‘Basic Need’

You Have the Need: So Fucking Roar!

A sample from Book 1.

 Basic Need
 
we hide our self
behind
walls we built
 
not being good enough
truly felt
being afraid
fear tightens our belt
 
past haunts‒
needing to prove oneself
strengthens
our woven quilt
submersed
in unforgiving guilt
 
worries
attack our health
negative thoughts
keeping away life's wealth
 
once you've knelt
stop hiding
beneath the buried shelf
 
the past
takes care of itself
no longer
feeling like an elf
 
pain
will suddenly melt
you'll be happy
with yourself
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‘Enjoy the Journey’

One Day At a Time. Don’t Give up!

A sample from Book 1

 Enjoy the Journey
 
struggling to achieve success
unwavering with foolishness
wanting to be the best
forgetting all the rest
unsettling restlessness
 
accepting nothing less
a tangled tireless
rigid, forming mess
without closing
in its materialness
 
turning the page
with  new zest
breathing stillness
leaving out the self―
induced test
 
feeling skin with
gentle caress
listening to the inner
openness
 
gaining comfort
from life’s scared nest
becoming not just a guest
to self’s empowering fest
 
no longer having to second guess
seeing His† awaking crest
 
no longer a pessimist
learning to be quiet to rest
to explore, think less
 
the journey has become
a simple justice
gaining self forgiveness
loosing material cravenness
the journey has become a
willingness
 
no longer a pest
more of an adventurous
a traveling voyage of smallness
 
one tiny step after the other
to forgiveness
one more creation
of vastness
that becomes real and timeless
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‘Yelled Sarcasm’

5 Ways to Heal ‘Self’ from Abuse and Trauma

 Yelled Sarcasm
 
speaking out of turn
oh! how this heart burns
 
this once gentle character
stripped
each time a tone of voice
tips
 
gone the plow
that once endured
for this ache!
there is no cure
 
once betrayed
bitterness lays
honesty...only the heart craves
 
that forever solid pace
yearned
‒left with only discern
 
out the heart‒
emotions...flipped
drops of dimes‒
where truth is clipped
 
all smells like week-old manure
‒nothing left that's pure
 
seconds, minutes, hours‒
turn to days
as what was
gets lost in a bitter haze
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‘Ignorance of Spirit’

Would You Listen If Someone Tried To Help You?

 Ignorance of Spirit

our bodies are the temple
our hearts...filled with love
a mark placed from above
through the spilling‒
of an innocent man's blood

since that day
comes few miracles
in faith, we must see
when words are sent to believe
to take us out of deceive
words placed in hearts
way down deep
for only us to reach
for only one to receive

we set boundaries, principles
God's† words come in a nudge
giving us a rush
with a unwelcomed blush
‒something He† wants of us
something we can't‒
down toilets...flush
in dreams, in signs
comes the flood
'til we no longer‒
to the side...can shove
 
we become
a quiet little disciple
knowing what‒
inside...breathes
relaying messages to relieve
to tone down‒
the spiritual creed
‒silently waddling in scream
 
how will they believe
without something in see
 
any forced retrieve
will just not be!
...goes further the decree
faith...for some...so weak
matching the heart's message in lead‒
a solid force shown in see
 
disclosing the known‒
small strokes to brush
without any lust
‒crushing every bit of trust
 
a task so tough
the pull to run...give up
wanting to do away
with this stuff
‒too deep holds the grudge
 
all the pieces‒
just too much
too many things
running a muck
realizing the struggling pup‒
unbelief
buried in dirty mud
‒thoughts in heart
begins to be enough
 
down, down, down
into so much mush
 
if you don't help
erase the slush
 
then...comes in
the morning dove
the symbol of love
saying don't give up
‒messages from above
that you can't
aside...shove!
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‘The Depths of Me’

Whatever You Do: Don’t Quit!

A sample from Book 5

 The Depths of Me

it's been many years
since God† put me here
from very young
my ears open to hear
from the depths within
a push
a shove
a demand
His† gentle, silent command
I always knew
like so very few
it's not me
but what I do
that is my truth
I always knew
until I finish
this is my sentence
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write
My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
my heart's been broken
it's just a token
He† wants me to feel
all that's real
my pride's been crushed
but to Him†
there's no rush
I have to plow on
even if all that I love
selfishly moves on
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write
My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
He† wants me to see
life's darkest reality
here He† planted His† seed
so I must feed
amazingly enough
no matter how tough
or how many tears I cry
it's still this pen and I
with a continued faith
in all He† has to say
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
why have you forsaken me
He† cried from the cross
when I feel alone and lost
He† shows me
His† love runs deep
for, I too, cry out
scream anger and shout
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
for others
I wish no hurt
even when
they drag me in the dirt
here...there's no whip
nor blood to squirt
just silence and evil words
leaving me out in the cold
with no arms to hold
each moment I'm weak
wanting to cry and cry
-just fall asleep
He† makes me see
this is not about me
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds

 
He's† given me a gift
I can't ignore it
-it's not a selfish whim
I'm being true to Him†
I've been shown
I've always known
many will criticize
many will ignore
that I'm alive
even those who love me
will cease to be
will leave me
will deceive me
as the devil fights
tries to drown His† light
I must not bend
for the Lord† moves within
I must write 'til the end
 
write, write, write
My† child
through every second

through every mile
you can only stop for a while

but then smile
write, write, write

My† child
until you reach the clouds
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‘Kicking through Doors’

Is Someone’s Crime Taking Away What You Stand For?

A sample from Book 10

 Kicking through Doors
 
fighting through nights
hated words
blank looks
cold tones-
it's a right
like a sworn-in knight
say it-
see what's in sight
 
bleeding words of hosea
a foreign arena
-a returned agenda
replayed cinema
-one certain agenda:
 
incorporation of rejection
ignoring revelations
already experienced
by nations
 
historical indications‒
God's† bold proclamations
man's once-again revoltation
 
keeping in the light
‒a constant fight
suffering through blight
experiencing God's† might
 
turning it around
‒say something sound
as in past stories found
leaves truth-
the drowning clown
 
like centuries before
keep kicking through doors
His† powers...the core
that's what truth's for
–leaving hatred
that embedded lore
in the constance
of sore
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‘Attrition’

Ways Codependents React to Narcissists After a Breakup

A sample from Book 9

 Attrition
 
a stable life in good–
doing what you should
holding on tight–
what's under the hood
 
seasons change
all the same
knowing they would–
gripping firmly to strength
keeping sight
in positive's look
assuring self
you've done it right–
gave the love you could
 
then all stop–
a tied-up knot
the sudden chop
from what is
to the cold, calculated not
 
words thrown
you misunderstood
 
you...searching
for answers in known
looking back–
on grounds stood
phrases said–
bouncing in head
surely something mistook–
signs overlooked
 
you know what you felt
all the right moves dealt
–the magic read in clouds
stories in books
readings in prayer books
right there...underfoot
all the best
in adulthood
words clearly understood
 
but there...lacking input
missed lessons in hymn books
–deceptions little nook
misguided direction
landing
in betrayal's neighborhood
 
all the pieces
so well together...put
a bit in the odd
the back-there look
 
a moved life
in sudden maidenhood
no written guidebook
teachings a foot–
these misguided ways
in falsehood
 
stripping moments of good–
losing self
in fancy-driven gook
scenes of hollywood
masterminds mastering weakness–
perils of womanhood–
–sly little crooks
robbing more livelihood–
what was already shook
 
tighter goes the knots
yet another sudden stop–
that letting-down drop
forcing
the non-welcomed re-surfacing
of anger's top
that place–
you thought chopped
 
lessons learned in crop–
that sudden stop
strengthens the lot
of hurt's already
worn-out blot
 
out goes buddhahood–
peaceful mind
turns to soot
promises of a finally found
true
honesty in real's manhood
lost once again
in a dreamer
stuck in boyhood
 
all this defend
breaks self down–
losing the will it took
to again's stuck in pussyfoot
–for nothing more
than mere, stagnated driftwood–
too hard for firewood
too nimble-footed
too backwoods
to be anyone's
true knighthood
 
so you just dawn an old frock
cover all the clocks
mourn what's not
–lessons thrown to floors
then mopped
live a bit in shell-shock
 
then, again fight
return good
to its original spot
–add the lost
to false-love's overflowing
melting pot
–take a minute...sob
tie tighter the knot
listen to some hip-hop
suck on some lollipops
–try to forget
once more...robbed
trying to convince self
heartbreak
not your mascot
 
but hope steps on in
forcing self
back into believe–
somewhere, out there
a heart's coming
your world to rock
without ever again
the sudden stop
from what is
to what's not
love in flop
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‘Fight from Inside’

How Do You Want To Heal?

 Fight from Inside
 
all around
build a shield
allow inside
glory in heal
this magic of love...feel
–let it be
your strongest appeal
 
in the Christ†
let His† words build
hold steady
forbid evil to steal
all around
let love be real
 
devour it
like your last meal
on your knees...kneel
make it your biggest deal
all that bottled, stored away pain–
let it all
to the floor
spill
 
let Yeshuah† take the wheel
don't anymore
this pain
conceal
break loose
fill your heart with zeal
all the layers
back
peal
 
then...after you break through
all the fears
after all the tears
after all the fight
after all
what made you cry
through nights
–everything that put you
through the mill
release all that you feel
send it all to God†–
that final bill
 
then...begin a new life's reel
with only joy
consuming
your journey's field
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