‘Laying It Down’ and ‘Tell Me, My Lord†’

‘…I am the gate; whoever enters through Me will be saved….The thief comes only in to steal and kill and destroy…’He is demon-possessed and raving mad. Why listen to Him?” (John 10:7-21)

 Laying It Down
 
these hands are up
accepting this love
come, gather round–
this joined-together vine
is all but enough
 
take this chalice
drink from the cup
–you brave little cub
this journey...not a strut
it's a slow walking
in rub
 
go on, take it...drink up
but be warned little bug
in will come...the judge
 
then they'll be the tug
some will come to bluff
–making the drink
a little tough
there'll be a bit
of obstruct
–some bumps and stuff
maybe a little more
in rough
 
you may have to shed
some blood
a time or two–
you'll be covered in mud
even some crud–
when you try to be a stud
–it's just a kick
in the butt
for being somewhat smug
 
don't worry...it's just Jesus† love
when things get too dicey–
He'll† unplug
give you a bit of a shrug
but not all-together...pluck
He'll† just help
through the hiccups
 
He's† patient...seeing
if you'll give up
watching you
with brotherly love
pushing you
to come out of thug
–understand the tug
 
go on, take it...drink up
–it's unconditional
and full of love
 
but there isn't any luck
and at times
you'll get stuck
in will come...floods
jitterbugs and fluff
you'll have to be
strong enough
decide differences–
that moonstruck stuff
and the real of love
 
no, it won't be easy–
so much will turn to muck
you may see handcuffs
even be awe-struck
by the wrong products
–just keep your head up
things will ease up
along the way
somewhat
 
it's your choice to drink up
the hard love
gets you through
the rough stuff–
when Jesus† wants
you healed enough

–once you get over the fluff
you'll see the true love
that didn't give up
on you...in a puff
‒that's the truth
of Jesus'† love
 

Note: The photograph taken November 9th is one of many. It is God’s energy. The orbs…changed into His footprint. You don’t have to believe me. It IS all the same. Maybe you should start paying attention instead of hanging on to hate and anger. God is sending you all of this because He loves you, not because He’s trying to trick you.

(December 29, 2019)—The ways of Jesus are simply amazing. He speaks to me when I’m troubled. I woke up around 2:30 a.m. after again laying down and saying, pretty much the hell with it all. I wrote about this man texting me. Horrible. I write about me being alone and how my family pretty much oused me out for their own sins. I write about how people don’t read these writings or even consider them to be true. I’m working on faith, except for the small signs I’m sent…like the text I received day before yesterday.

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‘The Heart of Love’

‘Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given….The one who can accept this should accept it.’…Mat. 19:10-12; Mark 10:10-12

 The Heart of Love
 
to give up the right
in affirm
paying a ransom
in servant
not letting our hearts burn
or even be concerned
–with any payment
to earn
 
it is taking what is learned
live it in firm
over and over...churn
‒holding tight
in preserve
wanting‒
without coerce
without a need–
preach in some church
 
instead....
living it–
without a rehearse
watch it–
spill in the universe
seeking more and more
to read its verse
–without needed words
in splurge
 
it's in the appearance
of the return
credits earned
–leaving nothing
to burn
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‘Pondering of Heart’

Jesus Speaks. What He said then applies to NOW as well! You haven’t heard…still!

Note: The photograph that accompanies this work was taken November 11th. The Orb near the cloud formation is telling us what to watch for in the photograph. The avenging angel slowly makes its way across the sky. You can ignore or pay attention. God always gives us a choice. His promises are coming all the same…if you believe or not. When it happens, don’t ask, ‘What the fuck is going on?’ He’s already told you through me. You just refused to listen and prepare.

