look inside
your round and round ride
 ‒a mind in hide
never subsides
 'til you stop for a while
 sink in like a child‒ 
all your wounds...untie
  
 open that book
given by God†
 look deep...deep into your I
 write down your whys
all that pain
 bringing you to hide‒ 
all those cries
  
 all those ancient words‒
 so many have heard
 let them be your guide
it takes time
  
 people won't untie‒ 
all those knots inside
 ‒admittance...of self
 the help of only God†‒ 
your only needed drive
 way...way deep inside
 ‒then He'll† show you
how to fly
 without you‒ 
   having to ask why
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‘Laughing Smile’

God wants us happy. Evil wants us sad! You do the math!

A sample from Book 9

 Laughing Smile
  
 it took her a while
 breaking open that smile–
 gaining the strongest need
 laugh...laugh like a child
  
 she didn't need to ask how–
 she lifted her heart to God†
 walked long, long miles
for that laughing smile
  
 she sealed it...inside
 bringing it out
when gone was her doubt
  
 no, she didn't have to shout
 she learned to keep her head
in the clouds
 forgetting
what frowns were about
 –just laugh...yes she did
out loud
  
 she had it down-pat
that girly laugh
 –adding a bit of sass
you do the math–
 she intended for it to last
 not caring
where she was at
 at anyone
came that laughing sass– 
 smiling so big
walking
shaking her ass
  
 she knew that surety
 came straight
from the Lord†
 she didn't have to ask
what for
 she just knew
she was worthy
  
 then this thunder came
bringing her to lame
 her truthfulness
remaining the same
 fighting off
anger's vengeful flame
 as her world
tipped its bowl
a once.again fold–
 that place
she promised herself
she wouldn't go
  
 she didn't choose the fold
 it just slide
in to corrode
 sinking its stronghold–  
not letting go
  
 burying
in an inside rage
 she...again
locked herself in a cage
  
 patiently she began to wait
 living a bit sedate
 wondering...why so late
that smile on her face
  
 then there it was...gleaming
 like in a summer's dream
 waiting there
to be redeemed
  
 she didn't think twice
 remembering how it felt
so real, so right
 she didn't really fight
 she just walked
the way of the light
  
 its uncertainty remains–
 her holding onto it
a bit of a strain
 struggling through the rain
 that comes with pain
  
 it did take her a while
 breaking open that smile–
 regaining that need
 to laugh
laugh like a child
  
 the first time
the second time
 she didn't need to ask how
 so she did again– 
lift her heart to God†
 taking on long, long miles
 –for it's always worth the wait
 for that laughing smile
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‘Traces in Forgive’

The Lie: Destroys. Steals. Kills. You decide!

A sample from Book 9

 Traces in Forgive
  
 she felt its trace
sweet word's lace
 soft-spoken based
 deep inside- 
yes...she felt its trace
  
 sneaking up inside
like a burning desire
 
 give it
let it live

 as her sixth sense
stood the fence
  
 no, no, no
it's all a show
  
 face after face
 encountering
same's constant date
 lies, deception, betray
 nothing real
stands behind
words in say
  
 she bows her head
thinking of words said
  
 why this careless play
why not just go away
  
 then tears cry
not for self–
 as in her bed
she lies
 –but for souls
behind her tries
 –their coming day
 served on a self-made
imagined silver-lined tray
  
 karma
its coming arena
 choices in free-will
 consequences- 
already sealed
  
 in her bowed stance
she dances her dance
 –for them
solemn in pray
 nothing more to say
 for truth
all they had to do–
 say it
-her total
  
 I forgive you
  
 washing it
all away
  
 now...just in self
to give
 forgive
without them ever knowing
 –her never willing
in showing
 her forever hiding
her deepness
 in always loving
 as they live
in the continue of dying
  
 as she moves
forward in free
  
 even if she meets
the Lord first
  
 in her bowed stance
knowing truth
 they'll still be in fool
 drooling in thirst
seeking free
 without ever
having the joy of it
in see
  
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‘Spaces of Real’

That place where you are no longer hurting!

A sample from Book 7

 Spaces of Real
  
 where do you fit in
 when you're searching
for truth
 –all seems a flute
  
 when you're pushing– 
revealing all you do
 just to get through
  
 when you talk to God†
 –each day
 just getting by
 wondering
how
this day
you survived
  
 knowing
because of someone else
 tears you try
not to cry
  
 over anger
you become
a hardened manager
 wondering
what it is
 that's
lost inside of you
  
 yes, where do you fit in
 –this society of fake
 lost in its self-absorbed wake
  
 when men are weak
 constantly
searching
 something always better
they seek
  
 hanging you out to dry
 without reasons of why
  
 leaving you
constantly
searching
 for spaces of real
 where there's no reason
to conceal
 what's truly hiding
deep inside
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‘I’m But a Child’

Take It To God and Let the Child In You Breathe!

A sample from Book 7

 I'm But a Child
  
 would you believe in Him†
 if you had riches of gold
would you honor Him†
 if you weren't in the cold
  
 in your darkest days
 do you hold faith
  
 when no money's in hand
when deceived by man
 do you cry out to Him†
in a simple hymn
  
 when possessions
flood your gates
 when you have so much to take
 do you stop a moment
say wait
let me give some away
  
 do you welcome
the sinful in
 treat them
like a friend
or do you shun them
 thinking
you're better than them
  
 do you hide
what's deep inside
 swallowed by ego and pride
 not wanting the outside
see you cry
 or do you rise high
trusting in God†
 that He†
won't turn with a sigh
but see your I
 never asking you why
never you, He'll† deny
  
 are you strong enough
to admit
 I'm but a child
I've failed along the miles
 but God's† with me
all the while
  
 it takes strength
to admit defeat
 falling to His† feet
forgiveness...plead
  
 unconditional love
free will
  
 His† love is sealed
His† love is real
  
 He† forgives you
it's all up to you
with nothing
to others
to prove  
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