Tag: therapy

‘Hype Me Up’

We Women Just Want to be Hyped Up!

A sample from Book 7

  Hype Me Up!
  
 take me out of myself
 ‒off this shelf
  
 teach me to laugh‒
 spread my cheeks
show my teeth
  
 help me burst through
 show me happy's view
 that's all
I'm asking of you
  
 open these doors
lift me off the floor
 give me off-the-wall reasons
 ‒smiling without ending seasons
  
 I just need a little help
 to be more than myself
  
 show me what life is like
 without all the hype
  
 give me a chance
to really know
 how it feels
to dance
  
 take me as I am
be my teacher
 not some
manipulative preacher
  
 let me be
your choice
 without a need
to calm my voice
  
 yes, take me out of myself
 ‒off this shelf
 put me back into life
reopen my eyes
  
 let me giggle
let me wiggle
  
 teach me to run
 show me
what it's like
 to again have fun
  
 be my guide
let me ask my whys
 take me out of this shy
  
 teach me to trust
 let me have my lust
 let me throw things, fuss
  
 teach me we are enough
 ‒hype me up
with unconditional love
  
 show me
even when I fall
 ‒through it all
 I'm still your number one
 my I am
is all I need to be
 ‒all you want to see
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‘Bringing Her Back’

She’s Inside There. Go Get Her!

A sample from Book 7

 Bringing Her Back
  
 she took a step off the curve
 her mind racing‒ 
which way to turn
  
 the wind blowing in her hair
 pulling her coat tight‒
 she wandered for a while
then just stood there
  
 frozen
listening
  
 people were talking
kites were flying
 cars were passing
behind her a soft rustle
 she turned
to someone jogging
 a squirrel sitting, staring
 in the distance‒ 
a dog barking
 then she felt it
 ‒no longer the need for dying
  
 she felt life‒ 
she deserved
 her heart beating
 there was so much more to learn
  
 she smiled
not a big smile
 no, not one just anyone could see
 it was an inside smile
 on her lips‒ 
the hint of a small curve
  
 she closed her eyes
 enclosed herself in her arms
 held her head back
 her feet began to move in a tiny circle
 I'm coming back
 the gentle voice in her head
she heard
  
 suddenly but gently
she stopped
opened her eyes
 there before her...a path
not knowing
 if it was the way she wanted to go
 or the way she needed to go
 she just began walking
 her smile noticeable to all
 she was now free
 ‒no longer a caged bird
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‘Codependent’

The Codependent: Make Yourself Happy First!

A sample from Book 6

 Codependent
  
 I've tried to help
 in ways
that didn't help
  
 I've said yes
then no
to my self
  
 I've avoided
hurting others
 only to hurt myself
  
 to trust my own feelings
 I've been afraid
  
 I've believed lies
 then betrayed-
I often felt
  
 I wanted to get even
punish others
 for putting me
on a shelf
  
 I often
became smothered
 in anger and hate
 -wanting to kill
not feeling safe
  
 I've fought
for others' rights
 when they didn't know
how the law swayed
 only to be left
alone
 like an abandoned stray
  
 I've often settled
for others' worth
 -left my own
to grow another day
  
 I became
the reaction
 to others' anger and hate
 instead of listening to self
 walking my own way
  
 I became
less of me
 for others
to be set free
  
 I've lost myself
to dependency
 on how others felt
 without seeing
my own need
 to be free
   to be just me
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‘Yelled Sarcasm’

5 Ways to Heal ‘Self’ from Abuse and Trauma

 Yelled Sarcasm
  
 speaking out of turn
 oh! how this heart burns
  
 this once gentle character
stripped
 each time a tone of voice
tips
  
 gone the plow
that once endured
 for this ache!
there is no cure
  
 once betrayed
bitterness lays
 honesty...only the heart craves
  
 that forever solid pace
yearned
 ‒left with only discern
  
 out the heart‒
emotions...flipped
 drops of dimes‒
where truth is clipped
  
 all smells like week-old manure
 ‒nothing left that's pure
  
 seconds, minutes, hours‒
turn to days
 as what was‒
gets lost in a bitter haze
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‘Kicking through Doors’

Is Someone’s Crime Taking Away What You Stand For?

A sample from Book 10

 Kicking through Doors
  
 fighting through nights
 hated words
blank looks
 cold tones-
it's a right
 like a sworn-in knight
 say it-
see what's in sight
  
 bleeding words of hosea
 a foreign arena
 -a returned agenda
 replayed cinema
 -one certain agenda:
  
 incorporation of rejection
 ignoring revelations
 already experienced
by nations
  
 historical indications‒
 God's† bold proclamations
 man's once-again revoltation
  
 keeping in the light
 ‒a constant fight
 suffering through blight
 experiencing God's† might
  
 turning it around
 ‒say something sound
 as in past stories found
 leaves truth-
the drowning clown
  
 like centuries before
 keep kicking through doors
 His† powers...the core
 that's what truth's for
 –leaving hatred
that embedded lore
 in the constance
of sore
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The Day of the Woman

How Narcissist Play Their Game

A sample from Book 9

(Written in 2016)—It’s the day of the Woman! This quote says it all right there. I write about abuse and the five stages of grief (the process of surviving through them by-way of my personal journey) and it’s ALL public. [It is in my books.] It would make sense that I’m a child of God. A stubborn one. My mama always said so, too. My daughter swears this, too. So, I am sweet. But being a survivor that I am, I’m also a raging warrior when I need to be. That’s what makes a strong woman strong.

I’ve stated that my writing was going to squash all them narcissist abusers out there. I wasn’t kidding. They can see their ways or not. Of course, none of them will because they believe they are perfect, they refuse to see how they treat people as wrong.

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