Tag: mentalhealth

‘Strangled Times’ (Pacific Ocean Visions Continue)

A rapture is not when bodies mysteriously leave the earth as the false preachers have you believe. A rapture is when a large number of SOULS leave the earth. 

 Strangled Times 
  
 a plateau has hit
 sending all into
 comfort's well-endowed sit
 a place in fit
 where no banging of fists
 lives
 just the comfort of it
  
 where money-fires are it
 where ego-seekers sip
 where pride gets its grip
  
 it's an evened-out trip
 one that'll soon
 take its dip
 ‒an allowed-incoming flip
  
 it's the plan of it
 the way of it
 the confusion of it
 a prepared dip
 for the coming
 man-driven apocalypse
 not zombies from death's grip
 as man sees it
 but death
 as in the pit of it
  
 they are zombies‒
 the walking dead
 an emptiness of spirit
 destroying
 all the good
 of it
  
 rape and pillage
 leaving ugly‒
 in the wake of it
  
 God's† hand spewing it
 for His† anger of it
  
 you won't escape‒
 His† wrathing fit
 He† asked for the praying
 of it
 you laughed at it
 pledging your idolization
 to it
 so He's† done with it
 He's† hardened
 in His† spirit
  
 it will take generations
 one, two or three
 for the complete of it
  
 then He† will hide in it
 man will have to sift
 through it
 without…out loud
 questioning it
  
 unveiling
 a deep-hidden secret
 in order
 to save it
  

(March 12, 2021)―I tuned in to Amazon’s Music for the awards and what songs had won. Sad. The words in some of those songs, messages…telling us all where we are headed. I know where we are headed. On August 25, 2019, I will remind you over and over, God said, ‘The Button’s Been Pushed.’ There is no…NO…turning back. Everything He has shown me in the visions, the photographs, and the writings will happen. The visions: the first parts have happened. You just don’t know God in order to understand what He sends. It’s time to learn.

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‘On the Ledge’

The Lion’s Den. What is it? It is a symbol as everything that God does in the Bible, before, during and after Jesus’ life. The Lion’s Den…God will bring us to strife to test us but if we trust in Him, He will bring us out. 

On the Ledge
 
Lord†, I'm standing here
Your† voice to hear
I'm doing this‒
so please control this fear
not of people or anything
of this world
but being alone, losing time
missing those of my own
for doing this work‒
I have nothing to give them
‒not even a home
 
my heavenly Father†
I know what You† said
You're† with me
and for me to not be afraid
I'm trusting
each and every day
 
and You† know what I'll say
anyway
going way deep inside here
looking at my deepest fears:
 
it's argument, strife
having to stand up...fight
 
it's pushing through
giving hard love
and trying to not be the fool
but knowing You†
and what You† need
us to do
 
it's having to break a heart
but keeping from
tearing it apart
so each piece can sort
‒healing can pullout
the deepest darts
 
it's being yelled at, cussed at
cursed out by someone I love
but not giving up
taking strength from above
‒using that as my glove
instead of pushes and shoves
 
it's saying truth
going against all traditions
pulling out secret formations
using every known Jesus† tool
to help heal and sooth
even if the one needing healing
is horrible and cruel
lost in the addiction
of traditions
that were never true
 
Lord†, these are my fears
these cause all my tears
 
and even through
these I fear
I'll get pass the tears
and even if I'm made
to feel queer
I'll do them anyway
‒help pave the way
their souls
not to be sheered
but instead cheered
as they enter
Your† heavenly gates
 
‒that is worth all the tape
all the anger and hate
all the moments in fake
 
that walk
that gate
 
changing a fate
living Jesus'† way
so they‒
the unhealed
are not late
for that perfect date

(August 19, 2020)―I was led to Daniel in the Lion’s Den after I wrote this. Amazing! If we go through hard and trust in the Lord, He will rescue us unharmed. I covered the story of Daniel in the Lion’s Den in Disbursement of Truth and The Lion’s Den.

The Lion’s Den. What is it? It is a symbol as everything that God does in the Bible, before, during and after Jesus’ life. The Lion’s Den…God will bring us to strife to test us but if we trust in Him, He will bring us out. There’s so many ways that God will do this and we just have to be prepared for them because they are going to come if we want them or not. This isn’t our show, this belongs to God and He will test you to see what you are made of.

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‘A Desired Kingship’ and ‘Looking for Guidance’

God knows better. He knows what our request will bring us, but His love overpowers this and He gives in, gives us what we ask for. We have to learn the lessons on our own because we won’t listen to logic.

