Tag: depression

A sample from Book 5

 The Depths of Me

it's been many years
since God† put me here
 from very young
my ears open to hear
 from the depths within
a push
a shove
a demand
 His† gentle, silent command
 I always knew
like so very few
 it's not me
but what I do
 that is my truth
I always knew
 until I finish
this is my sentence
  
 write, write, write
My† child
 through every second
through every mile
 you can only stop for a while
but then smile
write, write, write
My† child
 until you reach the clouds
  
 my heart's been broken
it's just a token
 He† wants me to feel
all that's real
 my pride's been crushed
 but to Him†
there's no rush
I have to plow on
 even if all that I love
selfishly moves on
  
 write, write, write
My† child
 through every second
through every mile
 you can only stop for a while
but then smile
write, write, write
My† child
 until you reach the clouds
  
 He† wants me to see
life's darkest reality
 here He† planted His† seed
so I must feed
 amazingly enough
no matter how tough
 or how many tears I cry
it's still this pen and I
 with a continued faith
in all He† has to say
  
 write, write, write
My† child
 through every second
through every mile
 you can only stop for a while
but then smile
 write, write, write
My† child
 until you reach the clouds
  
 why have you forsaken me
He† cried from the cross
 when I feel alone and lost
 He† shows me
His† love runs deep
 for, I too, cry out
scream anger and shout
  
 write, write, write
My† child
 through every second
through every mile
 you can only stop for a while
but then smile
 write, write, write
My† child
 until you reach the clouds
  
 for others
I wish no hurt
 even when
they drag me in the dirt
 here...there's no whip
nor blood to squirt
 just silence and evil words
 leaving me out in the cold
with no arms to hold
 each moment I'm weak
 wanting to cry and cry
 -just fall asleep
 He† makes me see
this is not about me
  
 write, write, write
My† child
 through every second
through every mile
 you can only stop for a while
but then smile
 write, write, write
My† child
 until you reach the clouds
  
 He's† given me a gift
I can't ignore it
 -it's not a selfish whim
I'm being true to Him†
 I've been shown
I've always known
many will criticize
many will ignore
that I'm alive
 even those who love me
 will cease to be
will leave me
will deceive me
 as the devil fights
tries to drown His† light
 I must not bend
for the Lord† moves within
 I must write 'til the end
  
 write, write, write
My† child
 through every second
through every mile
 you can only stop for a while
but then smile
 write, write, write
My† child
 until you reach the clouds