Tag: Relationships

‘Salvation’s Need’

To Deny Others Is To Deny God!

 Salvation's Need
  
 test after test
I have failed
 my 360
to the cross...nailed
 You† brought people to me
 in their time of weak
 ‒salvation
I failed to help them seek
  
 instead, I buried them deep
 words from my mouth
did seep
 actions
I didn't allow to creep
 in self
I curled up in weep
  
 my time has come and sailed
 out of all of it
I tend to bail
 turning my back
not wanting to see
 how another's picture
on them...creeps
 I just give up and flee
  
 whatever awakens
this ignorance of me
 strip it
take it from me
 strengthen me
help me to see
 keep me from feeling sorry
lost in self pity
  
 Lord†, this part of me
 that lived unselfishly
 I lost
please return it to me
 without this lumpy throat
from way down deep
 without fears and anxiety
 help me open my mouth
speak
 in words of calm
humility, peace
without selfish
insecurities
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‘Floating in Air’

Stress-Free Zone Ahead!

A sample from Book 8

 Floating in Air
  
 I came around
to see change
 shortening the range‒
 just to see
all's the same
  
 so I float
in this air
here and there
 hoping for flair‒
 hearts open
gentle love's token
 but all's still broken
 ‒all's still forsaken
 eyes still closed
minds sealed‒
 that forever
round and round wheel
  
 so I'll reside here
just for a while
 give a little time
then off I'll fly
 forget
all this here try
 fully learning
no one can rearrange
 what's lost
in derange
 what refuses
to grow
 stay stuck
in naysayer's flow
  
 so here
I'll just float in air
 give a chance
a second
a third
 then off
I'll go
  
 hit the road
 seek places
where real love
flows
 without needing
chances to prove
 out right show‒ 
I won't just be there
 flowing freely in airs
desiring to share
 ‒easy will come
care
  
 yes, somewhere
out there
 lies a place
one face
overshadows
two-faced
 where real
the only deal
 ‒truth
over comes fool
this place
 I'll feel the overwhelming
need
to drool
  
 there‒ 
I'll come down
 stand on solid ground
 without a need
to just float in air
 for then
I'll truly feel a need
 to open up‒ 
for something
 care
feel life's breath
in share
 really be there
in that place
    somewhere
Continue reading “‘Floating in Air’”

‘Quiets in Storms’

You Be You. Let Me Be Me!

A sample from Book 8

  Quiets in Storms
  
 open thoughts
living only once
 one...one long moment
in count
 which way
which way
to bounce
 choices to pound
determines ways bound
  
 silence the rush‒
 eyes in storms
see alarms‒
 which hat worn
determines coming forms
  
 stay in hate's way
or let go
just flow
 talk...talk a lot
let life know
  
 trust in God†
 or in silence
build knots‒
 life in compliance
  
 open thoughts
 one life
one...only one
 given chance to bounce
  
 live in it
 or from coveted walls
let it stall
 see it
without ever
actually
 knowing it
at all
Continue reading “‘Quiets in Storms’”

‘Use It To Be It’

What ‘Not’ To Do When It Comes To Your Past!

A sample from Book 8

 Use It To Be It
  
 it happened‒ 
look back there
 once, twice, thrice
 ‒don’t stay there
  
 turn that wayward stare
 towards something rare
  
 turn that experience
into deliverance
  
 he may have gotten you
clouded your view‒
 that hidden abuse
that traditional muse
  
 demanding traits of you
 change your clothes
 ‒that too
so subtle, so quiet
  
 you went along
 after all‒ 
you had a home
 someone
to call your own
  
 time ticks
‘til matters click
 change comes quick
  
 only for you‒
  
 he’s his own game
inside...the same
 hiding from you
 ‘til open...wide
clear becomes the view
  
 you fell hard
 that knife
beyond sharp
  
 but here you are
 wearing
a survivor’s star
 wondering‒ 
lies where
your somewhere
  
 from back there
turn that clouded stare
 ‒things begin to clear  

 don’t put that past
totally in the rear
  
 take it‒ 
use it with class
 bettering you
pave an avenue
  
 ‒there’s no excuse
 only you
had the view
  
 share it‒
 help others
overcome it, too
  
 that place
out there
 elevates
what he tried to kill
  
 now
you’re headed somewhere
 while
he’s stuck back there
  
 there’s nothing to it‒
 it’s just fair
  
 his childish control
 becomes
   your gold
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‘Keynotes of Woman’

Men: Satisfy Your Woman!