A Desired Kingship
 
from the time of saul
the chosen desired
to call
a man...a human
king
 
they already had one
‒since time begun
above Him†
they needed none
 
but they begged
so He† give it to them‒
what their hearts desired
‒setting His† own heart
on fire
 
their faith declared
then was blared
things seeps out of air
‒roles became out of heirs
trickery...this is where
humans began‒
living on dares
 
at kings‒
they needed to stare
‒the unseen
they couldn't even compare
to understand‒
was rare
 
slowly
went away the care
 
God† knew‒
the One† of great value
miracles and all
a demand from hearts‒
a leader other than He†
a labeling of king
‒truly not knowing
the one true King†
 
it was a thought
coming from hearts
words under tongue
encircling
that which to be hung
 
the spirit in the flesh‒
many couldn't even guess
some called Him† a guest
others‒
in a simple prophet's attire‒
He† would rest
 
it was in the few
that got history's view
 
they recognized the value‒
what He† was born
to do
He† saw right through
then He† said it
He† never denied it
for 'it' was His† purpose
 
those of God†‒
knew the truth
knew His† true value
not of king
‒the Son† of a King†
the prince
the highest of priests
the judge of human life
as the head‒
out of sight
 
the brother of the sinful
the way of the kingdom
the sacrificial lamb
who came
to light the eternal lamp
to the kingdom
of
the true King†

(August 5, 2020)—

Kingship Avoided—[Mark] Immediately Jesus made His disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of Him to Bethsaida, while He dismissed the crowd. [John] Jesus, knowing that they intended to come and make Him king by force, withdrew again to a mountain by Himself.—Matthew 14:22,23a; Mark 6:45,46; John 6:15-17a

In prayer sessions, sometimes I’m overwhelmed with this emotion that is really hard to explain. It’s joy. It’s sadness. And both those mixed up with something more. Then I hear, ‘You love My Son.’ It isn’t a question. It’s more of an acknowledgement of my heart. I always say, ‘Yes.’ Then He says, ‘As it should be.’

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‘The Puzzle’s End’

When God wants you, He will shake your world up! And He will keep shaking you until you get the memo, ‘Hey dude, I’m calling you, answer the phone!’ It steadily rings until you DO pick it up!

  The Puzzle's End
  
 so young
 so in between
 –living and running
 fast-paced scenes
  
 knowing this
 knowing that
 putting it all together
 in fact
 not knowing
 it's all a trap
 –in will come
 the collapse
 in physical or in mind–
 the hands will clap
 they'll stand a little
 for that
 –then you'll see
 only their backs
 obvious or not
 it'll happen...count of that
  
 you'll question
 all in your habitat–
 where you once felt
 the autocrat
 –sometimes the bureaucrat
 –even the true diplomat
 whatever format
 –your knowledge–
 the smart-ass cat
 was all that
  
 then you fell to rat
 on the ground...splat
 or against a wall...splash
  
 all you knew crashed
 leaving you lost
 in a unquestionable gasp
  
 it's when you see the vast
 –after that sudden ask
 –like it was a forced task
 but it happened so fast
 yet so slow in contrast
  
 it's when you recognize
 this upper-class act
 this thing beyond
 just a simple glass
 it seems‒
 a I-don't-want-to-let-go mask
 but it's not at all...a mask
 it's an all-around broadcast
 –you know, but you don't
 you think you're in trespass
 but you're not an outcast
 so how can it be that
 ‒it's a different hourglass
 catching you in pizzazz 
  
 it's when you understand
 the acrobat
 simply doesn't swing
 but glides with hands clasped
 around their back
  
 it's knowing your mind
 was kidnapped
 but now it's back
 –you no longer live
 in a man-driven syntax
 no need for a polygraph
  
 you now hear the phonograph
 although...it's not a phonograph
 you just know the path
 like knowing truth about this
 and that
 like spacecrafts, even witchcraft
 it's now above all that
  
 it's knowing–
 you can know that
 then not know that
 it's knowing–
 you can see that
 or not see that
 it's knowing–
 you can hear that
 or not hear that
  
 it's just depends on 
 where you're at
 –your journey's path
  
 it's understanding–
 not being mad
 accepting–
 knowing who can change
 all that
 ‒with a wind's simple laugh
  
 that's when you've crossed
 the graph
 from ignorance in testing
 to knowledge in wisdom
  
 there's a path
 –you will enact
 you will react–
 adhere to the telegraph:
  
 stay on the raft
 however hard the path
 it won't last
 if you fall off–
 get back on the raft
 it will pass
 deal with the riffraff
 –the wiretap
 question...ask
 it will all pass
 don't get off the raft
 whatever sass–
 stay on the raft!

(February 24, 2020)—This was written on January 3 of this year, my 51st Birthday! I spent it alone. In fact, against my will, but I understand it now, I’m working on spending an entire year by myself! Something I’ve been wanting to do for a very long time. No more codependency! God is awesome! No more need for a man in my life. I don’t even need my family. Just me. And this awesome experience with the spiritual world. And birds! Twice a day, they come to the trees outside my apartment and hold meetings! They commence all at once and then they adjourn ALL at once! It’s really interesting and beautiful!

