‘The Hanging’

When You’re Caught In Silent Abuse

A sample from Book 1

 The Hanging
 
the heart thumps
a thunderous bolt
tightens and roars—
wrapping, squeezing
like a sailor’s rope
 
hunger escapes
while sleeplessness eludes
jolted and battered—
feeling the vapor
of a flowerless fool
 
shaking
with rupturing chills
cold and hot—
not quite understanding
this weathering thrill
 
voice over voice
cloud the mind
yes or no—
eyes turn cold
moisten
then go blind
 
searching for light
yearning to yell
craving an escape—
this pending doom
to a bottomless hell
 
beneath there’s bound
to be salvation
somewhere to run—
‘til then
there’s only damnation
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‘Silence of Me’

You Tend To Hang On. It’s Normal.

A sample from Book 5

 Silence of Me
 
I look at me
I hear me
wishing
I wouldn't be
hurting
I ruffled the sea
this romantic bee
twisting
words I see
wanting
to be free
saying
it's better for me
misrepresenting
what
I want to be
just you
I do see
putting
all thoughts
free
relating
what's
inside of me
hoping
you'd see
confusion's deed
all that I aim to be
all that I use to be
my wanting
to be free
inside of me
there's more to see
the outside sea
wanting
you along side of me
open and free
awakening
what used to be
 
look at me
hear me
all there is to be
 
a wall closed to me
burying me
deep
inside of me
silence of me
wishing
I wouldn't be
 
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‘Text Me’

Moving Through Anger with Bargaining!

A sample from Book 5

 Text Me
 
in this phone
I am a clone
away from home
easily...I roam
no longer alone
 
words I've thrown
cast a bone
string along
however long
I want you to belong
 
in this phone
I'm on loan
read my worded song
I'm wearing a thong
―hear me moan
I'll send a picture―
for your visual tone
 
with words I'm strong
―played like a trombone
I can turn you on
in my world
you'll be drawn
 
in this phone
nothing's wrong
it's my zone
imaginations grown
 
be careful―
if to me you're drawn
I'll take you
where you've not yet gone
for in this phone
I own
my imaginary throne
I'll make you moan
dance to my song―
your emotions
get too strong
I'll exit
and be gone
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‘Hold My Hand’

Men: Just Do It!

A sample from Book 5

 Hold My Hand
 
when I'm lost
― confused
wanting to give up
will you hold my hand
 
when I doubt
want a way out
will you stick around
 
when I'm angry
―scream
call you names
will you not place blame
 
when I cry
lost in sadness
will you change my mind
to live and not die
 
when I hate
my vision clouded
will you be my guide
tell me my life
is not a lie
 
when I want to run
leave all behind
draw a heavy line
will you walk beside me
―hold my hand
take my feet
from the sand
plant them
on solid ground
 
when I'm alone
lost in darkness
make you want to leave
will you forgive
help my eyes to see
everything
I want to be
 
when I'm here
cold...closed up inside
will you stay
give me space
help me see my way
 
when I want
to give up
will you stand by me
take my hand
help me be free
help me to see
what it takes
to be happy
 
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‘A Woman’s Strength’

You Deserve Appreciation and Love!

A sample from Book 5

  A Woman's Strength
 
did you think of me today
no call came my way
underneath my smile I sway
no words do I say
I thought of you all day
as I rushed through my filled plate
 
early I started to bake
not long the house was laced
with the smell of your favorite
chocolate cake
 
the kids were at play
a new toy
one did break
one became the prey
the other screamed hate
peace...I had to make
clearing the haze
putting smiles on their face
anger left no trace
but it was too late
the cake―
I had to throw away
 
ring phone ring
I did pray
hoping you'd call to say hey
 
then the dog did stray
I had to move in haste
apologies to convey
the neighbor's yard―
a garbage-strung maze
after an hour's pace
a cleaned yard
done in good faith
 
I reentered the house
noticed it was only eight
my day―
moving at a slow rate
still no word from my mate
 
breakfast I did make
then the taste of toothpaste
the cleaned dish plates
no time to wait
everyone dress
screamed hurrah
 
to the babysitters―
who monthly I pay
to take my place
a goodbye kiss
a last minute wave
off to work
my smile...fake
 
then I remember
I hadn't ate
my eight-hour day
drove its heavy weight
still no word from my mate
 
rush-hour traffic
a nerve-raking state
thus beginning the evening chase
babysitter, supper
no flirter's bait
comes my way
sent the children
off to bathe
finally you call
again...you're working late
a quiet evening to waste
long, restless night
again...I must face
until you're home
and I feel safe
 
did you think of me today
no call came my way
underneath my smile I sway
no words do I say
I thought of you all day
as I rushed through
my filled plate
 
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‘The Experience’

Your Anger Turns to Lust to Move You!

A sample from Book 5

 The Experience
 
I'm your past
I'm what
didn't last
I'm what
could
never last
 
I'm the passing blast
to move through
really fast
with the quickness
of a kisser's dash
 
I'm the wine glass
wearing a mask
making
my on-stop splash
 
I'm your past
leaving you
in a gasp
easily slipping
from your grasp
in your mind
thoughts are cast
in my heart
the debris
of a failed lover's task
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‘Anger’s Brethren’

Don’t Use the Children!