 Pondering of Heart
 
it's abundantly clear–
a treasure
from the house of asher
–a simple, loud gesture
giving, not taking–
in the wavering
of survivor
 
don't look behind–
in the rear
what's lost...became
of the wedding crashers
taking, taking
without thought–
of the whiner or the loser
 
from out of darkness–
comes light
from an impending doom–
to...there's still room
–stretching these arms
peace raging–
out of the storm
–for someone
sounded the horn

(December 5, 2019)―‘Pondering of Heart’, written on the 3rd, has taken me a while to think over. What Jesus has to say in the following Scripture is serious, and I usually write for God. Writing something for Jesus is a whole different emotion for me and I’ve been nervous, for He is my brother and my love for Him…always brings me to tears. Hard love. He had to dish it out as well and He’s showing me here that no matter how you put it, they won’t see if God doesn’t want them to see with their eyes. God’s biggest test is this: Can they see with their heart?

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‘Erase Anger’s Mark’

Forgiveness. It is not just about forgiving in general, it’s about all the little parts that go along with hurt…anger, resentfulness. It’s setting ego and pride aside. It’s not bowing down. It’s living up to God’s standards. It’s what truth is all about.

 Erase Anger's Mark
 
to fix the heart
erase...has to go–
anger's mark
–leaving not one trace
of remorse
 
so how to start
cleansing this heart
to forgive all debts
forgive being brought
to death
by another's empty head
 
completely put love
in every place
when their name
is but a trace–
on any person's tongue
–not one word, or thought
in any formed base
–can hate lace
 
how to remove
this force–
that keeps wanting
to have its course
 
how to convert it
to love
–remove
the resentment glove
–to completely
wipe anger away
 
I ask for this answer
–this tiny little favor
if I'm to be a teacher
–a hurt healer
please tell, my Lord†
my own heart–
how do I wipe it off–
those who broke it
those who never
said sorry
or gave reason for it–
–how do I cleanse it
so I can teach it
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‘Testing Will’

Testimony: One of God’s messengers. Saying YES to the Big Man Upstairs…no matter what! My 4-year journey for love, no matter the consequences!

 Testing Will
 
He† knows me deep within
He† knows I'd give in
then...feel the guilt of sin
 
He† held me
within this evil den
all along–
as I felt alone and abandoned
as I cried and cried
struggling, fighting
–evil's bid to win
 
four years in this brethren
a feel of insanity's hymn
negative thoughts...pounding
smothered in foreign emotions
evil aware of the reason
–knowing
the purpose of my season
 
sometimes
losing it without praying
lost in extreme's commotion
at me...came every explanation
learning my self
in its manipulation
 
evil tried to win
it tried everything
digging its teeth within
 
my angels were fighting
holding me in their wings
'til I was in delivering
–my will weakening...strengthening
a day-to-day variation
–wanting it all to end
 
this sixth sense
gave its warning
the stay kept on coming
along with each
secretive manifestation
in hiding
as anxiety and panic
kept attacking
 
my self-esteem
furiously stripping
burying me in ignoring
playing in my sexuality–
what was left
of its intention
through emotional baiting
fight's annihilation
this dizzying world
kept me sinking
'til my hands
living in jittering
my eyes...blurring, drying
my hair in constant falling
my weight in agonizing gaining
my chest in heavy palpitations
my body lost
in fatigue's aggravation
my mind fighting negative
horrid inventions
my mouth became
acid's salutation
from yelling, screaming
foul annotations
to a vicious appeal
in chanting
 
I held on tight
to the calling
knowing...soon...it was ending
pleading and begging
praying and sleeping
dreaming and imagining
–holding on to
the coming glorification
 
packing and moving
God's† quick verification
to do it
even through questioning, doubting
–it all wasn't fabrication
or some childish exaggeration
but a purposeful delivering intention
–a message coming through....
fighting evil's blocking mechanism
for a soul in saving
me: a favor in returning
as God's† hardened instrumentation
 
I took it in breaking
codependency's formulation
–holding on tight
to God's† coming verification
all...
leading to enlightening, awakening
a coming out
spiritual connection
 
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