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‘Channel’

Don’t change your independent self because of another person.

 Channel
  
 a bird flies when its free
 it stagnates
in captivity
 its colors blossom
in variety
 fading in ambiguity
 ‒plucking them out
in atrocity
  
 in nature...the act in free‒
 all the same
in its facility
 a trapping technicality
 ‒being free has its complexity
  
 as a woman
in her diplomacy
 giving true
to her effeminacy
 when treated
with significancy
  
 when she's satisfied
in her sexuality
 she falls into compliancy
 even in another's complacency
 giving up her self-sufficiency
 even her style in flossy
 being, at first
blissful in buoyancy
  
 as it goes...comes the decadency
 becoming aware
of the deficiency
 –a broken down fallacy
 as she meets each exigency
  
 outward...comes her adamancy
 as gone goes her sexy
 –an inward building pudency
 her usual controlled diplomacy
 loses its bearing
to rampancy
  
 as goes the controlling austerity
 saving-money hostility
 ‒slowly caving
in her impetuosity
  
 attention...gone its notoriety
 even her newly shaped nudity
 once praised with delicacy
 gone...with looks
words in vulgarity
 stripping
all her sexy naughty
 –leaving vagueness
in commonality
  
 lack of interest
opens a familiarity
 once ignoring
so much secrecy
 once ignoring the mendacity
 pulling forward
all its perfidy
 as gone...all her sensuality
 understanding
its diverted generosity
 she becomes lost
in recalcitrancy
 –the precious kitty lost
to lunacy
  
 all for giving her free
 to submissive captivity
 for the awakening
of her sexuality!

(May 9, 2019)―It’s funny how life repeats itself when we don’t learn the lesson the first time around. The funny thing for me is that I wrote about this before. I guess it pays to write about it again. The woman and all of her charm and personality has a way of turning into the woman her man wants her to be. Hold on before you scream: That’s not true. I do have a very good point.

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‘What Comes Out’

Anger: How changing this one emotion can change your entire life!

 What Comes Out
  
 she weighed
the things she's said
 ‒those retaliating words
 she weighed
the things she's done
 thinking it all hard love
 but it was anger
 ‒acting out
over another's danger
  
 what makes you do
these things?
  
 she pondered the question
 the only answer: retaliation
 she bowed her head
in confession
 responding to those living
in secret
 putting her in the dark...deeper
  
 she weighed
her lost of control
 ‒all man things took their toll
 grabbing at her in hold
 her...letting it all
use her in bold
  
 anger's put her in the red
 shaped thoughts in head
 then actions without thought
 knowing the wrong
in every heart beat
 then came further heat
  
 she weighed
all these things
 knowing too late always rings
 seeking truth
sets off anger in sing
 it's her life
not just some fling
  
 she sighed just a bit
thinking these things
 anger's become a distraction
 at times
giving satisfaction
 ‒the evil whore's demolition
  
 she bowed her head
in greater confession
 this her greatest sin
 one...with‒ 
she no longer
wants to blend

 control‒ 
a fight she's determined
to win
 ‒using gratitude
from God's† den‒
 the only way to contend
 ‒be put in the light
from way deep within

(April 27, 2019)―There are 2 large garbage cans that came with the house I live in. When we first moved in, they were in the corner of the garage. The side where I park my car. My car door opens up to the wall side of the garage. I have boxes stacked in there, which I never unpacked also on the side where I park my car. About a month ago, we were told by the landlord that we had to clean up the backyard. After the winter, the pine needles and pine cones had added up. So, in order to make my job a little easier, I moved the garbage cans to the side of the house, inside the metal gate. Since, they were out of the way in the garage, I moved over some boxes, which made getting out of my car easier.

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‘Hidden Treasure’

Discovering the hidden treasure in yourself!

 Hidden Treasure
  
 I found it
in the mince of broken
 it was afraid and hidden
 an abundantly harvested token
 ‒over used and forsaken
  
 I took it in
without fear's notion
 ‒not even feeling a demotion
 I bathed
in its scented potion
 rolled around
in its storied creation
  
 I overlooked‒ 
its wicked formation
 for I saw‒ 
a different translation
 ‒one that needed
a believer's gratification
 one with a heart-filled formulation
  
 I listened
to its every beckon
 sometimes, in stages of drunken
  
 all around...deemed it poison
 something to be shackled‒ 
in a far-away prison
  
 I threw out‒ 
traditionalized opinions
 nothing stuck‒ 
rotten or forbidden
 its scent just heightened
 ‒nothing could be wrong
or mistaken
  
 I moved like lightening
 intentional burns‒ 
gone...forgotten
 ‒days passing slow, steadfast‒ 
good ridden!
 I drove it‒ 
to an endless vacation
 ‒whatever conviction
out...came my eviction
  
 I smiled as I saw its rising
 all my stops...fully opened
 pulling it out of hopeless‒
 with my inner-most motivation
 ‒a darkened star had risen!
  