A sample from Book 8

 Keynotes of Woman
  
 woman remains undefined
her complete design
 ‒never a crossing line
 she's God's† greatest mystery
 she'll never give
totally clarity
 ‒it's the journey of he
 enjoy this road of discovery
  
 here's one simple note
you should know
 ‒keeps her from go
 pay attention
this one simple lesson
 keeps you
out of option
  
 a woman
puts a man
in complete
 only‒ 
when she's wrapped up
 tight and neat
  
 a little explaining‒
 those stuck
in lame
  
 ‒heads up
no time for sleeping
 or you'll miss
keys to keeping
  
 woman summits
 ‒man
everything he'll get
 only when
he knows
the right tricks
  
 he can leave
abandon, lie, cheat
 blame her
attempt
 ‒destroy her complete
 but there's something
he...just doesn't get
  
 in every case‒ 
the same, the same
 he's the true blame
 ‒her wanting didn't remain
  
 he's the guide
making her open wide
 or inside
tightly hide
  
 she must see
all that's in him‒
 she must feel
continually free
 ‒totally complete
  
 when she feels
his every treat
 when she sees
his deal
 ‒his desires, strength...real
 trust builds‒ 
moving her to free will
 her heart‒ 
he steals
  
 her inner self
the most important reality
 gaining for he
simple stability
  
 when he
brings her to melt‒
 that place
she loses herself
 all her desires
she's ready to face
 ‒her inner fire
opens
begins floating
 losing herself
in feelings of ease
  
 when she's brought
to that place
 over and over
 ‒without any need
of race
 trying...faking
not one single trace
  
 when her body's needs
 left
in complete's please
 the rest of her‒ 
follows
in receive
  
 all makes her whole
complete's package
 without findings
of shortage
 ‒free
no feelings
lost in bondage
  
 then...only then
she moves him
to complete
 freely‒ 
wanting to please
 his every, single need
  
 no need to plead
for actions of he
 moved her to total's free
 ‒everything in she
gives‒
 leaving him
in the gift of pleased
  
 when he
slips into sleep
 fulfilling her needs‒ 
some sort of disease
 away‒ 
run...retreat
 she knows
as kisses flow
 her body grows cold
react fades
 lonely consumes
her days
 ‒her inside make
turns to fake
  
 woman holds no control
 ‒how her body rolls
  
 she desires feelings in gold
 (passion's bold)
  
 she loses to cold
only‒ 
when he folds
 forcing feelings‒ 
move on down the road
 her shutting down
felt
all around
 ‒her heart
moves in stealth
 to some place else
  
 warnings to heed
to that of he:
  
 keep her in free
 her sexuality‒ 
something to see
 nothing‒ 
she'll hide
 in he‒ 
open and wide
 she'll fly
bringing he
to high
Continue reading “‘Keynotes of Woman’”

‘Hype Me Up’

We Women Just Want to be Hyped Up!

A sample from Book 7

  Hype Me Up!
  
 take me out of myself
 ‒off this shelf
  
 teach me to laugh‒
 spread my cheeks
show my teeth
  
 help me burst through
 show me happy's view
 that's all
I'm asking of you
  
 open these doors
lift me off the floor
 give me off-the-wall reasons
 ‒smiling without ending seasons
  
 I just need a little help
 to be more than myself
  
 show me what life is like
 without all the hype
  
 give me a chance
to really know
 how it feels
to dance
  
 take me as I am
be my teacher
 not some
manipulative preacher
  
 let me be
your choice
 without a need
to calm my voice
  
 yes, take me out of myself
 ‒off this shelf
 put me back into life
reopen my eyes
  
 let me giggle
let me wiggle
  
 teach me to run
 show me
what it's like
 to again have fun
  
 be my guide
let me ask my whys
 take me out of this shy
  
 teach me to trust
 let me have my lust
 let me throw things, fuss
  
 teach me we are enough
 ‒hype me up
with unconditional love
  
 show me
even when I fall
 ‒through it all
 I'm still your number one
 my I am
is all I need to be
 ‒all you want to see
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‘A Letter to Pandora’

Say It: ‘I Am Woman. Hear Me Roar!’

