Your Anger Turns to Lust to Move You!
A sample from Book 5
The ExperienceContinue reading “‘The Experience’”
I'm your past
I'm what
didn't last
I'm what
could
never last
I'm the passing blast
to move through
really fast
with the quickness
of a kisser's dash
I'm the wine glass
wearing a mask
making
my on-stop splash
I'm your past
leaving you
in a gasp
easily slipping
from your grasp
in your mind
thoughts are cast
in my heart
the debris
of a failed lover's task
Don’t Use the Children!
A sample from Book 5
Anger's BrethrenContinue reading “‘Anger’s Brethren’”
its face is ugly
peeking through
little by little
building its soul
one small piece at a time
vulnerability
it patiently waits
then the attack
increasing the heartbeat
clouding
a once throughout plan
wilting the roses
rains replacing sunshines
beautiful language
turns to spiteful vengeance
over ruling logic
hardening
closing open hearts
its face is ugly
destroying all good
taking its time
taking all time
closing doors
'til love exist
no more
Is Someone’s Crime Taking Away What You Stand For?
A sample from Book 10
Kicking through DoorsContinue reading “‘Kicking through Doors’”
fighting through nights
hated words
blank looks
cold tones-
it's a right
like a sworn-in knight
say it-
see what's in sight
bleeding words of hosea
a foreign arena
-a returned agenda
replayed cinema
-one certain agenda:
incorporation of rejection
ignoring revelations
already experienced
by nations
historical indications‒
God's† bold proclamations
man's once-again revoltation
keeping in the light
‒a constant fight
suffering through blight
experiencing God's† might
turning it around
‒say something sound
as in past stories found
leaves truth-
the drowning clown
like centuries before
keep kicking through doors
His† powers...the core
that's what truth's for
–leaving hatred
that embedded lore
in the constance
of sore
Ways Codependents React to Narcissists After a Breakup
A sample from Book 9
AttritionContinue reading “‘Attrition’”
a stable life in good–
doing what you should
holding on tight–
what's under the hood
seasons change
all the same
knowing they would–
gripping firmly to strength
keeping sight
in positive's look
assuring self
you've done it right–
gave the love you could
then all stop–
a tied-up knot
the sudden chop
from what is
to the cold, calculated not
words thrown
you misunderstood
you...searching
for answers in known
looking back–
on grounds stood
phrases said–
bouncing in head
surely something mistook–
signs overlooked
you know what you felt
all the right moves dealt
–the magic read in clouds
stories in books
readings in prayer books
right there...underfoot
all the best
in adulthood
words clearly understood
but there...lacking input
missed lessons in hymn books
–deceptions little nook
misguided direction
landing
in betrayal's neighborhood
all the pieces
so well together...put
a bit in the odd–
the back-there look
a moved life
in sudden maidenhood
no written guidebook
teachings a foot–
these misguided ways
in falsehood
stripping moments of good–
losing self
in fancy-driven gook
scenes of hollywood
masterminds mastering weakness–
perils of womanhood–
–sly little crooks
robbing more livelihood–
what was already shook
tighter goes the knots
yet another sudden stop–
that letting-down drop
forcing
the non-welcomed re-surfacing
of anger's top
that place–
you thought chopped
lessons learned in crop–
that sudden stop
strengthens the lot
of hurt's already
worn-out blot
out goes buddhahood–
peaceful mind
turns to soot
promises of a finally found–
true
honesty in real's manhood
lost once again
in a dreamer
stuck in boyhood
all this defend
breaks self down–
losing the will it took
to again's stuck in pussyfoot
–for nothing more
than mere, stagnated driftwood–
too hard for firewood
too nimble-footed
too backwoods
to be anyone's
true knighthood
so you just dawn an old frock
cover all the clocks
mourn what's not
–lessons thrown to floors
then mopped
live a bit in shell-shock
then, again fight
return good
to its original spot
–add the lost
to false-love's overflowing
melting pot
–take a minute...sob
tie tighter the knot
listen to some hip-hop
suck on some lollipops
–try to forget
once more...robbed
trying to convince self–
heartbreak
not your mascot
but hope steps on in
forcing self
back into believe–
somewhere, out there
a heart's coming
your world to rock
without ever again
the sudden stop
from what is
to what's not–
love in flop
(March 17, 2019)―Reading. That’s what I’ve been doing. One author who caught my attention over a year ago through her videos and website is Shahida Arabi who has become an expert on the subject of narcissists and their many manipulative, abusive ways. I will write a lot more about her findings, including my personal experiences, when my website is up and running. For now, there are two important points that Arabi makes in her article titled ‘5 Powerful Ways Abusive Narcissists Manipulate You’ from her book titled Power.
The 5 powerful ways are of course:
Continue reading “Where Narcissists Get Their ‘Feel-Good’ Empowerment From?”…and Moving On To ‘Normal’
A sample from Book 12
That is the question that I had to end this book with. Going through the trials in life are hard. This year I had to face my mother’s death and the destruction of my three-year relationship, as well fight more health issues while being 1600 miles from all my family.
Codependency had still a hard grip on me, but the anxiety that I had fought through was just about gone. I would have to go through a forced intervention to figure out what the true medicine for codependency and all those negative thoughts were.
Continue reading “Breaking Your Codependency….”A sample from Book 9
Oh! Are you in for a treat! I began talking about codependency in Book 6. I didn’t see the horror in it until 2015…that need to make others happy began to affect me in the worse way. The following is part of the Introduction to Book 9 in My 12-Book series.
To heal…to completely heal from abuse, you have to deal with the codependent in you. It won’t be easy. From this book all the way to Book 12, I fought it. You can do it, too. Trust in the journey and get my books…I do have a different answer than most do.
Continue reading “Recognizing Codependency in Yourself!”A sample from Book 8
It’s a process. Sometimes a long one depending if abuse was in the mix. The follow is part of the Introduction to my 8th book in My 12-Book Series. It’s just the beginning of the acceptance stage. Depression still follows. Anger still follows you. You have a journey, but you can do it.
My journey took a twist by adding another relationship to the mix. This book is only the beginning to that. Oh! You just gotta love those who just think they don’t do any wrong. Life’s quite a ride!
“…This book is an exploration of self: Overcoming the anger, the hurt, seeing the damage and healing, understanding how God brings us to something in order to help us and not hinder us, to understand that God’s timing is not our own…and it doesn’t matter how we want to rush it, He’ll stop us in our tracks, slow us down in order for time to heal…[time to] work its magic.
Continue reading “Bringing Yourself from Hurt to Healing!”A sample from Book 7
All different shades! No one handles betrayal the same…or do we? We rage. We scream. We yell and cry. What happens after that? Depression. How you handle it is up to you. Many times…we don’t have a choice how that plays out. The following is from the Introduction of my 7th Book in My 12-Book Series.
“There are things you have to do to take care of yourself during this stage. You have to get out of it. I know showing you how I got through the initial shock of it, will help you make through alive!
Continue reading “This Is What Depression from Betrayal Looks Like”A sample from Book 6
You freaking bargain your way out of it! With a vengeance. Everyone will bargain differently. The following is from the Introduction of my 6th Book in My 12-Book Series. The Bargaining stage! In this book I will show you what the bargaining stage looks like. The fight is real! And you are not just up against your anger, but up against everything else around you!
Continue reading “This Is What Escaping Anger Looks Like: Bargaining!”
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