 I fought everything
in grand petition
 every inside concentration‒
 I put aside
rose to the occasion
 ‒with the fierceness of driven
 this hidden treasure
overcoming every treason
 to become the lamination
of a new generation!
  
 stop!....
  
 reveal
came its different ideas written
 all avenues taken‒ 
off records...stricken
 –beating all those defeating‒ 
overcoming...petitions
 a losing validation!
  
 I lost to its mention
 ‒there...in its private station
 came to life‒ 
its own treasure hidden
 in all its careful motions‒
 belts and strings
forcefully tightened
  
 I craved to be enlightened
 –nothing valued...given
 anything to elevate my vision
 halted in moments of frighten
  
 I fought constant bent roads‒
 tried to straighten
tried to remember each lesson
 through all that glistened‒
 it had its own secrets woven
 ‒knowledge in listen
 mixing up pointless decisions
 taking all the forgivens
 icing them‒ 
in the forever of frozen
  
 yes, I found it
in the mince of broken
 it was afraid and hidden
 an abundantly harvested token
 ‒over used and forsaken
  
 but all the good of will‒ 
off...steadily shakened
 breathing‒ 
living a horrid token
 in anger's hidden conviction
 ‒all that's been stolen‒ 
on others
its constant reliving
  
 it found its way‒ 
in rebuilding
 using knowledge given
 slashing‒ 
all help's salutations
 keeping to itself‒ 
a stolen formulation
 ‒to avoid sharing‒ 
treasures hidden
 as I sit
in lost wanderings–
 moments
I took it
out of forsaken
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Commentaries: Matthew 13:44-46

[k. e. leger’s Note: This article and all that goes with it from biblehub.com is not originally written in the English language. It was translated and I will correct spelling and punctuation as in keeping with the meaning of their content. In some places, I had to let it be. I hope that you enjoy this piece anyway. This goes with my article title ‘Discovering the Hidden Treasure in Yourself’.]

Ellicott’s Commentary [Introduction]

The kingdom of heaven is like unto treasure hid in a field.—Probably no parable in the whole series came more home to the imagination of the disciples than this. Every village had its stories of men who had become suddenly rich by finding some hidden hoard that had been hastily concealed in time of war or tumult.

Then, as now, there were men who lived in the expectation of finding such treasures, and every traveler who was seen searching in the ruins of an ancient town was supposed to be hunting after them. As far back as the days of Solomon, such a search had become a parable for the eager pursuit of wisdom (Proverbs 2:4).

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The Case of the Buried Treasure

by Ray Stedman, Authentic Christianity

[k. e. leger Note: This article was written June 27, 1971. Please take note how this article, written 48 years ago, still holds true today. This really helps us to understand the struggle with Israel, and why the governments are acting the way they are. This goes with my article titled ‘Discovering the Hidden Treasure in Yourself.’]

In the great series of parables in Matthew 13 our Lord gave us, as He said, ‘The secrets of the kingdom of heaven.’ The kingdom of heaven is God’s work among men, God’s rule and authority in the midst of human affairs. In this series, Jesus is revealing the work of the kingdom as it is going on throughout the centuries of this present age since His first coming and before His return. We come to the fifth parable this morning, the parable of the buried treasure.

I don’t know what that may evoke in your mind. It always reminds me immediately of Robert Louis Stevenson’s Treasure Island, of Long John Silver, and doubloons and pieces-of-eight, peg-leg pirates, and all the exciting things usually associated with the idea of buried treasure. It is intriguing to realize that Scripture deals with this subject as well. It recognizes the allure and the mystery, which always gathers around the notion of hidden treasure. God has His buried treasures and He is speaking of them in this parable.

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‘Anger’s Infest’

Anger wants you steadfast! God wants you moving forward!

 Anger's Infest
  
 feel it beneath your skin
 evil's way of getting within
 actions in horror's den
 ‒ways of evil's perfect sin
  
 it'll trap you in cussing
 it'll condemn you in swearing
 pulling at you...probing
 wanting your reaction
 for it's only satisfaction
  
 it'll take all
of your triggering notions
 you...down...dragging
 as it smiles
in sadistic laughing
 craving your giving in
 your fight...it's welcoming
 celebrating
your mind's condemn
  
 anger...evil's infested gem
 words, actions
its consistency in playing
 wanting you
self to defend
 so it can celebrate
in its win
  
 feel it beneath your skin
 evil's way of getting within
 actions in horror's den
 ‒ways of evil's perfect sin
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