A sample from Book 6

 A Letter to Pandora
  
 my dearest pandora:
you evil whore
 stop opening false doors
 I'm tired
of your illusive detours
 ‒your negative gore
  
 I'll admit
I fell for the allure
 the I love yous
the you're beautifuls
  
 I'll admit
 in my glass
I let others pour
  
 I gave up control
let others take it
 then gave them more
  
 their promising lure
came slow, gradual
  
 I believed in I'm yours
 I believed in giving
 ‒times four
  
 I swallowed hard
walked, paced floors
  
 I cried and cried
hid my raging sword
 as more and more
me...they ignored
 ‒never questioning
what for
  
 all this rage built
I learned to hoard
 keeping the peace
I constantly explored
 praying you'd close
 these selfish-hearted doors
  
 but I see
how easily
you get bored
 needing to keep
good hearts torn
 ‒racking up scores
on your evil board
  
 enough!
I'm tired of being scorned
 you're just
an evil whore
  
 my rage is building wings
 ‒jamming closed
your controlling doors
  
 hear me roar!
 I'm not a board
to be walked on
 or drilled
with material nails
 ‒your false lure
  
 I'm a woman
an unyielding commodore
 high‒ 
I will soar
 above all
your negative gore
  
 look up
you wretched whore
 I am woman
   hear me roar!
Continue reading “‘A Letter to Pandora’”

‘Codependent’

The Codependent: Make Yourself Happy First!

A sample from Book 6

 Codependent
  
 I've tried to help
 in ways
that didn't help
  
 I've said yes
then no
to my self
  
 I've avoided
hurting others
 only to hurt myself
  
 to trust my own feelings
 I've been afraid
  
 I've believed lies
 then betrayed-
I often felt
  
 I wanted to get even
punish others
 for putting me
on a shelf
  
 I often
became smothered
 in anger and hate
 -wanting to kill
not feeling safe
  
 I've fought
for others' rights
 when they didn't know
how the law swayed
 only to be left
alone
 like an abandoned stray
  
 I've often settled
for others' worth
 -left my own
to grow another day
  
 I became
the reaction
 to others' anger and hate
 instead of listening to self
 walking my own way
  
 I became
less of me
 for others
to be set free
  
 I've lost myself
to dependency
 on how others felt
 without seeing
my own need
 to be free
   to be just me
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‘Stepping into the Fear’

Forget the Fear. Concentrate On What You Want!

A sample from Book 6

 Stepping into the Fear
  
 what you are is what you think
 ―an old worn out thing
 but living half your life
you come to see
 how truly right
these words ring
  
 any day-dreaming thought
 even silently in the dark
 ―closed secret of the heart
 given enough time
begins to shape its part
  
 if the pictures seep in your head
 while laying in bed
 something you dread
or just want to unwed
 ―be careful
your repeated secret byline
 given enough time
 will come to you
will come true
  
 it takes years
to make the picture clear
 bits and pieces― 
many scenarios pass through
 your reality won't mock it
 your actions won't show it
 but in the universe
you did throw it
  ―over and over
believing it just fantasy
 only your mind can see
 nothing close to your reality
 what does it hurt
losing yourself to its scenes
  
 just a day-dreaming thought
 something imagined in the dark
 ―silently in your heart
 where no one has to be fought
 something you think
not really sought
 given enough time
begins to shape its part
  
 with enough passing days
 with enough nights to fade
 the fantasy slowly builds
 secret thoughts turn real
  
 the universe enjoys enough time
 fantasy to reality begins to align
 instead of in your head
 ―hidden secrets fed
soon to become
a life led
  
 deep inside
you try to deny
 your eyes continuously cry
 this can't be right
 you start a war
 ―feverously fight
 an outward dreaded fear
 ―at first unclear
 the day-dreaming thoughts stop
 as hands move on a clock
tic-toc, tic-toc
 all your eye-seeing reality
 becomes your secret fantasy
 not exactly the way you saw
 ―the same is the result
  
 wiping away the tears
 now, it's all perfectly clear
 what you wanted the most
 ―the secret you didn't boast
 was the one thing
you truly feared
 the fantasy
that only the universe
could hear
  
 so it changed your course
 ―it may feel forced
 you yell, scream, cry
over and over asking why
 repeat, repeat, repeat
'til you're hoarse
  
  it leaves you no choice
 but to step into your fear
 ―see your secret thoughts
 as the true reality
of your heart  
Continue reading “‘Stepping into the Fear’”

‘Twenty-Year Itch’

Trust Me: It’s Not Your Fault!

A sample from Book 6

 Twenty-Year Itch
  
 there's a glitch
 in this marriage-is-forever niche
 no one says it
 when selling their pitch
 they just say―
marriage is a gift
 no more ifs
no more endless cliffs
 but it's all a myth
for there's a ditch
 from which
comes the switch
 where love drifts
lies are rich
 truths are a bitch
change is swift
  
 heed this warnings' monolith
 the twenty-year itch
 comes from this sudden twitch
 egotistical snitch
 a labyrinth
a deceptive clinch
 leaving you adrift
lost to miff
 without even one
   understanding flinch
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