A sample from Book 5

 Anger's Brethren
 
its face is ugly
peeking through
little by little
building its soul
one small piece at a time
 
vulnerability
it patiently waits
then the attack
increasing the heartbeat
clouding
a once throughout plan
wilting the roses
rains replacing sunshines
beautiful language
turns to spiteful vengeance
over ruling logic
hardening
closing open hearts
 
its face is ugly
destroying all good
taking its time
taking all time
closing doors
'til love exist
no more
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‘Never Forget’

What Do You Stand For?

A sample from Book 1

 Never Forget
 
each day you get up—
never forget
who filled your cup
 
each day you begin work—
never forget
on your back
there's a shirt
 
each day
you create something new—
never forget
who gave you the clue
 
each day
you joyfully sing—
never forget
the past-learning thing
 
each day
you sit to draw—
never forget
you once was young and raw
 
each day
you start to paint—
never forget
those who can't
 
each day
you work your farm—
never forget
you have two arms
 
each day
you design a new dress—
never forget
those poor...in distress
 
each day
you write on your book—
never forget
the years of learning it took
 
each day
you write an article—
never forget
those who can't live humble
 
each day
you sit to learn—
never forget
those who lack concern
 
each day
you attend a school—
never forget
those controlled
by a dictator's rule
 
each day
you drive your car—
never forget
those who have to walk far
 
each day
you take a bath—
never forget
water...some do lack
 
each day
you sit to eat—
never forget
those who can't afford meat
 
each day
those you judge—
never forget
they don't ask for much
 
each day
you wedge your war—
never forget
you're watched by the Lord†
 
each day
for greed
you make policy—
never forget
where comes God's† glory
 
each day
you choose not to pray—
never forget
in the end
it's God's† say
 
each day
God†—
you don't thank—
never forget
how your day soon sinks
 
each day
you have a choice
it's your individual voice
that's heard
above the noise
 
whatever you say
no matter the day
for your wrongs
you'll eventually pay
 
never forget
when problems you can't solve
when accidents you're involved
when anger doesn't dissolve
 
never forget
when you're ridiculed
by your boss
your keys
you carelessly lost
government rendered fines'
heavy cost
 
never forget
when love leaves your house
when your income goes south
when criticism
comes from every mouth
 
it's your own choice
ignore the Lord†
your criticizing voice
not believing in His† truth
—playing your own card
your reasons for shedding blood
—your raging fighting flood
using His† name
for nothing but gain
 
never forget
God†...your Allah
is one and the same
you are His† children
equal in His Holy† vision
 
to not thank Him†
to ignore His† ten commandments
to think
you're better than Him†
to not believe in Him†
to condemn His Son†
—all that's within Him†
 
these accidents
these painful moments
that's happening to you
is just a clue
to what He† can do
 
you think I'm wrong
you're right
—your non-believing song
won't lead you
to any throne
here's a test for you
take a break from your cause
from your man-made laws
 
a month that's all—
each day
when you first awake
thank Him† right away
 
don't lie
don't steal
don't cheat

be nice
stand up for what's right

say thank you
say please

to each person you meet
 
pay attention
to those with limitations
those missing a limb
those blind
those left cripple
those without money
 
open a door
try to help
do more
 
for one solid month
then you'll see
how things change
how you start to feel
way down deep
there's nothing to believe
all good—
comes from He†
 
you just have to stop
slow down your clock
you don't need miracles
to understand
His† principles
 
love
peace
forgiveness
helping
 
is all He† wants
from you
to be true
to be honest—
His† simple menu
 
if these you do
He'll† be true
to you
His† love will shine
you'll see His Divine†
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‘Basic Need’

You Have the Need: So Fucking Roar!

A sample from Book 1.

 Basic Need
 
we hide our self
behind
walls we built
 
not being good enough
truly felt
being afraid
fear tightens our belt
 
past haunts‒
needing to prove oneself
strengthens
our woven quilt
submersed
in unforgiving guilt
 
worries
attack our health
negative thoughts
keeping away life's wealth
 
once you've knelt
stop hiding
beneath the buried shelf
 
the past
takes care of itself
no longer
feeling like an elf
 
pain
will suddenly melt
you'll be happy
with yourself
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‘Enjoy the Journey’

One Day At a Time. Don’t Give up!

A sample from Book 1

 Enjoy the Journey
 
struggling to achieve success
unwavering with foolishness
wanting to be the best
forgetting all the rest
unsettling restlessness
 
accepting nothing less
a tangled tireless
rigid, forming mess
without closing
in its materialness
 
turning the page
with  new zest
breathing stillness
leaving out the self―
induced test
 
feeling skin with
gentle caress
listening to the inner
openness
 
gaining comfort
from life’s scared nest
becoming not just a guest
to self’s empowering fest
 
no longer having to second guess
seeing His† awaking crest
 
no longer a pessimist
learning to be quiet to rest
to explore, think less
 
the journey has become
a simple justice
gaining self forgiveness
loosing material cravenness
the journey has become a
willingness
 
no longer a pest
more of an adventurous
a traveling voyage of smallness
 
one tiny step after the other
to forgiveness
one more creation
of vastness
that becomes real and timeless
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